Aurora-Flora

My inferiority

Inferiority, my inferiority!

That you are hurting

How can I forgive you

Inferiority, my inferiority!

That you are killing

How can I forgive you

Inferiority, my inferiority!

That you are disappointing

How can I forgive you

Inferiority, my inferiority!

That you are deserting

How can I forgive you

My aspiration is my preparation

My aspiration is my preparation.

My preparation is for my emptiness.

My emptiness is my readiness.

My emptiness-readiness pleases

My fulness-readiness pleases

I love my Beloved Supreme

I love my body.

Carefully.

I love my vital.

Forcefully.

I love my mind.

Dauntlessly.

I love my heart.

Wisely.

I love my soul.

Devotedly.

I love my Beloved Supreme.

Sleeplessly, unreservedly

My determination

Determination, my determination!

You are supremely good inside my heart.

From the helpless poverty

You smash impossibility's Everest-pride

You show me tomorrow's far-distant God

O my life's Beloved Supreme

O my mind's dear Supreme,

I am great because You like me.

O my heart's sweet Supreme,

I am good because You love me.

O my life's Beloved Supreme,

Not because I am always satisfied;

Because You want me.

Discipline

Discipline, discipline, discipline,

Discipline is my faithfulness

Discipline is my faithfulness

Discipline is my faithfulness

Discipline is my faithfulness

Discipline is my faithfulness

Discipline is my faithfulness

Supreme.

My discipline is an opportunity-seed.

My discipline is a manifestation-tree.

When my entire life becomes

My Lord comes to me and says:

And I will be sailing you

Two special names

"My child, then give Me a soulful promise."

My Lord Supreme, I do not know what a soulful promise is. I promise in season and out of season, but never do I fulfil my promises. Such being the case, my Lord Supreme, please tell me what I can offer You instead of a soulful promise.

"My child, then tell Me that you will love Me divinely."

My Lord Supreme, I do not know what divine Love is. How can I offer You divine Love when I do not know what divine Love feels like?

"My child, then give Me a fruitful cry. Cry for Me once, only once in your life."

Alas, my Lord Supreme, I do not cry even for myself. How do You expect me to cry for You?

I wanted to bind You

My sweet Supreme, I wanted to bind Your Peace with my aspiration-life. I failed.

My sweet Supreme, I wanted to bind Your Bliss with my dedication-life. I failed.

My sweet, sweeter and sweetest Supreme, I wanted to bind Your Love with my surrender-life. I failed.

Please tell me why I failed each and every time. Why, my sweet, sweeter and sweetest Supreme?

"My sweet child, my sweeter child, my sweetest child, you failed because you wanted to bind My possessions. You will succeed only if you bind Me and not My possessions."

My sweet, sweeter and sweetest Lord Supreme, then tell me what You are.

"My sweet child, my sweeter child, my sweetest child, I am My Infinity's Compassion for you. I am My Eternity's Concern for you and I am My Immortality's Love for you.

"If you can bind Me, then automatically you will be able to bind My possessions as well. But if you try to bind My possessions, you will never succeed and, at the same time, I shall always remain far, far, far, infinitely far away from you.

What can I do?

What can I do?

My Lord's constant Forgiveness

What else can I do?

My Lord's constant Love

What can I see?

A beautiful sunrise

What else can I see?

A moonlit night

What can I give and receive?

My ant-tiny gratitude

And receive from Him

Left to myself

Left to myself,

A perfect slave

Left to myself,

A good friend

Left to myself,

My attacking vital.

Left to myself,

An ardent admirer

Left to myself,

With my weeping heart.

Left to myself,

My illumining soul.

Left to myself,

Far away,

Of my Beloved Supreme.

But oh, I cannot do that.

I shall always remain

I shall always remain

I shall always remain with the Vision

I shall always remain for the Manifestation

Him to please in His own Way,

An ever-climbing tree;

An ever-inspiring flower;

An ever-nourishing fruit.

Ambition, my friend unparalleled

Ambition, my friend unparalleled,

To come out of lethargy-night.

Ambition, my friend unparalleled,

To smash asunder

Of frustration-slavery.

