Retirement not granted

1.

```

God does not want me

To have any retirement,

Not to speak of

Early retirement. ```

2.

```

God with the Form

Awakens me.

God without the Form

Beckons me. ```

3.

```

Conches blew

And trumpets blared

In Heaven

When my life became

An unconditional surrender

To God's Will. ```

4.

```

I stand before

My Lord's Eye,

But I sing inside

My Lord's Heart. ```

5.

```

A self-reliance-man

Unawares

Is hastening

His own doom. ```

6.

```

A God-reliance-man

Is, indeed,

God's successor.

```

7.

```

God's Compassion-Eye

Sows;

Man's gratitude-heart

Reaps. ```

8.

```

Whomever I meet

On my way to God,

I ask only one thing:

Does God really love me?

This question has completely

Occupied my mind. ```

9.

```

Alas,

Who will meet me

And tell me that

God is waiting for me? ```

10.

```

Silence-teacher

Is ignored.

Sound-preacher

Is extolled. ```

11.

```

When I walk towards God,

God happily

Shakes hands with me.

```

12.

```

When I fly towards God,

God proudly

Embraces me.

```

13.

```

Self-confidence

Founded upon

Self-importance

Is the most deplorable

Stupidity.

```

14.

```

O insecurity-cherishing

Seekers,

Can you not hear

God's warning Bell

Ringing?

```

15.

```

God loves us equally,

Even on the days we enjoy

Our ignorance-desire-life.

```

16.

```

God safely breathes

Inside our minds

Only when our minds

Sincerely smile

At Him.

```

17.

```

My oneness-heart

Never participates

In my mind's

Comparison-game. ```

18.

```

Do you not believe

In God's Promise

That He will NEVER

Fail you? ```

19.

```

My blossoming soul-flower

Is singing and dancing

Inside

My morning heart-garden. ```

20.

```

Arise in the morning,

Proclaiming

The Victory of God

Inside the body

Of humanity.

```

21.

```

Smile in the evening,

Proclaiming

The Victory of God

Inside the breath

Of humanity.

```

22.

```

I prayerfully give God

The green leaves

Of my

Surrender-life-tree. ```

23.

```

My soul's peace

Is

My heart's feast.

```

24.

```

My Lord,

Do You know

That Your worst punishment

Is Your Indifference-Eye? ```

25.

```

May each forward step of mine

Be blessed

By God's ever-new Face.

```

26.

```

May my heart

Be precious

In quality-fragrance.

```

27.

```

May my life

Be gracious

In quantity-beauty.

```

28.

```

In the inner life,

Self-doubt is

The worst possible

Nightmare. ```

29.

```

My self-giving life

Attracts God's Attention

Sooner than at once.

```

30.

```

Power rises and falls.

This is the very nature

Of power.

```

31.

```

Love rises and rises

And rises —

High, higher, highest.

This is the very nature

Of love.

```

32.

```

What has fettered

My heart and my life,

If not my mind's misuse

Of my freedom? ```

33.

```

Every day

God wants my heart

To be

An ultra-distance lover. ```

34.

```

May my mind

Become

An inspiration-mountain.

```

35.

```

May my heart

Become

An aspiration-fountain.

```

36.

```

May my life

Become

A dedication-train.

```

37.

```

My heart is always ready

To embrace my mind

With infinite affection.

```

38.

```

Alas,

My mind is never ready

Even to say hello

To my heart. ```

39.

```

God blessingfully tells

The regularity-seekers

To sit at His Feet.

```

40.

```

God fondly tells

The regularity-punctuality-

Seekers

To come and sing

Inside His Heart-Garden.

```

41.

```

My mind desires

To have an interview

With God

The Greatness-Height. ```

42.

```

My heart pines

To have an interview

With God

The Goodness-Light. ```

43.

```

My life wishes

To have an interview

With God

The Forgiveness-Delight. ```

44.

```

My Lord,

Do give me the heart

Of a million tears

To embrace the dust

Of Your Feet.

```

45.

```

My God-acceptance-mind

Is good. ```

46.

```

My God-dependence-heart

Is very good. ```

47.

```

My God-surrender-life

Is very, very good. ```

48.

```

On my way

To God's Palace,

I am my gratitude-heart.

```

49.

```

On my way back

From God's Palace,

I am my surrender-life.

```

50.

```

My sweet heart-melodies

Are the sweet results

Of my sweet Lord's

Sweet Flute. ```

From:Sri Chinmoy,Retirement not granted, Agni Press, 1998
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