My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 21

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Today I shall have to be

My true self

So that my Lord can use me

In a very special way.

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APR 1805. These prayers were given in Cairns, Australia — 26 January 2003.↩

2

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If my love of God

Is genuine,

Then I cannot have

Burdening anxieties. ```

3

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If I cannot forgive myself

For all the blunders

That I have made over the years,

Then how can I proceed?

How can I ever dream

Perfection-dreams?

Move, I must, forward.

Fly, I must, upward.

Dive, I must, inward,

To be once more

What I truly am

And shall forever remain. ```

4

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What am I doing?

I am powerfully discarding

My cluttering mind-thoughts.

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5

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What am I doing?

I am remembering

That God and I were

Once upon a time

One heart in two bodies.

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6

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What am I doing?

I am most devotedly

Listening to God.

He is telling me

What His Transcendental Self

And His Universal Self do

In order to feed humanity’s

Birthless and deathless hunger. ```

7

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O my cradling hopes,

You I love,

You I need.

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8

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O my twinkling dreams,

You I love,

You I need.

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9

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O my blossoming realities,

You I love,

You I need.

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10

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O my ascending God-tears,

O my descending God-smiles,

You I love,

You I need. ```

112

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Every little thing

That my Lord does for me

Thrills me, my heart,

My very existence.

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APR 1815. These prayers were given in Gold Coast, Australia — 28 January 2003.↩

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Every morning and evening

God blesses and embraces

His surrender-lamb-seekers.

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13

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My Lord proudly loves

My staunch obedience-life. ```

14

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Every day without fail,

My Lord and I deeply enjoy

Our tears-and-smiles-moments together.

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15

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My soulful heart

Sleeplessly and self-givingly

Pays attention

To all God’s Needs and Wants. ```

16

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My Lord deeply and profusely

Inhales my tearful and cheerful

Gratitude-heart-incense.

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17

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O my proud disobedience-mind,

Be careful!

God is secretly watching.

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18

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God’s every Hope, every Dream

And every Promise

Have become

My extremely intimate friends. ```

19

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When this world of ours

Was first born,

There was only one thing:

Delight, Infinity’s Delight. ```

20

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I do not mean to be

A God-attention-beggar,

But, unfortunately or fortunately,

I am. ```

213

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Each new moment

Is a new

God-search-joy.

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APR 1825. These prayers were given in Gold Coast, Australia — 30 January 2003.↩

22

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We dream

Of many, many things,

But God dreams only

Of our devotion-heart-tears. ```

23

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Time immediately disappears

When my Lord Beloved Supreme

Appears before me.

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24

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Morning proudly takes me

To my heart’s silence-temple-shrine

To meditate.

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25

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Evening peacefully takes me

To my Lord’s Heart-Home

To meditate.

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26

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Each time I meditate,

My Lord reveals to me

A new heart-world.

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27

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My aspiration-heart-sunrise

Gives my Lord joy

Far beyond my imagination.

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28

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My heart lives only

For the Beauty and Fragrance

Of my Lord’s Closeness-Heart.

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29

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My outer life

Heavily leans

On God the Duty.

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30

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My inner life

Sleeplessly and breathlessly relies

On God the Beauty.

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314

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I felt God’s Forgiveness-Heart

Long before I saw it.

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APR 1835. These prayers were given in Gold Coast, Australia — 1 February 2003.↩

32

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My choice:

Either God’s Nectar-Feet

Or my pride-head.

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33

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Neutrality is not

Wisdom-light.

Neutrality is

Weakness-foolishness. ```

34

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My Lord,

Will the long, very long years

Of my utter helplessness,

Hopelessness and uselessness

Be ever over?

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35

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Hope-heart definitely blossoms.

It blossoms only

At God’s choice Hour.

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36

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The binding mind

Has to be either illumined

Or blinded.

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37

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God’s Compassion-Eye

Eagerly devours

The sincere seeker’s

Himalayan blunders. ```

38

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When oneness

Embodies everyone,

Fulness it becomes.

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39

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There are many

Secret and sacred ways

To enter into God’s Heart-Home.

The seeker can play the role

Of the chooser.

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40

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Face and brave your arch-enemy

With the beauty and fragrance

Of your God-smiling heart.

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415

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My Lord tells me

That if I start

To like and love myself,

Then He will like me and love me more,

Infinitely more.

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APR 1845. These prayers were given in Gold Coast, Australia — 2 February 2003.↩

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Not my own efforts,

But my Lord’s unconditional Love

Has made me

What I am now. ```

43

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Man plays.

