My heart-breaking misfortunes
Today shall breathe their last,For today God’s life-transforming Hour
Has blessingfully touched the breathOf my heart’s aspiration-cry.
```O my heart,
Reside not inside the dungeon of despair.You can easily live inside
The Freedom-Palace of God’s Dream-Beauty.Try, you shall succeed!
```The human life is but
A labyrinth of contradictions.It does not know how to pray,
Yet it thinks it can easily realise God.It is always full of problems,
Yet it thinks it is enjoyingPerfect perfection.
```God’s first Hymn:
“Secretly I shall grow.”Man’s first hymn:
“Sacredly I shall become.” ```Something refuses, out of fear,
To reveal itselfBefore the all-transforming Heavenly Light.
What is it?The deathless frown of ignorance-night.
```Your devotion to anger
You have already shown to the worldFor a very long time.
Now can you not showYour devotion to self-perfection?
Try, you easily can.Lo, you have marvellously succeeded!
```His self-giving heart
Is a soaring citadel.In it no fear, no doubt breathe.
It is perfect perfectionIn God’s stupendous Satisfaction.
```The oneness of love and duty
Is the perfect fulnessOf a seeker’s own inmost divinity.
```Heaven said hello to him
Before he sawThe Face of God
And long before he satAt the Feet of God.
```If confidence is misplaced,
Man sees not his inner faceAnd fails to run in God’s
Most precious Divinity-Race. ```Uncouple the soul-divinity
From the body-ignorance.You are bound to be free.
You are bound to be happy.You are bound to be perfect.
```Bravely my mind
Shall contest with doubt.Sleeplessly my heart
Shall contest with impurity.Uncompromisingly my soul
Shall contest with ignorance. ```In the middle of Eternity
He felt his heart’s sincerity-cry.In the middle of Infinity
He saw his soul’s divinity-smile. ```If you want to live
In the paradise of self-compliments,You can.
But do not expect othersTo live with you.
Why?Your paradise is too small,
Plus full of dangers. ```His heart’s beauty is starving
For God’s full Manifestation.His soul’s vision is starving
For God’s absolute Satisfaction. ```Two old questions:
How can a weakling ever realise God?How can God care for me
When I am so bad? ```The dreamlessness of dust
Awakens my heart,Purifies my mind
And illumines my poor little life. ```O knowledge-flames,
Can you not eclipse ignorance-night?Try, I am sure you can.
O wisdom-sun,Do feed my knowledge-flames
And make them exactly like you.Since you can do it easily,
Will you not do it for me? ```My sound-life loves
God the creation.My silence-life becomes
God the Creator. ```His life’s scattering smiles
And his heart’s streaming tearsHave together made him
A choice and perfect instrument of God. ```I saw time’s first sunrise.
I could not believe my eyes!It was the soul-beauty unparalleled.
```Where has God gone?
He has gone to HeavenTo receive your heart’s
Climbing gratitude-flames. ```A strange new disease:
The heart is suspectingIts own sterling faith in God.
```If you think that
In the outer worldYour mind does not need
God’s ForgivenessAnd your heart does not need
God’s Compassion,Then you must realise that
In the inner worldYou are unmistakably
And completely lost. ```Mine is a sinking mind.
Mine is a rising heart.Mine is a flying soul.
Mine is a smiling God. ```With His Blessing-Eye God examines
Every sick human thoughtAnd then cures it
With His nursing Heart. ```I can’t stand my mind.
It thinks that it knowsEverything and everyone.
Yet it does not even knowHow to discard its useless treasures
Even in an infinitesimal measure. ```O physical world, stop sleeping.
O vital world, stop pushing.O mental world, stop doubting.
O psychic world, stop hesitating. ```My companions
From the beginningless Beginning:Eternity’s beautiful cry,
Infinity’s soulful smile,Immortality’s fruitful silence.
```When my mind completely surrenders
To my heart,And when my heart offers its victory-light
To my soul,I shall triumphantly enjoy
A never-ending celebration. ```Heaven’s smiles of farewell
Gave him the joyOf fulfilling promise.
Earth’s tears of farewell
Gave him the satisfactionOf fulfilled promise.
```The art of pure perfection
Is not an impossible dreamBut an inevitable reality.
```Generously erase yourself
If you want to seeThe palace of Light and Delight
Inside the depths of your ownExquisite trance-bound heart.
```Every mind is a new question.
