My Sunrise-Heart, part 1

1.1

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God's Eye watches me.

God's Heart waits for me.

God's Life feeds my all.

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1-10. 19 February 2000, PS 117↩

2.

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My mind,

Stop making constant excuses.

My heart,

Stop making daily excuses.

Can you not see

That your older brother, soul,

Makes no mistake?

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3.

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From today on, like my soul,

My heart, my mind, my vital,

My body —

Everything that I have and am —

Shall love God only.

A lifelong dream

Has finally come true.

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4.

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My heart-wisdom needs

God-blessed humility.

Humility needs

The feet of universality

For its complete illumination

And total satisfaction. ```

5.

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Ignorance-walls can imprison

My God-doubting mind,

But never my God-loving heart.

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6.

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With redoubled enthusiasm,

I am feeding my eyes

With the Beauty

Of my Lord's Eye. ```

7.

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With redoubled enthusiasm,

I am kissing each speck of dust

Of my Supreme Lord's Feet.

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8.

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There must be no going back

On my full God-manifestation

And God-satisfaction-promises.

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9.

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When we give God

Our world-complaint list,

God swims in the sea

Of His Heart-Tears. ```

10.

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Man begs God to increase

His Infinity's capacity

To forgive him.

God begs man to increase

His divinity's capacity

To receive God. ```

11.2

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We must never dream

Of enlightenment

Unless and until we have

Prayerfully and soulfully offered

Our absolute loyalty

To our God-satisfaction-commitment.

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11-20. 26 February 2000, PS 117↩

12.

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The mind and the vital every day

Must go to the iron discipline-school

To be ready for the acceptance

Of God-Commands. ```

13.

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Do you want to know why

God has singled me out?

He has singled me out

Not because I love Him more

Than anybody else loves Him,

But because He has given me

More God-hunger

Than He has given to anybody else. ```

14.

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Self-mastery pioneers

To the outer world

Of surprising success-life.

God-discovery pioneers

To the inner world

Of astonishing progress-heart. ```

15.

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One powerful doubt of the mind

Can easily derail

The running, blissful train

Of the heart. ```

16.

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My desire-achievement-fame

Is

My aspiration-enlightenment-shame.

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17.

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To love God

Unconditionally

Is to appoint God

Permanently. ```

18.

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When I fear God,

God tells me that

I disappoint Him

Infinitely more

Than I can ever imagine.

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19.

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Enthusiasm at once

Uproots my mind-jungle

And

Illumines my heart-temple. ```

20.

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God's Love and Fondness

For me

Become measureless

When my heart-tears

Blind His Eye completely.

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21.3

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My soul,

Although my heart, my mind

And my vital

Fail you again and again,

Please do not stop showing them

The way

To the Golden Shore.

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21-32. 1 March 2000, PS 86↩

22.

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My heart,

Can you not start loving

Our Lord Beloved Supreme

Every day a little more? ```

23.

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Each new prayer that I offer

To my Lord Beloved Supreme

Adds a new candle

To my heart-shrine. ```

24.

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When my mind steers,

My heart-tears

Become uncontrollable.

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25.

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My knowledge-light

Is my mind-development.

My wisdom-sun

Is my life-enlightenment. ```

26.

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My mind,

When are you going to stop

Your marathon criticism

Of our Lord Beloved Supreme? ```

27.

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What I need

Is a gramophone-heart

And not a microphone-mind.

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28.

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My vital,

My Lord Beloved Supreme

Wants you to show Him

Your dynamism.

Alas, you are showing Him

Your aggression instead. ```

29.

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My body,

My Lord Beloved Supreme

Wants you to be

His own sacred temple.

Alas, you have turned yourself into

A lifeless, worthless and useless

Piece of stone.

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30.

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The life that offers everything

Owns

Eternity-Infinity-Immortality's

Absolute Supreme. ```

31.

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A gratitude-heart

Is to discover on earth

A Heaven-delivered rose.

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32.

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My surrender-strength

And my Lord's

Satisfaction-length

Simultaneously increase. ```

33.4

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When my Absolute Beloved

Lord Supreme

Is a thought,

I slowly walk.

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33-44. 4 March 2000, PS 86↩

34.

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When my Absolute Beloved

Lord Supreme

Is a will,

I bravely march. ```

35.

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When my Absolute Beloved

Lord Supreme

Is a smile,

I speedily run. ```

36.

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When my Absolute Beloved

Lord Supreme

Is an embrace,

I unmistakably reach

My Destination.

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37.

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When I reach my Destination,

My Absolute Beloved

Lord Supreme tells me:

"My child, I am tired.

