My jealousy is my madness-burden

1.

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My jealousy

Is my madness-burden.

My jealousy

Is God's sadness-burden. ```

2.

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Jealousy

Is an instant

Joy-killer.

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3.

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Sooner than at once,

Jealousy brings to the fore

Its hidden sword.

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4.

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Jealousy wants to unburden

Its miseries

Sleeplessly and breathlessly.

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5.

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Jealousy

Is an ever-rising fever

Of man's ignorance-mind

And vital. ```

6.

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Jealousy

Is a fatal

Hatred-poison.

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7.

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Jealousy

Is at once

Ferocious and atrocious.

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8.

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Jealousy

Is at once

Rebellious and voracious.

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9.

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Jealousy happily

Plies its boat

Between the inner tragedies

And outer tragedies

Of its rivals.

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10.

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Jealousy

Is a deep-rooted

Love-rejection-life.

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11.

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Jealousy

And supremacy

Are always fond

Of living together. ```

12.

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Unlike ours,

Jealousy's breath

Lives in its

Destruction-cherished vital. ```

13.

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Jealousy's phone

Rings and rings

Until it catches

The victim's ear. ```

14.

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Jealousy can live

Without a mind,

Without a heart,

Without a soul,

Even without God.

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15.

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Human jealousy

And divine Ecstasy

Are eternal strangers.

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16.

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Jealousy

Is a one-way

Destruction-road.

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17.

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Jealousy

Is an aggressive boxer,

A repulsive dancer,

A hopeless singer

And a useless storyteller.

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18.

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In the desire-race,

Jealousy

Is always first.

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19.

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Aspiration-plants

And dedication-leaves

Are ruthlessly destroyed

By the mad-elephant:

Jealousy.

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20.

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Jealousy

Is humanity's

Dream-boat-bomber.

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21.

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Jealousy has

Frightening eyes.

Jealousy has

Grinding teeth.

Jealousy has

A cunning face. ```

22.

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Jealousy's birth date

Everybody knows.

Jealousy's death date

Nobody knows,

For jealousy

Defies death. ```

23.

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The seeker says to jealousy,

"Jealousy, where are you?"

Jealousy says to the seeker,

"O seeker, are you blind?

I am everywhere!

Especially in the mind

And in the vital

Of every desire." ```

24.

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Jealousy comes from

The desire-life.

The desire-life comes from

The impurity-mind.

The impurity-mind comes from

The untouchability-night. ```

25.

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The unsuccessful jealousy

Surrenders

To the unmovable lethargy.

The unmovable lethargy

Surrenders

To the hurtful

Self-destruction.

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26.

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Jealousy,

Before you entered

Into my life,

I was the world's

Richest prince.

Now that you are in me

And I am for you,

I have become

The poorest street-beggar.

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27.

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Jealousy,

Before you entered

Into my life,

I was the possessor of

Two blue-vast eyes.

Now that you are in me

And I am for you,

I have become the possessor

Of two inferno-volcano-eyes.

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28.

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Jealousy,

You are my mind's purity-stealer,

You are my heart's peace-intruder,

You are my life's divinity-invader. ```

29.

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Jealousy,

You may not know,

You may not even

Want to know,

But God's Compassion-Eye

Is beckoning you

And God's Forgiveness-Heart

Is ready for you. ```

30.

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Jealousy,

My God-searching mind knows

That you are malicious.

My God-aspiring heart feels

That you are treacherous.

My God-serving life knows and feels

That you are ferocious.

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31.

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O my jealousy,

Your barking mouth

And biting eyes

Are equally and immediately

Destructive.

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32.

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Jealousy,

You are my constant

Nightmare-mind.

You are my constant

Love-absence-heart.

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33.

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Shortest is the distance

From jealousy to hell. ```

34.

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Jealousy says to fear,

"Out!

out!

Get out of my vital,

Get out of my mind,

Get out of my very life!

I am on my way

To my enemy: destruction." ```

35.

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Jealousy,

You prefer

Ignorance-night-sleep

To illumination-perfection-dream. ```

36.

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Jealousy,

You do not come alone

To your victim.

You come with

Your darkest and wildest

Thunder-disaster. ```

37.

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Jealousy,

Matchless you are

As an insecurity-islander.

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38.

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Jealousy,

You are your own

Ultimate

Self-destruction-indulgence. ```

39.

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Jealousy,

You are your own

Constant aggression.

Aggression and satisfaction

Live millions of miles apart.

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40.

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Jealousy,

The sweetness of oneness-hope

And the fulness of God-promise

Will never befriend you. ```

41.

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Jealousy,

You are impossibly blind.

Therefore

God's descending Tears

You can neither

See nor feel. ```

42.

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Jealousy,

God is fast approaching you.

Do not ignore,

Do not even underestimate

His Compassion-flooded Arrival.

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43.

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Jealousy,

Only because of you

My sweetest God-memories

Are fading fast,

Very fast.

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44.

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Jealousy,

Are you not ashamed of

Thriving on world-suspicion

For such a long time? ```

45.

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Jealousy,

Can you not see

That every day you are running

Between ever-extending

And ever-disappearing goals?

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46.

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Jealousy,

God is extremely happy

That finally

You are asking about Him. ```

47.

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Jealousy,

God is delighted to hear

That you feel the necessity

Of His Arrival

At your door.

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48.

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Jealousy,

God is extremely proud of you

Because you want to demolish

Once and for all

Your huge ignorance-mansion.

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49.

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Jealousy,

God will be extremely fond of you

If you take from Him

His unconditional Help

In your unprecedented adventure.

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50.

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Jealousy,

Look how excited God is

To come and meet you!

You just say hello to God.

In no time

He will transform you

And make you

His Divinity's Life,

His Infinity's Heart

And His Immortality's Soul. ```

From:Sri Chinmoy,My jealousy is my madness-burden, Agni Press, 1994
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