My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 32

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My own inner capacities

Frighten me.

My own outer capacities

Sadden me.

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APR 2635. These prayers were given in Sanya, China — 29 November 2004.↩

2

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My Lord is telling me

That He feeds on my aspiring,

Climbing and flaming heart.

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3

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To transform the world,

The God-messengers do bring down

The nectar-flooded Messages

From God

Most perfectly.

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4

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Alas,

I do not know when and where

I shall start my gratitude-heart

To my Lord Beloved Supreme. ```

5

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My Lord has promised me

His Golden Shore.

Therefore, I do not mind in the least

Travelling through endless

Darkness-nights.

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6

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My world-attachment-addiction-licence

Has just expired.

I shall never, never, never renew it.

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7

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No seeker

Will ever be able to escape

From his giant ego-enemy.

The seeker must conquer

This enemy.

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8

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Each seeker

Has to be endowed

With an indomitable faith

In God. ```

92

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Each prayer

Is a flame of my heart

Climbing towards

The highest Heaven.

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APR 2643. These prayers were given in Sanya, China — 30 November 2004.↩

10

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Each meditation

Is a unique opportunity

For me to establish

My conscious oneness

With my Absolute Lord Supreme.

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11

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If I am not absolutely sincere

In my prayers

And in my meditations,

How can my soul set fire

To my desire-life-house?

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12

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If I really want to make

The fastest progress

In my spiritual life,

My Lord’s Compassion-Eye

Is bound to help me

To attempt the impossible task

And be victorious.

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13

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Before I pray and meditate,

My soul feeds my heart, my mind,

My vital and my body

With a dynamic enthusiasm

And intense eagerness.

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14

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Each self-giving action of mine

Immediately becomes

A most beautiful flower

In my Lord’s Victory-Garland. ```

15

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Each time I obey my Lord Supreme

Happily and unconditionally,

He comes nearer and nearer,

Proudly and triumphantly,

Towards me.

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16

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First I must become

A sleepless and breathless God-lover.

Only then can I become

An unmistakable God-winner. ```

17

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Each life

Is the Beauty

Of God’s Love.

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18

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Each heart

Is the Fragrance

Of God’s Delight.

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19

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Nothing puzzles my Lord —

No, not even my ingratitude-mind.

But it shocks my heart

Most powerfully. ```

20

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My Beloved Lord says to me,

“Do not come to Me, My child,

For your perfection.

Just come to Me only

For My own Satisfaction.”

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21

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When I claim God

As my own, very own,

I give myself

Ten out of one hundred. ```

22

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When God claims me

As His own, very own,

I give myself

One hundred out of one hundred.

My Compassion-flooded

Lord Beloved Supreme

Does not agree with me.

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233

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Desire kills the seeker.

Aspiration revives the seeker.

Aspiration says to the seeker,

“O seeker,

If you really love me,

Then stop loving desire!”

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APR 2657. These prayers were given in Sanya, China — 1 December 2004.↩

24

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I must stop

My life’s desire-train

Immediately.

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25

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I must fly

My aspiration-plane

Every day without fail.

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26

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Doubt

Is world-torture.

Faith

Is God-rapture. ```

27

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For a true God-seeker,

Aspiration-world

Is the only world.

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28

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We are promoted and honoured

In the inner world

Only when we stop expecting

From the outer world. ```

29

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My mind cares

Only for power —

God-Power.

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30

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My heart cares

Only for the things

That are about God.

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314

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My desire

Is my God-lost life.

My aspiration

Is my God-found life.

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APR 2665. These prayers were given in Sanya, China — 2 December 2004.↩

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Alas,

My Lord is still waiting for me,

Even at the eleventh hour.

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33

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All my God-dreams

Are flooded

With my God-sweetness-fondness-smiles.

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34

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My heart hears constantly

God-Whispers:

“Go forward, My child, go forward!”

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35

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The heart’s God-devotion

And the life’s God-sweetness

Are inseparable.

