My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 24

11

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My love of God

Must immensely increase

From this very moment.

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APR 2032. These prayers were given in Solo, Indonesia — 6 December 2003.↩

2

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My God-Feet-devotion

Must immensely increase

From this very moment.

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3

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My God-heart-surrender

Must immensely increase

From this very moment.

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4

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With my aspiration-cries

And my dedication-smiles,

I am desperately trying

To make up for lost time. ```

5

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My Lord’s Compassion-Eye

Loves to play all the time

With the tears and smiles

Of my heart. ```

6

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My Lord Beloved Supreme

Is extremely fond

Of my heart-whispers.

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7

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My Lord wants

The beauty of my smiles

To be invincible.

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8

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My Lord wants

The fragrance of my tears

To be indestructible.

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9

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God begs my doubting mind

To mingle

With my aspiring heart.

He also tells my aspiring heart

Not to worry.

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10

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Every single God-seeker

Embodies

God’s Vision-Fulfilment-Eye.

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11

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The desire-life

That I once stupidly chose

I am now wisely

Casting aside. ```

12

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Each moment I can apply

For my conscious ascent

To the highest.

Alas,

What prevents me,

If not my unwillingness-mind? ```

13

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Every day

My Lord Beloved Supreme

Drinks and drinks and drinks

From my gratitude-heart-fountain. ```

142

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My Lord is always eager

To receive the tears

Of my heart.

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APR 2045. These prayers were given in Solo, Indonesia — 7 December 2003.↩

15

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Sooner or later

We needs must journey

Towards the Unknowable.

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16

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My joys know no bounds

When I am

My heart-country-traveller.

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17

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We must realise

That the river of time

Does not wait

For anyone. ```

18

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To my greatest joy,

Inside my Lord’s Heart-Garden

My gratitude-heart-flowers

Keep growing and growing. ```

19

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O my mind,

I am begging you

To come with me only once

Into the silence-world. ```

20

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I must never, never suffer

From a broken heart-relationship

With my Eternity’s Beloved Supreme.

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21

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Alas,

Most of us love

Only emergency prayers.

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22

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My Lord, chain me!

Chain my heart, chain my life

And chain my all

To Your Compassion-flooded Will. ```

23

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May my life’s

God-surrender-shrine-worship

Be fulfilled

In this lifetime. ```

24

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My Lord,

As long as You care

For my heart-garden,

I shall not mind

If You do not care

For my mind-jungle

And my life-market.

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25

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With every God-gratitude-breath

Of mine,

I come closer and closer

To my Lord Supreme. ```

26

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My Lord,

You have endless Names,

But I call You

And I shall forever call You

By only one Name:

Forgiveness. ```

273

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God tells me

That He secretly and proudly treasures

My prayer-life

And my meditation-heart.

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APR 2058. These prayers were given in Solo, Indonesia — 8 December 2003.↩

28

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The sleepless and selfless

Heart-giver

Expects no return.

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29

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The earth-time ticks and ticks

To awaken me.

The Heaven-time beckons

And beckons me

To raise me high, higher, highest.

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30

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Who is my Mother Earth,

If not a ceaseless flood

Of God-Tears?

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31

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Who is my Father Heaven,

If not an ocean

Of God-Smiles?

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32

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God quickly comes

To the seeker

Who does not claim anything.

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33

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God proudly comes running

To the seeker

Who lovingly, devotedly and soulfully

Claims God. ```

34

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I wish every step of my life

To be guided

By the Compassion-Eye

Of my Lord Beloved Supreme. ```

35

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God is exceedingly

And equally pleased

With my sleepless heart-tears

And my breathless soul-smiles. ```

36

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What was I doing?

I was repeating and chanting

God’s Forgiveness-Name.

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37

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What am I doing?

I am repeating and chanting

God’s Compassion-Name.

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38

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What will I be doing?

I will be repeating and chanting

God’s Inspiration, Encouragement

And Enthusiasm-Names. ```

39

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Centuries ago

I started devouring

The golden dust

Of my Lord’s Feet,

And I have not stopped

Even for a fleeting moment. ```

404

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Since my Lord

Does not think of my future,

Why do I have to think

Of my future?

