My Flute

1. The Absolute

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No mind, no form, I only exist;

Now ceased all will and thought;

The final end of Nature's dance,

I am It whom I have sought.

A realm of Bliss bare, ultimate;

Beyond both knower and known;

A rest immense I enjoy at last;

I face the One alone.

I have crossed the secret ways of life,

I have become the Goal.

The Truth immutable is revealed;

I am the way, the God-Soul.

My spirit aware of all the heights,

I am mute in the core of the Sun.

I barter nothing with time and deeds;

My cosmic play is done. ```

2. Sweet, sweeter, sweetest

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Sweet is my Lord.

Him I have realised as the Eternal Truth.

Sweeter is my Lord.

Him I have realised as the only Doer.

Sweetest is my Lord.

Him I have realised as the Enjoyer Supreme. ```

3. My name, my age, my home

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At last I know my name.

My name is God's eternal Game.

At last I know my name.

At last I know my age.

My age is Infinity's page.

At last I know my age.

At last I know my home.

My home is where my flame-worlds roam.

At last I know my home.

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4. O love me more and love me long

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O love me more and love me long.

My boat is sinking, my hope is strong.

O love me more and love me long.

My breath is bleeding, my dream is strong.

O love me more and love me long.

My soul is leaving, my surrender strong.

O love me more and love me long.

My Goal is crying, my promise strong. ```

5. Another day

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Another day, another day,

My Lord Supreme is far away.

Another day, my heart can be

The all-giving breath of patience-tree.

Another day, my life can feed

My soulful world with its crying need.

Another day, I own to hear

God's Voice of Light and feel Him near.

Another day, another day,

My tears shall win His blue-gold Ray.

Another day, another day,

And then, no more my ignorance-clay.

Another day, I'll be God's Love

Within, without, below, above. ```

6. Apocalypse

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Within, without the cosmos wide am I;

In joyful sweep I loose forth and draw back all.

A birthless deathless Spirit that moves and is still

Ever abides within to hear my call.

I who create on earth my joys and doles

To fulfil my matchless quest in all my play,

I veil my face of truth with golden hues

And see the serpent-night and python-day.

A Consciousness-Bliss I feel in each breath;

I am the self-amorous child of the Sun.

At will I break and build my symbol sheath

And freely enjoy the world's unshadowed fun. ```

7. I am a thief

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I am a thief; I steal every night.

Each theft of mine kindles a thrill

On the Supreme's all-fulfilling Eye.

What do I steal?

His Grace, my meal.

Why do I steal?

He compels me so.

Perhaps He finds no other way

To feed my Spirit's hunger stark

With the Nectar of His shadowless Ray.

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8. I am a fool

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I am a fool, they say.

Am I, am I a fool?

I go to my inner School;

God's Eye my eternal Day.

To help my Lord in His Play,

To found His Smile on earth,

My divinely human birth.

Yet I am a fool, they say. ```

9. I am an idiot

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I know I am an idiot true.

In the growing clouds my hopeful feet,

Hands flung skywards for the blue stars.

My throes no sun, no moon, shall greet.

I had a dream, a real dream:

God would bury Himself to live

In human ignorance hungry and black,

To human death His Soul He'd give. ```

10. Immortality

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I feel in all my limbs His boundless Grace;

Within my heart the Truth of life shines white.

The secret heights of God my soul now climbs;

No dole, no sombre pang, no death in my sight.

No mortal days and nights can shake my calm;

A Light above sustains my secret soul.

All doubts with grief are banished from my deeps,

My eyes of light perceive my cherished Goal.

Though in the world, I am above its woe;

I dwell in an ocean of supreme release.

My mind, a core of the One's unmeasured thoughts;

The star-vast welkin hugs my Spirit's peace.

My eternal days are found in speeding time;

I play upon His Flute of rhapsody.

Impossible deeds no more impossible seem;

In birth-chains now shines Immortality. ```

11. A little

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A little joy have I of ceaseless joy,

A little day of timeless day.

Yet knows no bound this empty show of mine;

I march along a goalless way.

O Love!

A desert within me ever pines.

Do turn it into a song of dawn.

I know not in what hour of evil night

Thou art, my Lord, from me withdrawn.

Life now must reach Thy Breath of Bliss supreme,

Make Thee the one and only Guide.

