God was simply shocked

Introduction

On the strength of my inseparable oneness with the souls of my students all the world over, I ventured to write this book for their fastest spiritual progress.

If anybody takes these heart-rending and soul-stirring messages seriously and devotedly, and works on them cheerfully, bravely and unreservedly, they definitely will before long become supremely chosen hero-warrior-children of our Lord Absolute Beloved Supreme to fight against the age-old ignorance-night and establish His full manifestation on earth.

— Sri Chinmoy

1.

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God was simply shocked

To find my abominable

Plus unquestionably unpardonable

Carelessness, nay, callousness,

In not feeding Him

Every day

In the small hours of the morning

With my prayers and meditations,

Which He so desperately needs

And rightly deserves. ```

2.

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God was simply shocked

When I criticised

His beautiful creation

Ruthlessly. ```

3.

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God was simply shocked

When He saw me

Majestically and proudly complacent

And not at all concerned

About my spiritual life.

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4.

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God was simply shocked

When He saw

My most precious enthusiasm-life

Had considerably disappeared. ```

5.

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God was simply shocked

To see

My devotion-heart-tears

Were totally missing. ```

6.

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God was simply shocked

To see me playing happily

With my ceaseless

Self-doubts. ```

7.

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God was simply shocked

To see me listening

To my doubting mind

Very faithfully. ```

8.

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God was simply shocked

To see

My vital and my mind

Secretly deserting

My aspiration-heart.

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9.

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God was simply shocked

To see me

Extolling to the skies

My stupendous success-life

And giving Him

No credit whatsoever. ```

10.

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God was simply shocked

To see my heart totally empty

Of gratitude-flowers.

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11.

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God was simply shocked

To see that I was doubting

His unconditional

Compassion-Eye. ```

12.

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God was simply shocked

To see

My unthinkable delay

In delivering

His express Messages.

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13.

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God was simply shocked

To see my doubting mind,

Restless vital

And lethargic body

Working together

Against my aspiring heart. ```

14.

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God was simply shocked

To see me feeding

My doubting mind

So happily and proudly. ```

15.

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God was simply shocked

To see

That I was not listening

To His lectures

Most attentively.

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16.

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God was simply shocked

To see

That there was not even

An iota of sincerity

Inside my gratitude-heart.

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17.

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God was simply shocked

That I was not maintaining

The same beauty and fragrance

In my devotion-heart. ```

18.

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God was simply shocked

To see

That I had lost

Two most valuable virtues:

Simplicity and patience.

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19.

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God was simply shocked

That I was giving all importance

To my self-assertion

And not to God's Will

At all.

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20.

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God was simply shocked

To see

That there was no genuine

Sincerity-breath

In my dedication-service-life.

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21.

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God was simply shocked

To see me entering into

A self-styled

And self-sufficient life. ```

22.

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God was simply shocked

To see me losing so rapidly

My inspirational joy

In my spiritual life. ```

23.

```

God was simply shocked

To see me incapable

Of knowing

What true surrender is. ```

24.

```

God was simply shocked

To see me building fast,

Very fast,

My self-indulgence-tower. ```

25.

```

God was simply shocked

To see

That I so often

Deliberately ignore

My Heaven-climbing

Responsibilities. ```

26.

```

God was simply shocked

To see me playing

Happily and proudly

With hesitation, doubt

And suspicion.

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27.

```

God was simply shocked

To see

My spiritual discipline-life

So drastically dwindling. ```

28.

```

God was simply shocked

To see me forcing

My aspiration-heart

To starve to death. ```

29.

```

God was simply shocked

To see

That I was thinking of God

Less and less

As the days were passing by,

And thinking more and more

About my desire-fulfilment-life.

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30.

```

God was simply shocked

To see

That my overconfidence-life

Was taking me away from Him

Fast, very fast.

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31.

```

God was simply shocked

To see

That I was drinking deep

My success-glories

And not placing them devotedly

At His Feet. ```

32.

```

God was simply shocked

That I was not at all anxious

To regain

My aspiration-heart's

Devotion-tears.

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33.

```

God was simply shocked

To find me

Wallowing in the pleasures

Of extravagant lethargy. ```

34.

```

God was simply shocked

To find the drastic descent

Of my life's purity-height.

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35.

```

God was simply shocked

To find me quite happy

And unconcerned about my

Readiness-willingness-eagerness-heart-bankruptcy. ```

36.

```

God was simply shocked

To see

The most unfortunate decline

Of my aspiration-dedication-speed. ```

37.

```

God was simply shocked

To see

My utterly baseless feeling

Of inferiority

In every aspect of my life.

He also feels sad and miserable

That my inferiority-poison

Is slowly but unerringly killing

My aspiration-life.

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38.

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God was simply shocked

To see

That I have given myself

A totally new name

Without His permission —

Even without His knowledge:

God-attention-expectation-frustration.

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39.

```

God was simply shocked

To see

My sesquipedalian list,

To be purely and breathlessly precise,

Of my catastrophic expectations

In my inner life of aspiration

And my pathetic expectations

In my outer life of dedication. ```

40.

```

God was simply shocked

To see

My hopelessly weak inability

To establish

My inseparable oneness

With the streaming tears

And bleeding hearts

Of humanity,

Even for a fleeting day.

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41.

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God was simply shocked

To discover

That I was enjoying

My stone-life-

Consciousness-emptiness-heart

For a very long duration. ```

42.

```

God was simply shocked

To find

That I had already sold

My illumination-soul

And aspiration-heart

In order to pay the exorbitant fee

To become a brave soldier

Of ignorance-night. ```

43.

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God was simply shocked

To have

An unprecedented experience

In His Eternity's Existence:

My earth-bound insecurity-life

Devoured His Heaven-free Breath,

Instead of my devouring Him

With my unconditional love,

Devotion and surrender.

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44.

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God was simply shocked

To find

That I was, in secrecy supreme,

Beating my mind-drum

Harder than the hardest,

Consciously and deliberately,

To obliterate my previous

God-readiness

And God-acceptance-life.

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45.

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God was simply shocked

When He entered into

My sleeping, snoring

And utterly God-oblivious

And sanctimoniously self-amorous

Body, vital, mind, heart and life. ```

46.

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God was simply shocked

And unspeakably perplexed

And confused

When He entered into

My abysmal abyss-stupidity-mind

That had convinced me

Of my indispensability

In God's Life. ```

47.

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God was simply shocked

To see me playing

Hide-and-seek

With useless and lifeless

Desert-barrenness

Instead of treasuring and enjoying

The breathless beauty and fragrance

Of my heart-garden.

God whispered into my non-listening

And unwilling ears

That my darkest

Ignorance-enjoyment-life

Beggars description.

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From:Sri Chinmoy,God was simply shocked, Agni Press, 1999
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