Ambition, my friend unparalleled,

To free its luminous vision

Ambition, my friend unparalleled,

To free its marvellous peace

Ambition, my friend unparalleled,

To dream in and through me

And triumphantly.

Ambition, my friend unparalleled,

To make me a perfect instrument of His,

And unreservedly.

Ambition, my friend unparalleled,

I create not only a satisfaction-world

But also a promise-world outside me;

And a challenging and fulfilling reality

Ambition, my friend unparalleled,

I destroy my inner world

And I also destroy my outer world

Ambition, my friend unparalleled,

So that at every moment

My sincerity,

And

What is a miracle?

I am a seeker. I am a God-lover. I pray and meditate every day. That means I have chosen God to be my eternal Pilot, and God has chosen me to be eternally His own. That means I am part and parcel of divinity. Such being the case, how is it possible for me to become jealous? How is it possible for me to become insecure? How is it possible for me to become impure? To become jealous, insecure or impure — is this not an unhappy miracle, a deplorable miracle, that I perform every day?

I am an insignificant human being. For years and years I have cherished my friendship with teeming doubts. But now I have a new friend: a blossoming faith. For me to transform my life of doubt into a life of faith — is this not a miracle, a happy miracle?

Desire-life was my favourite reality. But now aspiration-life has become my favourite reality, my only reality. Is this not a miracle?

I am not even six feet tall. Yet I am praying to the Absolute Supreme to reach His infinite Height, which is far beyond even my imagination's flight. For me to long to grow into that Height — is this not a miracle?

I am mortal. My thoughts, my deeds, my experiences — everything that I have and everything that I am — represent mortality. Yet despite everything that I have and everything that I am, I am longing for Immortality. Is this not a miracle?

If I enter into friendship with ignorance, if I become a friend of jealousy, meanness, insecurity and impurity, then I must feel that I am performing deplorable miracles day in and day out.

Again, when I feel one with humanity, when I think of vastness, luminosity, oneness and God-Satisfaction in God's own Way, then at that time also I am performing miracles, supreme miracles.

It is up to me whether to play the role of an ignorant weakling or an all-knowing God-man, whether to perform deplorable miracles or divine miracles.

I shall no longer allow

Body, my stupid body,

To have an inordinate hunger.

Vital, my shameless vital,

To have an insatiable thirst.

Mind, my clever mind,

To fall under the sweep of your arguments.

Heart, my hopeless heart,

To remain timidity incarnate.

Soul, my former friend,

To remain indifferent towards me.

God, my bountiful God,

To remain unconscious

Superiority

Why do I have to be always in the world of darkening, threatening and killing fear? I want joy at every moment, and this joy I can never get from you. The fleeting joy that I get from sitting an inch higher than the rest of the world disappears when I see the arrows of jealousy, meanness, anger and frustration that others hurl at me. The joy I get by becoming a little bit superior to others is insignificant in comparison to the suffering I then go through. I need abiding happiness, and this happiness I can never get from you, O superiority.

I do not need and I do not want inferiority, either. Inferiority always kills me with sorrow, despondency, fear, doubt and meanness. In the battlefield of life inferiority sometimes gives way and surrenders helplessly to superiority, thinking that it is a hopeless case to fight against it any more. Willingly or unwillingly inferiority serves superiority. Inferiority unconsciously wants to remain where it is, while superiority never, never wants to come down to the level of inferiority or allow inferiority to be on the same footing. Superiority fights until the last moment to maintain its supremacy. It never wants to give up its pedestal.

O superiority, I do not need you and I do not want you. O inferiority, I do not need you and I do not want you. O equality, I need you and I want you desperately and sleeplessly. I will need you until the divine Hour dawns when I know consciously what God's Will is. Once I know precisely what God's Will is and once I can cheerfully and unconditionally execute God's Will, then in my life of aspiration and dedication there can be no such thing as superiority or inferiority. When I am all oneness with the universal and transcendental Will of my Beloved Supreme, happiness will reign supreme in my heart of aspiration and in my life of dedication.

My advice to my Beloved Supreme

Not only do I talk too much; what is worse, I literally die for a listening ear. And as if that were not enough, I also want to give advice to each and every soul on earth, with no exception.

