My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 11

11

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My Lord,

Why am I so ungrateful to You?

I clearly see that

Your Heart is drawn out towards me

To shelter me

And be my strongest support.

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APR 997. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 25 December 2001.↩

2

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I must be the winner

In the race of life —

I must!

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3

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My Lord tells me,

“My child,

When your enemies hinder you

In every way imaginable,

Cultivate faith in Me.

I shall be with you,

In you and totally for you.”

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4

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If I do not care

To manifest my Lord’s Light

On earth,

Why should He liberate me

From the bondages of time?

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5

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I have come to learn

That my own sincerity-heart

Is a source of tremendous energy

And vitality

In my spiritual life.

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6

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O my inner faith,

You are the only one

To enable me to withstand

All the attacks

Of my stark adversaries.

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7

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My Lord says to me,

“My child, do not give up,

Do not give up!

I am coming, I am coming!

I am coming to you as a Beacon

In your ignorance-night.” ```

8

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Do not doubt,

Do not hesitate!

Your God-fulfilment-promise

You will be able to carry through

To completion.

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9

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Weakness-multitudes

Soulfully confessed

Are immediately forgiven.

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10

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God’s Love is not only

For a few selected seekers.

It is definitely available

To all.

Needless to say,

You and I are included. ```

11

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God’s special Blessings

Are not beyond our reach.

It is His genuine desire

That we all receive

His special Blessings

Directly from His own Hand. ```

122

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Time is short, very short.

Our uppermost concern

Has to be God-fulfilment

Here on earth.

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APR 1008. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 26 December 2001.↩

13

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God says to me,

“My child,

Just give Me once and for all

What you are:

Ignorance-life.

I shall, in return, immediately give you

The abundance of My own Life:

Beauty, Light, Delight,

Perfection and Satisfaction.”

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14

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I give God

An iota of my love.

God gives me

His entire Life

And His very Breath.

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15

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God says to me,

“My child, true,

You have gone astray.

But do I not have Love-Power

To draw you back?

Lo, you are back

And once more safe

Inside My Heart-Home.” ```

16

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When God’s Voice

Is my only choice,

He in no time bridges

The longest gap

Between my life and His Heart.

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17

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I have completely forgotten God,

But God tells me that His Heart

Is still sleeplessly occupied

With me and my life. ```

18

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My Lord Beloved Supreme tells me,

“My child,

You can doubt Me if you want to,

But you will never be able to doubt

My Love.”

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19

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My Lord of infinite Compassion

Says to me,

“My child,

You express your wild hostility

Towards Me

And I accept it gladly.

I know that is your way of life.

My child,

Since I gladly accept

What you give Me,

Can you not accept

What I have to offer:

My Love, My Concern,

My Compassion and My Forgiveness?” ```

20

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When I meditate

Solely on God’s Victory,

I go far beyond

The confines of time. ```

21

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Ignorance-night I have.

Wisdom-light I need

To enrich my life

Divinely and ceaselessly,

And God is all ready

To fulfil me. ```

223

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God says to me,

“My child,

If you light your heart-candle,

I shall take care of your darkness.”

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APR 1018. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 27 December 2001.↩

23

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The body says, “I can sleep.”

The vital says, “I can strangle.”

The mind says, “I can fight.”

The heart says, “I can love.”

The soul says, “I can watch

And send my report to God.” ```

24

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God says that He has seen me

Countless times,

And I am still the same.

Next time He wants to see me

With a new mind, a new heart

And a new face.

If I fail Him,

He may never give me

Another chance.

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25

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When my mind

Wants to speak to God,

God says to my mind,

“You are too close!

Go back at least

One hundred metres.

Do not worry —

I have two very big Ears.

I shall be able to hear you

Very easily.” ```

26

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When my heart

Wishes to speak to God,

God says to my heart,

“My child, why do you have to stand

So far away?

Am I a stranger?

Come, come very, very close to Me.

The nearer you come,

The better for both of us

To hear each other.” ```

27

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God’s Eye

Examines all and sundry,

With no exception.

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28

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God’s Heart

Examines only

The chosen few.

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29

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My mind thinks

It knows everything

About God.

My heart feels

It has to learn everything

About God

From God Himself.

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30

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My Master tells me

That if I want to become

A perfect disciple of his,

Then he expects cheerful surrender

And not forced surrender

To His God-oneness-will. ```

314

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I must reach

The summit

Of my God-surrender-ecstasy.

