The Golden Boat, part 18

1. Yours is the Heart

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Lord, Yours is the Heart

That loves me

And mine is the heart

That needs You.

Lord, Yours is the Heart

That awakens the soul-life in me

And mine is the heart

That fulfils the Goal-embrace in You. ```

2. When I said to God

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When I said to God,

“God, I shall leave You,”

A look of pain crossed His beautiful Face.

When I said to God,

“God, I shall stay with You

No matter what You do to me,”

God jumped up out of His Throne,

Gave me His Throne,

Gave me His Crown,

Gave me His Heart,

Gave me His All

And said

I was not only a son of His

And

A vision-fulfilling reality of His

But

His Eternity’s All. ```

3. The order of things to come

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Who can alter the order of things to come?

Not the devouring tiger in me.

Who can alter the order of things to come?

Not the roaring lion in me.

Who can alter the order of things to come?

Only the running deer in me. ```

4. His mind refuses the truth

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His mind refuses to accept the Truth

Because

Truth is too powerful.

His mind refuses to face the Truth

Because

Truth is too beautiful.

His mind refuses to love the Truth

Because

Truth is too fruitful;

Truth is too soulful. ```

5. Too much for him

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God-Beauty was too much for him;

Therefore

He wanted to stay in ignorance-ugliness.

God-Smile was too much for him;

Therefore

He wanted to stay with ignorance-frown.

God-Perfection was too much for him;

Therefore

He wanted to stay with imperfection-prince.

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6. He was lost

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He was lost in his father;

Therefore

His father’s glory was pleased with him.

He was lost in his mother;

Therefore

His mother’s beauty was pleased with him.

He was lost in his daughter;

Therefore

His daughter’s faith was pleased with him.

He was lost in his son;

Therefore

His son’s courage was pleased with him.

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7. My divine capacities

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You were right, my Lord.

I had divine capacities in boundless measure.

You are right, my Lord.

I shall be able to reveal these capacities on earth.

You shall be right, my Lord.

My divine capacities will be only for

Your satisfaction,

Only for earth’s recognition

Of Your Height,

Your Compassion

And

Your Goal-Perfection. ```

8. My heart's desire and my heart's longing

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Who has the audacity to refuse my heart’s

desire?

No, not even the child-titan

Who lives on earth.

Who has the capacity to refuse my heart’s

longing?

No, not even the omnipotent Lord

Who lives in Heaven.

My desire is my dauntless power

Which

Earth always sees.

My longing is my adamantine power

Which

Heaven always sees.

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9. For your good

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When I say that I have realised God,

Why do I see a look of disbelief in your eyes?

Do you think I am fooling you?

Do you think I have nothing else to do

on earth

Than to tell you who I am

And

To try to convince you why I am here?

No.

No.

No.

I tell you I have realised God

Just because God wants me to tell you.

I am more than pleased with my God-realisation.

I do not have to proclaim my divinity.

I do not have to share my divinity.

I am complete in myself.

I am perfect in myself.

It is for your good,

For your realisation,

For your perfection

That I tell you I am a realised soul.

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10. Tell me something nice

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Father, tell me something nice.

“Daughter, your happiness means everything

to Me.”

Father, tell me something more.

“Daughter, when I don’t satisfy you

I feel simply miserable.”

Father, tell me something more.

“Daughter, I live on earth only to see you

Become divine, perfect and complete.”

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11. Only to please my Beloved Supreme

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My heart is living on earth

Only to please my Beloved Supreme.

My vital is dying on earth

Only to please my Beloved Supreme.

I am grateful to my heart

For its oneness inseparable

With my Beloved Supreme.

I am grateful to my vital

For its sacrifice-might

For my Beloved Supreme.

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12. His earth-fate and his Heaven-gate

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He realised that his earth-fate

Was too powerful;

Therefore

He gave up fighting

In the battlefield of life.

He has realised that his Heaven-gate

Is wide open;

Therefore

He has started running fast, faster, fastest

To his destined goal.

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13. Men like you

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There will be men like you,

I tell you,

Who are great,

really great,

divinely great,

supremely great.

There will be men like him,

I tell him,

Who are good,

divinely good,

supremely good,

eternally good.

There will be none like me,

I tell myself,

Because I know I am God’s failure on earth

And

God’s hope in Heaven

And

God’s Promise to humanity.

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14. You are great

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Here on earth you are great

Because

You are impervious to all hearts.