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36

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The body binds us

Unconsciously and unintentionally. ```

37

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We bind the body

Consciously and purposely. ```

38

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Many, many, many times

I have come and gone.

Alas, my life is still

A God-forgetfulness-sleep. ```

39

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Each soul

Is a special God-Dream-Beauty

And God-Reality-Fragrance.

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405

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God wants me to pave

My life-road to my destination

With the tears of my heart

And the smiles of my soul.

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APR 2674. These prayers were given in Sanya, China — 3 December 2004.↩

41

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I have come into the world

To establish my friendship

And not my lordship.

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42

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In the dedication-world,

Our swift feet and our strong arms

Receive very special Blessings

From God. ```

43

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A true seeker

Feels sad and miserable

When he is away from

His God-silence-heart-home. ```

44

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We must cover countless miles

Of aspiration-dedication-road

Before we can arrive

At our God-realisation-destination. ```

45

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God for God’s sake —

This is, indeed,

The only perfect choice

In a seeker’s life. ```

46

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An eagerness-God-server

Gets more and more work

From God’s proud Heart.

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47

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My desire-fulfilment-hunger

Has finally surrendered

To my God-needs.

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48

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I must focus only

On my destination,

And not on my mind-hesitation.

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49

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God deliberately ignores

Our curiosity-mind-questions. ```

506

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We have no idea

When the time will arrive.

Time keeps it a top secret.

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APR 2684. These prayers were given in Sanya, China — 4 December 2004.↩

51

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Every seeker has the capacity

To be tall, very tall,

In inner height.

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52

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God does not want to remember

The names

Of proud seekers.

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53

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God says to a humble seeker,

“My child,

I want you to use

My own Name.” ```

54

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The foundation of realisation

Is unconditional surrender

To God’s Will.

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55

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Those who sincerely pray

Will never want to be

On their own.

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56

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I came into the world

To pull Heaven down quickly

And push earth up very carefully.

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57

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Every morning I meet and greet

God’s Compassion-Eye

Most soulfully.

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58

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Do not wait

For a new year.

Here and now

Make a fresh start

To realise God.

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59

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The heart

Of a true disciple

Is always original.

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60

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I do not care for

The name of a seeker,

But I do care for

The God-loving and God-caring soul. ```

61

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It is the hard-earned progress

That endures. ```

62

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To be independent

Of God’s Will

Is an absurdity.

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63

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At times

God’s Silence

Is the very best answer.

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647

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May my life be fed

By my heart’s

Sunrise-beauty.

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APR 2698. These prayers were given in Sanya, China — 5 December 2004.↩

65

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The most effective medicine

Here on earth

Is love unconditional.

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66

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Those who live in the desire-forest

Will not be allowed to live

In God’s Heart-Nest.

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67

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The outer books

Cannot cure the world.

The inner book can.

What is the inner book?

Our faith in God and in ourselves.

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68

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God chose me

To be a lamb, His lamb,

In the inner world.

Now God is preparing me

To be a lion, His lion,

In the outer world. ```

69

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God wants from me

An action-answer

And not a speech-answer.

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70

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Adversity can be

A unique education-helper. ```

71

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Do not curse the darkness-night.

Try to live always

In the Heart of Light.

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72

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Not when I die,

But when I dive deep within,

Will I arrive at God’s Heart-Door.

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73

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My Lord,

To my heart

You are the Lord of Compassion.

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74

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My Lord,

To my mind

You are the Lord of Indifference.

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75

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My Lord,

To my eyes

You are the Lord

Of ever-transcending Beauty. ```

76

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My Lord,

To my life

You are the Lord

Of ever-self-giving Duty. ```

77

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My Lord,

I worship the Beauty unparalleled

Of Your Eye.

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78

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My Lord,

I worship the Fragrance exquisite

Of Your Heart.

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79

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First dream and dream

And then act and act,

Ceaselessly and unconditionally.

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Editor's note

Sri Chinmoy offered the following prayers during his visit to Sanya, China in November and December 2004.

From:Sri Chinmoy,My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 32, Agni Press, 2005
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