Twenty-Seven Thousand Aspiration-Plants, part 260

25901

```

To my heart’s extreme joy,

My life has completely blended

With the shadow

Of my Lord’s Feet. ```

25902

```

My Lord asks me every morning

To sing only one song:

My surrender-life-song.

```

25903

```

I have been begging my Lord

To make me once more

The child of His Dream.

```

25904

```

At times it is more difficult

To embrace the waves of joy

Than to confront the surges of pain.

```

25905

```

O my heart’s aspiration-flames,

You are meant to climb up

And not to allow yourself

To be extinguished. ```

25906

```

Let the memories of miseries

In my aspiration-life

Drop dead here and now!

```

25907

```

My mind-disobedience

And my ignorance-pride

Live together, play together

And dine together. ```

25908

```

If your spiritual life is not

Powerful and bold,

Then your inner progress

Will be extremely, extremely slow. ```

25909

```

I have sung my soul’s

Manifestation-song.

I have sung my heart’s

Surrender-song.

I have sung my mind’s

Disobedience-song.

I have sung my vital’s

Arrogance-song.

I have sung my body’s

Lethargy-song. ```

25910

```

My heart feels

All the sorrows of the world.

My soul activates

All the joys of life. ```

25911

```

My heart’s surrender-joy

Is feeding

My Lord’s Compassion-Eye.

```

25912

```

My Lord Supreme wants me to deliver

All His Peace-Dream-Messages

To every aspiration-heart-home.

```

25913

```

I never thought that my soul

Could be so tangible,

And always available.

```

25914

```

When I sing my Lord’s

Compassion-Heart-Song,

I feel that I do not have to

Go to Heaven,

For I am already in Heaven.

```

25915

```

The ingratitude of the mind-world

Is desperately trying to destroy

The gratitude-heart of the world.

```

25916

```

There is only one thing

I would like to see.

I want to see my heart’s

Peace-dream-horizon

All the time rising and rising

And rising. ```

25917

```

My Lord, either You sing for me

Or allow me to sing for You.

If not, my heart will surely die

Shortly. ```

25918

```

Prayerful is my heart-sky.

Doubtful is my mind-sky.

Powerful is my life-sky.

And alas,

I am my own uncertainty-sky.

```

25919

```

No matter how sincerely I try,

I am always crippled

By the jungle-confusion

Of my mind. ```

25920

```

Although we can start our life-journey

With self-doubt and God-doubt,

Eventually we will reverse the game

Completely.

We will have faith in God

And in ourselves. ```

25921

```

May my heart at every moment

Sing God-surrender-songs

To perfect my life.

```

25922

```

This time I am determined

To spend all my time

In my heart-garden

And not walk through

My desert-helplessness-life.

```

25923

```

Each and every heart

Must have a soulful, tearful

And blissful prayer-life.

```

25924

```

If my meditation-heart and prayer-life

Cannot please God,

Alas, then I have nothing

That can please my Lord Supreme,

Either in my own way

Or in His own Way. ```

25925

```

My Lord,

Will there be a day

When I shall be able to surprise You

In any way?

“My child,

Definitely there will be,

And that day is fast approaching!”

```

25926

```

Only a rank fool

Comes to conclusions

About God’s Activities.

```

25927

```

My Lord,

Will I ever be

One of Your Heart-Satisfaction-Songs?

“My child,

You have already become one.” ```

25928

```

My Lord,

What is needed

To be a permanent passenger

On Your Boat?

“My child,

You need to have

The beauty and the fragrance

Of a child-heart-rose.” ```

25929

```

O my Master, I do not mind

If you have the longest road for me,

As long as you remain my guide,

Only guide. ```

25930

```

My Lord,

To swim in the sea of ecstasy,

What do I need?

“My child,

You need your heart-intimacy

With My Heart.”

```

25931

```

I cannot run as fast as my heart does,

But when my heart runs the fastest,

My entire being is inundated with delight.

```

25932

```

You play your role:

You work hard, very hard.

God will also do His Work:

He will give you extraordinary results —

Far beyond your expectations!

```

25933

```

My Lord, if ever You grant me

The opportunity to come and visit You,

I assure You,

I shall not allow my desire-tiger

To accompany me.

I shall allow only my aspiration-deer

To accompany me.

```

25934

```

My Lord Supreme,

You have allowed me to do

And You have allowed Yourself to do

Many things for me.

One more thing I need from You:

To allow me, out of Your infinite Bounty,

To recognise You —

Who You are and what You are. ```

25935

```

My Lord, I am desperate to love You

In Your creation.