Every heart is a perfect answer.Every soul is a transcendental Vision
And a universal Reality. ```When love starts ruling my mind,
Compassion shall shelter my bodyAnd perfection shall touch my heart.
```A soulful cry and a powerful smile
Together have madeA secret and sacred passage
From my heart’s depthTo my soul’s height.
```An all-consuming ego-night
Has enveloped his mind.Therefore, he sees not
His soul-beauty’s gratitude-heart. ```Heaven and I wept together
When my mind deliberatelyRefused to change
And my heart unconsciouslyForgot to climb.
```Nothing can threaten
My soul’s silence-heart.Nothing can weaken
My life’s gratitude-breath. ```Your desire for the permanence
Of your bodyIs rejected by Heaven
And ridiculed by earth. ```In secrecy’s silence-breath
Heaven slowly descends.In ecstasy’s sound-life
Earth quickly ascends. ```Simplicity has deserted him.
Therefore, his eye’s beautySings no more.
Sincerity has deserted him.
Therefore, his heart’s purityDances no more.
```God does not need me,
Not because I do not love HimBut because I feel no need for Him.
```A true God-seeker knows
That victory never comes too late.It always comes unmistakably
At God’s choice Hour. ```What can I expect from myself
When I am a bundle of desires?What can I not expect from myself
When my life becomesA climbing aspiration-flame?
```Because your mind has become
A spreading wave of anxiety,Your heart is finding it extremely difficult
To maintain its pristine purity. ```Reduce your life’s attachments.
The growing and glowing enlightenment-birdWill come and sit on your heart’s
Soulful and fruitful detachment-tree. ```Each divine thought
Is a never-slumbering plantIn God’s Cosmic Vision-Garden.
```You have no right to announce
What you have.You have no right to announce
What you renounce.You have only the right to announce
That God is sleeplessly for you,Only for you.
```God cannot be found,
God will not be found,In your dark, unlit
And impure mind-cave.He can be found
And will always be foundIn your sunlit, spacious
And precious heart-palace. ```When I enjoy labour,
I stand close to God.Between us there is nothing
And nobody.When I enjoy leisure,
No matter how close I wantTo remain to God,
I always see the Satanic smileOf an undivine force
In between God and me. ```What am I doing inside my mind?
I am desperately tryingTo save my dying friend:
Sincerity.What am I doing inside my heart?
I am soulfully tryingTo save my dying friend:
Purity.What am I doing inside my life?
I am sleeplessly tryingTo save my dying friend:
Integrity. ```How can your mind be truly happy
When it proudly and shamelessly enjoysThe chill winds of ingratitude?
```Is sincerity enough?
No, you need determination, too.With determination are you complete?
No, you need God’s Grace,Without a shadow of a doubt,
To be amazingly perfect. ```God always chooses
A self-giving heartTo play His Role on earth
And a death-denying soulTo play His Role in Heaven.
```Each auspicious splendour
In the inner worldReveals ultimately a precious wonder
In the outer world. ```From life’s dawn I have received
Two invaluable gifts:A soulful love for perfection
AndA fruitful gratitude for satisfaction.
```Today his heart’s joy
Knows no boundsBecause the rapture of inspiration
Is marching through his silence-mind. ```His heart is flooded
With immortal memories of Heaven.Therefore, God is now granting him
The rarest opportunityTo walk closer alongside Him.
```His mind’s three triumphant conclusions:
He saw God before God saw him.He taught God how to show
His Compassion-Eye to mankind.He will never fail God,
Although God has failed himTime and again.
```Today your heart
Has passed a momentous test.Today you sincerely and unmistakably feel
That delight is another name for self-giving. ```Teeming doubts on tip-toe
Entered into his mindOnly to destroy his mind’s silence-light
And forcefully employ himTo serve in the great army of ignorance-night.
```The countless deceptions
Of a thoughtless evil-doerCannot compel God to lose faith in him.
But his unwillingness to change can,Unmistakably can.
```Why do friendships fail?
Because of a subtle serpentineEgo-interference.
How can friendship ever last?By becoming only one thing:
A birthless and deathless oneness-love. ```My conscience-drops made me stop.
My faith-flames made me run.My surrender-gratitude made me win.
```My faith looks forward
In the morningTo see God’s Face.
My faith looks inward
In the eveningTo sit at God’s Feet.
```His heart’s devotion-stream
Flows sleeplessly and powerfully.Therefore, he is a choice member
Of his Lord’s inner Family. ```Self-doubt refuses to rest.
