Twenty-Seven Thousand Aspiration-Plants, part 175

17401

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I am determined

To serve my Lord Supreme

Unconditionally

As long as I breathe. ```

17402

```

I do not want to live

Any more

Between my mind’s explanation

And my heart’s frustration.

I want to live

In my mind’s serenity-room

And my heart’s sincerity-room.

```

17403

```

Like the smiling Guest,

God,

Let my heart become

A smiling host. ```

17404

```

I never know

Where the face of success is.

I never know

Where the heart of progress is.

And yet I go on!

```

17405

```

Alas,

My mind knows not

What to say;

My heart knows not

What to do.

```

17406

```

At last I am enjoying

The sinking

Of my overloaded mind-ship.

```

17407

```

The mind

Does not want to know

That doubt

Is its secret enemy number one. ```

17408

```

Alas, why do I not see

That my mind’s thought-rooms

Are covered with desire-dust?

```

17409

```

Only a confidence-heart

Can take

A fruitful peace-journey.

```

17410

```

A self-giving thought

Is a passport

To a higher consciousness-bliss.

```

17411

```

Hard is it

To cure the mind’s

Unwillingness-spasm.

```

17412

```

Good-bye,

O my mind’s thought-room.

Welcome,

O my heart’s satisfaction-smile. ```

17413

```

O how beautiful

A hope-sea

And a promise-sky are!

```

17414

```

My heart-fragrance

Is my God-obedience.

My life-breath

Is my God-satisfaction. ```

17415

```

Only the heart’s

Soulfulness-smile

Can cure the mind’s

Impurity-disease. ```

17416

```

My Lord,

Do allow me to know

Your Opinions

Instead of giving me

Lavish options.

```

17417

```

What am I doing?

I am enjoying

My mind’s anxiety-retirement.

```

17418

```

You deny

God’s Compassion-Eye.

Therefore,

You will be forced to remain

A misfortune-carrier.

```

17419

```

Is there any human being

Who has never been

A deplorable victim

To fear, doubt and anxiety? ```

17420

```

A hurtful vital

And a doubtful mind

Are our life-destruction-tigers.

```

17421

```

My Lord Supreme,

Do daily repair

My aspiration-heart

And my dedication-life. ```

17422

```

My meditation-dawn

Protects and illumines

My entire day.

```

17423

```

O my mind,

Not even my worst enemy

Can torture me

Like you do. ```

17424

```

Imitation-aspiration

Is stupidity.

Imitation-dedication

Is futility. ```

17425

```

Do not remain glued

To your own opinion.

Others may have opinions

That can easily challenge

And defeat yours.

```

17426

```

Insecurity-stature

Is smaller than the smallest.

Insecurity-breath

Is weaker than the weakest. ```

17427

```

My soul is homesick

For Infinity’s Peace

And Immortality’s Love.

```

17428

```

Alas,

Why do I not learn

From failure-lessons?

Why do I continue

With my deplorable mistakes?

```

17429

```

Willingness-eyes

See the farthest.

Willingness-hearts

Feel the deepest.

Willingness-feet

Run the fastest. ```

17430

```

There can be no

Unconditional surrender-replacement.

No, never!

```

17431

```

Only God’s

Unconditional Compassion-Eye

Can pull me out of

This darkest ignorance-night-quagmire. ```

17432

```

O my stupid mind,

Build not

Expectation-pyramid.

You will suffer

Frustration-death.

```

17433

```

Where do I live?

I live

In the Compassion-neighbourhood

Of my Lord Beloved Supreme. ```

17434

```

A purity-heart

Is bound to radiate

Goodness-light

Everywhere. ```

17435

```

O my mind,

Remain not in the ancient ruins

Of your past deeds.

Wake up!

Go forward!

A bright dawn

Is awaiting your arrival.

```

17436

```

You can climb up

All life-towers.

There is no such thing

As impossibility-tower. ```

17437

```

My Compassion-Lord Supreme

Asks me every day

To write down my heart-experiences

To expedite my inner journey. ```

17438

```

A silence-mind

Lovingly puts all thoughts

To sleep.

```

17439

```

My mind’s conversation

With doubt

And my heart’s conversation

With faith

Will never end, never.

```

17440

```

Is there any human being

Who does not love

His own desire-fulfilment-story?

```

17441

```

Every morning

My Lord Supreme asks me

To make my heart’s faith-flames

More soulful and more powerful. ```

17442

```

When the clever mind

Of any human being

Asks you to do something,

You have reason to doubt. ```

17443

```

My mind calls it

Blind belief.

I call it

My heart’s

Wisdom-flooded faith.

```

17444

```

If you live only in your head,

Even God the Compassion

Does not think much of you.

```

17445

```

When your heart becomes

A very long-range prayer,

You certainly will be able

To please God in His own Way. ```

17446

```

God is here,

But where are you roaming

With your doubting mind,

Strangling vital

And fearful heart?

```

17447

```

A mind of silence

Is the Satisfaction-Smile

Of God’s own Heart.

```

17448

```

If he is truly divine,

Your flattery or criticism

Cannot reach his head —

No, not even his feet! ```

17449

```

My Lord, do make

My dedication-blossoms

Beautiful

And my aspiration-tree

Peaceful.

