My Past-Incarnation Books

When I started meditating early each morning at seven minutes past two, Sri Aurobindo showed me how to meditate, and what to meditate on. Then, in a few days time, he opened up my past-incarnation books and showed me how I had meditated. In those incarnations I lived a very austere life. American life is comfortable, but in those incarnations there was no such thing as comfort – it was only austerity-life. Our present path is the middle path, and some comfort is available. But in those previous incarnations of mine, there was no comfort.

Sometimes at Aspiration-Ground, in our gully adjacent to the tennis court, when Paree’s group sang during Celebrations while I walked on the track, on either side I used to see myself in previous incarnations. You would become frightened if you saw me in those incarnations! My face, my entire body, was all austerity. In this incarnation I have never used mala beads, but in those days I used mala beads and my forehead was besmeared with ash. In this incarnation I have never used and will never use ash. That chapter is all over. In this incarnation I was brought up at the Sri Aurobindo Ashram, and they did not give any importance to those things. There we adopted modernism, the middle path.

Nobody would recognise me with the face of my previous incarnations! Only if you entered into the heart or the soul, perhaps, you would recognise me, but not by looking at the face. If you saw my face, you would be shocked.

In this incarnation God gave me a bearable face, and perhaps I had a few incarnations with a very beautiful face.

4 February 2002, Sabah, Malaysia

From:Sri Chinmoy,Depend on Grace, Agni Press, 2023
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