My Lord's Lotus-Feet versus my devotion-heart, part 3

1.

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My Lord,

Whenever I tell You lies,

You immediately catch me.

But how is it when You tell me lies,

I cannot catch You?

"My child,

Here is the proof

That I am infinitely smarter

Than you are." ```

2.

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My Lord,

When I fall sick, You cure me,

And this happens quite often.

But when You fall sick,

I can never cure You.

"My child,

There are many things

That you can do,

But I cannot do."

My Lord,

Please name only one.

"My child,

You have established friendship,

Permanent friendship,

With ignorance-night,

A thing impossible for Me

To accomplish." ```

3.

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My Lord,

I am planning to write

My autobiography.

Do You have any objection?

"My child,

I do have an objection."

Why, my Lord, why?

"I shall be terribly jealous

Of you.

I want you to write

My Biography first." ```

4.

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My Lord,

Do You think

You will ever care

To write my biography?

"My child,

I shall write

An excellent biography

Of your life

The day you completely stop

Criticising Me." ```

5.

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My Lord,

You tell me to be careful

Of my ego.

It will destroy me.

My Lord,

When I extol You to the skies,

Will You not have the same fate?

"No, My child,

Long, long before you were born,

I completely destroyed My ego."

```

6.

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My Lord,

Be frank at least once

In Your lifetime!

It seems to me

That You are jealous

Of my mixing with ignorance.

"My child,

Why should I not be?

After all, you are My child.

I do have every claim

To have you only for Myself."

```

7.

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My Lord,

The more I satisfy You,

The more You demand.

Before You wanted from me

Only love, devotion and surrender.

Now You have added obedience.

If I start obeying You,

Then You will invent

Something more!

"My child,

You failed miserably

In your love-devotion-surrender-examination.

I want you to study

The obedience-course,

Which is abundantly easier."

And, my Lord,

If I fail in Your obedience-course,

Will You have something

Even easier?

"My child,

Yes, I will have something

For you

Easier than the easiest —

My last resort —

A sesquipedalian cane

And

An iron rod!"

My Lord,

Before You go that far,

I am immediately starting

My obedience-love-devotion-surrender-life.

I shall obey You

Most sincerely.

I shall start loving You

Most sincerely.

I shall devote myself

To Your service

Most sincerely.

I shall give You

My unconditional surrender

Most sincerely.

"Then, My child,

Come, come, come

And sit beside Me

On My Golden Throne." ```

8.

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My Lord,

When I do anything wrong,

You immediately scold me

Ruthlessly.

But when I do many things right —

I mean, most satisfactorily —

You do not say even one word

Of appreciation.

Is it fair?

"My child,

When you do things

To My great Satisfaction,

I am all admiration for you.

But, alas, your giant pride

Does not understand My language.

What is worse, it deafens

Your two long and beautiful ears.

"My child,

At that time you should sympathise

With Me,

Instead of finding fault with Me.

"My child,

I do hope

I have defended My case

Most honourably

And most satisfactorily."

My Lord,

In that case,

I am terribly sorry for You.

Or, should I say,

I surrender completely

And unconditionally

To Your inscrutable Cleverness.

```

9.

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My Lord,

I try so hard to please You,

But I can never please You.

Therefore, what is the use

Of trying again and again,

Only to fail again and again?

"My child, do not give up!

Let us not give up.

It is a joint effort.

The moment you succeed,

I shall succeed as well.

Your success has to precede Mine." ```

10.

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My Lord,

No matter how hard I try,

No matter how many ways

I kill myself to please You,

I can never please You.

Now it has come to a point

That I am arguing with myself

Whether I should continue trying

To please You.

Is it really worthwhile?

"My child,

I am sharing a top secret with you.

I have been also doing

The same thing.

You have no idea how hard

I have been working

To make you happy.

Alas, it is of no avail.

But something within Me

Is telling Me to continue,

So I shall continue.

And I am requesting you

To do the same.

I am sure there will come a time

When both of us will succeed.

As you know, our philosophy

Is never to give up.

So before long,

We are bound to succeed."

```

11.

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My Lord,

What do You think of astrology?

"My child,

In My case

I really do not want

To go backward

In order to go forward.

I want only to go forward —

Faster than the fastest

And farther than the farthest." ```

12.

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My Lord,

What do You think of palmistry?

"My child,

My Heart

Is infinitely more beautiful

Than My Palm.

Therefore, I want to spend

All My Life

Appreciating, admiring, adoring

And loving My Heart." ```

13.

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My Lord,

Am I correct when I tell You

That finally I am making progress

In my spiritual life?

"My child,

You are absolutely right.

