The day before, of all days, I decided I would run seven miles during the day, although I knew that I would try to run a training marathon at night. Who asked me to run five or six miles? I did one mile of hill work up 150th Street in the morning. Then I ran two miles. Later I did one mile of speed work and one mile at an eight-minute pace. Then how I suffered during my long training run!
Was it my mental hallucination that it was so cold? Usually I go out at five in the morning, but it is not as cold as it was that night. At times I felt as if a bullet were passing through my chest. Then I stepped in a puddle and my left foot started burning. Inwardly I was screaming because my sock and shoe were burning with the absolutely icy cold! I always wear long underwear under my trousers, but that night I wore only a nylon running suit. Right from the beginning, the muscles in my legs were so cold. I wasn’t wearing enough on my hands either, although I had on two pairs of gloves.
I said, “If I finish 20 miles, then I will be satisfied.” I had already given up the idea of doing a whole marathon.I am so grateful to each of the disciples who was there. All those who ran with me and those who sang throughout the night, standing at different places, were so compassionate. Hundreds of songs they sang. Each one deserves my very special gratitude. When they make such sacrifices for me, I hope they feel my heart’s undying gratitude. If I have gratitude in any form, is it not for these disciples? Luckily I have them as my disciples. Had I been their disciple, I would have stayed in bed. I am speaking very sincerely. I would have said, “I am sick. I have got this to do, I have got that to do.” Next time, if I do a midnight training run again, perhaps all of my disciples will say they have fallen sick. That is why they could not come.
RB 712. 1 April 1983↩
For four miles I had been meditating, so was it my karma? You might say that perhaps the previous day I had done a bad meditation, but I knew for the past half hour what I had done. The mind was not thinking at all; it had not yet started with Centre problems. I was doing only prayer and meditation, but the hostile forces are all around. Luckily, my prayer-power saves me always. I was praying to the Supreme, “Save me, save me!” and the Supreme did save me.
Then I went onto my porch and was sitting on the couch watching the dogs. For three or four minutes I was on my porch looking at them and they were looking at me. One was brown and one was black and white. The brown one stood right in front of my house.
I called Ashrita, and he came with Thomas, Bipin and Pulin. I told them, “Please try to solve this dog problem!” Ashrita put a hole in his pants and blood on his arm and pretended he had been bitten. Then they went to complain to the lady who allows the dogs to stay behind her house. They also went to the police.
Four months ago I had the same experience. It is not like silly barking. These dogs are really attacking! This has been happening again and again with the same two dogs. They always come chasing after me from behind this lady’s house. The lady says they are not hers, but she and her husband won’t let anyone take the dogs away.
A few months ago I was going down the street and five or six dogs came. What are you going to do? I wanted to enter into the house of the old lady who is my friend. I stood in front of her house, hiding behind a tree. I said, “O God, this is the time for me to knock on her door — at 4:30 in the morning!” I was about to knock on her door, but then the dogs went away.This time I didn’t get a chance even to stop. If you see them five or ten metres ahead, you can pretend you are walking and maybe they won’t attack. But this time I didn’t have a chance to stop, because the dogs came from behind. The best thing is to have something in your hand. One time I looked for something and found a ball, so I pretended it was a rock.
RB 713. 2 April 1983↩
RB 714. 2 April 1983↩
RB 715. 3 April 1983↩
RB 716. 13 April 1983↩
I said, “No, thank you.”
But he said, “You have to!” and he forced me to drink.Because I was tired, he sympathised with me.
RB 717. 20 April 1983↩
I said, “Yes.”
He said, “Can I shake hands with you?”
So I shook hands with him. He was saying to his wife, “He is such a kind man.”At the start of the marathon, one lady ran with me for three or four miles. She was wearing all yellow. Then she asked Lucy if I was Sri Chinmoy.
RB 718. 1 May 1983↩
RB 719. 1 May 1983↩
RB 720. 3 May 1983↩
Databir’s calculations were going wrong because his mind was not functioning. Indian kindergarten students could have done better arithmetic. Mentally I knew he was wrong. I was writing the figures on a paper plate and calculating mentally. His calculations were three or four seconds off.
Just as I finished writing my calculations, I saw Anugata’s soul inside the car. I smiled at the soul and blessed it. Then, not a minute later, Databir told me that he had written down a message from Anugata on the other side of the plate.
Anugata had called the previous night from California to say he had found a place on Long Island that has a belt to support my back. The place has 24-hour service, so Databir and Pulin had phoned up the place. It was 2:30 in the morning. Today they will go to get the belt.Last night Anugata’s soul had also come to me for special blessings and love. Perhaps the soul had come to me right after he had finished talking with them. And this morning, when they were about to tell me that he had called, his soul came a second time. So this is our oneness with the soul.