Thou art the Bridge between my death and birth;

O let my longings in Thee abide. ```

12. Struggle's gloom

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With a blank sorrow, heavy I am now grown;

Like things eternal, changeless stands my woe.

In vain I try to overcome my foe.

O Lord of Love!

Make me more dead than stone.

Thy Grace of silent Smile I never feel;

The forger of evil stamps my nights and days.

His call my sleepless body ever obeys.

My heart I annihilate and try to heal.

The dumb earth-waste now burns a hell to my soul.

I fail to fight with its stupendous doom,

My breath is a slave of that unending gloom.

For Light I pine, but find a tenebrous goal.

Smoke-clouds cover my face of Spirit's fire;

Naked I move in night's ignorance deep and dire. ```

13. The Supreme

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Father, I have seen.

"No."

Father, I have known.

"No."

Father, I have felt.

"No."

Father, I have become.

"No."

Father, I Am.

"Yes." ```

14. The Supreme

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Father, You are the Grace.

"No."

Father, You are the Law.

"No."

Father, You are the Birth

and

Death of Creation.

"No."

Father, You are the Child

of

Your DREAM.

"Yes." ```

15. Between nothingness and eternity

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Barren of events,

Rich in pretensions

My earthly life.

Obscurity

My real name.

Wholly unto myself

I exist.

I wrap no soul

In my embrace.

No mentor worthy

Of my calibre

Have I.

I am all alone

Between failure

And frustration.

I am the red thread

Between

Nothingness

And Eternity. ```

16. The World-Lord

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O my body,

You are the home of the river of tears.

O my vital,

You are the song of heartless city.

O my mind,

You are the forest of tenebrous night.

O my heart,

You are the love of the World-Lord. ```

17. Revealing Soul and fulfilling Goal

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If You but knew, Father,

What I have done for You:

Planted and raised a climbing tree

For You to dance on its top, smiling free.

If You but knew, Father,

What I have done for You.

I have become the world's lowest slave

Your Breath to serve in man, the grave.

"If you but knew, child,

What I ever think of you.

You are My Life's revealing Soul,

You are My Vision's fulfilling Goal." ```

18. Ever and never

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Will You love me, Lord,

If I love ignorance more?

"I shall love you,

To you open My Spirit's Door."

Will You love me, Lord,

If I marry the fires of hell?

"I shall love you;

Your life's venom-tree My Eye shall fell."

Will You love me, Lord,

If I live with wildest death?

"I shall love you;

In you I sowed My deathless Breath."

Will You love me, Lord,

If I come to You alone?

"Never!

Bring quick

With you the world, else I shall moan."

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19. Never to meet again

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Never to meet again:

My yesterday's face,

My backward race,

Never to meet again.

Never to meet again:

Swift fear the thief,

Wild doubt the chief,

Never to meet again.

Never to meet again:

The clasp of death

And Satan's breath,

Never to meet again.

Never to meet again:

Chinmoy the failure,

Ignorance pure,

Never to meet again. ```

20. Before the end of day

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Before the end of day

My eye of Light shall change

My face of sombre clay

And touch my Spirit's range. ```

21. Before the end of night

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Before the end of night

I can, I shall devour

Sleepless death, senseless bite;

In me my Supreme, my Power. ```

22. Transformation-Light

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O blind and dark night of our heart's abyss!

We are the comrades of the river of tears.

In the clime of binding attachment,

Crying and smiling we kindle the lamp

Of wild obstruction-shades.

Our world is an empty hope, destitute.

We shall be the language-message of the

Time Eternal.

We shall grow into infinite Hunger, infinite

Nectar-Delight

And Eternity's Transformation-Light.

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23. The hero marches along

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He who has loved this world

Has only got excruciating pangs.

The world has thrown on him

All ugliness, filth, dirt and impurity.

Yet the hero marches along,

Carrying the burden of the entire world.

At the end of his teeming struggles

He will go and stand at the Feet

of the Lord Supreme.

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24. The Mother Supreme

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Soul-stirring eyes of gold-delight,

All-where reigning supreme —

Our blind secrecy's dream

She seizes with Her all-forgiving Sight.

Torn now asunder our ego's screen,

Under Her Smile of Grace

Blooms quick our surrender's face.

She paves the way to a life evergreen. ```

25. O Light of the Supreme!

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O Beauty non-pareil, O Beloved,

Do burn the fire of beauty and splendour

within my heart.

