My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 28

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My Lord takes care

Not only of my divine qualities,

But also of my undivine qualities.

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APR 2325. These prayers were given in Yogyakarta, Indonesia — 28 December 2003.↩

2

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My Lord takes care

Not only of my success-mind

And progress-heart,

But also of my failure-life. ```

3

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My Lord takes care

Not only of my soul’s

Strengthening smiles,

But also of my life’s

Tearing fears.

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4

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My Lord loves

My body’s baby steps

And my soul’s giant steps

Equally. ```

5

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I love

My Lord’s Thunder-Kicks

More than I love

My Lord’s Sweetness-Heart.

Why, why, why?

Because I desire

The fastest progress.

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6

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I love

My Lord’s Volcano-Eye

More than I love

My Lord’s soft and tender Caresses.

Why, why, why?

Because I desire

The fastest progress.

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7

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Now that I am at the Lotus-Feet

Of my Lord Supreme,

My desire-life has come

To a complete and permanent halt. ```

8

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Today I am so happy

Precisely because

My age-old stubborn mind

Is running towards

My Lord’s Heart-Home.

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9 Today I Am So Happy ...

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Today I am so happy

Because my heart-tears

And God’s Heart-Smiles

Are singing and dancing together. ```

10

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Today I am so happy to see

That my infinite Lord

Has chosen my finite life

To play with Him. ```

112

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Nobody knows

Which came into existence first:

Love or the heart.

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APR 2335. These prayers were given in Yogyakarta, Indonesia — 29 December 2003.↩

12

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May my aspiration-heart-river

Run, singing,

Towards the Ocean Unknowable.

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13

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May my dedication-life

Fly, dancing,

Towards the Skies Unknowable.

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14

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The tears of my heart

Are always ascending

Towards Heaven.

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15

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The smiles of my soul

Are always descending

Towards the earth.

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16

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God has chosen

His Cosmic Eye

To be the sole Conductor

Of His Cosmic Orchestra. ```

17

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My devotion-tears

My Lord Supreme enjoys

As His most delicious feast.

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18

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My cheerfulness-temptation

God cannot resist.

He comes running

To grab it! ```

19

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My God-gratitude-heart

Is, indeed, a fact,

Not a legend.

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20

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God created each human being

In a unique way

So that He can be pleased

By each human being

In a unique way.

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213

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My Lord Supreme

Takes His Compassion-Exercises

Twenty-four hours a day.

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APR 2345. These prayers were given in Yogyakarta, Indonesia — 30 December 2003.↩

22

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Love the world

And serve the world

Unconditionally.

You will be the golden bridge

Between today’s world

And the years ahead of you. ```

23

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My Lord,

It is Your flaming Breath

Inside my heart

That is keeping me alive

Here on earth.

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24

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No more shallow promises,

My Lord!

This time I am determined

To fulfil my promise.

I shall please You at every moment

In Your own Way. ```

25

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The silence of the mind

Embodies

The Power of the Infinite.

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26

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A wasted moment

Is the very beginning

Of my failure-life.

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27

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I was the worst possible fool.

I took my Lord’s

Compassion-flooded Eye

For granted. ```

28

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Each and every surrender-breath

Of my heart

Prayerfully watches my Lord

Smiling, singing and dancing. ```

29

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My sleepless surrender

To God’s Will

Must never falter,

Never! ```

30

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Every morning and every evening

My Beloved Supreme sumptuously feeds

My aspiration-heart

And my dedication-life

To strengthen them

So that they can perform

Their respective tasks

Most successfully and most gloriously. ```

314

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The difference between

God’s Eye and God’s Heart

Is this:

God’s Eye promises;

God’s Heart fulfils.

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APR 2355. These prayers were given in Yogyakarta, Indonesia — 31 December 2003.↩

32

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God-Existence

In my life

Is my heart’s faith-flame.

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33

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Silence speaks.

Silence speaks

Very, very quietly.

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34

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Silence listens.

Silence listens

Very, very carefully.

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35

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As the prison door

Of my doubting mind

Is wide open,

Even so the Heart-Door

Of my Lord Supreme

Is sleeplessly and completely open. ```

36

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My heart-bird flies and flies

And then encircles

My soul-sky.

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37

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My mind knows

How to impose

Limitation-boundaries.