RB 721. 3 May 1983↩
Then I saw a black man on a bicycle. He was so excited to see me that he started screaming, “Sri Chinmoy, Sri Chinmoy!”How do these people know me? I was wearing a hat that practically covered my head, and it was early in the morning. Databir was following me in his car, and he was wondering why the man was screaming.
RB 722. 7 May 1983↩
RB 723. 7 May 1983↩
Pulak’s running style is unique! Then comes Saurjya’s style — he wants to touch the ceiling with his head while running.
The other day I saw Sudhir running early in the morning. His hands were stretched straight out.Once, while race-walking, Baoul looked as if he was doing archery with his arms.
RB 724. 7 May 1983↩
RB 725. 7 May 1983↩
RB 726. 8 May 1983↩
RB 727. 8 May 1983↩
RB 728. 8 May 1983↩
RB 729. 8 May 1983↩
RB 730. 12 May 1983↩
RB 731. 12 May 1983↩
RB 732. 12 May 1983↩
RB 733. 12 May 1983↩
I thought my right-side neighbour was in his car, so I said, “Good morning, good morning!” Then he said to me, “Good morning!”
Five minutes later the actual neighbour came out of his house and said “Good morning!” to me. Then he entered into the same car. So I said, “Good morning.” The first one was my neighbour’s brother perhaps, but I thought it was him.His older daughter always looks at me with such respect. When little children are cycling on the street, bothering me like anything, she is always very nice to me.
RB 734. 12 May 1983↩
RB 735. 12 May 1983↩
Then his brother said, “Shut up, shut up!”The first one was so happy to tell me my name.
RB 736. 14 May 1983↩
RB 737. 22 May 1983↩
RB 738. 29 May 1983↩
RB 739. 1 June 1983↩
RB 740. 4 June 1983↩
Then, after 600 metres, whom did I see? Vince! He was my first rival. I was watching him and watching him, following him very faithfully. After 1200 metres I saluted him and passed him.Then I saw Sarama just before we came to a hill. The hill was my worst enemy. I said, “Perhaps those two will go ahead of me.” But fortunately they did not go ahead of me.
RB 741. 4 June 1983↩
There was a girl from our Montreal Centre who kept going ahead of me. Sometimes I would come very close to her. Then she would get tremendous inspiration and run ahead and disappear.When I had completed five miles, a very nice black man who was watching came up to me to give me special advice. He told me, “Inhale, exhale three times. If you do that, then you will be able to beat that sissy!” He was encouraging me, telling me to defeat her.
RB 742. 4 June 1983↩
I said to myself, “Which is more precious, my life or a finger?” I decided my life was more precious, so I took the water. Afterwards, Ranjana gave me a Tab. I did not think I would feel thirsty in only 6.2 miles.
When I see children giving out water, I never look at their fingers. Children are God. But with grown-ups, I look at their fingers first before taking the water.Runners like us, who are dying all the time, need water. But when you are at the back of the pack, you find that there is often no water left.
RB 743. 4 June 1983↩
RB 744. 4 June 1983↩
After I finished the race, I took a few steps and somebody said to me, “Are you the last guy?”I said, “Oh no, no! There are people behind me.”
RB 745. 4 June 1983↩
RB 746. 4 June 1983↩
After running one mile at a seven-minute pace, I drank water. I was walking very nicely for 100 metres. After two miles again I started.
At two and a half miles I said, “Go, go!” to Lucy. At first she didn’t see me, because I was so far ahead. Then she went ahead of me.
My timing was better than my best three miles, but when our boys measured the course, it was 100 metres short.In the morning I had played 30 or 40 games of tennis. Then I took so much exercise. And I hadn’t eaten for the previous two days. These are all my excuses why Lucy finished 100 metres ahead of me.
RB 747. 6 June 1983↩
He said, “I will see you next week at the hundred-miler.”
I said, “Definitely I will be there.”Every year our team counts laps at the hundred-mile race.
RB 748. 12 June 1983↩
RB 749. 12 June 1983↩
At one point, Sarama was going ahead of me with such devotion and surrender. Great, Sarama!
When I saw Thomas, he gave me such a wonderful smile. Then I found out that it was because he had gone ahead of Pahar. To get a smile from Thomas is no joke! Mahiyan and Thomas were running together. Then, at the last moment, Thomas had to defeat Mahiyan.
As you know, I didn’t have the courage or strength or stamina to finish. From the first mile I wanted to surrender.At the finish line I was sitting in the car. Sundar came up and told me of his deplorable performance with such sincerity and soulfulness. There was no false modesty — only sincerity and soulfulness. I was so proud of him. How I wish all the disciples, when they don’t do well, would maintain this kind of cheerful and soulful consciousness!
