My sweet Father-Lord, where are You?

Part one

SFL 1-24. Sri Chinmoy offered the first twenty-four prayers in this book for individual Japanese disciples on 18 December 1987 during a Christmas trip to Japan.

1.

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My Lord Supreme,

May I see Your Beauty's Eye

And

Feel Your Duty's Heart

Everywhere —

Wherever I go. ```

2.

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My Lord Supreme,

I know, I know

That my present difficulties

Will soon be removed

By Your infinite Compassion-Light

And

Your Illumination-Salvation.

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3.

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My Lord Beloved Supreme,

May I keep my heart-door open,

Wide open,

Every hour, every minute

And every second

For You to enter

With Your Compassion infinite

And play all the time

Inside my heart-garden.

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4.

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My Lord Supreme,

May my curiosity about spirituality

Come to an end.

May my heart's sleepless hunger for You

Come to the fore

And make You feel that I am all ready

For You, only for You.

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5.

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My Lord Beloved Supreme,

In my previous incarnations

I pleased You

With my life's strict discipline-light.

In this incarnation

I would like to please You

With my heart's sleepless surrender-delight

To Your Vision transcendental

And

Your manifestation universal. ```

6.

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My Lord Beloved Supreme,

My heart's mounting cries

And

My life's spreading smiles

Are my sacred gifts

Which I am placing

At Your Compassion-Feet

So that at every moment

I can please You

And fulfil You

In Your own Way.

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7.

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My Lord Supreme,

I have given You this time

Bravely

What I have long cherished:

My mind of confusion-night.

In return, You have given me

What You eternally are:

Your Heart's Compassion-Illumination,

Compassion-Perfection

And

Compassion-Satisfaction.

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8.

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My Lord Supreme,

In my previous incarnations,

My hungry heart used to cry and cry

For Your Compassion-Nectar.

In this incarnation,

My life is smiling sleeplessly

At Your Compassion-Heart,

At Your Perfection-Feet

And

At Your Oneness-fulfilled Heart-Home. ```

9.

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My Lord Supreme,

In my previous life You wanted me

To be materially successful

And earthly great.

Therefore, You placed me into

A royal family.

But in this incarnation

You are telling me

That to be spiritually rich

Is the most important thing.

If I can be spiritually rich,

Only then will I be able to please You

Most satisfactorily.

My Lord, may Thy Will be fulfilled

As soon as possible in and through me.

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10.

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My Lord Supreme,

You have removed my mind's doubts,

My mind's confusion-darkness

And

My mind's anxiety-clouds.

You have replaced them

With climbing aspiration-cries,

With glowing dedication-smiles

And

With Your ever-fulfilling Love and Joy. ```

11.

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My Lord Supreme,

The time has come for me

To please You in Your own Way —

To make my surrender and oneness complete

In my own secret and sacred heart-room

And

To become a choice instrument of Yours.

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12.

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My Lord Supreme,

My unconscious fear of You

Takes me away from You,

But my conscious faith in You

And

My conscious love for You

Not only bring me back to You

But also make me feel

That Your Compassion-Light

Is closer than the closest.

Soon You will make me feel

That throughout Eternity

Your Compassion and my surrender

Will be inseparable friends

For Your complete Satisfaction

And my complete fulfilment. ```

13.

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My Lord Supreme,

You have given me

A mind that longs for Truth,

Your Truth,

For You as the Truth Supreme.

My Lord Supreme,

You have given me

A heart that cries for Your Heart,

Only Your Heart.

You have made me feel

That my tiny drop-heart

Will eventually become one,

Inseparably one,

With Your larger than the largest

Compassion-flooded Ocean of Delight.

My Lord Supreme,

With Your infinite Compassion

You are making me feel

This Truth sublime, illumining

And all-fulfilling. ```

14.

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My sweet Father-Lord,

Where are You?

How is it that I cannot see You

All the time,

Or at least when I want to see You?

"My sweet child,

Your soul and I play hide-and-seek.

