Two God-Amusement-Rivals: my Heart-Song-Beauty and my Life-Dance-Fragrance, part 9

801.

```

Keep your heart

Purer than the purest

If you want to swim

In God's Ecstasy-Sea. ```

802.

```

A real renaissance man

Is he

Who awakens the mind

Of humility

And feeds the heart

Of humanity. ```

803.

```

I cry with humanity's tears

When I speak to God

On man's behalf.

I smile with Divinity's Smiles

When I speak to mankind

On God's behalf. ```

804.

```

Only the life that can smile and dance

With a childlike heart

Can make progress sleeplessly,

Faster than the fastest. ```

805.

```

I rely only

On one all-important thing:

God's Compassion-life-preserver.

```

806.

```

An unseen Smile of God

Guides my outer life

And illumines my inner life.

```

807.

```

My aspiration-heart

Is always available

To be my soul's

God-interpreter. ```

808.

```

O my mind,

Do not be fooled

By the world's ever-growing,

Ever-heightening, ever-spreading

Temptation-tree.

```

809.

```

God wants me to learn

At every moment

The wisdom of a willingness-mind

And the wisdom of an eagerness-heart. ```

810.

```

My gratitude-heart

Is my Lord's Satisfaction-Victory

In and through me.

```

811.

```

My soul's smiles

Are infinitely more powerful

Than my heart's deepest meditations.

```

812.

```

My heart begged and begged God

To revoke

My mind's self-indulgence-license.

Finally

God listened to my heart's prayer.

```

813.

```

God's Compassion

Has completely swallowed

My failure-life of the past.

```

814.

```

My mind's enthusiasm

And my heart's eagerness

Are always found

Playing together. ```

815.

```

There was a time

When I did not know

To whom I belonged,

But now I know

That I belong only to God,

And God alone. ```

816.

```

My heart never disappoints God

Intentionally,

Whereas my mind does it

Not only intentionally

But also repeatedly.

```

817.

```

Without a moment's hesitation

My heart is fortified

With God-manifestation-resolution.

```

818.

```

O my aspiration-heart,

Do not worry.

The doubting mind will be compelled

To attend its own funeral

Before long.

```

819.

```

Dearer than the dearest

To God's Heart

Is my heart

Of cheerful self-giving. ```

820.

```

God's foremost treasure on earth

Is my ever-blossoming

Gratitude-heart.

```

821.

```

Each human life can be flooded

With God-manifestation-possibilities

If the life has a burning

God-aspiration-cry. ```

822.

```

I must become one, inseparably one,

With my heart's all-illumining light

Before I can enjoy the illumination

Of my mind's present ignorance-night. ```

823.

```

This world will remain miserable

As long as it cares more

For God the Power

Than for God the Love. ```

824.

```

God tells me

With utmost confidence

That I shall, before long,

Smash asunder the pride

Of ignorance-night.

```

825.

```

God proudly calls my soul

By its first name:

Illumination.

```

826.

```

Only after your God-realisation

Will you be able to know

Whence you came

And whither you go. ```

827.

```

I left ignorance far behind

Precisely because

I was able to grow into

My Lord's Compassion-Smile. ```

828.

```

The mind's disobedience

Thinks that it is always

Quite safe,

But it is absolutely mistaken. ```

829.

```

God has tried again and again

To teach ignorance,

But ignorance is still not ready

To learn anything from God. ```

830.

```

I never realised

That my devotion-heart

Is full of unimaginable sweetness.

```

831.

```

When God tastes

My disobedience-mind,

He tells me it is always

Extremely, extremely bitter. ```

832.

```

I have always known

That my godless mind

Is indeed a most painful experience

For my heart of ceaseless prayer. ```

833.

```

My love of obedience

Pleases God

Far beyond my imagination.

```

834.

```

God reminds me every day

That it is high time for me

To leave once and for all

My mind's darkness-ignorance-prison-cell. ```

835.

