If we take falsehood as our very own, what happens? Truth remains silent. But if we are eager to follow the truth, then falsehood comes and strikes us, insults us, discourages us. At the same time, truth is not extremely eager to claim us because it has seen how many times we have touched its feet and promised that we would listen to it, but time and again this has been all idle talk. We say that we will follow the path of truth, but the next moment we go and listen to falsehood because we get more pleasure there. Truth has heard our false promises hundreds and thousands of times.
When we really do try to fulfil the promise that we made to truth, we may feel falsehood pulling at our mind. “Where are you going?” it says. “You promised me that you would always remain with me.” But if the day comes when truth sees that we are absolutely sincere, at that time it fights most powerfully against falsehood. And if we become totally one with truth, we will see that all the dark forces inside us and around us have no choice but to surrender.
Again, some people cry for light sincerely, but without satisfactory results, simply because God’s destined Hour has not yet arrived. If a farmer feels that on the very day he starts working to cultivate his land he should get a bumper crop, he will get disgusted and abandon the field when he sees no result after a few weeks of sincere effort. Although sincerity is important, time is still a great factor. The field can only produce satisfactory fruit at God’s own time. Our timing and God’s timing need not be, and very often are not, the same. If we are one hundred per cent surrendered, we will feel that if we are not getting satisfactory results, we will wait forever for God’s Hour. But if we are not surrendered, we will not accept God’s Will. We will become depressed and disheartened and give up the battle, and we will certainly be the losers.
What we need is light. But if light does not come, we must be ready to wait an Eternity for infinite Light to surcharge our inner and outer being. Then falsehood will immediately feel that we are ready to wait for millions of years in order to bathe in the sea of Light, and it will lose its interest in us. If God wants to, He can give us what we want at once, but if He feels that this is not the appropriate time, we have to wait. Then, if we have patience, which itself is the extension of light or of consciousness, we can feel that we are increasing the light that we have and the light that is entering into us.From:Sri Chinmoy,Beyond Within — A collection of writings 1964-1974, Agni Press, 1975
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