We enjoy this game immensely.

Now is the time for you to seek Me

And for Me to hide.

But soon you will try to hide from Me

And I will seek you out.

Then we shall end

Our hide-and-seek game.

I shall transform your little,

Earthly life-plant

Into a Heavenly-blossomed life-tree."

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15.

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My Lord Supreme,

You have given me a heart

That cries for You.

You have given me a life

That wants to serve You.

But, my Lord, is there any way

That I can run fast, faster, fastest

In my heart of aspiration

And in my life of dedication?

"Yes, My child, there is a way,

And this way is very, very simple

And very direct.

This way is the way

Of your gratitude-offering to Me.

The more you can offer

Your gratitude-heart and gratitude-life

To Me,

The sooner you will be able to run

Faster than the fastest

In your heart of aspiration

And in your life of dedication." ```

16.

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My Lord Supreme,

When I pray to You,

I see the sky lifting me up

High, higher, highest.

When I meditate on You,

I see the same sky descending

Slowly, steadily and unerringly

And touching my earth-existence

Most compassionately.

My Lord Supreme, You are telling me

Not to be afraid of the Unknown,

But to love the Unknown

And become one with the Unknown,

For this unknown Reality

Will not remain forever unknown,

And my life's perfection

And my heart's satisfaction

Will grow in it.

My Lord, make me ready

And make me worthy

Of Your blessingful Promise to me.

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17.

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My Lord Supreme,

You are telling me that

My heart's inner cry

And

My life's hunger for You

Must have a slow, steady

And unerring pace.

The crown of spirituality

Cannot be achieved overnight,

In the twinkling of an eye.

Slowly, steadily and unerringly,

I shall abide by Your

Compassion-Decision about my life,

For I must be fully ready

Before the God-Hour strikes for me.

Once the God-Hour strikes,

My life has to respond immediately.

My Lord Supreme, from today on

I shall wait for Your Arrival

With the utmost confidence

In Your choice Hour.

May Your Compassion and Satisfaction

Climb up and down

Inside my life's patience-tree. ```

18.

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My Lord Supreme,

I do not know

What You have in mind for me.

I do not know

And I do not want to know.

I have only one prayer to You:

That I not be afraid

In my own spiritual life,

So that, like a divine warrior,

I can conquer my mind's giant doubts

And my life's anxiety-mountains.

I want to be what You want me to be:

A self-giving and perfect instrument

Of Your highest Vision for earth. ```

19.

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My Lord Supreme,

My Beloved Supreme,

In my previous incarnation

You showered on me

Your most powerful Blessing-Light.

I cried and cried and cried

While receiving from You

Your immortal Treasures.

In the evening of my life,

In that incarnation,

I claimed You as my own, very own.

In this incarnation,

At my journey's dawn,

I see myself seated inside

Your infinite Compassion-Heart-Garden,

And I see that You are giving me

The capacity to enjoy

The celestial Beauty

And the celestial Fragrance

Of Your Heart-Garden. ```

20.

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My Lord Beloved Supreme,

You have given me a childlike heart.

In my previous incarnations also

You gave me a childlike heart,

And I know that You will always give me

A childlike heart.

My Lord Beloved Supreme,

Do tell me why You gave me,

Have given me and will forever give me

A childlike heart.

"My child, your childlike heart

Is My Divinity's most special Boon.

It is in and through this most illumining

And fulfilling Boon

That I see, I grow into and I become one with

My own universe.

Only a childlike heart can please Me.

Only a childlike heart can fulfil Me.

Only a childlike heart will reach

My Immortality's highest Height." ```

21.

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My Lord Supreme,

My mind wants outer education.

My heart wants inner education.

My mind wants to see the Truth

In its own way.

My heart wants to feel the Truth

The way the Truth wants to be known

And felt.

My Lord Supreme,

You want my inner education

To come first and foremost in my life.

Make me strong, make me confident

So that I can please You at every moment

By having You as my only Teacher

In my life's inner school.

