Seventy-Seven Thousand Service-Trees, part 2

1001

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My Lord Supreme,

I was born to love You only.

I was born to place myself

At Your Feet only.

I was born to please You

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Finally my God-love has arisen

Inside my heart,

And all my earthly sorrows

Are flying away. ```

1006

```

I have placed my head

At the Feet of my Lord

For Eternity.

I am not going to lift it up again. ```

1007

```

My Lord tells me

That if my heart and I

Live together

And try together to catch Him,

Only then shall we succeed.

```

1008

```

Each time

My devotion for my Lord increases,

I see a flood of tears filling my heart.

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1009

```

My Lord, I know, I know

```

Do not keep your eyes closed!

With them. ```

1060

```

My soul cries and cries

If I do not have

God-hunger

```

God asks me

To come to His Heart-Home

Not as a beggar and visitor,

But as a real friend of His. ```

1065

```

The angels come to me

To enchant my eyes.

The cosmic gods come to me

To enlighten my life.

God comes to me

To fulfil His Eternity’s Dream. ```

1066

```

Today my joy

Knows no bounds,

For I am seeing the ashes

Of my mind-edifice. ```

1067

```

You have to devour

Your ego first

Before you can be drunk

With a God-Vision. ```

1068

```

O my seeker-friend,

To my extreme sorrow,

What you have is

A mind of jealousy,

And what you are is

A vital of depression. ```

1069

```

Do not allow your life

To be paralysed

By your absurd expectations

```

Disappointments

Sprout during the day

When in the morning

```

There is only one way

To please God in His own Way:

We must cast aside

```

My Lord,

Please do not appreciate me.

I mean it!

Your appreciation will make me

Proud beyond measure,

And this pride-burden

Will keep me away from

Your Protection-Feet. ```

1084

```

I have annihilated

My desire-life

As it was decreed long ago

By my Lord Supreme. ```

1085

```

My Lord’s Eye

Knows the meaning

Of my meditation-whispers.

```

1086

```

I know the meaning

Of the Blessing-Touch

Of my Lord’s Feet.

```

1087

```

I am not what I seem to be.

I am my Lord’s

Supremely chosen child,

For His full manifestation

On earth.

```

1088

```

To my extreme happiness,

My Lord has come to tell me

That from now on

I must stand apart from my actions,

Divine and undivine.

He alone is the Doer;

I am a mere observer.

```

1089

```

My seeker-friend,

```

I beg God to repeat

Again and again

That I am a choice instrument

Of His. ```

1100

```

The day I do not pray

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1114

```

I am praying to God

To bless me with

Some beautiful, meaningful

And fruitful days

In my crowded life-market.

```

1115

```

We all sleep

On idleness-bed

And dream

Of a star-flooded sky. ```

1116

```

Cheerfulness in the mind

Begins

My God-satisfaction-day.

```

1117

```

Every day God inspires me

To run an ultramarathon

In my inner life

So I shall arrive at my Destination. ```

1118

```

God is not compelling me,

No more hesitation

Shall I accept from you!”

```

1124

```

Only my God-obedience

Can smash the pride

Of my mind’s insolence.

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My life-boat and I

Are fully determined

To arrive at the Golden Shore.

```

1129

```

My Lord, with His Compassion-Eye,

Lovingly and regularly

Prunes

My aspiration-heart-garden. ```

1130

```

In my God-service-life

What I need is

God-Thunder-Will-manifestation.

```

1131

```

God says to me,

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1147

```

I do not know

If I will ever be able

To have a doubt-free

Mind-dream. ```

1148

```

A true God-lover

Is an earth-made cry

And a Heaven-made smile.

```

1149

```

The smiling Supreme

Tells me

That I have everything

I need. ```

1150

```

The dancing Supreme

Tells me

That I have everything

He needs. ```

1151

```

The difference between God and me:

I take God’s help

When I need it;

God takes my help

Even when He does not need it.

```

1152

```

My Lord,

I know You are tired of my complaints.

