The Dance of Life, part 17

801. God gave me

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God gave me patience

To wait for Him.

God gave me sight

To look for Him.

God gave me love

To claim Him.

God gave me Bliss

To distribute Him. ```

802. Save me, expose me

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Sweet Lord,

Save me from myself.

Save me from my inner conflicts.

Save me from my bold distrust.

Save me from my sleepless complaints.

Master Lord,

Expose me.

Expose my blind weaknesses.

Expose my giant failures.

Expose my shameless ingratitude.

Expose my undying ignorance. ```

803. I am tired

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Lord,

I am too tired to meditate,

Yet

I meditate.

Lord,

I am too tired to dedicate,

Yet

I dedicate.

Lord,

I am too tired to surrender,

Yet

I surrender.

Why?

Why?

What makes me meditate?

What makes me dedicate?

What makes me surrender?

My unfulfilled promise

To You, my Beloved Supreme.

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804. I know you will think of me

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Lord,

I am going to pray.

I know

You will bless me.

Lord,

I am going to meditate.

I know

You will teach me.

Lord,

I am going to serve.

I know

You will strengthen me.

Lord,

I am going to sleep.

I know

You will think of me. ```

805. Take me into Your Room

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Lord, if You are my Brother,

Come and visit my room now.

I shall thank You.

Lord, if You are my Sister,

Come and visit my room immediately.

I shall thank You.

Lord, if You are my Father,

Come and visit my room at Your sweet will.

Lord, if You are my Mother,

Come and take away everything

From my room.

Lord, if You are my Friend,

Come and take me,

Take me into Your Room.

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806. Only four times

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Lord, I wish to come

To Your Palace

Only four times.

Do tell me what You

Are going to give me

Each time.

“Son, first time you come

I shall give you

My Forgiveness-Sea.

“Son, second time you come

I shall give you

My Compassion-Sea.

“Son, third time you come

I shall give you

My Justice-Sea.

“Son, fourth time you come

I shall give you

My Thunder-Sea.”

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807. Is there anything forbidden?

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Lord, is there anything forbidden

In Your creation?

“Yes, My son,

Forgiveness is forbidden.”

Lord, how strange.

Why is forgiveness forbidden?

“Because forgiveness is not valued.”

Lord, why is it not valued?

“Because the world is ignorant.”

Lord, why is the world ignorant?

“Because the world wanted ignorance.”

Lord, why did the world want ignorance?

“Because Satan wanted to sell it

And was successful in selling it.”

Lord, who is Satan?

“Ah, Satan!

Son, don’t you know

Who Satan is?

He is just a clever fool,

An impossible friend of Mine.” ```

808. Four members in my family

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I have four members

In my family:

Fear and doubt,

Love and surrender.

Fear takes me

From nothing-chasm

To

Nowhere-palace.

Doubt takes me

From nowhere-sea

To

Nothing-shore.

Love takes me

From fulfilment-land

To

Perfection-sky.

Surrender takes me

From God-vision-seed

To

God-Reality-Tree. ```

809. Nothing from God

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My prayer needs

Sincerity from me

And

Bounty from God.

My meditation needs

Silence from me

And

Infinity from God.

My perfection needs

Everything from me

And

Nothing from God. ```

810. Not even once

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Not even once

Did my inner life take me away

From the outer world.

My inner life is kindness incarnate.

It made me aware of the needs

Of the outer world.

My inner life taught me

What to love in God —

Everything.

My inner life taught me

Whom to serve in the outer world —

Everyone.

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811. I am proud

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O my America,

I am proud of your dollar-power

In India,

But

Not in England.

O my England,

I am proud of your politeness-power

In America,

But

Not in India.

O my India,

I am proud of your love-power

In England,

But

Not in America.

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812. O my Canada

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O my Canada,

You are very vast.

Can you not be very high, too?

Try, you can.

O my Canada,

Why do you always follow?

Can you not lead from now on?

Try, you can.

O my Canada,

You think the world does not admire you.

Can you not demand the world’s admiration?

Try, you can.

You certainly can.

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813. My God is worried and confused

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O my China and Japan,

My God has not forgotten you.

O my Germany and Russia,

My God remembers you.

