I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I want to take a prominent part

In the desire-drama.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I do not believe

In my illumination-whispering heart.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I feel that opportunity

Is another name for forced responsibility.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I am afraid of climbing up

The reality-tree.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I do not want to accept

That my desire-life

Is indeed a frustration-heart. ```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I like constant sound-success

And not sleepless silence-progress.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I do not allow patience

To feed me.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I have turned my mind

Into a self-importance-volcano.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I want to succeed

In substituting my mind-cleverness

For my heart-soulfulness. ```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I always carry a doubt-dagger

Wherever I go.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I am afraid of training my mind

To hope.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I do not want to accept the fact

That because of my unbending mind

My life has become an unending darkness. ```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I want to live

Inside a binding and blinding

Desire-room

And not inside

An illumining and liberating

Aspiration-palace.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I am always quick to anger

And slower than the slowest to smile.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I never want to become

An expert in self-giving.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I never pray to God

For a oneness-heart.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I have never learned the silence-language

That is needed to talk to God.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I have never dared to anchor my heart

In implicit faith-harbour.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I never believe

That God has kept His Heart-Door

Wide open for me. ```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I am afraid of

Life-transforming dreams.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

Every day I bury myself

In thought-mud.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I do not enjoy

Doing my will-drills.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I have a questioning mind

And not a listening heart.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I enjoy my mind's

Constant unwillingness-grumbles.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I do not place every day

Fresh hope-flowers

On my heart-shrine. ```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I have allowed outer calamities

And inner frustrations

To befriend me. ```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

Every day I feel the end

Of my life's fleeting span.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I carry thickening disappointments

Of decades.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I care only for what is gone

And not for what remains.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

My name is ego-indulgence. ```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

My name is oneness-starvation. ```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I dearly enjoy

Sleepless ignorance-appetite.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I have never developed

A distaste for ignorance-food.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

My inner faith

Has deserted me for good.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I have not yet discovered the antidote

To my expectation-poison.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I am afraid of taking

Aspiration-fitness-course.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I do not ignore

Constant anxiety-punches.

```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I do not dare to think

That God the Creator is within me

To awaken me

And God the creation is for me

To please me. ```

I know why I am helpless

```

I know why I am helpless.

I am helpless

Because

I think that my life

Is a curse of the devil

And not a Love-Gift from God. ```

Mine is a God-dream

```

Mine is a God-dream

That can never be shattered.

Mine is a God-dream

That can never be shaken.

```

Mine is a God-dream

```

Mine is a God-dream

That never forgets

Its God-appointment Hour.

```

Mine is a God-dream

```

Mine is a God-dream

That tells me

That my heart's aspiration

Is nothing other than

My life's re-creation.

```

Mine is a God-dream

```

Mine is a God-dream

That embodies only

The mountain-silence-peace.

```

Mine is a God-dream

```

Mine is a God-dream

That knows only

My heart's rising aspiration-sun

And never the setting

Of the aspiration-sun.

```

Mine is a God-dream

```

Mine is a God-dream

That is always empty

Of doubt-poison.

```

Mine is a God-dream

```

Mine is a God-dream

That is always triumphant

Over my earthly human fate.

```

Mine is a God-dream

```

Mine is a God-dream

That tells me

It is not sadness but selflessness

That makes us very special to God. ```

Mine is a God-dream

```

Mine is a God-dream

That is indeed my passport

To God's celestial Country-Home.

```

Mine is a God-dream

```

Mine is a God-dream

That does not allow

My God-manifestation-heart-song

To remain unsung. ```

Mine is a God-dream

```

Mine is a God-dream

That bravely swims

Across the ocean of impossibility.

```

Mine is a God-dream

```

Mine is a God-dream

That always finds

My Lord Beloved Supreme available

Inside my heart-home. ```

From:Sri Chinmoy,I know why I am helpless, Agni Press, 1992
Sourced from https://srichinmoylibrary.com/ikw