By loving You, eternally beautiful I shall be.

May Lord Shiva's destruction-dance

Destroy all shackles of the finite.

May the Light of the Supreme inundate me,

My heart, my heart, my all.

Having loved the infinite,

The heart of gloom is crying for the bloom

of Light.

O Life Infinite, give me the eternal hunger,

aspiration-cry.

The tiniest drop will lose its raison d'être

In the heart of the boundless ocean.

In fire and air Your Life of the Spirit I behold.

O Beauty, O Beauty's Gold,

O Light of the Supreme! ```

26. Hope

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Thou art my Lord, my golden dream,

Thou art my life in death.

O bless me with Thy Hope Supreme,

Lord of the Eternal Breath!

Agelong the vision of Thy Sun

For darkness have I sought.

I know the evils I should shun

And quickly bring to nought.

The earth is deaf and blind, my Lord;

Its true goal it denies.

It hears no voice, no heavenly word

From those who seek the skies.

O yet I feel Thy kingly Grace

With my feeble mortality.

I shall win at last the Noonward Race,

Plunge in the Nectar-Sea. ```

27. Never the same again

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Never the same again,

Lost peace restored.

Never the same again.

Never the same again,

Lost joy regained.

Never the same again.

Never the same again,

Lost power reborn.

Never the same again.

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28. Ever the same again

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Ever the same again,

My lost Truth rediscovered.

Ever the same again.

Ever the same again,

My forgotten Self remembered.

Ever the same again.

Ever the same again,

My lost Goal regained.

Ever the same again.

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29. O Bird of Light

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One thought, one tune, one resonance —

Who calls me ever and anon?

I know not where I am.

I know not whither I shall go.

In dark amnesia,

Myself I buy, myself I sell.

All I break, again all I build.

All I hope to be mine, mine alone.

Alas, my heart is eclipsed

By dark and wild destruction-night.

O Bird of Light, O Bird of Light,

With your glowing and flowing flames

Do enter into my heart once again.

You are calling me to climb up

And fly into the blue.

But how can I?

My heart is in prison,

In the strangled breath of a tiny room.

O Bird of Light, O Bird of Light,

O Bird of Light Supreme.

In me, I pray, keep not an iota of gloom.

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30. Arise! Awake!

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Arise, awake, O friend of my dream.

Arise, awake, O breath of my life.

Arise, awake, O light of my eyes.

O seer-poet in me,

Do manifest yourself in me and through me.

Arise, awake, O vast heart within me.

Arise, awake, O consciousness of mine,

Which is always transcending the universe

And its own life of the Beyond.

Arise, awake, O form of my meditation transcendental.

Arise, awake, O bound divinity in humanity.

Arise, awake, O my heart's Liberator, Shiva,

And free mankind from its ignorance-sleep. ```

31. An open invitation

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Each soul, a striking page

In perfection-book of Fate.

Each prayer, a tender knock

At God's own psychic Gate.

Each thought dauntless shall live

In Truth, ignorant of fall.

God comes Himself to receive;

The promised Land is for all. ```

32. Fear

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Whom do I fear?

The Lord, the One?

Not true!

I am

My Father's son.

What do I fear?

My ignorance vast —

The sleepless spear,

The eyeless dust.

Why do I fear?

Because my eyes

See not the smile

Of the golden skies.

And what is fear?

A tempting call

From the bondage-sphere

Of an airtight ball.

And where is fear?

It is everywhere,

Death's atmosphere,

Shameless and bare. ```

33. Four eyes

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God's Tears

In doubting eyes.

God's Hope

In aspiring eyes.

God's Smile

In conquering eyes.

But God

In all-giving eyes. ```

34. God's absence and God's Presence

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O Lord, Thy absence has measureless power.

Pangs of bitter failures rage through my mind.

Hot knives stab through my heart with every breath.

I know, I know, I am the eternal blind.

O Lord, Thy Presence has fathomless power.

Who says my soul is limp with black despair?

Eternity sits at my feet like a slave,

And Death, a weeping child — helpless, bare. ```

35. In the forest of my inner light

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O King of the cowherds,

O King of the cowherds,

Just once before me appear.

My life is a false dream,

My death is a false dream.

Do take them away.

O King of the cowherds,

O King of the cowherds,

Just once before me appear.

In the forest of my inner light,

In the silent depths of my heart,

I hear the soul-stirring music of your Flute.

