O my aspiration-heart, where are you?

Part I

1.1

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

Since you left me,

I have never seen

God smiling at me.

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MAH 1-34. The following 34 poems were written on 23 and 24 August 1993 in New York.↩

2.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

You are my God-faith-

Confidence-foundation. ```

3.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

It is you who have given me

The indomitable courage

Not only to brave the unknown,

But also to satisfy the Unknowable. ```

4.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

You are the only one

To end my earth-sufferings

And awaken my Heaven-ecstasy

Here on earth. ```

5.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

Can you not see that both

My dream-world

And

My reality-world

Are pitifully and helplessly

Crying for you? ```

6.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

Without your cheerful assistance,

My ignorance-sleep of millennia

Will not come to an end.

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7.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

All I need from you

Is my soul's silence-sea-poise. ```

8.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

Without you,

No matter which direction I take,

It leads me

To useless nothingness. ```

9.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

Please come back.

I promise you that I shall give up

Leading the mind-life

For good.

Do trust me.

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10.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

Do come back.

From now on I shall give you

My cheerful and sleepless willingness.

I shall obey you and please you

In every way.

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11.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

Each time I think of you,

I hear a new

God-throbbing melody.

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12.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

I am blinded and stabbed

By the doubt-hooligan.

Come immediately to my rescue!

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13.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

Let us try once more

Carefully, soulfully and self-givingly

To walk along the path

Of God-discovery. ```

14.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

Do not forget

That you are the only golden bridge

Between my hope-life

And God's Promise-Eye. ```

15.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

There is no retirement

For you and me.

We must daily sing together

Our self-transcendence-song

At the Feet

Of our Lord Beloved Supreme. ```

16.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

Every day you present me

With a newly-blossomed dream.

I desperately need you

And your dream. ```

17.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

Have you forgotten

God's own transcendental Motto:

"Never give up"?

Therefore, never give up on me,

Never give up on yourself,

And specially

Never give up on my stupid mind,

For it needs God-illumination

With your and my help.

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18.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

God has telephoned me

For news about you.

I simply do not know what to say.

Please come back immediately

And answer the phone.

Every five minutes God is phoning here

With a very significant

And private message for you,

Only for you.

I do not know what it is all about.

Therefore, do come back immediately

And speak to God,

And I shall be so grateful

If you can share with me

Just a little of your conversation

With God. ```

19.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

God is starving

For your aspiration-food-flames. ```

20.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

Without you I cannot build

My hope-fulfilment-empire. ```

21.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

Do come back

With your silence-peace-fountain.

This time I shall not allow

My restless mind

To disturb you.

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22.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

Only with you and in you

Am I able to go far beyond

My own competence.

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23.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

Every day, without fail,

I need from you

The capacity to maintain

My God-faith-oneness-friendship. ```

24.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

I cannot love God without you,

I cannot obey God without you.

Without you I cannot do anything

Prayerfully, soulfully

And unconditionally

To see God smiling at me. ```

25.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

I beg your pardon.

No more shall I allow

My questioning and confusing mind

To enter into

Your God-treasured silence-life.

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26.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

My gratitude-breath I am offering

To you

Because it was you who showed me

How to belong only to God. ```

27.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

I need you desperately,

For you embody

My fastest God-invocation-speed.

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28.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

At every moment when I think of you,

Your unparalleled rose-beauty

I see.

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29.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

My God-love-bird flies

Higher than the highest

On strongest wings

Only when you are with me

And for me.

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30.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

Without you,

My faith in God

And

My love of God

Disappear

Before they appear. ```

31.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

Without you,

My life-boat is sinking fast,

Very fast.

I see no pilot, no destination.

What I see is the destruction-dance

Of my earth-existence. ```

32.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

I cannot take

Even one single step farther

Towards God

Without your inspiration, enthusiasm,

Eagerness and support.

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33.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

Every day I am becoming

Increasingly aware

Of your supreme importance

In my God-manifestation

And God-satisfaction-life.

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34.

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O my aspiration-heart,

Where are you?

I am giving you what I have:

Promise.

I am giving you what I am:

Gratitude.

I shall never, never

Disappoint you again.

Do come back.

Let us rock together once again

On the waves of Eternity's Bliss.

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Part II — Incredible news

35.2

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Incredible news:

My mind,

Instead of getting older every year,

Will now become younger every year -

Plus, it will become wiser.

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MAH 35-55. The following 21 poems were written in July and August 1982 in Florida and New York.↩

36.

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Incredible news:

Every day

My mind sits beside my heart,

And with utmost sincerity

It meditates with my heart.

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37.

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Incredible news:

Before, my mind used to mock

At my heart's

Credulous behaviour.

Now my mind wants to be

As close as my heart is

To my soul.

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38.

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Incredible news:

My mind has become

A very devoted student

Of my soul. ```

39.

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Incredible news:

The mind that used to doubt

The soul

Once upon a time

Now has all faith in the soul.

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40.

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Incredible news:

My mind now admits

That God knows

More than it knows -

And this is a most sincere admission

On the part of my mind. ```

41.

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Incredible news:

My mind's most recent discovery -

It cannot live without God,

Even for a fleeting second. ```

42.

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Incredible news:

My mind has finally surrendered

To my heart.

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43.

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Incredible news:

My mind has started believing

In emptiness.

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44.

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Incredible news:

From now on

My mind will quite often

Take a vow of complete silence. ```

45.

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Incredible news:

My mind's best friend,

Doubt,

Has now become

My mind's worst foe.

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46.

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Incredible news:

My mind has said to criticism,

"I have had enough of you!

I do not need you any more,

Even for a fleeting second!

What I badly need

Is oneness-satisfaction."

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47.

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Incredible news:

My mind is devouring

Something completely new -

Purity. ```

48.

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Incredible news:

My new mind is in full control

Of my old vital.

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49.

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Incredible news:

My mind has started going

To my heart-temple

Every day devotedly

And faithfully listening

To the most illumining lectures

Of my eternally wise soul.

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50.

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Incredible news:

My mind is getting tremendous joy

In unlearning its old lessons

And

Unburdening its old problems.

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51.

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Incredible news:

My mind is sincerely ashamed

Of its past complexity-life.

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52.

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Incredible news:

My mind is commanding

Its giant intellect

To touch the feet

Of my intuition-child

And to stay at its feet forever. ```

53.

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Incredible news:

My mind does not want

To possess God

By hook or by crook

Any more.

My mind now needs God

Soulfully and unreservedly.

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54.

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Incredible news:

My mind has totally demolished

The fearful fear-house.

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55.

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Incredible news:

My mind is asking God,

"Father, am I now ready?"

God is telling my mind,

"You are, My child.

You are more than ready.

Look, you have safely

And unmistakably arrived

At your final Destination:

My blue-gold Satisfaction-Shore." ```

From:Sri Chinmoy,O my aspiration-heart, where are you?, Agni Press, 1999
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