There in Heaven you are great

Because

You are generous, really generous

To earth-cries;

Therefore

You consciously and unconditionally

descended

to

earth.

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15. His self-imposed laws

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He will not find imperfection

In any human being.

He has set this law unto himself.

He will give everything to earth,

Whether earth wants to receive it or not.

He has set this law unto himself.

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16. They choose for me

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My fate chose God

For its Lord

In the past.

Now, the other person

Chooses God for my Lord:

My hope.

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17. You do not know my strength

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You do not know the strength of my mind.

It can

Batter and shatter the whole world.

You do not know the strength of my heart.

It can

Purify and unify the whole world.

You do not know the strength of my soul.

It has

The power to prove to the world

That God is a necessity,

The only necessity,

Here on earth and there in Heaven. ```

18. For your sake

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Father, it is for Your sake

And not for my sake

That I need Perfection-Light.

“Son, it is true, it is true.

And it is for your sake

And not for My sake

That I need Satisfaction-Height.” ```

19. Earth-duty and Heaven-duty

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Earth-duty

was enough

to weaken my austerity.

Heaven-duty

was enough

to strengthen my insecurity.

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20. I would have championed your cause

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Lord, I would have championed Your cause:

Love-manifestation,

If I had had the time, the necessary time.

“Son, I would have championed your cause:

Ignorance-feast,

If I had found that you really needed it,

Or that it would do you any good.” ```

21. Denial and acceptance

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You denied yourself even the bare necessities;

Therefore

You think you are great.

You may be right.

Who knows?

He denies nothing that comes his way.

I tell you

That he is right.

God is well-pleased with him.

I deny the things that God wants me to deny.

I accept the things that God wants me to accept.

Why?

Because my acceptance-light

And my denial-might

Contribute to my God’s constant self-transcendence

in me.

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22. My expectations

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I do not expect any criticism

From you who love me.

I do not expect any scolding

From you who love me.

I expect only appreciation

From you who really love me.

I expect only admiration

From you who really love me.

You know that if you do

What I expect from you,

I will give you

My heart of love,

My heart of sacrifice

And my soul of constant vigilance,

Eternal vigilance.

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23. I have come to You

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Lord, I have come to You as a son.

“Then sit at My Feet.”

Lord, I have come to You as a friend.

“Then let us shake hands.”

Lord, I have come to You as another Lord.

“Then embrace Me.

Let Me embrace you.”

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24. Nothing to equal

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There is nothing

to equal

My promise in Heaven.

There is nothing

to equal

My frustration on earth.

There is nothing

to equal

My dream in God.

There is nothing

to equal

My failure in myself.

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25. What can I do for you?

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“Son, what can I do for you?”

Why, Father, You can do everything for me.

“Son, what do you want?”

I want all the wealth that You have in You.

“Granted, son.”

Father, what can I do for You?

I will do everything for You, Father.

“Son, if you are ready to do everything for Me,

Then give me only one thing at least.

That is:

Your dissatisfied earth-heart.” ```

26. Life's compensations

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Your life will have its

Compensations for you.

Give your life

What you have.

Do you know what you have?

Do you want to know?

You have only a moment of

Dedicated love in your life. ```

27. God's eternal Choice⁸⁷⁷

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Earth-grief

burnt his

body’s frame.

Earth-jealousy

burnt his

life-fame.

Earth-ignorance

burnt his

God-Vision.

Yet his soul

loves earth,

treasures earth,

For earth is

God’s eternal Choice,

His ultimate Voice.

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877. It seems likely first edition text had mistype with ‘art’ for ‘earth’ on line 11,12,13. Original text was: | Yet his soul loves art, treasures art, | For art is God’s eternal Choice, His ultimate Voice.↩

28. Disappointments, satisfactions, God-appointments

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Disappointments followed one another

When I tried to perfect

The earth-consciousness.

But

Satisfactions followed one another

When I tried to perfect

My self, my life, my journey.

God-appointments followed one another

When I surrendered

My earth-cry to God

And

My Heaven-smile to God.

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29. The creation of God, the God of creation

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The creation of God

Is the gradual perfection

Of art.

The God of creation

Is the uncertain smile

Of beauty.

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30. Two apostles

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Two apostles of atheism:

Doubt and insecurity.

Stupid doubt feels

That God-light can be challenged.

Stupid insecurity feels

That God-power need not be compassionate. ```

31. Divine increase

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Every day the animal in me

Is growing better.