I see your divine cow,

Grazing in the lap of Infinity's Silence.

O King of the cowherds,

O King of the cowherds,

Just once before me appear.

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36. I came

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Into the world of beauty's flame,

Into the world of offering's game,

Into the world of lustre-flood,

I came, I came, my existence came. ```

37. I lost

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I lost my soul when I was born.

I lost my heart when earth I embraced.

I lost my Goal when doubt I fed.

I lost my All when hope I chased. ```

38. Leave me alone

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Leave me alone, leave me alone.

I need my rest in my soaring nest.

My bleeding heart for God's bending Ears.

His Heart my host, His Soul my guest.

Leave me alone, my play is done.

O world, no more shall I stab your pride.

Your lessons wild are harrows of death

I shall unlearn — in God to hide.

Leave me alone, leave me alone.

I have now seen my goal's highest Soul.

In the glow and flow of Silence-Sea

My life of cries has found its role. ```

39. My Krishna is not black

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My Krishna is not black,

He is pure gold.

He Himself is woven

Into the universal Beauty, Light and Splendour.

He looks dark

Because I have spilled the ink

Of my mind on Him.

Otherwise, my Beloved is All-Light.

He created Light and Darkness,

He is within and without the Cosmos Vast.

With this knowledge,

I will have a new acquaintance

With the world at large.

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40. My life

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My life began with duty's pride,

My life shall live with beauty's light.

My life shall sport with reality's soul,

My life shall end with Divinity's height. ```

41. My sky and my soul

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I have a sky, I have a sky.

Alas, no wings have I to fly.

Yet I have a sky, I have a sky.

I have a soul, I have a soul.

Alas, nowhere I see my Goal.

Yet I have a soul, I have a soul.

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42. My task

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I ask, my Lord Supreme, I ask:

What is my task, what is my task?

"My child, try and cry to change thy face,

And tell the world My Name is Grace."

Shall I succeed, can I succeed?

"Why not, why not?

My Breath shall feed

Your life of love, devotion pure.

Victory all-where when surrender sure."

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43. Marriage

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What is marriage?

The smile of love

That allows two souls

To soar above.

What is marriage?

The curse of night.

A tug-of-war,

No escape to Light.

What is marriage?

God's fulfilment true.

In Silence and Power

His Vision's due. ```

44. My God is still alive

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My God is still alive,

Again His Soul will thrive.

My God is still alive.

I've now the real medicine —

Surrendered love genuine.

I've now the real medicine.

Ever God and I will live.

I shall be and He will give.

Ever God and I will live.

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45. One truth

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One truth to learn:

Ignorance is naught.

One truth to follow:

The path of Grace.

One truth to live:

Forget Him not.

One truth to be:

His Heart and Face. ```

46. Our meeting place

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O Lord, my Master-Love, how far are we,

How far from ecstasy's silence-embrace?

Heavy is my heart with sleepless sighs and pangs

I know my bleeding core, our meeting place. ```

47. Revelation

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No more my heart shall sob or grieve.

My days and nights dissolve in God's own Light.

Above the toil of life, my soul

Is a Bird of Fire winging the Infinite.

I have known the One and His secret Play,

And passed beyond the sea of Ignorance-Dream.

In tune with Him, I sport and sing;

I own the golden Eye of the Supreme.

Drunk deep of Immortality,

I am the root and boughs of a teeming vast.

My Form I have known and realised.

The Supreme and I are one; all we outlast. ```

48. The boat of time sails on

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The sky calls me,

The wind calls me,

The moon and the stars call me.

The green and the dense groves call me,

The dance of the fountain calls me,

Smiles call me, tears call me.

A faint melody calls me.

The morn, noon and eve call me.

Everyone is searching for a playmate,

Everyone is calling me, "Come, come!"

One voice, one sound, all around.

Alas, the Boat of Time sails on.

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49. There was a time

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There was a time when I stumbled and stumbled,

But now I only climb and climb beyond

And far beyond my Goal's endless Beyond,

And yet my Captain commands: "Go on, go on!" ```

50. When

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When Peace once sang

My world became my Father's Light.

When Love once sang

My world became my Father's Delight.

When Truth once sang

My world became my Father's Height. ```

51. Where

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Where Peace once sang

I became my Father's flowing Grace.

Where Love once sang

I became my Father's glowing Face.