Self-faith refuses to fear.Self-giving refuses to deceive.
```Ego-protection blocks perfection.
Perfection missing,Satisfaction-boat not sailing,
But sinking. ```To solve every problem,
Solve your own problems first.To love each and every human being,
Love God first. ```Two are the requests
That reach God:Lord, do give me the capacity
To love You only.Lord, do give me the necessity
To love You only. ```Sail beyond the secret sorrow-river
To reach the seaOf Eternity’s infinite Delight.
```Awareness is a spiritual power,
And this spiritual powerLoves only one thing:
The Hour of God’s SatisfactionInside man’s silver dream-boat.
```Life’s worst disaster
Is when life does not awakenOr cannot awaken
When God’s God-Hour strikes. ```God says to me
That He will give me three thingsIf I give Him only one thing.
If I can give HimOnly one gratitude-flame,
Then in return He will give meHis Compassion-Sea,
His Perfection-SkyAnd His Satisfaction-Sun.
```He is chained to an unhappy past,
Yet he thinks that someday, somehowHe will grant the world
A sky-vast delight. ```When we do not avail ourselves
Of opportunity,Opportunity goes away.
Then the time comes when we feelA desperate need for opportunity,
But opportunity does not appear.Our deplorable fate
And our earthly existenceAre forced by the higher forces
To remain together and helplessly waitFor death’s hour to arrive.
```In the inner world
The most often-asked questions are:Do you want to see God?
Where is your universal passport? ```A soulful smile
Can kindle the universe.A breathless cry
Can feed the universe. ```What has experience taught me?
Nobody has to remain unrealised.What has realisation taught me?
Everybody is an unmanifested God. ```Your vital is puzzling you.
Your mind is baffling you.Therefore, you are sad.
But this sadness will not last forever.Wait soulfully for God’s choice Hour.
```If you want to have
A continuous and precious evolution,Then give up what you do not need,
A helpless cry,And accept what you do need,
A powerful smile. ```What you have now
Is a flaming temper.What you need
Is a flaming love.Inside your flaming love
One day, to your surprise,You will see a growing and glowing God.
```In perfect silence-hush
My heart remains loyalTo my soul’s perfection-vision.
```Since your mind has penetrating
Intuitive vision-light,Since your heart is a constant
Self-transcendence-delight,You are perfect,
More than perfect. ```Love the battlefield of life,
For joy is always breathingSecretly and openly
In both your victory and your defeat. ```When death invades you,
Do you not seeNew sparks of wonder,
Extremely illumining,In that experience?
```He is weeping like a helpless child.
Do you know why?Precisely because of the flood
Of his remembrance. ```If you can consecrate
Your voyage on Beauty’s mystic boat,Then complete satisfaction
Will be yours. ```I am weary of myself.
My life is but a hopeless journeyWith not an iota of ecstasy.
```If you cannot make the correct choice,
Try at least to suspect your choice.You will be able to keep yourself
Free from the heavy burdenOf fruitless accomplishments.
```My purity-heart has discovered
The supreme Truth:My Lord’s Compassion-Eye
And my Lord’s Forgiveness-HeartAre by far its nearest and dearest
Neighbours. ```My hesitation is a serious
Imperfection of my mind.My hesitation is a dangerous
Frustration of my heart.My hesitation is an utter
Dissatisfaction of my soul. ```My mind’s impurity,
My heart’s insecurityAnd my life’s futility
Stay togetherAnd will die together.
```O my mind,
Be not afraidOf never-ending changes,
For they will eventually lead youTo Perfection-Satisfaction-Delight.
```Let me detach myself completely
From the world of earthly knowingSo that I can grow into
The world of Heavenly becoming. ```Time and again
Opportunity knocksAt our heart’s door.
Time and againWe do not avail ourselves
Of these opportunities.Then we blame God
And curse ourselves. ```If your heart can love
The lives of the unlovable,Then you become a revealed jewel
In Heaven’s treasure-safe. ```My Inner Pilot
Can grant me abiding happinessOnly after I have taught myself
How to become an obedience-smile. ```Switch your loyalty to God.
You have given enough,More than enough,
To this ungrateful world.Give God one second of your selfless heart,
And He will grant youHis Eternity’s Nectar-Smile.
```From:Sri Chinmoy,Ten Thousand Flower-Flames, part 55, Agni Press, 1983
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