God watches and suggests.

His Suggestions end in vain.

God plays.

Man sleeps and sleeps.

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44

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God cares.

He cares sleeplessly for us.

To believe in Him,

We need a daring heart. ```

45

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Do not hesitate.

Meditate.

God Himself is going to open

His Heart-Gate

And leave it wide open for you.

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46

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My courage

Lies in my tolerance.

In my tolerance,

God’s Pride in me looms large. ```

47

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Prayer-life is protection.

Meditation-life is illumination.

Service-life is liberation.

Surrender-life is satisfaction,

God’s Satisfaction and my satisfaction.

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48

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An intensity-heart

Is an immense

God-fulfilment-capacity.

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49

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All my mind’s doubt-threats

Are being devoured

By my mounting

Aspiration-heart-flames. ```

50

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Today my soul

Is in full control.

Therefore, today I must succeed

In the battlefield of my life. ```

516

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In Heaven,

We see Paradise.

On earth,

We make Paradise.

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APR 1855. These prayers were given in Gold Coast, Australia — 3 February 2003.↩

52

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My dreams

Are my heart-wings.

My reality

Is my soul-bird. ```

53

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I am the possessor

Of two dreams:

God-quest-dream

And

Ignorance-conquest-dream.

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54

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My soul-life

Is oneness.

My heart-life

Is vastness.

My earth-life

Is God-manifestation-fulness. ```

55

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God wants my patience

And perseverance

To draw His Victory-Chariot.

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56

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My Lord, I miss You.

“My child, I miss you too.”

My Lord, I love You.

“My child, I love you too.”

My Lord, I need You.

“My child, I need you too.”

My Lord,

Will I ever be able

To become like You?

“My child,

That is My only Dream,

My only Dream,

My only Dream.

I want you to be like Me,

Another God.”

My Lord,

Will I be happy then?

“My child,

That I do not know

And I do not want to know.”

My Lord,

Will I be miserable then?

“My child,

That I do not know

And I do not want to know.”

God, my Lord, my Father,

My Eternity’s All,

Such being the case,

I do not want to be another God.

You remain what You eternally are

And please allow me to remain

What I am.

I want to mingle

With the dust of Your Feet

Throughout Eternity.

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577

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Absurd to think and feel

That we take a great risk

While serving God the man

And man the God.

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APR 1861. These prayers were given in Gold Coast, Australia — 4 February 2003.↩

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I am divinely and supremely brave.

That means my enemies

Have either surrendered

Or are about to surrender. ```

59

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The only purpose of my life

Is to grow world-oneness-plants

Inside my aspiration-heart-garden.

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60

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Be quiet.

God the Justice-Light

Is watching you.

Be quiet.

God the Compassion-Height

Wants to whisper something

Extremely important to you.

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61

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I want to be

A corrected man.

God wants me to be

A perfected God. ```

62

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The outer world

Values power.

The inner world

Values time. ```

63

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My eyes are afraid of

World-darkness.

My body is afraid of

My soul’s light. ```

64

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My outer journey

Is the shortest breath.

My inner journey

Is Eternity’s Breath. ```

658

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A new friend

Is a new blessing

From Above.

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APR 1869. These prayers were given in Gold Coast, Australia — 6 February 2003.↩

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An old friend

Is made of

God’s gold Heart.

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67

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An eternal friend

Is a constantly self-giving heart

From the Unseen.

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68

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The only Friend

Both in Heaven and on earth

Is my Lord God,

The Unknowable. ```

69

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In our spiritual life,

Patience is

The success-harbinger.

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70

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In our spiritual life,

Surrender is

The progress-precursor.

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71

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I trust.

Therefore I last

And I outlast.

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72

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My happiness does not depend on

My possessions.

My happiness does not depend on

My renunciation.

My happiness entirely depends on

My constant, cheerful and eager oneness With God’s Will. ```

73

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In theory,

We all have gladly surrendered

To God’s Will.

In reality,

It is shockingly false.

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74

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Alas,

I think of God

Only when my desire-hunger

Ruthlessly tortures me. ```

75

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I love God

Not because God loves me

Infinitely more.

I love God

Precisely because

I am extremely, extremely

And extremely fond

Of His inescapable Love-Net. ```

Editor's note

Sri Chinmoy offered the following prayers during his visit to Australia in January 2003.

From:Sri Chinmoy,My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 21, Agni Press, 2003
Sourced from https://srichinmoylibrary.com/apr_21