49. My doubt-child and my faith-child

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My doubt-child will not live with me

For a long time.

He has a very short life;

Therefore

I am treasuring him and cherishing him.

My faith-child will not only have

A long life,

But an eternal life;

Therefore

I am not so fond of him right now.

Once my doubt-child dies,

The joy that I now give to my doubt-child

Will all be given to my faith-child

In addition to what I now give to my

faith-child.

When I am left with only my faith-child,

My faith-child will have everything

That I have and that I am.

What I have is sacrifice

And

What I am is smile.

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From:Sri Chinmoy,The Golden Boat, part 17, Agni Press, 1974
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