My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 1

11

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Today

My Lord Beloved Supreme

Is examining the full record

Of my gratitude-heart.

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APR 1. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 10 December 1999↩

22

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May my Master always find me

At the shrine

Of my heart-temple.

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APR 2. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 10 December 1999↩

33

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My Lord Supreme

Wants me to do

Something very special

For the love, joy, peace

And bliss-starved mankind.

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APR 3. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 10 December 1999↩

44

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A true seeker's heart-tree

Always and always offers

The sweetest gratitude-fruits.

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APR 4. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 10 December 1999↩

55

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At every moment

I must be fully awake

And not half-awake

In my aspiration-life.

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APR 5. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 10 December 1999↩

66

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My Lord Supreme

Is asking my heart-tears

To accompany Him

Along His own Eternity's Road.

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APR 6. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 10 December 1999↩

77

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My Lord Beloved Supreme

Wants me to deeply enjoy

The full harvest

Of His Satisfaction-Smiles.

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APR 7. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 10 December 1999↩

88

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Every day

My God-obedience-heart

Offers its devotion-gratitude

To God's Will.

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APR 8. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 11 December 1999↩

99

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My heart

Is an ever-increasing

God-Affection-experience-happiness.

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APR 9. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 11 December 1999↩

1010

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God tells me

To take my mind's impurity,

My heart's insecurity

And my life's futility

Very, very, very seriously.

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APR 10. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 11 December 1999↩

1111

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Alas,

It is always too late

When our disobedience

Takes God seriously.

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APR 11. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 11 December 1999↩

1212

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In my inner life,

God is God the Compassion-Eye

Far beyond the flights

Of my imagination.

In my outer life,

God is God the Forgiveness-Heart

Far beyond the flights

Of my imagination.

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APR 12. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 11 December 1999↩

1313

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The Hour of God

Accepts

No excuses.

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APR 13. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 11 December 1999↩

1414

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Who is my Lord Supreme?

My Lord Supreme is He

Whose Concern for me

Echoes and re-echoes

From sky to sky.

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APR 14. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 11 December 1999↩

1515

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Nobody could stand against me

When God's God-blossoming Moment

Began inside my heart.

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APR 15. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 11 December 1999↩

1616

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My Lord, I know, I know,

Your Tolerance

Of my disobedience-life

Has cost You dearly.

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APR 16. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 11 December 1999↩

1717

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My God-gratitude

Is my divinity's

Only source.

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APR 17. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 11 December 1999↩

1818

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My heart

Is a God-aspiration-choice.

My life

Is a God-manifestation-voice.

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APR 18. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 12 December 1999↩

1919

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May my Master's eye

Proudly occupy

Every space in my heart.

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APR 19. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 12 December 1999↩

2020

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I was my mind-dryness,

But now I am

My Lord's Compassion-Rain.

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APR 20. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 12 December 1999↩

2121

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I was born to smile

At God the Creator

And God the creation,

But alas,

My life's sadness-clouds

Are hanging in my heart-sky.

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APR 21. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 12 December 1999↩

2222

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My Lord,

All I have

Is ignorance-frown.

All I need

Is Your Compassion-Smile.

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APR 22. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 12 December 1999↩

2323

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Today my soul

Is smiling and dancing

Inside my heart-tears.

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APR 23. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 12 December 1999↩

2424

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Today God wants my heart

To be only one thing:

A roaring strength of cheerfulness.

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APR 24. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 12 December 1999↩

2525

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Today God wants my mind

To be only one thing:

An ever-climbing consciousness-altitude.

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APR 25. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 12 December 1999↩

2626

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I must not allow my days and nights

To sleep any more

Inside my idle eyes.

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APR 26. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 12 December 1999↩

2727

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I have come to learn

That there is no real God

For those who do not

Bend their knees

And extend their arms.

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APR 27. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 12 December 1999↩

2828

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God loves and values

My heart's God-needs

More than anything else.

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APR 28. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 13 December 1999↩

2929

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Unlike our faith in God,

God's Faith in His children

Remains unwavering.

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APR 29. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 12 December 1999↩

3030

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My heart, my vital and my body,

Stay away —

As far as possible —

From my mind's negativity.

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APR 30. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 12 December 1999↩

3131

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As today

Is in God's Hands,

Even so, tomorrow

Will be in God's Hands.

Therefore, we must not worry.

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APR 31. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 12 December 1999↩

3232

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My Lord tells me

That my sincerity-mind,

My purity-heart

And

My simplicity-life

Are bound to please God

In God's own Way.

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APR 32. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 12 December 1999↩

3333

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At every moment

I must blend into the dust

Of my Beloved Lord's Will.

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APR 33. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 12 December 1999↩

3434

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God's Grace

Is ever-present

And not an accident.

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APR 34. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 12 December 1999↩

3535

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May my life on earth

Be a multi-dimensional

God-service.