I want you to take care of My creation

Until I have regained fully

My Paradise-Dream-manifestation

On earth." ```

38.

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My aspiration-heart

Echoes and re-echoes

One message:

"No gloom, no gloom!

All bloom, all bloom!"

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39.

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My God-faith doubles

And redoubles

Each time I breathe it.

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40.

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Father Heaven greets me

Smilingly and proudly

Only when I am

Sleeplessly and breathlessly

On Mother Earth's side.

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41.

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God loves me more,

Abundantly more

And infinitely more,

When I entertain Him. ```

42.

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I love God more,

Abundantly more

And infinitely more,

When He enlightens me. ```

43.

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If I constantly keep my eye

On my God-representative-soul

On earth,

Then I will never fail.

My life-boat will only sail and sail.

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44.

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As long as I safeguard

My God-surrender-promise-fulfilment,

I do not have to think of anything else

On earth. ```

45.5

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I pray to God's Heart

For His Forgiveness-Sun.

God prays to my heart

For my receptivity-sky.

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45-56. 8 March 2000, PS 86↩

46.

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My mind loves

Constant secrecy.

My heart loves

Soulful intimacy.

My soul loves

God-ecstasy. ```

47.

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God teaches me how

To invoke Him and welcome Him

Every morning

With my sleepless heart

And my breathless breath.

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48.

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Only my heart-tears

Have the stupendous capacity

To increase

My God-love, God-devotion

And God-surrender-intensity.

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49.

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We just want to watch

God's Cosmic Play,

But God eagerly wants us

To participate in His Cosmic Play. ```

50.

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Alas, when will I be ready

To be a self-giving member

Of God's

Peace-Bliss-Manifestation-Society

On earth?

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51.

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I may not be familiar

With God's Will,

But that must not prevent me

From surrendering my earth-existence

To God's Will.

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52.

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If I love God's Will

A little more,

His Love of me

Will immediately be more,

Ever more and infinitely more.

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53.

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Alas, my mind always tells me

That my mind is the only God

And there has been no other God

Since the beginning of creation. ```

54.

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My heart tells me in all sincerity

That my heart is not God,

But it is more than willing

And eager

To help me and take me to God.

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55.

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May each and every prayer

And meditation of mine

Become sweet perfume

In my Lord's Heart-Garden. ```

56.

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God the Mother tells me,

"My child, do not be in a hurry.

Still there is plenty of time."

God the Father tells me,

"My son, it is so late!

What is wrong with you?" ```

57.6

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My Lord Beloved Supreme,

From today on

I shall not give You any more

My ingratitude-life-experience.

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57-68. 11 March 2000, PS 86↩

58.

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My Supreme,

To You my solemn promise:

No more desire-indulgence,

But aspiration-effulgence. ```

59.

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May my aspiration-heart

Have a sleepless

And breathless breath.

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60.

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Meditation is silence.

Silence is God

In His Infinity's Smile.

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61.

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Not for a fleeting second

Do I belong to myself.

I belong only to my Lord Supreme

Eternally. ```

62.

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Not only tomorrow,

But even the next moment

Is too late

To please my Lord Supreme. ```

63.

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My Lord,

You do not come often,

And even when You come,

You do not stay long.

How I wish You could change

Your Cosmic Plan! ```

64.

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The highly developed souls

Live in the silence-breath

Of God's Infinity.

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65.

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When I pray soulfully

And meditate deeply,

I see only two things:

God's Protection-Cradle

And

God's Satisfaction-Smile. ```

66.

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My aspiration-heart

And my service-life

Must be utilised unreservedly,

Unconditionally, sleeplessly

And breathlessly.

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67.

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I was born to offer

Each and every heartbeat

Of mine

Only to my Lord Supreme. ```

68.

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When I banished

My fault-finding mind,

God immediately gave me

His own all-embracing Heart. ```

69.7

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My heart loves and enjoys

The Beauty

Of my Absolute Lord Supreme's Smiles.

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69-80. 18 March 2000, PS 86↩

70.

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My Absolute Lord Supreme's Heart

Loves and enjoys the fragrance

Of my heart's tears.

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71.

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My God-invocation-heart

And God's Satisfaction-Joy-Pride

Echo and re-echo simultaneously.

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72.

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Unlike the impersonal God,

The personal God cannot be

Beyond the realm of suffering.

This is what I know

From my God-oneness-heart.

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73.

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There is a yawning gulf

Between God taking human birth

And man taking divine birth.

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74.

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My mind loves

Ego-assertion.

My heart loves

Oneness-perfection. ```

75.

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My Lord tells me that

I may lose sight of Him

Even if I fix my eyes

On His outer Feet,

But I shall never lose sight of Him

If I fix my eyes

On His inner Heart.

