Twenty-Seven Thousand Aspiration-Plants, part 227

22601

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I cry for

God the Runner.

I die for

God the Sprinter. ```

22602

```

Chaos is the real name

For the mind.

Catastrophe is the real name

For the vital. ```

22603

```

God tells me that

He knows of no better sight

Than my tearful eyes.

```

22604

```

Pray to God sleeplessly.

He will definitely give you

Sovereignty over yourself.

```

22605

```

When I live inside

A tiny expectation-circle,

I die.

```

22606

```

Impurity has not found

And will never find

The soul.

```

22607

```

When God shares

His supreme Secrets with me,

The human in me proudly smiles.

```

22608

```

O slave of pride,

You are, indeed,

A self-imposed sufferer.

```

22609

```

Alas, I pride myself

On my success-mind,

Not on my progress-heart.

```

22610

```

Thank God it is all over!

I do not have to be stung

By self-doubt-mind any more.

```

22611

```

Spirituality

Is the supreme necessity

Of the awakened heart.

```

22612

```

I tire God out in many ways,

Consciously or unconsciously,

But my eagerness to love and serve Him

Can never tire Him out. ```

22613

```

When I tell God that I shall become

An unconditional instrument of His,

It delights Him immediately

Plus immensely. ```

22614

```

O doubt,

Why are you so cruel to me?

When you die

Nobody will attend your funeral —

No, not even my mind.

```

22615

```

No matter how bad and useless we are,

We cannot ultimately interfere

With God’s infinite Happiness.

```

22616

```

Unlike us, God never fails,

Even for a fleeting second,

To appreciate openly

Each and every human being

In His creation.

```

22617

```

Each aspiring and climbing sun-flame

In my heart

Is dearer than the dearest

To the Heart of my Lord Supreme. ```

22618

```

Even God finds it hard

To accept those human beings

As His own

Who are unused to working for Him. ```

22619

```

I shall no more allow

My mind to attend

The jealousy, insecurity

And negativity-meeting

That takes place every day.

```

22620

```

An unaspiring vital

Quite often locks itself up

In its own torments.

```

22621

```

God never forces anybody.

He only speaks to those and for those

Who give Him a willing ear.

```

22622

```

My Lord,

I have broken Your Heart many times.

From now on,

I give You my soul-promise

That I shall love You, serve You and fulfil You

In Your own Way

Until I breathe my last.

```

22623

```

The heart-lamb

Is so adorable.

The mind-horse is, alas,

Always ungovernable. ```

22624

```

Alas, my heart’s gratitude-hours

For God to cherish

Are so surprisingly few.

```

22625

```

There is only one message

We receive from peace,

And that message is:

God is come. ```

22626

```

God could hardly believe His Eyes

When He saw me crying so soulfully

For my nature’s transformation.

```

22627

```

I do not know

Anything about others.

But I do know

That God always insists

On knowing the details of my life.

```

22628

```

My Lord,

I may not love You

The way You want me to love You:

Unconditionally.

But I assure You,

You will never be neglected,

You will never be rejected

By me. ```

22629

```

God has good reason for asking me

Why I am not ready for God-realisation,

Since I accepted the spiritual life

Centuries ago. ```

22630

```

Unlike us,

God never enjoys quarrelling with us.

On the contrary,

When we quarrel with Him,

He suffers more than we can ever imagine.

```

22631

```

When I make

Even some small progress,

God comes and dances

Inside my heart-garden. ```

22632

```

God’s Compassion does not allow Him

To listen to our bitter complaints

And our unthinkable accusations

Against Him.

But we must know that

Nothing is out of God’s Earshot. ```

22633

```

Even the heart of suspicion

Is ugly.

Even the breath of suspicion

Is destructive. ```

22634

```

The beauty and fragrance of peace

Is neither young nor old —

It is immortal.