One more complaint, and no more:

If You are not planning to release me

From my bondage-shackles,

Why do You inspire me inwardly

To pray to You every day?

```

1153

```

The aspiration-flames of the heart

Must eventually burn

The desire-house completely.

```

1154

```

My Lord, You do not like it

When I turn my thoughts to austerity,

And You do not approve of

My self-indulgence-life.

Please show me the way

Between the two extremes.

I am all ready!

```

1155

```

I know why God is so reluctant

To come to me.

My life is totally devoid of faith.

```

Every day

My heart’s blossoming faith

Is being destroyed

By my mind’s brooding doubt. ```

1160

```

My God-realisation tells me

That God lives only for humanity

Happily, proudly and self-givingly.

```

1161

```

Not only do I fail,

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Both my gratitude-heart

And my surrender-life

Have developed such measureless

God-hunger! ```

1171

```

I knew I was not good,

But I never knew

That I would be so bad

As to disobey and displease

My Lord Supreme

On an everyday basis. ```

1172

```

My Lord,

Now that I am the possessor

Of the dust of Your Feet,

My inner world’s beauty and divinity

Have increased immeasurably.

```

1173

```

Do not dismiss God’s Love.

It is His Love that is sustaining

Your earth-hope and Heaven-promise.

```

1174

```

Today my aspiration-heart

Is embodying God’s Face.

Tomorrow my dedication-life

Will reveal God’s Heart.

The day after tomorrow

My illumination-soul

Will manifest God’s Heartbeat.

```

1175

```

To my extreme happiness,

My heart and I have revived

Our long-forgotten God-longing.

```

1176

```

When I look at God’s Eye,

Is my soul. ```

1182

```

Immortality always dances

On the face

Of a newborn child.

```

1183

```

Millennia have come and gone,

But humanity still takes

Infant-steps

On the road to its God-Destination. ```

1184

```

O my mind,

While trying to define God,

Can you not see that

You are confining Him? ```

1185

```

A genuine seeker knows

That an insecurity-heart

Is in no way less frightening

Than an impurity-mind. ```

1186

```

Eternity and Infinity

Are two friends of ours.

They give our life a chance

To run towards God,

But they do not wait

If we delay. ```

1187

```

The Cosmic Game

Is never meant for

Faint-hearted seekers.

```

1188

```

O my sorrowful heart,

What can give you joy?

Believe me,

With my self-denial.

Alas, joy is still not to be found.

God tells me that both ways are wrong.

I have to travel my life-journey

Only with God-dependence. ```

1195

```

My Lord, Your Name is

Compassion-Forgiveness-Ocean.

I have committed a million blunders.

Do justify Your Name! ```

1196

```

My Lord,

All my wrongdoings

Throw fetters upon my life.

If there is a way to escape,

Please show me.

I solely depend upon You. ```

1197

```

My Lord,

When You think of me,

I call You great.

When You love me,

I call You good.

When You fulfil me,

I call You perfect.

```

1198

```

Realisation, my Lord,

You have given to many.

Is there no place for me,

Even as the very last?

If You say “No,”

I shall fully understand You. ```

1199

```

My Lord,

I pretend that I know everything

About You.

You pretend that You know nothing

About me.

Both of us are clever

In our own way.

```

1200

```

My Lord of Compassion,

Do You not feel disgraced

When Your Compassion-Light

Surrenders to our darkness-night? ```

1201

```

My Lord,

Have You asked everyone

Not to bring me news about You?

If so, then kindly do me a big favour:

Do put an end to the anxiety and eagerness

Of my heart-world. ```

1202

```

My desire-life continues,

Unsatisfied.

Yet what compels me to pray to You

I do not know. ```

1203

```

My Lord,

Do You mind if I mix with

The uninspiring and unaspiring

Human beings

Before You come to see me?

I shall be all ready

The moment You come.