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APR 35. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 12 December 1999↩

3636

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What am I doing?

I am planting gratitude-plants

In my heart-garden.

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APR 36. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 12 December 1999↩

3737

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Alas,

How is it that I have not seen

That my life's ignorance-time

Has expired?

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APR 37. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 12 December 1999↩

3838

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My Lord Beloved Supreme,

I shall no more permit

Your Heart to bleed

For my abominable misconduct.

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APR 38. Sao Moritz, Brazil, 12 December 1999↩

39

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I shall not live

Between "can" and "shall".

I shall live only

Between "must" and "done". ```

40

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Do not recline,

Do not recline!

If you recline too much,

You are bound to decline

Too soon.

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41

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God does not hesitate

To welcome my heart.

Alas, I hesitate

To welcome God's Eye. ```

42

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My mind, be careful!

There is every possibility

That soon you will be excommunicated

From God's inner circle. ```

43

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Although it may not be a best-seller,

My heart is an open book

To both God and humanity.

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44

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God needs me

As an unconditional lover

And not

As an unsolicited adviser. ```

45

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A devotion-life

Is a divine

Miracle-performer.

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46

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May my mind see all human beings

As jewels

And my heart feel all human beings

As angels. ```

47

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God does not want me

To improve my past.

He wants me only

To build a perfect future. ```

48

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My God-surrender-heart

Is

My God-Paradise-life.

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4939

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My sweet Beloved Supreme,

Do give my heart the capacity

To love and adore

The golden dust of Your Feet

With every breath.

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APR 49. These prayers were given at Rio de Janeiro, Brazil, 15 December 1999.↩

50

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My Supreme,

Only You, only You, only You

I can and I want to claim

As my own, very own. ```

51

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My Supreme,

Please, please bring

My dead aspiration-heart

Back to life. ```

52

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Not God-speakers

But God-lovers

Are found in God's

Remembrance-Heart-List. ```

53

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My Lord has repeatedly told me

That there is no such thing

As a negligible mistake.

Each mistake can be fatal

In the spiritual life.

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54

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My Lord,

I must not fail You in any way,

Even for a single day.

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55

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There comes a time

When God remains absolutely silent

If He has to repeat to us

Certain soulful things

Again and again.

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56

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Our volcano-mind

And our tornado-vital

Can be silenced

Only by our Lord's

Compassion-flooded Eye.

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57

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Every day God is dying

To introduce our minds

To His Infinity's Peace.

But alas, He sadly fails. ```

58

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A true God-lover

Is

God's universal burden-carrier.

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59

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Each seeker

And his gratitude-heart-tears

Must live together.

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60

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O seeker, do not shelter

The heart of unreadiness

And

The breath of unwillingness. ```

61

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Love God the man,

Serve man the God.

Behold!

God the Real,

God the Universal

And

God the Transcendental

Is come. ```

6240

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If the God-surrender-summit-height

Frightens you,

Then God-realisation shall remain

A far cry.

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APR 62. These prayers were given at Rio de Janeiro, Brazil, 16 December 1999.↩

63

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I must bind my life to God's Feet

If I want my mind to escape

From the piercing

Anxiety-worry-arrows. ```

64

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The desiring mind opens its door

To the earthly amazements.

The aspiring heart opens its door

To the Heavenly enlightenments. ```

65

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My heart sleeplessly cries

For God's Face.

God's Heart endlessly weeps

For my embrace. ```

66

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God tells me that

My beauty is exquisite

When I kneel

In the temple of my heart

And worship Him.

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67

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Only a sleeplessly and breathlessly

God-hungry heart

Is God's fondest child.

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68

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My happiness-heart fully blossoms

Only inside

My God-gratitude-heartbeat-tears.

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69

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An unconditional God-lover

Lives in the sleepless ages

Of God's Satisfaction-Delight.

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7041

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A spiritual Master is

An all-illumining torch-gift

From the Father Heaven

To the Mother Earth.

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APR 70. These prayers were given at Rio de Janeiro, Brazil, 17 December 1999.↩

71

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The mind is chained

To a huge ignorance-bondage-rock.

Alas, the mind does not mind!

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72

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The day I do not love

My Lord Beloved Supreme only,

I live in my God-disobedience-inferno.

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73

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In every walk of life,

Enthusiasm is of supreme importance

To take a progress-step.

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74

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My Lord,

Please, please awaken my mind

From its darkest midnight sleep.

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75

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A God-surrender-life

Has to be always on time

For the fulfilment

Of God's express Will. ```

76

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God's choice warriors

Shake hands with impossibility

With a roaring laughter.

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77

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Every desire-man

Is eventually forced to dance

With frustration-tragedies.

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78

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My Master is my life-transforming

Dreamer, lover and doer

Inside my aspiration-heart.