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38

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My soul and I know

How to smash asunder

All the limitation-boundaries

Created by the mind. ```

39

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Newness glows

In God’s Eye

Breathtakingly.

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40

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Fulness grows

In God’s Heart

Sempiternally.

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41

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I place

My God-gratitude-heart-garland

At my Lord’s Lotus-Feet.

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42

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My Lord picks up my garland

From His Feet

And puts it around my neck

With His Transcendental Smile

And Pride.

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435

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This morning

My Inner Pilot said to me,

“My child,

Let your heart and My Heart

Exchange their gratitude-beauty,

Gratitude-fragrance

And gratitude-delight.”

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APR 2367. These prayers were given in Yogyakarta, Indonesia — 1 January 2004.↩

44

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Today the talker in me

Has surrendered completely

To the God-server in me.

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45

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Today something absolutely new

Must take place

In my spiritual life.

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46

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Today my soul, my heart,

My mind, my vital,

My body and I

Together must do something

Unprecedented.

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47

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Today without fail

I shall make God,

My only Master-Lord,

Happy in His own Way. ```

48

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An endless

Desire-darkness-life

I was.

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49

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A sleepless and breathless

Aspiration-light-heart

I now am.

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50

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God does not want to know

What I do

As long as I keep His Vision-Eye

In each and every action of mine. ```

51

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Readiness, soulfulness,

Willingness, eagerness and I

Have decided to make oneness

Our team captain. ```

52

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If God thinks I can,

Then definitely I can.

I must do it!

Lo, I have done it:

My God-surrender unconditional.

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53

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My mind,

Do you really want to be happy?

Then start thinking,

Start doing,

Start becoming

Only in God’s own Way. ```

54

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Today

I have completely liberated myself

From the fetters

Of my doubting and suspecting mind. ```

55

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Today I am swimming

In the sea of delight,

For I am able to run

At long last

The full length

Of my Lord’s commanding Will. ```

566

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My God-hungry eyes,

I deeply love you.

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APR 2380. These prayers were given in Yogyakarta, Indonesia — 2 January 2004.↩

57

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My God-hungry heart,

I desperately need you. ```

58

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Beautiful

When my Lord’s Eye

Beckons me.

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59

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Blissful

When my Lord’s Heart

Beckons me.

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60

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Godful

When my Lord’s Feet

Beckon me.

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61

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God’s Compassion-Eye

Most carefully watches

My sleeping heart, my sleeping mind,

My sleeping vital and my sleeping body. ```

62

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Smiling, singing and dancing,

My Lord meets with

My surrender’s every need.

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63

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My outer God-obedience-life

Garners

Abundant inner wealth.

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64

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My inner God-obedience-heart

Feeds and nourishes unreservedly

My outer life.

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65

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My Lord dances

His Ecstasy-Dance

When my heart’s inner day

Begins to break. ```

66

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O God-obedience-sky,

My aspiration-heart-flames

Are climbing fast, very fast,

To reach you

And be an inner member

Of your family. ```

677

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From the higher worlds

The spiritual Masters,

Out of their infinite bounty,

Come down to visit me,

Bless me most powerfully,

Speak to me most affectionately

And appreciate my God-service

To humanity

Most unreservedly.

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APR 2391. These prayers were given in Yogyakarta, Indonesia — 3 January 2004.↩

688

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I must fulfil

The needs of my soul —

I must!

What are the needs of my soul?

My sleepless God-hunger

And my breathless God-service.

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APR 2392. These prayers were given in Legian, Bali, Indonesia — 4 January 2004.↩

69

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The desire-life-stories

Are extremely painful. ```

70

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The aspiration-heart-songs

Are exceedingly haunting. ```

71

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I love and bow to,

I bow to and love the God-seekers

Who are infinitely more advanced

Than I am

In the spiritual life.

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72

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My heart, my mind,

My vital, my body and I

Are fully prepared

To be unconditionally surrendered

God-instruments.

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73

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Our heart-days

Are

Our God-promise-fulfilment-days.

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74

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No rest

After God-realisation.

No rest

Even after God-manifestation —

God comes with a new Dream.

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Editor's note

Sri Chinmoy offered the following prayers during his visit to Yogyakarta and Bali, Indonesia in December 2003 and January 2004.

From:Sri Chinmoy,My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 28, Agni Press, 2004
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