O my India and Pakistan,

My God is worried about you.

O my Ireland and Scotland,

My God is confused about you. ```

814. I think I love You

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God, I think I love You.

“Daughter, what is the proof?”

God, this is the proof:

You know, God,

I do not live with ignorance

Any more;

I do not play with doubt

Any more;

I do not cry with fear

Any more;

I do not eat with jealousy

Any more;

I do not dance with despair

Any more.

“Daughter, enough.

You love Me

And

I love you.

Be happy.

Remain happy.” ```

815. O my friends

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O my English friend,

Smile.

Let me see your smiling face.

O my Canadian friend,

Dare.

Let me see your daring heart.

O my Indian friend,

Think.

Let me see your thinking mind.

O my American friend,

Rest.

Let me see your resting life.

O my other friends,

I think of you, too.

I love you, too.

I adore you, too. ```

816. He who reasons

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He who reasons

Is not a lover

Of happiness.

He who suspects

Is not a lover

Of love.

He who denies

Is not a lover

Of Truth.

He who delays

Is not a lover

Of Light.

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817. He who thinks

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The philosopher in me speaks:

He who thinks

Is a stupid seeker.

He who fears

Is a sick seeker.

He who hesitates

Is a lame seeker.

He who doubts

Is not a seeker

At all. ```

818. Three opinions

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What others think of me

I perfectly know —

“I am useless.”

What God thinks of me

I always know —

“I am perfect.”

What I think of myself

I do not know,

I shall not know,

Never.

Alas!

Alas! ```

819. If you want me

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My Lord and God,

If You want me

To live in the physical world,

Then command me to sleep.

If You want me

To live in the vital world,

Then command me to dare.

If You want me

To live in the mental world,

Then command me to learn.

If You want me

To live in the psychic world,

Then command me to surrender.

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820. Life can bring

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Life can bring failure.

Life can bring frustration.

Life can bring destruction.

Life can offer many sad stories.

But work can offer

Only one thing: perfection,

The life of perfection.

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821. You doubt God

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You doubt God,

Although you are afraid of

Doing this wrong thing.

You shun Light,

Yet you are afraid of

Staying alone in darkness.

You do not listen to God,

Although you are afraid of

Appearing a fool before the world.

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822. Lord, make me worthy

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Lord,

Make me worthy

Of serving the world.

Of course

In Your own way.

Lord,

Make me worthy

Of loving the world.

Of course

In Your own way.

Lord,

Make me worthy

Of pleasing the world.

Of course

In Your own way.

Lord, Lord, Lord,

Make me worthy

Of living my life.

Of course

In Your own way.

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823. Why is surrender so great?

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Why is surrender so great?

Surrender is great

Because it accepts

Cheerfully

What it does not understand

Remotely.

Also,

It does not care to understand

Vaguely

Anything whatsoever.

It only believes and obeys,

And

Obeys and believes.

Surrender is by far the greatest

Because it alone is the glowing ascent

Of the aspiring heart

And

The proud descent

Of the Absolute. ```

824. Horoscope

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He believes in horoscopes,

But his horoscope is the Supreme.

There was a time

When his Supreme

Commanded him to play

With the planets,

Volleyball in the morning

And

Football in the afternoon

And

Table tennis in the evening.

But

Now his Supreme has commanded him

To be their Instructor,

Manager

And

Referee.

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825. You are God, you are man

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You are at once

God and man.

You play the role of God

In man

When you give,

And

You play the role of man

In God

When you receive.

Truth to tell,

Both the roles

Are of equal

Importance.

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826. I know

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I know definitely

That a strong body

Is the Body of God.

I know unmistakably

That a daring vital

Is the Vital of God.

I know clearly

That a doubtless mind

Is the Mind of God.

I know devotedly

That a kind heart

Is the Heart of God.

I know soulfully

That a pure life

Is the Life of God.

I know, I know. ```

827. Attachment

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O seeker,

You want to know

What attachment is.

Attachment is when

You love one

And do not love all.

Attachment is when

You feel

That God has appointed only you

To fulfil His Vision,

And not others.

Attachment is when

You think

Of the creation first

And

Not the Creator.