```

22635

```

For the sake of God within,

My heart cries.

For the sake of God without,

My life smiles. ```

22636

```

Life is not to be thrown away.

But life’s unwillingness-demon

Must be thrown away

Sooner than the soonest. ```

22637

```

I do God a great wrong

When I say that neither God

Nor God’s Compassion

Is for me. ```

22638

```

God laughs and laughs

When I tell Him

That I am not yet ready

To be His Eternity’s comrade. ```

22639

```

My mind’s inconsistency,

My mind’s carelessness,

My mind’s callousness —

These things can never

Be approved by God.

```

22640

```

How can a doubting mind

Ever be certain of anything,

Either in the outer world

Or in the inner world? ```

22641

```

God knows the art

Of multiplication so well

That when I offer Him

An iota of perfection,

In return He blesses me

With His infinite Affection. ```

22642

```

As my destiny unfolds itself,

I feel that my heart shall have

A quenchless thirst

For God’s Compassion-Eye. ```

22643

```

God is so compassionate

That He never accepts our failure

As something final.

```

22644

```

God’s special friend

Is humour.

God’s worst enemy

Is rumour. ```

22645

```

He who has no peace of mind

Does not like to follow

Or to be followed.

```

22646

```

Very old was my mind.

Therefore, it had to die —

Needless to say,

Not willingly. ```

22647

```

The world does not forgive me.

I do not forgive the world.

Poor God is being strangled

Because of His Oneness with me

And the world.

```

22648

```

My Lord Supreme has forgiven me

Time and again.

How is it that I never even dream

Of forgiving

Anybody here on earth?

```

22649

```

Do you know what my fear does?

My fear has the capacity

To chase my Lord Supreme away.

```

22650

```

Do you know what my doubt does?

My doubt does not allow my Lord Supreme

To enter into me.

```

22651

```

Do you know what my jealousy does?

My jealousy does not allow my Lord Supreme

To smile at me.

```

22652

```

Do you know what my insecurity does?

My insecurity stabs

My Lord Supreme.

```

22653

```

My Lord’s Heart is for expansion.

My Lord’s Mind is for perfection.

My Lord’s Life is for transformation.

```

22654

```

There is nothing of God’s

That I do not love,

But His Compassion-Eye

And Forgiveness-Feet

I love sleeplessly and breathlessly.

```

22655

```

Alas, I do not know

Why I allow my desire-mind

And not my aspiration-heart

To catch a glimpse of God’s Smile. ```

22656

```

I may not know

What is in God’s Mind,

But I do know

What is in God’s Heart:

Unconditional Love for me.

```

22657

```

I want God to fulfil

My heart’s hopes.

God wants me to fulfil

My life’s promises. ```

22658

```

The human in me prays to God

For comfort from God.

The divine in me prays to God

For God’s Advice. ```

22659

```

I did not know

That I was making a horrible mistake

When I started giving so much importance

To my doubting mind. ```

22660

```

Alas, there is not a single human being

Who is spared the experiences

Of physical pain, mental agony

And vital frustration. ```

22661

```

My aspiration-heart

Is regaining its strength once more

Under God’s tender Handling.

```

22662

```

I am amazed to see

How my soul keeps God up-to-date

On everything in my life.

```

22663

```

In spite of my repeated

Himalayan blunders,

God’s Compassion has concluded

That I am not past correction. ```

22664

```

The difference between God and me

Is this:

I do not allow God to run fast

Inside my heart.

He not only allows me, but also begs me,

To run the fastest inside His Heart. ```

22665

```

I am nothing.

I can do nothing.

Alas, will You not accept

My life’s failure-tears

As my only gifts to You?

```

22666

```

Alas, I do not know

When and how

My mind became

The towering rock of pride. ```

22667

```

My Lord,

If You once come into

My little heart-room,

I assure You,

You will not only like it,

But love it. ```

22668

```

Both God and I

Desperately need speed.

I need speed in my God-hunger.

God needs speed

In my nature-transformation.