Where Truth once sang

I became my Father's master Race. ```

52. Where is the Truth?

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O Lord, where is the Truth?

"Where your Beloved is."

Who is my Beloved, Who?

"In Whom your life is peace." ```

53. Your Compassion-Waters

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Peace, Peace,

Peace within my heart reigns supreme.

The soul-stirring flute of Lord Krishna

Is being played in my Heaven

And on my earth.

The destruction-shadows of dark demons

And the ignorance-delusion of sombre night

Lie long-buried in the depths

Of my body, mind, heart and life.

My aspiration-flames ever swim across

The expanse of Your Compassion-Waters. ```

54. My green-red journey and my blue-gold journey

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Before my green-red journey's

Earth-bound flight

My soul shook hands with God's

Compassion-Height.

Before my blue-gold journey's

Heaven-bound flight

My life shakes hands with God's

Perfection-Light. ```

55. I sing, I smile

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I sing because You sing,

I smile because You smile.

Because You play on the flute

I have become Your flute.

You play in the depths of my heart.

You are mine, I am Yours:

This is my sole identification.

In one Form

You are my Mother and Father eternal,

And Consciousness-moon, Consciousness-sun,

All-pervading.

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56. I shall listen

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I shall listen to Your command, I shall.

In Your sky I shall fly, I shall fly.

Eternally You are mine, my very own.

You are my heart's wealth.

For You at night in tears I shall cry,

For You at dawn with light I shall smile.

For You, for You, Beloved, only for You.

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57. My dream will be fulfilled

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My dream will be fulfilled

In the great festival

Of my surrender's consecration fire.

Your Smile, Your Flute,

Your Banner, Your Consciousness Light,

In my world shall dance,

I know, I know. ```

58. O my Lord of beauty

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You are beautiful, more beautiful, most beautiful,

Beauty unparalleled in the garden of Eden.

Day and night may Thy image abide

In the very depth of my heart.

Without You my eyes have no vision,

Everything is an illusion, everything is barren.

All around me, within and without,

The melody of tenebrous pangs I hear.

My world is filled with excruciating pangs.

O Lord, O my beautiful Lord,

O my Lord of beauty, in this lifetime

Even for a fleeting second,

May I be blessed with the boon

To see Thy Face. ```

59. Only the other day

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O Lord Supreme,

Only the other day

I saw You and played with You

Before I came into the world of ignorance-night.

Yet I remember my golden past within and without.

Alas, far, very far, now You are.

The bird of my heart is crying and trembling

With darkest pangs. ```

60. O my Boatman

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O my Boat, O my Boatman,

O message of Transcendental Delight,

Carry me.

My heart is thirsty and hungry,

And it is fast asleep at the same time.

Carry my heart to the other shore.

The dance of death I see all around.

The thunder of destruction indomitable I hear.

O my inner Pilot, You are mine,

You are the Ocean of Compassion infinite

In You I lose myself,

My all in You I lose. ```

61. My last word

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My last word You will hear.

With this hope

I still exist on earth.

Let me dance in Your Heart always,

In the nights of sorrow and in the days of joy.

I feel that the torture of happiness is more painful

Than the torture of sorrow,

For when I am in joy I forget You;

I hurt your heart.

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62. How long?

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How long more shall I cry, Mother?

How long shall I cry

In a dark room alone, loving You?

You know my secret thoughts,

You know my heart's eagerness.

Why does dark death torture me every day?

How long will You delay, Mother?

How long will You delay?

As Jesus had Mary,

So are You my World-Mother. ```

63. Your Nectar-Compassion

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You are beautiful, O Being Absolute,

I am Your slave.

In Your Victory is my victory,

My endless rapture.

My heart has suffered infinite pangs to know You.

Therefore I hurl the arrows of my sulk-venom

at Your Heart.

Freed from errors, thought abolished,

No desire have I now.

O Beauty Transcendental,

I am the slave of Your Nectar-Compassion.

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64. Only one hope

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Break asunder all my hopes.

Only keep one hope,

And that hope is to learn

The language of Your inner Silence

In my utter unconditional surrender.

In Your clear and free sky

I shall be calm and perfect.

The bird of my heart is dancing today

In the festival of supernal Light.

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65. God then

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God then was Love

So nice and fine.

God then was mine

Below, above. ```

66. God now

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God now is Light,

Delight, Delight.