```

Never depend on chance,

But depend on

God's unconditional Compassion.

```

836.

```

God invites me and my heart

Every day

To dine with Him,

But He never invites

My mind.

```

837.

```

I do not know why and how

My vital so often walks along

My mind's tortuous and twisted path.

```

838.

```

Today has something

Very special to tell me:

That I shall soon become

A choice instrument of God. ```

839.

```

In my life,

Nobody else has counted

The failure-years

That have passed by.

Why should I

Be an exception? ```

840.

```

Poor God!

He came, only to find

My willingness-heart

Fast asleep. ```

841.

```

God's God-Songs

Echo and re-echo soul-stirringly

Through Eternity's Silence-Heart.

```

842.

```

Because of God's unconditional

Compassion for me,

My heart is still pure

And my life is still secure. ```

843.

```

My stupidity-flooded

Disobedience-mind

Never wants to believe

That God can be really serious. ```

844.

```

My aimlessly wandering mind

Never realises

That there shall come a time

When God's Compassion-Eye

Will force it to stop its wandering.

```

845.

```

My constant, sleepless friendship

With ignorance-sea

Has made my Lord's Compassion-Eye

Absolutely miserable. ```

846.

```

I am of God

And I am for God

Eternally:

God whispered this to my soul

On the day of its creation.

```

847.

```

O unaspiring mind,

If you are always consumed

With envy and hate,

How will you ever enjoy

The beauty and fragrance

Of God's Universal Heart? ```

848.

```

When I live

In my aspiration-heart,

I clearly see

That I am infinitely luckier

Than I can ever deserve to be.

```

849.

```

My Lord Supreme,

I am praying to You

To make my life

A world-server,

And not to make my mind

A world-saviour. ```

850.

```

God's unconditional Grace

Has made my waning aspiration-life

Once more beautiful and fruitful.

```

851.

```

Not now, but someday later:

This is the wisdom

Of the unaspiring mind.

```

852.

```

O my heart,

Go forward with hope.

O my mind,

Go forward with cheerfulness.

Lo, the destination itself

Is fast approaching you. ```

853.

```

God Himself has chosen

The surest way for me,

And that way is the way

Of constant, sleepless and breathless

Self-giving.

```

854.

```

No matter how disobedient

My mind is,

My mind knows

That it is not beyond

God's Compassion-flooded Protection.

```

855.

```

The mind has willingly become

The slave of ignorance.

The heart has self-givingly become

The child of God. ```

856.

```

My love of God

Is the only thing

That will not disappoint me.

Everything else will end

In utter disappointment.

```

857.

```

My mind is always eager

For more success.

My heart is always eager

For God-Satisfaction

In God's own Way.

```

858.

```

There is no need for me

To search for a better path.

My God-surrender-path

Is, and will always remain,

By far the best for me.

```

859.

```

God blessingfully and proudly accepts

Each and every gift

Offered by my heart.

```

860.

```

The unwillingness of the mind

Is bitterly and unimaginably

Cold and destructive.

```

861.

```

At long last

My division-mind

Has fully surrendered

To my oneness-heart. ```

862.

```

I am now

Truly proud of myself,

For I am no longer confined

By my mind's unwillingness. ```

863.

```

My life's perfect perfection

Is God's newest

And most inspired Dream.

```

864.

```

Everything in me that participates

In my mind's unwillingness-game

Is destined to be

Slowly and unmistakably transformed. ```

865.

```

The heart is always saturated

With spirituality.

It is the mind

That vehemently protests. ```

866.

```

My Lord, do bless me

With Your

Self-Transcendence-Dream-Life.

```

867.

```

The heart has the capacity

To cherish a secret and sacred

God-fulfilling hope-dawn.

```

868.

```

If you are seeking God

In books,

You will be disappointed badly.