Do I not know

That my future is eternally safe

In my Lord’s Hands?

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APR 2071. These prayers were given in Solo, Indonesia — 9 December 2003.↩

41

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Alas,

Very few people enjoy

Walking along life’s

Transformation-road. ```

42

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When my heart suffers,

My soul comes

With an overwhelming flood

Of sympathy. ```

43

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Move away, my mind!

My God wants to enter

Into my heart.

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44

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How can a seeker

Succeed

Without his faith-breath?

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45

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Self-doubt is, indeed,

The very beginning

Of a dangerous self-threat.

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46

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May my heart

Always remain enraptured

By God’s Sweetness-Eye.

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47

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Every day we should increase

Our love-devotion-surrender-speed

On our God-fulfilment-road.

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48

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Alas,

I do not know how and when

I have lost contact

With my Beloved Supreme. ```

49

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When I cry,

I see myself above earth.

When I smile,

I see myself below Heaven. ```

50

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My aspiration-mountain

And my dedication-fountain

Must work together.

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51

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My life,

Continue to pray!

My heart,

Continue to meditate!

Ignorance-forces before long

Will retire and surrender. ```

52

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My love, my devotion

And my surrender

Have only one Source:

My Lord’s Compassion-Eye. ```

535

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Where is God?

God is just behind me,

Watching me very carefully.

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APR 2084. These prayers were given in Solo, Indonesia — 11 December 2003.↩

54

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What is God doing?

God is merrily dancing

Inside my singing.

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55

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God’s Will

Is not my master.

God’s Will

Is my Eternity’s partner. ```

56

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Our prayers

Inch by inch

Take us to God’s Feet.

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57

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Our meditations

Mile by mile

Take us to God’s Heart.

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58

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As we want to be loved

By God,

God also wants to be loved

By us —

Even more so.

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59

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Hard to believe,

But it is true:

God loves not only

My aspiration-heart,

But also

My recreation-life. ```

60

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Mother Earth

Dearly loves

Her running children.

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61

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Father Heaven

Proudly loves

His meditating children.

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62

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Mother Earth expects

Smile-lustre

From her children.

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63

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Father Heaven expects

Peace-hunger

From His children.

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64

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Be neither a clever seeker

Nor a stupid seeker.

Publicly you smile;

Privately you sigh. ```

65

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All sincere seekers

Agree on one thing:

We need God the Love

More than God the Power. ```

666

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My singing heart

Is God’s proud Eye.

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APR 2097. These prayers were given in Solo, Indonesia — 12 December 2003.↩

67

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There was a time

When I was a lover

Of God’s Feet,

But now I am a devourer

Of God’s ambrosial Feet-dust.

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68

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Sleepless self-giving

Knows no equal. ```

69

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The mind thinks

That it can easily live

Without God’s Love.

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70

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The heart feels and knows

That it cannot live

Even a fleeting second

Without God’s Love. ```

71

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My Lord’s Compassion-Eye

And my heart-cries

Can never be separated.

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72

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My Lord tells me

That He does not want

To hear from me

My sad news and bad news

Any more.

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73

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God’s Pride-Eye

And my love-heart

Celebrate elaborately

Our mutual arrivals. ```

74

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Insecurity-heart disappears

Only when

God’s Compassion-Eye appears.

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75

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My heart-tears

Have a free access

To my Lord’s Smile-Eye.

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76

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Outwardly God does not tell me

What He thinks of my visits

To His Heart-Home,

But inwardly He does.

I know it, I can feel it —

It is all His blessingful Love

And Joy.

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77

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The mind

Does not love God.

The mind

Does not need God.

It enjoys only

Its self-importance. ```

78

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I have only one desire:

I wish to be

A breathless, heart-diving

God-lover. ```

Editor's note

Sri Chinmoy offered the following prayers during his visit to Solo, Indonesia in December 2003.

From:Sri Chinmoy,My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 24, Agni Press, 2004
Sourced from https://srichinmoylibrary.com/apr_24