I know that when I study

In my heart's school,

You will not only teach me,

But also make me feel

That I will be able to claim

Your infinite Wisdom-Light-Ocean

As my own, very own. ```

22.

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My Lord Supreme,

You have given me a simplicity-mind

And a purity-heart unconditionally.

What shall I give You in return

Soulfully?

"My sweet child,

You do not have to give Me anything

In return.

Just feel that I shall do everything

In you and for you in My own Way

In accordance with My Vision's

Choice Hour.

From this moment on may your life

And your heart

Become only a garland

Of gratitude-satisfaction."

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23.

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My Lord Supreme,

You have taken me out of

Ignorance-forest.

You have taken me out of

Ignorance-clay.

You have taken me out of

Ignorance-destruction.

Now You have placed me

At Your Lotus-Feet.

Therefore, I am safe,

Permanently safe.

May my own heart-lotus

Petal by petal blossom

And offer its gratitude-fragrance

To You,

To Your entire creation.

May my heart of love,

May my life of gratitude,

May my entire earthly reality

Become an unconditional surrender-river

To flow into

Your Infinity's Compassion-Ocean,

Your Immortality's Satisfaction-Ocean.

My Lord Supreme, how happy I am

To claim You, only You, only You,

As my own, very own. ```

24.

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My Lord Supreme,

Who am I?

Do tell me.

"My child,

You are My Eternity's Dream-boat.

You are My Eternity's Dream-passenger

And

You are My Eternity's Vision-partner.

You have the body,

But you are the soul-consciousness.

Your earthly mind-possession

You have not claimed and should not claim.

Only claim your heart as your own.

If you remain in the heart,

You will remain My friend,

My Eternity's friend,

And your soul will remain forever

My most satisfied and most satisfying wealth.

If you can bring to the fore

Your soul-consciousness,

You will please Me infinitely more

Than even your own heart

Can ever imagine.

Remain in the soul, remain in the soul,

Forever and forever." ```

Part two

SFL 25-55. Sri Chinmoy offered these special prayers during the years 1989 to 1997.

25.3

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My Lord, my Lord, my Lord, my Lord,

My soul's Lord, my heart's Lord,

My mind's Lord, my vital's Lord,

My body's Lord,

No matter how many times

I have failed You,

I shall never give up.

I shall please You,

I shall please You

In Your own Way,

In Your own Way.

This is my life's only promise

To You, to You, my Lord,

My Beloved Lord Supreme.

```

SFL 25. 26 July 1989, New York↩

26.4

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My dear Supreme, my sweet Supreme,

My Lord Supreme, my Beloved Supreme,

My Absolute Master Supreme,

May my mind thank You most sincerely

For all the things that it has received from You.

May my heart thank You most soulfully

For all the things that You have not given

To my heart.

My Supremely Beloved Supreme,

My Absolute Master Supreme,

Am I correct in saying and in feeling

That my mind's world-possession-hunger

Has made me enormously happy?

My Absolute Master Supreme,

My Supremely Beloved Supreme,

Am I perfect in saying and in feeling

That my heart's bondage-renunciation-flight

Has made You proudly happy?

"My child, My Eternity's Dream-child,

My Infinity's Reality-being,

In the world of your mind

You are definitely correct,

And in the world of your heart

You are absolutely perfect.

With your mind's possession-world,

You may make yourself powerful.

With your heart's renunciation-life,

You can and will

Make My transcendental Dream beautiful

And My universal Reality fruitful."

```

SFL 26. 23 November 1989, New York↩

27.5

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My ever-increasingly

Compassionate Lord Supreme,

I am praying to You

With my heart's silence-tears.

Do accept the cheerful surrender

Of my mind's freedom.

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SFL 27. 7 January 1992, Tenerife, Canary Islands↩

28.6

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My Lord,

Please, please, give me Your Peace.

"My child,

Please, please, give Me your willingness-heart."

My Lord,

Please, please, give me Your Peace.

"My child,

Please, please, give Me your surrender-life."