Every day the human in me

Is becoming sweeter.

Every day the divine in me

Is shining brighter;

Therefore

My heart is now big

With rich and divine increase.

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32. Melancholy days have gone

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Melancholy days have gone.

There is a lustre divine

In his heart-sky.

No more his mind

Is crowded with doubt-forests.

He builds a bridge

Between

Earth’s nothingness

And

Heaven’s endlessness. ```

33. I tell you

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Sincerely I tell you:

Poverty wants much.

Unmistakably I tell you:

Prosperity wants more.

Unconditionally I tell you:

God-necessity receives most. ```

34. Do not grasp

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Do not grasp.

If you want to grasp,

You will never reach.

If you do not grasp,

I assure you

Your achievement-reach

Will far exceed your feeble desire-grasp.

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35. Remain young

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Do you want to trust

The world?

Then remain young.

Do you want to love

The world?

Then remain young.

How do you remain young?

You remain young

By discovering the true truth

That you are of God’s inspiration

And

God is of your aspiration. ```

36. A smile and a cry

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What is the difference

Between

A smile and a cry?

A cry is the beginning of endless aspiration.

A smile is the undying revelation of aspiration. ```

37. Action! Action!

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Action!

Action!

I must act in the body,

With the body.

Why?

Because I need

Body-transformation and life-perfection.

Action!

Action!

I must act in the soul,

With the soul.

Why?

Because I need

God-revelation and God-manifestation.

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38. Trumpets

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You are really good and divine;

Therefore

You blow God’s trumpet only.

He is really bad and undivine;

Therefore

He blows his own trumpet only.

I am neither good nor bad,

Neither divine nor undivine;

Therefore

I have no trumpet of my own. ```

39. Your beauty

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Temptation-cry:

What is it?

That is your personal beauty.

Illusion-sleep:

What is it?

That is your impersonal beauty.

Aspiration-might:

What is it?

That is your divine beauty.

Realisation-light:

What is it?

That is your supreme beauty.

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40. You are bound to succeed

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When other servers fail,

Try your faith-day.

You are bound to succeed.

When other helpers fail,

Try your surrender-light.

You are bound to succeed.

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41. America singing, America dancing

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I hear America singing.

I must say,

America’s voice is loud;

America’s voice is good,

And soul-stirring, too.

I see America dancing.

I must say,

Although America’s dance

Wants to illumine the world,

It ends by frightening the world

Not only beyond the world-imagination,

But

Beyond her own loftiest imagination, too. ```

42. What is it?

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Use it or lose it.

What is it?

Love.

Build it or break it.

What is it?

Hope.

Love it or hate it.

What is it?

Surrender.

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43. God's Heaven, my earth

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God shares with me

His Realisation.

He tells me:

“My Heaven is star-rich.”

I share with God

My realisation.

I tell Him:

“My earth is ant-poor,

ant-weak,

ant-helpless.” ```

44. Silence

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My body

Is the sleeping silence in me.

My vital

Is the dreaming silence in me.

My mind

Is the ignoring silence in me.

My heart

Is the awakening silence in me.

My soul

Is the perfecting,

illumining

and

fulfilling silence in me,

And the ignorance-transforming silence

In God.

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45. What do we need?

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I need.

What do I need?

I need

My God-root in the heart of humanity.

God needs.

What does God need?

God needs

My man-flower in the life of Divinity. ```

46. The Vision-Light

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When

I live with the Vision-Light

I am definitely great.

When

I live in the Vision-Light

I am unreservedly good.

When

I live for the Vision-Light

I am unconditionally God’s.

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47. The spoils of battle

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His vital wants

The pride of battle-fury.

His mind wants

The garland of victory.

His heart wants

The beauty of glory. ```

48. Just the beginning

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To God

I have offered

A flood of tears.

I assure God

That there is nothing left.

To me

God has given

A sea of Joy.

He assures me

That this is just

The very beginning. ```

49. Four men

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We blame

The living man

Because

He is impure.

We forgive

The dying man

Because

He tried to remain pure.

We admire

The dead man

Because

His is the life that will not worry.

We need

The immortal man

Because

His is the life

That can and will fulfil us.

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50. You are vanquished

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You are vanquished;

Don’t argue any more

With the inevitable.

Your cheerful surrender

Is the satisfaction

Of God’s supreme Heart-Glory

Of Perfection-Light.

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From:Sri Chinmoy,The Golden Boat, part 18, Agni Press, 1974
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