My All, my All,

God now is Light. ```

67. I need you not

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O Time and Space,

I need you not.

My breath has caught

My Supreme's Face.

O Depth and Height,

I need you not.

My soul has bought

Reality's Light.

O Golden Goal,

I need you not.

My Lord has sought

My Journey's Soul. ```

68. O Imagination!

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Imagination, O Imagination!

You are my life's adoration.

You I shall not keep afar.

Imagination, O Imagination!

In false, binding lies I shall not cry;

I shall not welcome the life of impurity's ugliness.

With paltry victory I shall not smile and rejoice.

Imagination, O imagination!

To death's call I shall not respond.

The soul am I; no death have I.

No more, never, shall I walk along the wrong path.

Imagination, O imagination! ```

69. Faith and doubt

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O what is faith and what is doubt?

Faith is life-sun beyond the grave.

Doubt is the battle lost, within, without.

A doubter cries: "Me, none can save." ```

70. Mother, if I lose to You

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Mother, if I lose to You,

That is my only Victory.

Whatever I have given into Your Hands

Is my only savings.

To me the rest is of no value,

A mere waste,

And it only tortures me and

Stands as a burden on my way.

I cannot put it to use.

When I lose to You,

After I have achieved

My full realisation,

I know my greatest reward I shall receive.

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71. Farewell time

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It is farewell time;

The play of the heart will now begin.

The banner of Divine Love will

Fly today in the boundless sky.

The sun, the moon, the deathless consciousness,

Infinity's secret wealth, the World-Lord's very Feet,

Far Heaven's blessing-message,

The flood of liberation,

The Abode of divine Nectar,

All will be united in the heart of our world. ```

72. The Pilgrims of the Lord Supreme

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We are the Pilgrims of the Lord Supreme

On the Path of Infinity.

At this time we have broken asunder

Obstruction's door.

We have broken asunder the night

Of tenebrous darkness, inconscience

And the eternal, indomitable fear of death.

The Boat of the supernal Light's Dawn

Is beckoning us,

And the World-Pilot

Of the hallowed bond of Love Divine

Is beckoning us.

The Liberator's Hands are drawing us

To the Ocean of the great Unknown.

Having conquered the life-breath

Of the Land of Immortality,

And carrying aloft the Banner

Of the Lord Supreme,

We shall return:

We, the drops and flames

Of Transformation-Light.

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73. My Father-Son

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O Supreme, my Father-Son,

Now that we two are one

And won by each other won,

Nothing remains undone. ```

74. Your Love-Play is my world

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In secrecy supreme I see You.

You live in my eyes, in my sleep,

In my dreams, in my sweet wakefulness.

In the stupendous mirth of life,

In the abysmal lap of death,

You I behold.

Your Love-Play is my world.

```

75. Although

```

Although I teach I am the cap of fools;

Although I love all souls, a fiend am I.

I am not strong, yet for the weak I fight;

At will I sell myself and myself I buy.

At every pause my life I contradict.

To me are ever the same all truths and lies.

To me the earthly beings and He are one.

We fly in His Bosom vast, in us He flies. ```

76. What can I do?

```

Heaven is afraid of me.

What can I do?

I fly beyond its glee,

Piercing the Blue.

Earth is afraid of me.

What can I do?

I fell its ignorance-tree

To plant the True.

Hell is afraid of me.

What can I do?

My compassion frees its pangs

From the racking screw.

My soul is afraid of me.

What can I do?

Body's Eternity

I know is due. ```

77. My ego and my soul

```

My ego needs,

My soul has.

My ego tries,

My soul does.

My ego knows the problem that is,

My soul becomes the answer that is.

I am not alone;

Within my unlit self

My ego, my naked death.

I am not alone;

Within my snow-white heart

My soul and my Spirit's flame.

```

78. I have worshipped

```

I have worshipped God with love.

His Delight is my reward.

I have worshipped God with fear.

His sorrow is my result.

I have worshipped God to see Him.

He comes, but I see Him not.

I have worshipped God.

I know not why.

He is now won —

My self-revealing Sun. ```

79. Precious

```

Precious beyond measure is God's Will,

None can undo its Power.

Precious beyond measure are man's tears,

They alone can hug God's Hour.

Precious beyond measure is man's love,

Unveiling his golden face.

Precious beyond measure is God's Gift:

His all-fulfilling Grace. ```

80. Tomorrow's story not the same

```

In vain I seek, in vain I sought

To capture the flight of a fleeting thought.