Do give me one more opportunity

To please You in Your own Way. ```

25936

```

My partnership with God

Does not depend on my capacity.

It depends on God’s Compassion-Eye

And His Forgiveness-Feet. ```

25937

```

Although the mind is higher

Than the vital,

The vital does not find God-satisfaction

To be an impossible task,

The way the mind does.

```

25938

```

Let me realise the stupidity

And absurdity of my mind

Before it becomes too late.

```

25939

```

Every day God gives me

New lessons.

Today’s new lesson is:

God only for God’s sake! ```

25940

```

My Lord, the more You expect

Humility from my mind,

The more You receive

Audacity’s absurdity from my mind. ```

25941

```

My Lord, I have no objection,

And I mean it,

To whomever You want to love.

Love whom You want to love.

Only give me the capacity

To love You only. ```

25942

```

My Lord,

Do You ever get disheartened?

“No, My child,

Because I never expect.” ```

25943

```

To my great sorrow,

I have allowed my mind to guide me

For so many years.

Now I see that my mind

Has not guided me at all,

But has only misguided me. ```

25944

```

I did not know what I actually needed,

But now I do know what I need.

I need only my Lord’s blessingful Feet

Inside my heart-garden. ```

25945

```

My Lord, do You ever

Get really angry with me?

“My child, what is wrong,

If that is the only way left

For Me to perfect you?”

```

25946

```

God wants you to tell Him

What price you are going to pay

To study the God-realisation-course.

```

25947

```

I shall prove to God time and again

That His Love is the only thing I need,

Not only in my heart-garden

But also in my mind-jungle. ```

25948

```

My Lord, You have been kind to me

For so many years.

Now it should be my turn

To be kind to You,

To be affectionate to You

And to fulfil You in Your own Way. ```

25949

```

My Lord,

Why should You be responsible

For the utter stupidity in my life?

“My child,

Since I have taken responsibility

For the wisdom in your spiritual life,

I feel that I am under obligation

To be responsible for your stark stupidity

As well.” ```

25950

```

My Lord,

When I quarrel with You unnecessarily,

What do You think of me?

“My child,

I think of you

The way I have always thought of you —

As another God-representative —

And I still love you and need you

Unmistakably,

Lovingly, plus necessarily.”

```

25951

```

May my life be completely transformed

Into a readiness-song

And a willingness-dance.

```

25952

```

If a garden-flower can look at the sun

And offer its gratitude to the sun,

What is wrong with me?

How is it that my heart-flower

Does not look at my inner sun

With ceaseless gratitude? ```

25953

```

My Lord,

I have spoken so much about the soul

At Your express Command.

Alas, my disciple-world

Misunderstands me badly.

How I wish You to either come directly

Or to send

Your direct representative on earth,

The soul,

To convince my disciple-world

That what I have said about the soul

Is absolutely true! ```

25954

```

My Lord, do You know at times

Why I deny You?

I deny You precisely because

I need more love for You,

And I also expect You

To take more love from me. ```

25955

```

My Lord, my happiness

Is Your immediate Satisfaction.

But why is it that Your Happiness

Is not my satisfaction? ```

25956

```

My Lord Supreme,

When I think of leaving You,

Can You not increase Your Love for me?

“My child, I do, I do!

Just because I increase My Love for you,

You are still with Me.”

```

25957

```

My Lord,

What does my joy do to You?

“My child,

Your joy makes Me feel

That I am absolutely perfect,

According to you.” ```

25958

```

My Lord,

What does my sorrow do to You?

“My child,

Your sorrow makes Me feel

That I am imperfection incarnate,

According to you.” ```

25959

```

My Lord, do tell me

What You wanted from me,

What You want from me

And what You will want from me.

“My child, only one thing

I wanted, still want

And will always want from you:

Your satisfaction

In My own divine Way.”

```

25960

```

My Lord,

You are so kind to me.

You are so compassionate to me.

All my heart’s sorrows

And all my heart’s smiles

You have allowed to find

Their perfection-satisfaction-home

Inside Your Heart. ```

25961

```

O seeker, be careful!

At any moment your spiritual life

May be destroyed

By a violent emotion-explosion.

Always pray to God for protection!

```

25962

```

Victory and defeat

Every day in our spiritual life

We must accept with equal equanimity.

```

25963

```

Definitely we can arrive

At the supreme height of the supreme Truth

Only by the Grace

Of the Absolute Lord Supreme. ```

25964

```

There shall come a time

When there will be

No country-boundaries,

And it will be in the near future,

Not the remote future.