RB 750. 12 June 1983↩
RB 751. 13 June 1983↩
Then I said, “Since he is not here, let me watch the time myself. Let me run a second mile. Then perhaps he will come.”
In my second mile, when I came to 1100 metres, I got inspiration to walk a little. So I walked for ten or fifteen metres. When I finished, I couldn’t believe my time 6:51. Baoul saw me after 1100 metres and told me afterwards, “You were going so fast!”Then I ran another 300 metres, only blessing Trishul. He is responsible for that course. There were so many branches there and Trishul had done nothing about them. Then, after two or three miles, there were the old marks.
RB 752. 17 June 1983↩
Always you have to take advantage of the situation. If I want to run on 150th Street, I can do it again and again and again. But during the trip to Yonkers, I will write poems and do many things, whereas I may not get inspiration at that hour to write poems in my house. So I force myself to go to Yonkers to run the four-mile hill course there.It usually takes 45 minutes to drive there. Today it took one hour and fifteen minutes. While in the car, I could have slept, played my flute or read the newspaper. But I took the opportunity to dictate poems. Everything can be a blessing! You can have a comfortable life and stay home and accomplish nothing. But each time I go to Yonkers I can dictate 40 or 50 poems.
RB 753. 17 June 1983↩
James and Arpan were running together. Both of them were in a very good consciousness, and they smiled at me very soulfully. Then Trishul passed by me, not even one foot away, almost dashing into me, but he did not even see me. Databir was forty metres away from me. He saw Databir and said, “Hi.” Then he saw me and stopped, smiled and folded his handsWhen Nathan saw me, he said, “Sri, I have something to tell you. I am studying your books.”
RB 754. 17 June 1983↩
Nathan doesn’t like to talk to people when he is very exhausted. At 74 miles he said, “These people, what are they telling me? They should come and start a marathon in my state.” He had 26 miles left. But when he came near me, he smiled at me and his mood changed.
The great Stu Mittleman was hit by a bicycle at midnight. He was jolted. Of all people, he was the one who had to be attacked!
Seven women joined the race. Four finished. Many men also gave up. The runners had to have completed a 50-mile race before this.
They gave us a very big prize, a plate, because Arpan, James and Trishul won the 50-mile National Team Championship.
At six in the morning George Vallasi ran over to greet me. I was shivering. It was so cold, and Baoul didn’t have any jacket in his car. It was foggy and drizzling.George told us that many excellent runners say that they used to dream night after night about baseball. But we have created so much interest in running that people are losing interest in baseball. Running is giving them so much joy that they are no longer interested in baseball.
RB 755. 18 June 1983↩
I had told him that I liked his poetry book, so he told me that.
I said, “Nathan!”He said, “Yes, I mean it!”
RB 756. 22 June 1983↩
“My wife is so nice. She says, ‘As long as you don’t get injured, you can run.’ After eight days I am running another six-day race.”
Then, after some time, he said to me, “Sri, you have inspired me so much that I have already run three miles.”
Cahit Yeter came up to me and said, “I took a long rest, and as soon as I opened my eyes, I saw you.” I hadn’t seen him.
As soon as Stu Mittleman saw me, he started clapping. Don Choi gave me a little smile.
Kim Cavanough calls me “Guru.” She said, “Guru, this is one of your races. Your people have made it into your race. I am getting the same feeling here as at your races.”
Nathan Whiting came by and I said, “I have read the article about you.”
Nathan said, “I have not read it.”
I said, “It is excellent.”
Nathan was begging me to give a spiritual name to James. Nathan is always so nice to me. I asked him how he survives. He said, “Oh, a difficult task! I work a little and then I run.”George Vallasi was also in a clever way trying to get me to give James a spiritual name. He was saying that James was not talking to the cameramen and that he himself wanted to speak to the camera people on James’ behalf. So he asked me what he should say — what James’ good qualities are.
RB 757. 6 July 1983↩
RB 758. 8 July 1983↩
RB 759. 8 July 1983↩
The other day, first I saw Anupadi. I said, “Good!” Then I saw Anna. As soon as she saw me, she increased her speed. I said, “O God, she can run so fast!”All are dying to lose weight!
RB 760. 14 July 1983↩
The woman with that number could not hear; she was almost deaf. A man did something with his fingers, and then she understood. Then she came up and became speechless because she had won. So the deaf became dumb.Then she said that she had been dying to go to Hawaii, and now she had got the round-trip ticket free. Over 700 people joined and she won the ticket!
RB 761. 2 August 1983↩
From:Sri Chinmoy,Run and become, become and run, part 14, Agni Press, 1985
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