In vain I seek, in vain I sought.

In vain I played, in vain I play.

In the dun abyss of ignorance-clay.

In vain I played, in vain I play.

But Tomorrow's story not the same;

All my thoughts shall wed the Eternal Game.

But Tomorrow's story not the same.

But Tomorrow's story not the same.

Ignorance conquered, I shall tame.

But Tomorrow's story not the same.

```

81. God and the world

```

The world and God:

How to harmonise?

Difficult?

No.

No wide surprise.

Our Father is God;

The world, our Mother.

This living truth

Our protecting cover.

Father is the Face,

Mother the Smile.

Without the one,

The other futile. ```

82. I fear

```

I fear to speak, I fear to speak.

My tongue is killed, my heart is weak.

I fear to think, I fear to think.

My mind is wild and apt to sink.

I fear to see, I fear to see.

I eat the fruits of ignorance-tree.

I fear to love, I fear to love.

A train of doubts around, above.

I fear to be, I fear to be.

Long dead my life of faith in me. ```

83. Who'll buy my giant pride?

```

In vain I try to sell my giant pride;

No soul ventures to come forth.

My beloved Lord, You try!

This vital horse only You can ride.

The more my bosom aches, the more it grows.

My hunger plays the fool,

My ignorance knows no school.

The night of destruction piercing flows. ```

84. Thought

```

Thought is the bridge

Between Heaven and hell.

Thought is power,

A ceaseless magic spell.

Thought is a tool

To work out in human life,

Its gift is smile,

Its triumph, wisdom's knife.

Action is the fruit

Of thought sublime and poor

To open and close

Our God's Compassion-Door. ```

85. Love is this, also love is that

```

Love is the road that leads

Our souls to union vast.

Love is the passion-storm

That sports with our vital dust.

Love's child is emotion-flame.

Love's eyes are freedom, fear.

Love's heart is breath or death.

And love is cheap, love dear. ```

86. I remember

```

I remember ...

My mother loved me, her world.

My father loved me, his dream.

My home loved me, its ‘supreme’.

I remember ...

I prayed with the blooming dawn,

I played with the glowing sun.

My life, the nectar-fun.

I remember ...

I sang with the twinkling stars,

I danced with the floating moon.

All lost, alas, too soon.

I remember, I remember, I remember.

```

87. The golden Flute

```

A sea of Peace and Joy and Light

Beyond my reach I know.

In me the storm-tossed weeping night

Finds room to rage and flow.

I cry aloud, but all in vain;

I helpless, the earth unkind

What soul of might can share my pain?

Death-dart alone I find.

A raft am I on the sea of Time,

My oars are washed away.

How can I hope to reach the clime

Of God's eternal Day?

But hark!

I hear Thy golden Flute,

Its notes bring the Summit down.

Now safe am I, O Absolute!

Gone death, gone night's stark frown!

```

88. Master

```

O Lord of Nature, sovereign Sun of all!

Who, if not Thou, will speak of Thee?

Thy smile of Grace through Eternity

Frees all aspiring souls from night's dumb call.

Reality Unique!

Thou art the ring

Of the lowest chasm and spanless height.

In Thee they feel their haven bright;

In Thee all beings move and wave and wing.

To see Thy all-transcending mystic Form

No vision have we of golden gaze;

Thou are the noon of all our days,

The veerless Pilot in our death's stark storm. ```

89. The message of surrender

```

Today You have given me

The message of surrender.

I have offered to You

My very flower-heart.

In the dark night with tears,

In the unknown prison-cell of illusion,

In the house of the finite,

No longer shall I abide.

I know You are mine.

I have known this, Mother,

O Queen of the Eternal.

```

90. Invocation

```

Supreme, Supreme, Supreme, Supreme!

I bow to Thee, I bow.

My life Thy golden plough;

My journey's Goal Thy soulful Dream.

Supreme, Supreme, Supreme, Supreme!

I bow to Thee, I bow.

Supreme, I am Thy glowing Grace.

My world, Thy Feet of Light;

My breath, Thy Vision's kite.

Thou art one Truth, one Life, one Face.

Supreme, Supreme, Supreme, Supreme!

I bow to Thee, I bow. ```

From:Sri Chinmoy,My Flute, Sri Chinmoy Lighthouse, New York, 1972
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