When I give advice, I expect appreciation and admiration from everybody. I expect everybody to extol me to the skies. Alas, nobody pays any heed to my advice. Nobody needs or appreciates my advice. Yet I go on talking and talking, giving advice to each and every human being on earth.

I also advise the members of my earthly existence — my body, vital, mind and heart. But they do not listen to me either. I even advise my soul. I advise my soul-bird not to leave this beautiful cage called the body, for if it leaves this cage, then I shall die. I want to be immortal. I want to remain on earth forever and forever.

I even dare to advise You, my Beloved Supreme. Lord, O my Eternity's Lord Supreme, I know You have many names, whereas I have but one name. Since it is not fair for You to have many names while I have only one, I beg of You to have only one name. If You cannot agree to my proposal, if You do not listen to my advice, then please have only two names. More than two names I do not want You to have, especially for me. Your two names will be Compassion-Sun and Forgiveness-Ocean. When I need compassion, I shall call You Compassion-Sun. When I need forgiveness, I shall call You Forgiveness-Ocean. These are the two names I would like You to have from now on. All Your other names will no longer be used by me.

Indifference

My body is indifferent to the dynamic urge of my vital. My vital is indifferent to the well-earned rest of my body.

My mind is indifferent to the soulful cry of my heart. My heart is indifferent to the inquisitive quest of my mind.

My soul is indifferent to the slow efforts, slower success and even slower progress of my life.

Even my Beloved Supreme, it seems, is indifferent to my supreme realisation. Had He flooded my entire being with His Concern supreme, I am sure I would not have been waiting for millennia for my realisation.

Alas, alas, O my Beloved Supreme, do tell me why You are indifferent to me, and why the rest of the members of my family are indifferent to one another.

"My sweet child, I am not indifferent to you. Dive deep within and you will see that constant Concern is My only name.

Dear brother, sweet sister

January, my dear brother January,

February, my sweet sister February,

March, my dear brother March,

April, my sweet sister April,

May, my sweet sister May,

June, my dear brother June,

Concentration-arrow.

July, my sweet sister July,

August, my dear brother August,

September, my sweet sister September,

October, my sweet sister October,

November, my sweet sister November,

December, my dear brother December,

Satisfaction-roar.

Ambition

It is you who help me to transform my inordinate pride into sacred humility.

The seeker-heart in me, with your help, can sing the song of universal oneness.

Nobody else but you alone can make three most rare, sleepless efforts. By virtue of your sleepless efforts, you pull God the Compassion down, you push man the aspiration up and every day you inspire and energise my seeker-heart.

You have peace

You have peace.

You have wisdom.

You have love.

You have concern.

You have dedication.

You have aspiration.

The living God within you.

That means you know constantly

You know constantly who you are.

Humanity's eternal cry

Divinity's eternal Smile.

I shall learn and learn

I shall learn and learn

I shall learn and learn

Unreservedly.

I shall learn and learn

Unmistakably.

I shall learn and learn

Satisfactorily.

I shall learn and learn

Powerfully.

I shall learn and learn

Calling me His chosen child

What is needed

What is needed

What is needed

What is needed

What is needed

Is a prayerful life.

What is needed

Is a soulful heart.

What is needed

Is a fruitful surrender.

What is needed

God comes first always,

God for God's sake.

God the Creator

I do not deny the fact that

And God the Creation are one.

Between God the Creator

Then I shall always choose

God the Creator.

And this will always remain

For God the Creator

I wish to be always

In the Source

Hope

Hope,

My most sacred friend,

And

Only because of you

Only because of you

That someday I will be able

Only because of you

That there shall come a time

Will be totally changed.

I feel that there shall come a time

Will be transformed,

And

Hope,

Both God and I treasure you,

I need you to realise

My Beloved Supreme needs you

Independence

The human in me thinks that it is dependent on the persons it agrees with. It thinks that it loses its independence as soon as it sees eye to eye with others.

The divine in me thinks otherwise. It thinks that when it agrees with others, it enlarges its vision and establishes firmly its oneness with the rest of the world.

The human in me feels that it loses its independence the moment it takes something from others or even expects something from others.