```

22669

```

Human life can become perfect

Only when the life-breath of the heart

Self-givingly loves the Lord Supreme.

```

22670

```

God’s Compassion-Eye

Never pierces anybody,

But illumines and enlightens

Everybody. ```

22671

```

How can your heart find peace,

When you allow your mind

To roam everywhere?

```

22672

```

My Lord,

The Compassion-Smile

Of Your Compassion-Eye

Has fed my heart

Beyond my imagination.

```

22673

```

My Lord,

I want to love You unconditionally

Every day.

If I miss even one day,

Then that very day I want to die

And be buried,

Along with my ignorance.

```

22674

```

God the Justice

Either cannot or does not want to

Plumb the depths

Of God the Compassion. ```

22675

```

My Lord,

Do not allow my life to die

Without significance

And mingle with the dust.

I really want to love You

In Your own Way.

I really want to please You

In Your own Way. ```

22676

```

To my extreme sorrow,

My unconditional love for God

Is of a very short duration.

```

22677

```

Repeat, repeat

The Name of the Lord Supreme

Countless times, unceasingly.

This will eventually absolve you

Of all your countless sins.

```

22678

```

Life is given to each human being

For a very special purpose.

This secret each human being

Must discover for himself. ```

22679

```

God’s infinite Beauty

Is His own Eternity’s

Silence-Bliss.

```

22680

```

Fight!

Fight again and again

To break down your mind’s

Unwillingness-wall! ```

22681

```

Be always willing and eager

If you want to brighten your mind

And sweeten your heart.

```

22682

```

If there is true willingness,

Then there can be no iota

Of hesitation.

```

22683

```

O my mind,

Prayerfully let us together explore

The galaxies of Heaven.

```

22684

```

The generosity of the mind

And the purity of the heart

Are interdependent.

```

22685

```

Gratitude-tears are extremely quick

In erasing the mind’s

Foolish dictation.

```

22686

```

God watches my mind

Early in the morning

And weeps

During the entire day. ```

22687

```

When I met God

For the first time,

He shared with me

Compassionately and blessingfully

A wealth of sweet anecdotes.

```

22688

```

It is becoming more and more clear

To God

That I love only the human in me

And not the divine in me. ```

22689

```

Finally my mind is ready

To announce its latest news:

It is all ready to surrender

To my life’s oneness-heart. ```

22690

```

When we achieve something great,

God smiles and smiles.

When we achieve something good,

God tells us,

“Stop not, stop not!

This is just the beginning.” ```

22691

```

O my Lord Supreme,

Do shelter my life

Every day, every hour,

Every minute and every second. ```

22692

```

Alas, I do not know how and when

Our human mind will be ready

For radical changes

And illumining improvements. ```

22693

```

It is always a good time

To talk to God.

But the very best time

To talk to God

Is in the small hours of the morning,

Between three and four. ```

22694

```

If you can offer gratitude to God

Before your meditation,

During your meditation

And after your meditation,

Then you will feel your progress-light

Clearing your mind-clouds. ```

22695

```

Who can ever determine

The age of earth’s aspiration

And the age of Heaven’s Compassion?

```

22696

```

To receive joy infinite,

I shall always walk along the path

Of a peace-pilgrim.

```

22697

```

I try to hold God spellbound

With my sound-victories.

God always holds me spellbound

With His Peace-Songs. ```

22698

```

The voice of Truth

Will speak to us

Only when our heart becomes

A sacred reservoir. ```

22699

```

Each time we offer

Our prayerful gratitude to God,

He blesses us immediately

With a newly awakened

Satisfaction life.

```

22700

```

When my mind becomes

A sea of tranquillity,

God blessingfully greets my mind

With a most beautiful victory-garland. ```

From:Sri Chinmoy,Twenty-Seven Thousand Aspiration-Plants, part 227, Agni Press, 1996
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