Attachment is when

The spirit of bargain

Haunts you

Powerfully

And

Triumphantly. ```

828. Son, give Me some time

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Sweet Lord,

Do tell me once and for all,

Why is Your world

In such a horrible state?

Don’t You care for the world any more

Or

Have You lost all Your control

Or

Have You deliberately forgotten the world

Or

Do You want to create a new world

With nice people

With Your profound Wisdom,

With Your divine Light

And

With Your supreme Power?

“Son,

Give Me some time.

If I answer your questions

Immediately,

I am afraid I shall commit

Himalayan blunders.” ```

829. Tell me why

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Tell me, Father,

Why has the young generation

Taken to drugs?

“Son, let Me start telling you why.

They want to belong,

They want to be loved,

They want to be understood.

“Son, now let Me tell you

Absolutely

The main reason:

They want to invent

Something

Which I, God,

Have not yet

Invented.” ```

830. Save me, save me

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O Lord Supreme,

Save me, save me

From hell.

It is so dangerous.

O Lord Supreme,

Save me, save me

From Heaven.

He is so callous.

O Lord Supreme,

Save me, save me

From earth.

She is so treacherous.

O Lord Supreme,

Save me, save me

From myself.

I am so precarious.

O Lord, O Lord,

Give me, give me a smile.

It is so precious,

It is so precious.

It is my Saviour,

It is my All. ```

831. Are you?

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Are you insecure?

Then say that

My Courage is all yours.

Are you full of doubts?

Then say that

My Assurance is all yours.

Are you always jealous?

Then say that

My Compassion is all for you.

Now

Are you thinking of becoming perfect?

If so,

My Transcendental Perfection

Is all yours.

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832. Prayer

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The prayer of the timid is:

“Shelter, eternal shelter.”

The prayer of the strong is:

“Joy, immediate joy.”

The prayer of the joyous is:

“Gratitude, soulful gratitude.”

The prayer of the grateful is:

“Surrender, unconditional surrender.” ```

833. He is the God of Power

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He is the God of Power.

Therefore

I admire Him.

He is the God of Peace.

Therefore

I like Him.

He is the God of Compassion.

Therefore

I love Him.

He is the God of Love.

Therefore

I need Him.

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834. God is kind to me

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God is kind to me.

Therefore

He has made me deaf.

God is kind to me.

Therefore

He has made me blind.

God is kind to me.

Therefore

He has made me lame.

He has made me deaf

So that I will not hear

World-gossip.

He has made me blind

So that I will not see

World-imperfection.

He has made me lame

So that I will not dare to kick

World-ignorance.

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835. Compassion, justice and truth

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Christ applied yesterday

The quintessence of yesterday’s

Lofty Gospel: Compassion.

He applies today

The quintessence of today’s

Sublime Gospel: Justice.

He shall apply tomorrow

The quintessence of tomorrow’s

Outstanding Gospel: Truth.

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836. When he takes

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When he takes his life

Too seriously

He suffers in the prison

Of futility.

When he takes his life

Too lightly

He suffers in the prison

Of absurdity.

When he takes his life

Too humanly

He suffers in the prison

Of temptation.

When he takes his life

Too divinely

He suffers in the prison

Of isolation. ```

837. Can you not give me?

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God, can You not give me

Some better disciples?

“Son, I can.

But you do not deserve them.”

God, can You not give us

A better Master?

“Children, I can.

But you do not need one.”

God, my disciples are most ungrateful.

“Is that so,

Is that so, My dear son?”

God, our Master is most inconsiderate.

“Is that so,

Is that so, My sweet children?”

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838. Father, Father, do me a favour, please

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Father, Father, do me a favour, please,

Will You?

“What kind of favour,

What kind of favour, son?”

This thoughtless world has made me sick.

I want to die, I want to die.

“Son, your case is not serious at all.

If and when your sickness becomes serious, fatal or incurable,

I shall let you know

And

Also grant your prayer.”

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839. Invention and discovery

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What God invented

My faith discovered.

What my faith invented

My heart discovered.

What my heart invented

My mind discovered.

God invented Bliss,

Faith invented confidence,

Heart invented love.