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79

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Like blind beggars

We are discarding

God's Compassion-flooded

Blessing-Love-Concern-Peace-Bliss-Gifts. ```

8042

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Each obedience-thought

Adds joy

To our inner will-power.

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APR 80. These prayers were given at Rio de Janeiro, Brazil, 18 December 1999.↩

81

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Alas,

In man's unwillingness-mind

The entire world is fast asleep.

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82

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I cannot believe

That my tiny heart-cave

Is my Lord's real Satisfaction-Home.

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83

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Stop, my mind, stop!

Do not cast any more

Your dark

Doubt-suspicion-frustration-shadows

Upon my God-loving aspiration-heart.

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84

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Every day

As my gratitude-heart

Collects most devotedly

My Lord's Smiles,

Even so, my Lord's Pride-Heart

Collects most affectionately

My tears.

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85

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May my aspiration-heart-pilgrimage

Know no halt

Along Eternity's Road.

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86

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Mine is the heart

That constantly needs

Intense eagerness

To realise

My Absolute Lord Beloved Supreme.

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87

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My life's perfection-manifestation

Is not more of God

And less of me.

My life's perfection-manifestation

Is all in God, all with God

And all for God. ```

88

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I am, as usual,

My life's poor God-service.

God is, as usual,

His Heart's rich Reward. ```

89

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At long last

My heart is successful

In compelling my mind to surrender-

At long last! ```

9043

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God's Eye

Is unimaginably beautiful:

This is what I learn

From the tears of my heart.

The tears of my heart

Are extremely powerful:

This is what I learn

From God's Eye.

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APR 90. These prayers were given at Rio de Janeiro, Brazil, 19 December 1999.↩

91

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Those who serve God

Must never swerve

From spontaneity and intensity.

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92

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The inquisitive mind's powerful altar

Is science.

The pure heart's sure God-discovery

Is spirituality. ```

93

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The love divine says to me:

"My Lord is always in.

My Lord is always in.

He never goes out.

He never goes out."

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94

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My prayer is as deep

As my belief.

My meditation is as certain

As my Inner Captain:

God.

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95

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I call it my gratitude-heart.

God calls the same thing

His own Beatitude-Face.

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96

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My Lord Beloved Supreme

Answers only

His Heart-Home telephone calls.

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97

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I do not fight against

My doubting mind.

I beg my Beloved Lord Supreme

To deal with it.

He immediately does the needful.

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98

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My mind secretly measures

My heart-tears.

My Beloved Lord Supreme

Proudly treasures

My heart-tears.

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9944

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My Lord most compassionately

Blesses the human in me.

My Lord most affectionately

Cradles the divine in me.

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APR 99. These prayers were given at Rio de Janeiro, Brazil, 20 December 1999.↩

100

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With everything that I have

And I am,

I devotedly stay in the shade

Of God's Concern-Tree. ```

101

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God smiles and smiles and smiles

When I most powerfully bind Him

With my heart's devotion-cord.

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102

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I keep not even an iota

Of God-disobedience-thought

In my aspiration-heart.

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103

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A seeker without

The God-fulfilment-eagerness-

Heart-hunger

Is not a real seeker. ```

104

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I love dire challenges

In my inner life,

I love.

I love great triumphs

In my outer life,

I love. ```

105

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My Lord,

You have been living

All the time

Inside my tiny heart.

Can You not live

Before my two big eyes as well? ```

106

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With my heart's intensity

And immensity-devotion-hunger,

I avidly devour

My Lord's Sweetness-Smiles. ```

107

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Whenever I get an opportunity,

I look at my Lord's Feet

To awaken my mind

And enlighten my heart. ```

10845

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God's Heart blesses me and embraces me

In expected ways.

God's Eye blesses me and embraces me

In unexpected ways.

```

APR 108. These prayers were given at Rio de Janeiro, Brazil, 21 December 1999.↩

109

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There can be no excess

Of my heart's devotion

To my Lord's Will.

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110

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Only a sleeplessly

God-loving heart

Is indomitable and invincible.

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111

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The abysmal abyss we have visited.

Now we must climb up

God's Pinnacle-Height

And have there our permanent abode. ```

112

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Only the tears of my heart

Practise rush service

To God.

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113

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God fulfils my dreams

With the Beauty

Of His Eye

And the Fragrance

Of His Heart.

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114

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I fulfil God's Visions

With the light

Of my self-mastery

And the delight

Of my God-discovery.

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115

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Centuries ago

I started my pilgrimage

To God's Paradise-Feet.

I am sure at God's choice Hour

I shall succeed.

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116

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My happiness-heart

Never, never

Doubts God.

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Editor's note

Sri Chinmoy offered these morning prayers during his visit to Brazil and Paraguay in December 1999 and January 2000. Ten different groups recited the prayers turn by turn three times, then twice, then once.

From:Sri Chinmoy,My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 1, Agni Press, 2000
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