Sail my heartbeat sail, part 1

Introduction

This series of rhyming poems was commenced on Sunday, 14 June 1998 in New York. The first volume was completed in three days. It is Sri Chinmoy's ardent aspiration to offer 7,000 Sail my heartbeat sail poems to his Lord Beloved Supreme.

1. Sail1

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Sail my heartbeat sail, sail

To clasp our Lord's Nectar-Mail.

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SMHS 1-13. 14 June 1998↩

2. Choice hour

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How can I not love

The beauty of a flower!

How can I not rise

At my sweet Lord's choice Hour! ```

3. Rainbow-dream

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To devour the Dust-Gold-Feet

Of my Lord Supreme

Every morn my heart becomes

A rainbow-dream. ```

4. Perfection-dream

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To be a chosen child

Of my Lord Supreme,

My crying-smiling heart's

Perfection-dream.

14 June 1998

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5. God-climbing fire

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Once more I shall become

My heart's God-climbing fire.

My eyes shall see nowhere

The face and body of mire. ```

6. Impurity-insecurity

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Sleeplessly I keep my mind

Free from impurity-ties.

Breathlessly I keep my heart

Empty of insecurity-cries. ```

7. The right to choose

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Oh, what I have and what I am,

Am I ready to lose?

If so, my Lord Supreme tells me:

Him I have the right to choose. ```

8. My dream

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Mine is a birthless

And deathless dream:

To breathe the Heart

Of my Lord Supreme. ```

9. Mind-tears versus heart-smiles

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My newness-mind-tears

Keep me glowing.

My fulness-heart-smiles

Keep me sailing. ```

10. My gratitude-heart

```

The fragrance

Of my God-gratitude-heart

Has smashed

My mind's ego-pride-dart. ```

11. Ecstasy's endless road

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I see no more my earth-bound mind's

Despair-gloom-cave.

Ecstasy's endless road my life

Is ready to pave. ```

12. Negativity-mind

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A ruthless

Negativity-mind

In every

Corner of my heart I find. ```

13. Silence

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From the Silence Unknowable

To the Sound knowable I came

To play and sing and dance

With a tiny, fragile frame,

And build a rainbow-bridge

Between Heaven and earth

For my sweet Supreme to travel

And flood all-where His Birth. ```

14 Heart-smile2

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Whom I seek

Is within me.

I pine His

Heart-Smile to be.

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SMHS 14-26. 15 June 1998↩

15. Halt

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Not my mind-cherishing life,

But my heart-blossoming breath

I need, I love, I treasure

To halt the pride of death. ```

16. Emptiness

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Empty of heaviness-darkness

My mind, my heart today;

Behold, my soul-ecstasy

And I together play! ```

17. My paintings

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My paintings

Tell me what they are.

Their message

I share near and far. ```

18. My poetry

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My poetry

Tells me about its Heaven-Source.

Its sorrows

And joys — my journey's course. ```

19. My music

```

My music

Tells me where to dive

And fly

To clasp ecstasy's drive. ```

20. My sports-life

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My sports-life

Shows me the pride of speed;

Excellence,

Transcendence-together lead. ```

21. My tennis

```

My tennis

Tells me how to serve and love

And claim

To be my Lord's choicest dove. ```

22. My prayer

```

My prayer

Tells me Whom to beg only,

Deep within,

Wide without, sempiternally. ```

23. My meditation

```

My meditation

Is compelled by God to be His Voice,

And only Him

To fulfil all-where His express Choice. ```

24. My aspiration

```

My aspiration

Tells me I can reach God's Eye,

And also God's Feet

In prayer-tears I can tie. ```

25. My dedication

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My dedication,

My God-manifestation-bloom

To reserve a seat

In God's hallowed Heart-Room. ```

26. My dear, sweet Lord

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My dear Lord,

How can I live

Without Your Life's Compassion-Eye?

My sweet Lord,

How can I breathe

Without Your Heart's Forgiveness-Sky? ```

27. Forward and backward3

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I look forward

To see my Lord's Face.

I look backward

To garner my disgrace.

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SMHS 27-70. 16 June 1998↩

28. Soothsayers and truth-prayers

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Indeed, this mystery-world of ours

Is full of soothsayers;

Empty within, empty without —

Nowhere truth-prayers. ```

29. Smiles and miles

```

Each time

My happiness-heart smiles,

My life

Enjoys expanding miles. ```

30. Liberation-shore

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No relaxation

Until you have reached the Liberation-Shore.

No satisfaction

Until you have clasped the Supreme Lord's Heart-Door. ```

31. Fast forward

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Your mind's

Ceaseless, worthless worries fast forward

If you

Desire from God His Peace-Award. ```

32. Ignorance-life-tree

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Certainly we know

God loves the world through you and me.

We needs must fell

Our venomed ignorance-life-tree. ```

33. Detachment-songs

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In the morning,

My life and my heart together sing

Detachment-songs

From world-castigation.

In the evening,

My life and my heart together sing

Detachment-songs

From world-ovation. ```

34. Soul divine and life human

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Every day

My soul divine

Endlessly flies and flies and flies.

Every day

My life human

Pitifully cries and cries and cries. ```

35. Complains and contains

```

My mind

Complains, complains, complains.