```

17450

```

Before, I was a believer

In God’s Satisfaction-Smile.

Now, I am a server

Of God’s Satisfaction-Smile. ```

17451

```

My heart-door is sleeplessly open

Only to those

Who love and serve God

Unconditionally. ```

17452

```

God’s creation unmistakably knows

That ruthless exploitation

Is the order of the day.

```

17453

```

His aspiration-heart

Wants to remain a stranger

To his doubt-indulgence-mind.

```

17454

```

As inspiration and aspiration

Have no limits,

Even so,

Life-transformation and God-satisfaction

Have no limits.

```

17455

```

My Lord tells me

That my heart’s

Humility-candle flame

Is priceless. ```

17456

```

What is doubt

If not mind-division

And truth-defiance?

```

17457

```

My Lord, do bless me

With the capacity to remember

My childhood sweetness-dreams.

```

17458

```

Alas,

Our suffering heart-life

Is forced to live

In our jungle-mind. ```

17459

```

Now that my heart’s

Faith-rose has blossomed,

No more do I have to see

My mind’s doubt-reality-thorns. ```

17460

```

No more am I

A stupid supporter

Of my mind’s revolution

Against my heart’s aspiration-life. ```

17461

```

Every day

God’s Compassion-Eye

Navigates my heart-journey.

```

17462

```

Aspiration and ingratitude

Are never to be found

Together.

```

17463

```

Be careful!

Do not allow

Any virtue of yours

To drown in ignorance-sea. ```

17464

```

Sail, sail

Your aspiration-boat!

Delight-destination

Is within your easy reach. ```

17465

```

The aspiration-heart

Is the promise-voice

Of the seeker’s life.

```

17466

```

My soul’s morning star

Feeds my aspiration-heart

Before I do anything.

```

17467

```

My soul’s silence-moments

Devour my mind’s

Ignorance-roar.

```

17468

```

Patience is undoubtedly

The first step

Towards perfection’s summit-height.

```

17469

```

If I cannot see God’s Face,

I do not mind.

But I do mind

If I do not or cannot

Sit at God’s Compassion-Feet.

```

17470

```

Can you not see

That God is asking you

To drink His Compassion-Delight

To your heart’s content? ```

17471

```

Still man’s same complaints:

God does not love me.

God does not want me.

God does not even think of me. ```

17472

```

Please, Lord,

Do save my poor heart

From becoming a withering hope.

```

17473

```

Each doubt

Secretly tries to stab

The foolish mind.

```

17474

```

Your eyes are closed to light.

Therefore,

Misery has become

Your Lord Supreme. ```

17475

```

O my mind,

Do not participate

In pleasure-parade.

Your suffering will be

Infinitely more destructive

Than you can ever imagine. ```

17476

```

A single faith-flame

Can illumine my mind’s

Darkness-doubt-room.

```

17477

```

My soulful silence

Is the smile

Of my heart-garden.

```

17478

```

My Lord Supreme,

If not now,

When will you make me

A perfect instrument of Yours? ```

17479

```

If you want to be

A perfect God-lover,

Then you cannot walk

On temptation-road. ```

17480

```

When I take a gratitude-step,

My Lord tells me

That my perfection-days

Are fast approaching. ```

17481

```

To be happy every day

I open

My heart-aspiration-door

And close

My mind-expectation-door.

```

17482

```

I have started smiling

Sincerely,

For I know my ignorance-days

Are numbered. ```

17483

```

I have shattered

My life’s uncertainties

With my willingness-power.

```

17484

```

O my doubting mind,

You rightly deserve

A poison-look of hatred

From me. ```

17485

```

God’s Compassion

Hires my heart.

Man’s frustration

Fires my life. ```

17486

```

Good-bye,

Expectation-hallucination!

Hello,

My prayer-heart! ```

17487

```

I cannot help

Laughing heartily

When ignorance-king and ignorance-queen

Unreservedly admire themselves. ```

17488

```

Only my soulful meditations

Can considerably reduce

My anxiety-days.

```

17489

```

Because of my unconditional surrender

To God’s Will,

My heart is hailing today

The divine birth

Of a supreme Vision.

```

17490

```

No more shall I remain

A slave

To my mind’s darkness-flooded

Doubts and fears! ```

17491

```

Alas, I do not know

How and why

The purity-heart should be exiled

Into slavery. ```

17492

```

Each truth-seeker and God-lover

Is the fulfilled promise

Of a new world-dream.

```

17493

```

Alas,

I do not know why

I have become a perfect slave

To my self-imposed tortures! ```

17494

```

Never undermine

The sincerity of your mind,

The purity of your heart

And the divinity of your soul.

Never!

```

17495

```

I am extremely grateful

To my heart

For helping me

So kindly and affectionately

To rise far above

My mind’s shameless pride. ```

17496

```

I came into the world

Not to destroy and bury,

But to transform and illumine

My ignorance-life. ```

17497

```

My Lord,

May each of my daily moments

Flourish

In my heart’s purity-love. ```

17498

```

Poor God!

In vain His Compassion-Heart

Tries to entertain

My dry mind. ```

17499

```

Before granting God-realisation,

God does not let the seeker

Leave any of his aspiration-lessons

Unlearnt. ```

17500

```

An unconditional inspiration-mind,

An unconditional aspiration-heart

And an unconditional dedication-life

Are God-cherishing treasures. ```

From:Sri Chinmoy,Twenty-Seven Thousand Aspiration-Plants, part 175, Agni Press, 1992
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