```

25965

```

If you have a breathless urge

To speak with God,

God will definitely give you a chance.

```

25966

```

Our gratitude-heart

Is the best dwelling place

For our Lord Supreme.

```

25967

```

When the outer eyes are blinded

And wrong, undivine forces are not seen,

It is so easy to go away from

One’s own divinity. ```

25968

```

Self-indulgence-days

Do not last for long.

This is what we must always learn.

```

25969

```

Our spiritual life becomes precious

Only when our aspiration-heart

Becomes consciously spacious.

```

25970

```

We must never give up our ascent

To the highest peak of perfection,

For that is what

We all have to ultimately reach. ```

25971

```

Everything is beautiful in life,

But one thing is most beautiful,

And that is our prayer-tears.

```

25972

```

Each important figure on earth

Has to be well prepared

To face the trials and tribulations

Of this world. ```

25973

```

Try to see yourself as a seeker

With no deplorable past.

Indulge not in the past,

Good or bad.

Only run towards the golden future.

```

25974

```

O my vital, your arrogance-ignorance

Has played its role.

Now I want you to play the role

Of dynamism-oneness in my life. ```

25975

```

There can be no heart-garden

Where there is no light.

A heart-garden is always inundated

With Divinity’s Light. ```

25976

```

You believe in your own inadequacy

All the time.

But from now on,

You must try and succeed in having

An unmistakable belief

In your own adequacy. ```

25977

```

First you have to ascend

And reach a certain goal.

Only then will you get the inner message

To transcend and transcend. ```

25978

```

O seeker, you should be happy and proud

And not sad

That God has appointed the world

To crush your ego.

It is all for your ultimate victory

And infinite joy. ```

25979

```

The natural quality of the heart

Is to turn towards God

And hasten towards God.

```

25980

```

In the spiritual life,

The speed of eagerness

Far surpasses the speed

Of everything else. ```

25981

```

Centuries of slumber

Our earthly life has enjoyed.

Now it is high time for human beings

To open their hearts

To Divinity’s supreme Light.

```

25982

```

Ecstasy’s fleeting second

Can make us feel

That God is not only for us

But He is also with us,

In our living breath.

```

25983

```

When will God come?

God will come

When my gratitude and surrender

Are playing all the time

Inside my heart-garden.

```

25984

```

Have a heart-smile!

Your smile is the power

Of your outer success.

Your smile is the light

Of your inner progress.

```

25985

```

Love-devotion-surrender-seekers

And lovers

Are indeed very, very rare.

```

25986

```

Something that never wants to change:

Our unwillingness to be a member

Of God’s world-transformation-game.

```

25987

```

Before the touch

Of ruthless sorrow,

Can we not go and touch

God’s Forgiveness-Feet? ```

25988

```

Life came into existence

Not only to see and feel peace,

But to distribute peace

All over the globe. ```

25989

```

Give God a soulful smile.

To your wide surprise,

He will come

And dry all your tears. ```

25990

```

Every day

We must empty our mind

Of expectation-stupidity.

```

25991

```

If we can believe in the capacity

Of our all-illumining soul,

Then our soul will teach us

How to sail

Even through the treacherous seas

Of ignorance-night. ```

25992

```

I do not want anything in my life

To play the role of a scholar.

I want to remain an eternal student,

Even in my God-surrender-life. ```

25993

```

God does not want us to be

Desire-prisoners.

He wants us to be

Aspiration-distributors. ```

25994

```

The incredible wonder

Of my world

Is my tiny aspiration-heart-cry.

```

25995

```

I have been longing for many years

To return to my true religion.

My true religion

Is my Lord’s only Satisfaction. ```

25996

```

How can I reach You, my Lord?

“My child, start climbing!

I shall be there to help you.”

```

25997

```

If depression has found its home

Inside you,

Then you will always be deprived

Of God’s Attention. ```

25998

```

I am not alone on my heart-pilgrimage.

God’s Compassion-Eye-Smiles

I devotedly and proudly carry

With me. ```

25999

```

My Lord,

Do tell me one thing

That I must never forget.

“My child,

You are My Eternity’s bloom,

You are My Infinity’s blossom,

And you are My Immortality’s

Dream-fulfilling reality.”

```

26000

```

Do you want to see miracles

Performed by God?

Your sleepless love,

Your breathless devotion

And your fulness-surrender —

What are these,

If not three great miracles

Performed by God Himself

For you to watch?

```

From:Sri Chinmoy,Twenty-Seven Thousand Aspiration-Plants, part 260, Agni Press, 1998
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