My jealousy is my madness-burden

1.

My jealousy
Is my madness-burden.
My jealousy
Is God's sadness-burden.

2.

Jealousy
Is an instant
Joy-killer.

3.

Sooner than at once,
Jealousy brings to the fore
Its hidden sword.

4.

Jealousy wants to unburden
Its miseries
Sleeplessly and breathlessly.

5.

Jealousy
Is an ever-rising fever
Of man's ignorance-mind
And vital.

6.

Jealousy
Is a fatal
Hatred-poison.

7.

Jealousy
Is at once
Ferocious and atrocious.

8.

Jealousy
Is at once
Rebellious and voracious.

9.

Jealousy happily
Plies its boat
Between the inner tragedies
And outer tragedies
Of its rivals.

10.

Jealousy
is a deep-rooted
Love-rejection-life.

11.

Jealousy
And supremacy
Are always fond
Of living together.

12.

Unlike ours,
Jealousy's breath
Lives in its
Destruction-cherished vital.

13.

Jealousy's phone
Rings and rings
Until it catches
The victim's ear.

14.

Jealousy can live
Without a mind,
Without a heart,
Without a soul,
Even without God.

15.

Human jealousy
And divine ecstasy
Are eternal strangers.

16.

Jealousy
Is a one-way
Destruction-road.

17.

Jealousy
Is an aggressive boxer,
A repulsive dancer,
A hopeless singer
And a useless storyteller.

18.

In the desire-race,
Jealousy
Is always first.

19.

Aspiration-plants
And dedication-leaves
Are ruthlessly destroyed
By the mad elephant:
Jealousy.

20.

Jealousy
Is humanity's
Dream-boat-bomber.

21.

Jealousy has
Frightening eyes.
Jealousy has
Grinding teeth.
Jealousy has
A cunning face.

22.

Jealousy's birth date
Everybody knows.
Jealousy's death date
Nobody knows,
For jealousy
Defies death.

23.

The seeker says to jealousy,
"Jealousy, where are you?"
Jealousy says to the seeker,
"O seeker, are you blind?
I am everywhere!
Especially in the mind
And in the vital
Of every desire."

24.

Jealousy comes from
The desire-life.
The desire-life comes from
The impurity-mind.
The impurity-mind comes from
The untouchability-night.

25.

The unsuccessful jealousy
Surrenders
To the unmovable lethargy.
The unmovable lethargy
Surrenders
To the hurtful
Self-destruction.

26.

Jealousy,
Before you entered
Into my life,
I was the world's
Richest prince.
Now that you are in me
And I am for you,
I have become
The poorest street-beggar.

27.

Jealousy,
Before you entered
Into my life,
I was the possessor of
Two blue-vast eyes.
Now that you are in me
And I am for you,
I have become the possessor
Of two inferno-volcano-eyes.

28.

Jealousy,
You are my mind's purity-stealer,
You are my heart's peace-intruder,
You are my life's divinity-invader.

29.

Jealousy,
You may not know,
You may not even
Want to know,
But God's Compassion-Eye
Is beckoning you
And God's Forgiveness-Heart
Is ready for you.

30.

Jealousy,
My God-searching mind knows
That you are malicious.
My God-aspiring heart feels
That you are treacherous.
My God-serving life knows and feels
That you are ferocious.

31.

O my jealousy,
Your barking mouth
And biting eyes
Are equally and immediately
Destructive.

32.

Jealousy,
You are my constant
Nightmare-mind.
You are my constant
Love-absence-heart.

33.

Shortest is the distance
From jealousy to hell.

34.

Jealousy says to fear,
"Out! out!
Get out of my vital,
Get out of my mind,
Get out of my very life!
I am on my way
To my enemy: destruction."

35.

Jealousy,
You prefer
Ignorance-night-sleep
To illumination-perfection-dream.

36.

Jealousy,
You do not come alone
To your victim.
You come with
Your darkest and wildest
Thunder-disaster.

37.

Jealousy,
Matchless you are
As an insecurity-islander.

38.

Jealousy,
You are your own
Ultimate
Self-destructive-indulgence.

39.

Jealousy,
You are your own
Constant aggression.
Aggression and satisfaction
Live millions of miles apart.

40.

Jealousy,
The sweetness of oneness-hope
And the fulness of God-promise
Will never befriend you.

41.

Jealousy,
You are impossibly blind,
Therefore
God's descending Tears
You can neither
See nor feel.

42.

Jealousy,
God is fast approaching you.
Do not ignore,
Do not even underestimate
His Compassion-flooded Arrival.

43.

Jealousy,
Only because of you
My sweetest God-memories
Are fading fast,
Very fast.

44.

Jealousy,
Are you not ashamed of
Thriving on world-suspicion
For such a long time?

45.

Jealousy,
Can you not see
That every day you are running
Between ever-extending
And ever-disappearing goals?

46.

Jealousy,
God is extremely happy
That finally
You are asking about Him.

47.

Jealousy,
God is delighted to hear
That you feel the necessity
Of His Arrival
At your door.

48.

Jealousy,
God is extremely proud of you
Because you want to demolish
Once and for all
Your huge ignorance-mansion.

49.

Jealousy,
God will be extremely fond of you
If you take from Him
His unconditional Help
In your unprecedented adventure.

50.

Jealousy,
Look how excited God is
To come and meet you!
You just say hello to God.
In no time
He will transform you
And make you
His Divinity's Life,
His Infinity's Heart
And His Immortality's Soul.

From: Sri Chinmoy, My jealousy is my madness-burden - , Agni Press, 1994
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