If you are seeking God

In your heart-garden,

Then your God-search

Is bound to be crowned

With success. ```

869.

```

Finally

My mind's God-willingness-door

Is all wide open.

```

870.

```

You are misguided

If you want to find

God's Compassion-Eye-Delight

In your mind-directory.

You will never find it there.

```

871.

```

You will be fulfilled

Only when you realise

That your constant expectation

Is your worst enemy. ```

872.

```

Once you make your life

The unconditional breath of surrender,

Then you become

The Supreme's Victory-Lion-Roar. ```

873.

```

The cosmic gods

Give a round of applause

When I completely dissociate myself

From ignorance-hunger. ```

874.

```

If you are

A genuine God-seeker

And God-lover,

Then your life must be

A world-server.

```

875.

```

God's Ecstasy-Heart

Abides only in the breath

Of the seeker's aspiration-life.

```

876.

```

An uncomely thought

Of the mind

Has the capacity

And is the capacity

To eclipse the fully blossomed beauty

Of the heart. ```

877.

```

We are such fools!

Why do we waste our precious time

Trying to decipher

Our God-failure-past? ```

878.

```

No, not even the unwilling mind

Will be able to resist forever

The magnetic pull of the soul.

```

879.

```

Alas, my mind's disobedience

Has completely destroyed

My heart's tiny and beautiful

Enthusiasm-flower. ```

880.

```

Alas, even God's Compassion-Eye

Has finally grown tired

Of waiting for me

And my useless mind. ```

881.

```

To my surrender-heart,

Everything is sweet, sweeter, sweetest;

Every individual is good, better, best.

```

882.

```

The spiritual life

Is not for the faint-hearted.

The spiritual life

Is for supreme hero-soldiers. ```

883.

```

Pray soulfully,

Meditate sleeplessly

Every day,

For do you not know

That life is uncertain,

Life is precarious,

And progress is precious?

```

884.

```

To please God

In God's own Way

Is the dream-fulfilment

Of a lifetime. ```

885.

```

When the mind speaks fearlessly,

That does not mean

That the mind is right.

No, the mind can be

Absolutely wrong

Even when it speaks

With utmost confidence.

```

886.

```

Alas, I do not know why

My human mind consciously enjoys

God-eclipsing undivine thoughts.

```

887.

```

If you live constantly

Inside your heart,

Then yours will be a life

Sweetened by the embrace

Of your soul's silence-light.

```

888.

```

Satisfaction you need?

Then you must have

An unswerving reliance

On God's Compassion-Eye. ```

889.

```

If it is a true aspiration-heart,

Then it will always pay attention

Only to God's point of view.

```

890.

```

An aspiration-heart

Is always enriched

By a surrender-life.

```

891.

```

An unconditional surrender-life

Is the acme

Of perfection-delight.

```

892.

```

My devotion-heart

Always tries to feast its eyes

On God's beautiful

And bountiful Feet. ```

893.

```

Only in the heart,

And not in the mind,

Can I enjoy the Fragrance-Delight

Of God's Heart. ```

894.

```

True, there are teeming problems

In our lives,

But God-obedience is clearly

The only answer. ```

895.

```

God does not want me to be

A paragon of virtue.

He wants me only to be

A faithful child of His. ```

896.

```

The satisfaction of my heart

Is the fulfilment

Of God's long-cherished Dream.

```

897.

```

Anything in me that is not ready

To obey God happily

Is doomed to perpetual failure.

```

898.

```

Because of my constant

Love of God-obedience,

God is taking me more and more

Into His Confidence-Heart. ```

899.

```

God claps His Hands

And roars with laughter

When I say

That even my mind is ready

To follow Him implicitly.

```

900.

```

I am so divinely proud of myself

For having a soul-loving heart

And a heart-loving mind.

```

From:Sri Chinmoy,Two God-Amusement-Rivals: my Heart-Song-Beauty and my Life-Dance-Fragrance, part 9, Agni Press, 1996
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