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76.

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My Lord, I am ready

To be scolded by You mercilessly

At every moment,

Provided You tell me that

You will derive true satisfaction

From Your Scolding. ```

77.

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When my life becomes

Voracious God-hunger,

God immediately makes me

A perfect

World-ignorance-hunter.

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78.

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My Lord laughs and laughs

At my self-styled austere mind,

But He is all Love for and all Pride in

My self-giving, sincere heart. ```

79.

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My mind has to unlearn

Almost everything.

My heart has to yearn for God

Sleeplessly and breathlessly.

My life has to earn

God's Compassion-flooded Eye

And His Forgiveness-Ocean-Heart.

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80.

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From my life to my death

I am a God-Destination-arriving

Sailboat.

From my death to my life,

I am a God-serving

World-ocean liner. ```

81.8

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My heart sings, plays and dances

In ecstasy supreme

When it sees my Master's

Gladness-smiles.

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81-92. 22 March 2000, PS 86↩

82.

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My heart dies

The moment it sees my Master's

Sadness-tears.

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83.

```

Time salutes and stops

When my Master proudly expresses

His love, affection, sweetness

And fondness for me. ```

84.

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Every morning

My Master helps my heart

To wake up

With his heart's sunrise-beauty. ```

85.

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My Master,

Out of his infinite bounty,

Cautioned and warned me

Of the tragic destruction-descent

Of my disobedience-life.

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86.

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O my insecurity-mind,

Do not whine.

O my insecurity-heart,

Do not cry.

Behold, our Master

With his compassion-flooded eye

Is fast approaching us!

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87.

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When my Master appears,

He immediately says

To my frustration-mind,

Frustration-vital and frustration-body,

"Stop!

Enough of your stupidity-pride!"

He then says to my heart,

"Enjoy no more ignorance-sleep.

I want you to accept some of my

World-transformation-responsibilities." ```

88.

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My Master smilingly yet sternly

Appears and says to me:

"I am sure this time

My iron rod will work

Since, up until now,

My sweetness-flute

Has sadly failed."

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89.

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Master, Master,

Please tell me how you love me

More than I love you.

"My child,

Your heart needs repair.

Leave it with me just for an hour.

I will do the needful."

```

90.

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My Master does not come alone.

He carries with him

His heart-home

So that his sweet children

Do not wander any more

Inside their mind-jungles. ```

91.

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Master, Master, over the years

I have given you so many things.

It seems to me that you have shown me

No sense of appreciation.

Master, this time I have

Two very special gifts for you.

I am sure you will enjoy them.

"My child, tell me, tell me.

I am all eagerness."

Master, this time I shall give you

My gratitude-heart

And

My surrender-life-beauty-fountains. ```

92.

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Master, Master,

What is the difference

Between my faith in you

And your faith in me?

"My child,

Your faith in me depends

On your sweet hope-fulfilment by me.

My faith in you entirely depends

On your heart's love-strength

And your life's surrender-length." ```

93. 93

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God does not want us

To weigh His Love for us.

He only wants us

To play with Him.

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[^93-104]: 93-104. 25 March 2000, PS 86.

94.

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God loves us

Not because

We are either divinely great

Or supremely good,

But because, unlike us,

He knows only one thing:

How to love us.

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95.

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God is always eager to share

His Heart's Secrets with me,

But I am always

My indifferent mind. ```

96.

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God's Compassion-Eye

Never, never, never forgets me

Although I am every day climbing

High, higher, highest

Ignorance-tree.

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97.

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God never wants us to give up.

He always asks us

To wake up and shape up.

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98.

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God tells me that

Unless I have a rainbow-heart,

He is not going to allow me

To enter into His Heart-Garden. ```

99.

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Each new sunrise-smile

Declares the birth

Of a new God-manifestation.

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100.

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How can we ever hear

God's Nectar-Voice

When we enjoy our mind's

Loud dissatisfaction-noise? ```

101.

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Every day we must fulfil

Our God-manifestation-responsibilities

With redoubled enthusiasm.

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102.

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When my heart smiles at God,

God's Victory-Bell rings

And His golden Heart-Chain

Binds me. ```

103.

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I find everywhere

God's infinite Patience,

But God's immortal Pride

Nowhere. ```

104.

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Alas,

Self-pity and God-displeasure

Are equally harmful and painful.

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Editor's note

These prayers were offered by Sri Chinmoy in New York during February and March 2000 and recited turn by turn by various girls' and boys' groups.

From:Sri Chinmoy,My Sunrise-Heart, part 1, Agni Press, 2000
Sourced from https://srichinmoylibrary.com/msh_1