My Lord,

Please, please, give me Your Peace.

"My child,

Please, please, give Me your gratitude-breath."

My Lord,

Please, please, give me Your Peace.

"My child,

Please, please, give Me a new promise

That you belong to Me only,

You need Me only,

You love Me only,

You came into the world to please Me in My own Way.

"My child,

You are My Eternity's all,

My Infinity's all,

My Immortality's all."

```

SFL 28. 5 December 1992, New York↩

29.7

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My Lord Supreme,

Your Head was aching

Because I was not pleasing You

In Your own Way.

My Lord Supreme,

Your Heart is bleeding

Because I am not pleasing You

In Your own Way.

My Lord Supreme,

Your Life will be dying

Because I shall not be pleasing You

In Your own Way.

My Lord Supreme,

What can I do?

What shall I do?

I am so helpless and useless.

"My child, do not worry.

I have already forgiven you.

I am now preparing Myself

To help you embark on a new journey

And watch your heart's blossoming,

Singing and dancing rainbow-sunrise."

```

SFL 29. 18 December 1992, Ho Chi Minh City, Viet Nam↩

30.8

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My Lord Beloved Supreme,

Greatness You have given to my mind,

Goodness You have given to my heart

And

Oneness You have given to my life.

Now, my Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme,

Out of Your infinite Bounty,

Do give me something else:

One heart of gratitude-tears,

Two eyes of gratitude-smiles.

```

SFL 30. 7 June 1993, en route to Boston↩

31.9

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This morning my Lord Beloved Supreme

Is telling me

That before I dare to claim

His immortal Love,

Immortal Joy

And

Immortal Pride

As my own, very own,

My own faith-heart-garden-blossoms

Must infinitely increase

Their beauty and fragrance

Inside His own Compassion-flooded Heart.

```

SFL 31. 2 January 1994, Fiji↩

32.10

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My Lord, my Lord, my Lord,

I am swimming in the sea of tears

Because I do not love You

In Your own Way.

My Lord, my Lord, my Lord,

I am drowning in the ocean of death

Because I do not need You

In Your own Way.

```

SFL 32. 8 September 1994, New York↩

33.11

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My Lord, my Lord, my Lord,

I do not love You,

Yet You love me.

I do not need You,

Yet You need me.

Why, why?

"My child, let us try

To be kind to each other

Once and for all.

You give Me what you have:

Your ignorance-forest-mind.

Let Me give you what I am:

My Oneness-Fragrance-Heart."

```

SFL 33. 8 September 1994, New York↩

34.12

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My Lord, my Lord, my Lord!

Look, I have come back to You

With my heart's mounting

Aspiration-flames.

"My child, My child!

Look, look what I have for you:

My Heart's Happiness-Ocean."

```

SFL 34. 8 September 1994, New York↩

35.13

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My Lord, my Lord, my Lord,

How can I be a perfect instrument

Of Yours?

"My child, do not think of your future,

Do not think of your past,

Do not think of your present.

Just think of this very moment.

Try to see Me second by second,

And not minute by minute,

Not to speak of hour by hour.

Try to see yourself

Inside My own Heart-Garden,

And never desire to see yourself

Inside your own mind-forest.

Behold, My child!

I am declaring to the world at large

That you are My supremely

And eternally chosen instrument

And My proudest perfection-child."

```

SFL 35. 8 September 1994, New York↩

36.14

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My Lord, my Lord, my Lord,

Every morning when You ask

Your beloved son-sun to wake up,

Do ask me also to wake up,

And please bless my heart

With prayer-gratitude-tears

And my life

With surrender-perfection-smiles.

```

SFL 36. 14 December 1994, Kathmandu, Nepal↩

37.15

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My Lord, my Lord, my Lord,

I shall not blame You any more.

I shall not blame myself any more.

I shall only pray to You

To make me a self-giving

Instrument-child of Yours.

My Lord, my Lord, my Lord,

I came into the world

To see Your Eyes smiling

And feel Your Heart happy.

Do fulfil my hope,

Do fulfil my promise.