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APR 1027. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 28 December 2001.↩

32

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Alas,

All my meetings with my mind

Are always noisy, unproductive,

Worthless and useless. ```

33

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I feel lonely

Only when my God-Friend

Is not beside me.

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34

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God’s Compassion-Eye

Is always ready to greet

The seeker in me.

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35

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God’s Satisfaction-Heart

Is always ready to embrace

The divine lover in me.

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36

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The mind’s self-doubt-blows

Are extremely powerful

And unthinkably destructive.

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37

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The smiles of my soul

Are my heart’s

Heaven-climbing hopes.

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38

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My God-devotion-heart

Steers my life-boat

To the Golden Shore

Of the ever-transcending Beyond. ```

39

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The insecurity

Of my inner life

Is the madness-thunder

Of my outer life. ```

40

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My Lord Supreme has blessed me

With an aspiration-road

Which is at once ageless

And endless. ```

41

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My soul-bird is teaching me

How to fly far above

The streaming tears of my heart

And

The brooding fears of my mind.

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42

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My Beloved Lord’s

Most inspiring and most energising

Long-distance calls

Are cordless and wordless. ```

435

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May my heart

Be a galaxy

Of God-blossoming dreams.

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APR 1039. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 29 December 2001.↩

44

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To maintain our inner poise,

We must give equal value

To success and failure.

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45

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My unconditional aspiration-heart

Is a luxury

I have received from

God’s Compassion,

Affection, Love and Bliss.

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46

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My heart urges me

To love God. ```

47

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My soul compels me

To serve God. ```

48

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God pleads with me

To remember Him

Sleeplessly and self-givingly.

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49

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Alas,

My mind

Is shockingly heartless.

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50

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Alas,

My heart

Is helplessly homeless.

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51

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Alas,

My life

Is unthinkably godless.

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52

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Everything deceives me

Save my aspiration-heart-tears. ```

53

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The moment my God-obedience-heart

Stops functioning,

My earth-existence becomes

A colossal failure. ```

54

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To lose

A childlike heart

Is to miss

A God-Heart-Smile. ```

556

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The beauty

Of the earth-planet

Is extremely inspiring.

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APR 1051. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 31 December 2001.↩

56

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The duty

Of the earth-planet

Is extremely surprising.

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57

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The outer world

Loves

Quick motion.

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58

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The inner world

Loves

Intense aspiration.

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59

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Every day

Is a holiday

For my God-surrender-life.

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60

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I climb up

And sit at the very top

Of my hope-mountain.

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61

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I climb down

And become

My promise-fulfilment-fountain.

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62

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Alas,

My body chooses

The lethargy-life.

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63

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Alas,

My vital chooses

The hesitation-mind.

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64

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Alas,

My mind chooses

The impatience-vital.

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65

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To my great joy,

My heart chooses

God’s Protection-Feet.

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667

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O Pilot of the New Year-Boat,

Do give my heart a new hope,

My life a new promise

And me a new assurance

That You are going to take me

To Your Golden Shore.

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APR 1062. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 1 January 2002.↩

67

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O my mind,

I beg of you,

Please leave your old life behind —

Please! ```

68

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O my heart,

I beg of you,

Please cry more for humanity —

Please!

And please smile more at God —

Please! ```

69

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I know, I know,

God’s Compassion-Eye —

For this my heart lives.

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70

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I know, I know,

God’s Forgiveness-Heart —

For this my life lives.

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71

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I know, I know,

God’s full manifestation on earth —

For this I live.

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72

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God Himself feeds the genuine seekers

Every day.

Therefore, their aspiration-hearts

And their service-lives

Are becoming stronger and stronger

Every day. ```

73

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Self-importance —

Dangerous, dangerous!

I must shun it

Once and for all. ```

748

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The heart never questions,

Never doubts God’s Presence

In each and every life

And each and every death.

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APR 1070. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 2 January 2002.↩

75

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My Lord,

I promise I shall not delay

My unconditional

Surrender-life-existence on earth

Any more.

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76

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A God-searching mind

Must embody

Sincerity.

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77

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A God-aspiring heart

Must embody

Intensity.

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78

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A God-serving life

Must embody

Integrity.

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79

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To see my Lord smiling,

Even for a fleeting moment,

I am prepared to cover

The length and breadth

Of the world.

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80

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My Lord Supreme tells me

That He does not stop enjoying

The exquisite fragrance

Of my gratitude-heart-tear-garland. ```

Editor's note

Sri Chinmoy offered These prayers during his visit to Cambodia in December 2001 and January 2002.

From:Sri Chinmoy,My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 11, Agni Press, 2002
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