My heart

My Lord's Fondness contains. ```

36. What else?

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What else is my desire-life,

If not exasperating?

What else is my aspiration-heart,

If not exhilarating? ```

37. Two thirsty eyes

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Away

My Beloved flies.

Mine are

Two thirsty eyes. ```

38. His Nectar-Rays

```

In scanning the longest road,

My orphan eyes pass their futile days.

Where is my Beloved sweet?

Oh, where are His Nectar-Rays? ```

39. The all-devouring night

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My Beloved sweet, let my sight

Dissolve in Your

Self-Effulgence-Light

Before You depart.

Helpless shall cry

The all-devouring Night. ```

40. Mind-mart

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My Beloved sweet,

Your Love-Dagger has pierced my feeble heart

To raise my life

Far above mankind's wild confusion-mind-mart. ```

41. Until You claim me

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My Beloved sweet,

Until You claim me Your own,

My heart shall sob,

My breath and I shall moan. ```

42. My heart-nest

```

My Beloved sweet,

Your cruel Absence gives me no rest;

Empty of love

My sleepless, tear-flooded heart-nest. ```

43. Indifference-absence

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My Beloved sweet,

In the indifference-absence

Of Your Compassion-Heart-Sky,

Do You desire

To know what I

And my heart do?

Ceaseless we pant, we sigh.

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44. I have exiled

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My Beloved sweet,

Drunk in devotion-smiles-tears,

I have exiled

My brooding self-doubts and fears. ```

45. Your Dream-Boat

```

My Beloved sweet,

Your Dream-Boat You want me to sail.

My promise august:

Succeed I must — and never fail! ```

46. Your abandoned child

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My Beloved sweet,

Why are You duty-free,

Careless, senseless and wild?

Tell me, who else if not me,

And me alone —

Your bewildered, abandoned child? ```

47. God's right-hand man

```

Every soul

Is a God's right-hand man.

Every heart

Is a God's masterpiece-plan. ```

48. Torture me not

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Yesterday,

How do you dare

To torture me today?

Can you not see

I have joined

My Lord's Oneness-Heart-Play? ```

49. Easy solution

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Focus not on the dire problem,

But on the easy solution.

Live not on an empty promise,

But be a true man of action. ```

50. My Lord expects

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My Lord expects

My heart's devotion

To be fully empty

Of commotion. ```

51. My heart-intimacy

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My Lord Supreme

Cares not for my life's supremacy.

Sleepless He desires

My surrender-heart-intimacy. ```

52. Intricate and intimate

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My suspicion-mind

Makes everything intricate.

My aspiration-heart

Makes everybody intimate. ```

53. A new way

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Discover an utterly

New way

To love your Beloved

Every day. ```

54 Who cares?

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I am certain, O world,

Where the Absolute Lord Supreme is.

But who cares,

If He gives me not an iota of peace! ```

55. Below, above

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Within if I had

The snow-white love,

God I could feel

Below, above. ```

56. Silence-seas

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Do you not have

Even an iota of peace?

Did you look inside

Your heart's silence-seas? ```

57. Why am I?

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My Lord, why am I

Smitten with insecurity?

"My child, cast aside your

Jungle-mind-impurity." ```

58. My sincerity-mind

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My sincerity-mind,

Silent remain not.

This world of ours

Needs to be taught. ```

59. Invitation

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My purity-heart,

Inactive why you are?

Accept invitation

From everywhere, near and far. ```

60. Perfection-Hand

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My Lord Supreme, Your Smile

Is my salvation-land,

And You are Your Divinity's

World-Perfection-Hand. ```

61. Cry and sigh

```

My Lord Supreme, do tell me

Why I do not even try;

Why have I for good forgotten

Even to cry and sigh? ```

62. Compassion-Eye

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My Lord, connect my heart-wings

To Your Compassion-Eye-Light;

I shall fly and fly far beyond

The domain of ignorance-night. ```

63. An ageless child

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Happiness is an ageless child

In my pure heart-garden.

Nowhere I see and feel

The world's heavy burden. ```

64. The Sunshine-Love

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To limit God's infinite Love,

An impossibility-task.

Therefore, in God's Sunshine-Love

My life and I ever bask. ```

65. Infinity expands

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My soul-Immortality

Flies and flies.

My life-Eternity

Cries and cries.

My heart-Infinity

Expands and expands.

My mind-stupidity

Everything disbands. ```

66. Popularity

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Perfection-popularity

We needs must need

Our divinity's God-hunger

Perpetually to feed. ```

67. Fulfilment-Command

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May my heart be

My Lord's Fulfilment-Command.

May my life be

With no expectation-demand. ```

68. Golden Shore

```

My Lord Himself

Closes my temptation-door

And shows me the sunlit path

To the Golden Shore. ```

69. God claimed

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Before I knew,

My mind God tamed.

Before I knew,

My heart God claimed. ```

70. Paradise

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Paradise is

Where my sweet Lord is.

Paradise is

Where I bend my knees. ```

From:Sri Chinmoy,Sail my heartbeat sail, part 1, Agni Press, 1998
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