The divine in me feels otherwise. The divine in me feels that God's creation is for give and take. Give what you have and take what you need, for there is only one common Source, and that Source is God. This moment God is playing the role of the Giver through me, and the next moment He is playing the role of the Receiver through me. It is all oneness-game.

The human in me thinks that it loses its independence as soon as it starts thinking of others, whether they are good or bad. It feels the supreme necessity of thinking only of itself and not of anybody or anything else, because it feels that nothing belongs to it.

The divine in me feels otherwise. The divine in me thinks, feels and knows that the moment it thinks of God, it creates a thought-world that is the precursor of an action-world. Once we have established a reality in the thought-world, then the next step is to bring that reality into the action-world for manifestation. In our action-life only can we have true satisfaction.

The divine in me knows that there is and there can be no such thing as independence. It is all dependence, and inside dependence what looms large is the message of constant oneness. God gives us what He has — His Compassion. We give God what we have — our love. God gives us what He is — His Goodness. We give God what we truly are — our aspiration to become greater.

Grievances

Alas, alas, alas!

I have a grievance

I have a grievance

I have a grievance

I have a grievance

I have a grievance

I have a grievance

I have a grievance

I have a grievance

Of my soul.

Against the fruitlessness-dreams

Alas, alas, alas!

Do tell me how I can free myself

"My child,

From the tyranny of grievances

That we all love you —

And I love you.

With us

From your teeming grievances against us.

You will succeed.

Illumining light,

And

Why am I so unhappy?

My Supreme Lord,

"My child,

Your body is afraid of everything.

Your vital complains about everything.

Your mind wants everything

You are unhappy because

My Supreme Lord,

"My child,

Effectively and permanently

That you are of

God,

The universally fruitful Reality, God."

Because you are a born-heart

Because you are a born-heart, My child,

No, not even the greatest doubter

Because you are a child-heart, My child,

No, not even the worst possible rogue

Because you are a oneness-heart, My child,

No, not even the most powerful

Can divide you.

A born-heart, a child-heart

Are unparalleled treasures

My Lord Supreme's most powerful weapon

There was a time when my Lord Supreme

In infinite measure.

That I did not deserve His Forgiveness.

His Forgiveness.

There was a time when my Lord Supreme

In infinite measure.

That I did not deserve His Compassion.

His Compassion.

There was a time when my Lord Supreme

In infinite measure.

That I did not deserve His Tolerance.

His Tolerance.

Now my Lord Supreme says to me,

From now on I shall come to you

Which is, indeed, another way

"But if you fail even this time,

My most powerful weapon:

Of all My weapons,

The most destructive.

O useless seeker!"

Happiness

Happiness, happiness!

My unparalleled friend, happiness!

You help me to purify sorrow's presence.

You help me to enlighten my strength.

Of promise-dawn.

Of satisfaction-moon.

The human in me.

The divine in me.

The Supreme in me.

You were, you are

My Eternity's only true friend.

What do I need?

The stone existence in me

The plant existence in me

The animal existence in me

The human existence in me

The divine existence in me

The supreme Existence in me

And what do I need?

If and when I do not love you soulfully

My Supreme Lord,

Do punish me.

If and when I start loving You soulfully,

How to love You unconditionally.

My Supreme Lord,

Do punish me.

If and when I start loving myself divinely,

How to love myself sleeplessly

Of Your Compassion-Eye

Your Forgiveness-Heart.

I have immediate solutions

My seeker friends,

That you have immediate problems.

I wish to tell you

My solutions are very simple and direct.

Just come with me and sit

Just come with me and look

Just come with me and swim

Satisfaction-Heart.

Lo and behold, all your problems

Forever and forever.

Editor's note

My aspiration is my preparation, 16 September 1980

My determination, 18 September 1980

Discipline, 20 September 1980

I wanted to bind You, 23 September 1980

Left to myself, 25 September 1980

What is a miracle?, 27 September 1980

Superiority, 28 September 1980

Indifference, 30 September 1980

Ambition, 2 October 1980

I shall learn and learn, 4 October 1980

God the Creator, 5 October 1980

Independence, 7 October 1980

Why am I so unhappy?, 9 October 1980

My Lord Supreme's most powerful weapon, 21 October 1980

What do I need?, 24 October 1980