```

SFL 37. 15 December 1994, Kathmandu, Nepal↩

38.16

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My Lord, my Lord, my Lord,

Do give me the capacity

To place at Your Feet

Every morning

My heart's readiness,

My heart's willingness,

My heart's eagerness

And

My heart's happiness.

My Lord, my Lord, my Lord,

Do tell me how

I can claim You as my own,

Very own.

Do tell me how

You can claim me as Your own,

Very own.

"My child,

Give Me what your mind has:

Unwillingness.

If you can give Me

Your mind's unwillingness,

Then you will be able to claim Me

As your own, very own.

"My child,

Give Me what your heart is:

Love.

If you can give Me

Your heart's love,

Then I shall claim you

As My own, very own."

```

SFL 38. 16 December 1994, Kathmandu, Nepal↩

39.17

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My Lord, my Lord, my Lord,

This morning, to my mind's extreme surprise

And to my heart's extreme sorrow,

I saw the distance

From Your Heart to my mind.

The distance is unimaginably long!

This frightened me to death.

My Lord, my Lord, my Lord,

Do tell me how I can shorten the distance,

How I can nullify the distance,

How I can make Your Heart and my mind one.

"My child, My child, My child,

From today on do not remain

A student of your desire-mind.

Become a companion of your aspiration-heart.

You and your aspiration-heart

Will be able to compel your mind

To sit at My Feet.

Once your mind is at My Feet,

My Heart and your mind will become one,

Inseparably one.

Your mind will be illumined,

You will be fulfilled

And I shall be satisfied."

```

SFL 39. 17 December 1994, Kathmandu, Nepal↩

40.18

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My Lord, my dear Lord, my sweet Lord,

My Lord Divine, my Lord Supreme,

How can I, even for a single day,

Love You in Your own Way,

Offer You my devotion in Your own Way

And

Surrender my entire earth-existence to You

In Your own Way?

"My sleeplessly and breathlessly

Dream-blossoming child,

It is not an impossible task.

It is not even a difficult task.

It is an unbelievably easy task.

My child, from today on,

Do not try to hide from Me

And live in your darkness-mind-cave-

Absurd, My child, absurd!

The entire creation, the entire universe,

Is created by Me.

I am the body

And

I am the Spirit of the universe.

My child, I am most affectionately,

Most blessingfully inviting you

To come and live with Me

In My Heart-Nest.

Come, My child, come!

Come play with Me and sing with Me.

Lo, My child,

Perfect is your love for Me,

Perfect is your devotion to Me,

Perfect is your surrender to Me.

Your name is now perfect perfection-sky,

And

My Name is perfect Satisfaction-Sun.

My child, to make the Real in you happy,

Today, tomorrow and forever and forever

I must love you in My divine Way,

The only Way.

My child, My child, My child!"

```

SFL 40. 19 December 1994, Kathmandu, Nepal↩

41.19

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When I see my Master's sorrowful eyes,

I cry, I cry and I cry.

When I touch my Master's sorrowful heart,

I sigh, I sigh and I sigh.

When I feel my Master's sorrowful life,

I die, I die and I die.

When I see my Master's God-smiling eyes,

My God-realisation-hope blooms.

When I touch my Master's God-smiling heart,

My God-realisation-promise blossoms.

When I feel my Master's God-smiling life,

My God-realisation-dream-manifested reality

Feeds the God-hungry seekers of God's Universe.

```

SFL 41. 20 December 1994, Kathmandu, Nepal↩

42.20

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My Lord, My Lord, My Lord,

This morning do You have

Any special Blessing-Message for me?

"My child, I do.

My child, every day,

In the small hours of the morning,

You must wake up.

Then immediately

You must wake up your child, aspiration.

Then immediately

You and your child, aspiration,

Must open your heart-door to My Hope.

Then immediately

I shall open My Heart-Door

To your promise.

Then immediately

Give Me the beauty

Of your heart's tears

And the fragrance

Of your soul's smiles.