But do not forget

To give Me a little credit." ```

14.

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My Lord,

Five days a week we work;

Two days we get rest.

Similarly, in the spiritual life,

Can we not pray and meditate

Five days a week

And two days enjoy rest?

"My child,

I have no idea

Whether you get a salary

On the days you do not work.

But in My case I cannot afford

To give you your salary

The days you do not work for Me."

My Lord,

What is Your salary, after all?

"My child,

My salary is

My Affection, My Love,

My Gratitude and My Pride." ```

15.

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My Lord,

Do You know everything

That I do for You

And say about You?

"My child,

I know only one thing:

I love you, I love you,

I love you unconditionally." ```

16.

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My Lord,

Do You not think

It is high time

For You to create

A better world?

"My child,

I thought you are supposed

To do that.

"Please, My child,

Do not thrust upon

My two weak Shoulders

Your heavy responsibility.

You may not believe Me,

My child,

But I am already overburdened." ```

17.

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My Lord,

I cry for You every day,

Every hour, every minute,

Every second.

Do You, my Lord, ever cry

For me?

"My child,

If I also do the same,

Then who will be able

To console whom?

Now, I am serious, My child —

I do cry for you sleeplessly." ```

18.

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My Lord,

I do not know why

You become so sad

When You see me.

Is it because You are not satisfied With me,

Or is it because of something else?

"My child,

I become sad when I see you,

Not because you are not good,

But because your visits

Are quite infrequent

And unreliable." ```

19.

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My Lord,

You tell me that

You always care for me.

Where were You

When I was wandering

In my mind-forest?

"My child,

Unnoticed,

I was following you,

Lovingly and faithfully." ```

20.

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My Lord,

When I take one step,

You immediately tell me

That I am great,

Very great.

My Lord,

When I take two steps,

You tell me

That I am good,

Very good.

My Lord,

What will You say

When I take all the steps?

"Then, My child,

In no time,

I will tell you

That you are

Absolutely perfect."

```

21.

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My Lord,

When I leave You,

Do You still care for me?

"My child,

My Mind may not,

But My Heart definitely does."

My Lord,

Why does Your Mind

Not care for me?

"My child,

You will not believe

How much time I spend caring

For all your brothers and sisters!" ```

22.

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My Lord,

Will it ever be possible

For me to love You

Unconditionally?

"My child,

This much only

I can tell you:

Many are your predecessors

And

Many will be your successors." ```

23.

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My Lord,

If You really love me,

How is it I cannot prove it

To the world at large?

"My child,

My Love for you

Is not for your demonstration,

But for your life's illumination

And nature's transformation."

```

24.

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My Lord,

Is there anybody on earth

Who is pure in heart?

"My child,

You use your mind-eye.

Therefore, you see everybody

As impure.

But I use My Heart-Eye.

Therefore, I see that

All My children,

With no exception,

Are pure."

```

25.

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My Lord,

I have made millions of mistakes

In this life.

Have You ever made any mistake,

My Lord?

Be sincere, once and for all.

"My child,

So far I have not made any mistake,

But I have decided to make one:

I want to withdraw My Concern

From the disobedient human beings.

Needless to say, you top the list!" ```

26.

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My Lord,

It is so easy for me to feel

That You love me,

But why is it so difficult

For me to feel

That I love You?

"My child,

Do not worry.

As long as you feel

My Love for you,

Your road will remain

Amazingly clear." ```

27.

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My Lord,

I promise to You

That I shall give You my heart,

If You promise

To break my mind first.

"My child,

Amen! A million times, Amen!" ```

28.

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My Lord,

I have called You

At least a thousand times.

But alas, no reply.

"My child,

You and I are playing

The same game.

I have called you

At least a million times.

But alas, no reply." ```

29.

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My Lord,

When You get angry with me,

What shall I do?

"My child,

Just give Me a cute smile." ```

30.

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My Lord,

When am I supposed to arrive

At the Golden Shore?

"My child,

Now,

At this very moment."

```

31.

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My Lord,

I need from You

The capacity to cultivate

More love, more devotion

And more surrender.

Do You need anything from me,

My Lord?

"Yes, My child:

More prayerful tears

And

More soulful smiles." ```

32.

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My Lord,

Alas, I am not ready

To rise above daily trifles.

"But, My child,

I am all ready

To give you My Divinity's All.

Take it.

Just take it."

```

33.

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My Lord,

I have brought my mind

To be Your slave,

Your Eternity's slave.

"My child,

I do not need any slave.

I need only a friend,

My Eternity's friend." ```

From:Sri Chinmoy,My Lord's Lotus-Feet versus my devotion-heart, part 3, Agni Press, 1998
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