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840. Anybody

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Anybody can deceive you,

But

Deception is usually

The profession of a rogue.

Anybody can criticize you,

But

Criticism is usually

The profession of a fool.

Anybody can love you,

But

Love is usually

The profession of a seeker.

But nobody can perfect you,

Save and except God. ```

841. It's me, Father

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It’s me, Father.

For God’s sake,

Do not be so alarmed.

It’s me, Father.

For God’s sake,

Do not be so disturbed.

“Son, I am not alarmed,

I am not disturbed.

I am only happy and amazed

That you are knocking at My Door

At long last.

Come in, My son, come in.” ```

842. Tell me what you are

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Tell me what you are.

I will tell you something

Most special about yourself.

“I am a doctor.”

Ah, you are a doctor!

That means you are

The restorer of life

And

Feeder of death.

Tell me what you are.

I will tell you something

Most special about yourself.

“I am a scientist.”

Ah, you are a scientist!

That means you are

The searcher of life

And

Runner after death.

Tell me what you are.

I will tell you something

Most special about yourself.

“I am a seeker.”

Ah, you are a seeker!

That means you are

The lover of Life

And

The destroyer of death. ```

843. Are all your debts paid?

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“Son, are all your debts paid?”

Father, I was heavily indebted

To my friends

For their sublime

Appreciation and admiration.

But I have paid all my debts

With my ceaseless gratitude.

Father, I was deeply indebted

To Ignorance-Night

For her constant

Attacks and confusion.

But I have paid all my debts

With my adamantine certitude.

“Son, such being the case,

I welcome you

To share

My Infinitude.” ```

844. Lethargy, violence, doubt and fear

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Lethargy is the pastime

Of my unprogressive body.

Violence is the pastime

Of my unsympathetic vital.

Doubt is the pastime

Of my unbelieving mind.

Fear is the pastime

Of my unillumined heart. ```

845. Beauty, purity, duty and divinity

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Beauty glows

In the eyes of the man

Who sees.

Purity flows

In the heart of the man

Who feels.

Duty sings

In the arms of the man

Who works.

Divinity dances

In the soul of the man

Who loves.

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846. Do you spend?

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Do you spend more than you earn?

“Yes.”

Why do you do that?

Who taught you to do that?

“My ignorance-friend.”

Do you spend less than you earn?

“Yes.”

Why do you do that?

Who taught you to do that?

“My wisdom-friend.”

Do you spend all that you earn?

“Yes.”

Why do you do that?

Who taught you to do that?

“My God-friend.

He said to me:

‘You fool.

Why do you have to think of the future?

Let the future take care of itself.

What I want from you

Is to take care of today,

Only today.’” ```

847. Her life

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When she does not get

Her Father’s usual smile,

Her life comes to a comma.

When she sees

Her Father’s angry face,

Her life comes to a semi-colon.

When she sees

Her Father’s indifference,

Her life comes to a full stop.

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848. Nowadays

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Father, Father,

Why are You

So unkind to me

Nowadays?

“Daughter, not true!”

Father, Father,

Why do You

Ignore me so much

Nowadays?

“Daughter, not true!”

Father, Father,

Why are You

Not taking my services

Nowadays?

“Daughter, not true!”

Father, Father,

Why don’t You

Care for me at all

Nowadays?

“Not true, not true, not true,

My daughter sweet!” ```

849. Infinity

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When I say:

“Infinity is this,

Infinity is that,”

I decrease Infinity’s Length

With my binding mind.

When I say:

“Infinity is something more,

Infinity is something deeper,”

I increase Infinity’s Life

With my expanding heart.

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850. I am Yours, only Yours

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Father, Father,

You are ignoring me incredibly.

I think this is enough.

Please, please

Give me another chance.

This time I shall please You.

Father, Father,

Every day I see You

Deliberately kicking me

Farther and farther

Away from You.

I think this is enough,

More than enough.

Please, please,

Give me another chance.

This time I shall please You.

Father, Father,

Still I think

I am Yours,

Only Yours. ```

From:Sri Chinmoy,The Dance of Life, part 17, Aum Press, Puerto Rico, 1973
Sourced from https://srichinmoylibrary.com/dl_17