I shall then immediately

Give you the Beauty

Of My Heart's Universal Dream

And the Fragrance

Of My Soul's Transcendental Reality."

```

SFL 42. 24 December 1994, Kathmandu, Nepal↩

43.21

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My Lord, my Lord, my Lord,

Do bless me with

Your last-minute Advice.

"My child, My child, My child,

The higher you think of Me,

The longer you think of Me

And

The deeper you think of Me,

The sweeter will be your heart,

The purer will be your mind

And

The easier will be your self-giving to Me.

My child, there shall come a time

In the very near future

When you will come to realise

Who you truly are:

You are the Beauty of My Dream,

You are the Fragrance of My Reality."

```

SFL 43. 26 December 1994, Kathmandu, Nepal↩

44.22

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My Lord, do prove to me

That You love me.

"My child, how?"

My Lord, if You can make me

And keep me happy

Only for an hour every day,

Then I shall feel

That You really love me.

"My child, do prove to Me

That you love Me."

My Lord, how?

"My child, if you can make Me

And keep Me happy

Only for five minutes every day,

Then I shall feel

That you really love Me.

My child, if you can please Me,

I shall make you and keep you happy,

Not only for an hour every day

But for the entire day."

My Lord, I want to make You happy,

But please show me the way.

"My child, just give Me

Your unconditional surrender

For five minutes every day.

My child, I want to keep you happy

Throughout the entire day.

Just show Me the way."

My Lord, just give me

Your Infinity's Affection

And

Your Immortality's Love.

```

SFL 44. 2 February 1995, New York↩

45.23

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May the beauty of the New Year

Beautify my heart.

May the purity of the New Year

Purify my mind.

May the simplicity of the New Year

Simplify my vital.

May the intensity of the New Year

Intensify my body.

May the responsibility of the New Year

Glorify my life.

May only the divinity of the New Year

Fully satisfy me.

```

SFL 45. 1 January 1997, Takamatsu, Japan↩

46.24

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My Lord, my Lord, my Lord Supreme,

I love You with all my heart.

"My child, from now on you will tell Me

That you love Me with all My Heart.

My child, your heart is too small

To love My big Heart.

My child, if you can love Me

With My big Heart,

Then, only then, you will feel complete

And I shall feel satisfied."

```

SFL 46. 2 January 1997, Takamatsu, Japan↩

47.25

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My Lord, my Lord, my Lord Supreme,

Do bless me fully and compassionately.

Do give me the soul to sing,

Do give me the heart to smile,

Do give me the eyes to cry,

Do give me the life to hope,

Do give me the breath

To be Your dreamer,

To be Your server

And to be Your lover

Unconditional.

```

SFL 47. 3 January 1997, Takamatsu, Japan↩

48.26

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My Lord, my Lord, my Lord Supreme,

In the small hours of this morning

I came to You.

I saw You were extremely, extremely

And extremely busy.

Even then You said to me,

"My child, take Affection infinite from Me."

I refused.

"My child, take Love infinite from Me."

I refused.

"My child, take Joy infinite from Me."

I refused.

"My child, take Peace infinite from Me."

I refused.

"My child, what do you want?"

I said,

"My Lord, my Lord, my Lord Supreme,

I just want to be with You."

My Lord, You became

Your Infinity's Smile-Blossoms.

```

SFL 48. 4 January 1997, Takamatsu, Japan↩

49.27

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My Lord, my Lord, my Supreme Lord,

Please tell me

What my express need should be.

"My child, My Eternity's child,

Your express need should be

Your devotion, your sleepless devotion

To Me."

My Lord, my Lord, my Lord Supreme,

Please tell me

What my daily need should be.

"My child, My Infinity's child,

Your daily need should be

Your love, your sleepless love

For My Will-manifestation."

My Lord, my Lord, my Lord Supreme,

Please tell me

What my ultimate need should be.

"My child, My Immortality's child,

Your ultimate need should be

My Satisfaction, only My Satisfaction,

In My own Way."

```

SFL 49. 7 January 1997, Kumamoto, Japan↩

50.28

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My Lord, my Lord, my Lord Supreme,

I think of You.

You do not think of me.

Alas, why?

My Lord, I look at You.

You do not look at me.

Alas, why?

My Lord, I come to You.

You do not come to me.

Alas, why?

"My child, I, too, think of you.

I, too, look at you.

I, too, come to you.

My child, when I think of you,

You are not inside your mind.

When I look at you,

You are not inside your eyes.

When I come to you,

You are not inside your heart-home.

My child, if you want to know

When I think of you,

Then keep your mind empty of thoughts.

If you want to see Me

While I am looking at you,

Then keep your eyes pure, absolutely pure.

If you want to see Me

While I am coming to your heart-home,

Then keep your heart-home-door wide open

Only for Me.

```

SFL 50. 8 January 1997, Kumamoto, Japan↩

51.29

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My Lord Supreme, my Beloved Supreme,

My Absolute Lord Supreme,

Please teach me how to sweeten my heart

With my soulfulness-tears.

Please teach my heart how to climb up

Into the skies of readiness, willingness,

Eagerness and selflessness.

Please teach me how to escape

From my doubting mind,

From my ungrateful heart

And from my fearful life.

Please teach me how to forgive my enemies

So that I can have newness in my life.

Please teach me how to forgive myself

So that I can have fulness in my life.

Finally, please teach me how to love myself

The way You love me,

For my real perfection

And for my real satisfaction.

```

SFL 51. 9 January 1997, Kumamoto, Japan↩

52.30

```

My dear God, my dearer God, my dearest God,

My sweet Lord, my sweeter Lord,

My sweetest Lord,

At my journey's start You blessed me

Most compassionately and most affectionately

With quite a few divine qualities.

My life's God, my heart's Lord,

In the future if once more I displease You,

Then You may take away

All the divine qualities

Save and except one:

Please, please, please keep with me

My obedience-heart

To breathe prayerfully, happily

And gloriously

In my mind, in my vital and in my body.

My life's God, my heart's Lord,

This morning my soul, that represents You

Divinely, supremely and eternally,

In soundless sound has told me

That if I continue displeasing You,

Either consciously or even unconsciously,

Then mine will be the life

Of utter failure-tears

At the end of my journey's close.

My life's God, my heart's Lord,

May my outer life of dedication

Become Your absolute Commander-Will-obedience-perfection.

May my inner heart of aspiration

Become Your absolute Commander-Will-

Obedience-satisfaction.

```

SFL 52. 12 January 1997, Kumamoto, Japan↩

53.31

```

My Lord, my Lord, my Lord,

My Lord!

If I love You just because

You love me,

Then I am eternally and infinitely

Worse than the worst.

But, my Lord, if I love You

Because I cannot breathe

Without loving You,

Then do allow me to enjoy

Prayerfully, sleeplessly

And breathlessly

The dust-beauty, the dust-fragrance

And the dust-delight

Of Your Nectar-Feet.

```

SFL 53. 25 October 1997, en route to Kingston, Ontario↩

54.32

```

My Lord,

My Lord Supreme,

My Absolute Supreme,

You have not allowed me to do many things.

And I shall also not allow You

To do one thing, only one thing:

I shall not allow You to surrender

To humanity's absurd

And self-aggrandising demands.

```

SFL 54. 8 December 1997, Nassau, Bahamas↩

55.33

```

My Lord Beloved Supreme,

With every breath of my heart

I enter into Your Heart

To love You only in Your own Way.

My Lord Beloved Supreme,

With every breath of my heart

I sit at Your Feet

To need You only in Your own Way.

My Lord Beloved Supreme,

With every breath of my heart

I look at Your Eye

To fulfil You only in Your own Way.

```

SFL 55. 18 December 1997, Lake Atitlan, Guatemala↩

From:Sri Chinmoy,My sweet Father-Lord, where are You?, Agni Press, 1999
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