“My child,

Thinking of future perfection

Is, indeed, absurdity’s height.” ```

1204

```

My Lord,

I have taken hours and hours

To make a most delicious meal

For You

With my heart of love.

Is it so distasteful

That You do not want to touch it?

How do You know it is so?

My Supreme says:

“My sweetness-child,

No comment!”

```

1205

```

My Lord,

I have spent half my life

Away from You

In my mind’s wild jungle.

Now I feel it is high time

For me to leave the jungle

And enter into my heart-garden,

To see Your Eye

And gladden Your Heart.

```

1206

```

It is easy for me to believe

That a seed can grow into a tree,

But how can the tree

Become the seed?

The finite can grow into Infinity,

But how can Infinity breathe

In the heart of the finite?

```

1207

```

My Lord,

My heart is filled

With trembling fear.

When and how will I be able

To beg You

```

My Lord,

I have never disobeyed

Your divine Authority.

So why is it

That You are not blessing me

With more responsibility

To manifest You?

```

1217

```

My Lord,

Is it true that You bring things

To a crisis

So that eventually You can perform

Your Safety-Miracles?

```

1218

```

My Lord,

Is there any special reason

Why You are taking such a long time

To transform my tragedy-heart

Into a happy ending-life?

```

1219

```

My Lord,

I have only two prayers:

May my mind run away from me;

May my heart always remain with me. ```

1220

```

My Lord,

In the morning

I do not succeed in running towards You.

In the evening

I also have the same problem.

Is it destined that my desire

Has to remain unsatisfied?

```

1221

```

My Lord,

From playing hide-and-seek with You

For centuries,

Uninterrupted! ```

1245

```

To me,

Not the Smiles of my Lord’s Eye,

But the Tears of my Lord’s Heart

Are my heart’s peerless treasures. ```

1246

```

May my mind be full of inspiration-leaves,

My heart be full of aspiration-flowers

And my life be full of satisfaction-fruits.

```

1247

```

O my mind,

With equanimity. ```

1255

```

My mind’s newness, my heart’s oneness

And my life’s fulness

Live together inside my Lord’s

Heart-Home. ```

1256

```

I must develop an adamantine will

To become the sacred fire

Of ceaseless God-remembrance.

```

1257

```

My Lord,

I do not like Your Divinity’s suggestions,

But I appreciate, admire, adore and love

Your Divinity’s assertions. ```

1258

```

If my heart is not a God-prayer,

Then how can my life ever be

A God-lover?

```

1259

```

When I do not aspire,

And for nobody else. ```

1276

```

If you want to enjoy

The pleasure-life,

Then you do it

At your own inner expense.

Destruction will soon start

Running after you! ```

1277

```

I wanted to have an inner conversation

With my Lord Supreme.

He said to me,

“My child,

You have to wait

Until we meet face to face.” ```

1278

```

The mind cannot give us peace

Because the mind

Does not have peace.

God’s Feet have peace,

And God is telling us

That His Feet are all ready

To bless us with peace.

We have just to touch Them. ```

1279

```

To my aspiring heart,

Faith is not something

That I have to discover

Inside God’s Heart.

My breathless faith

Is itself God. ```

1280

```

Faith can be achieved

Only from God-experience

And not from mind-information.

```

1281

```

The verbosity of the mind

Drowns the veracity

Of the heart.

```

1282

```

I have come to realise

That talking without loving

Is merely barking.

```

My Lord,

Why do I have to wait for joy

From the fulfilment of my desire-life?

Can You not bless me with unbounded joy

Even before I show You my desire-list?

If You do so,

I can easily discard

My desire-list. ```

1293

```

My Lord,

To protect my body, vital, mind

And heart,

I beg of You not to allow

Your Compassion-Eye

To sleep anymore. ```

1294

```

Faith we need

To love God permanently.

Surrender we need

To satisfy God fully. ```

1295

```

My Lord,

Can You not be

As fond of Your Generosity

As I am fond of my cravings?

In this way,

You can solve all my problems. ```

1296

```

When I do not think of God,

I am a stranger to God.

When I pray to God,

I become His neighbour.

When I surrender

My very existence-life to God,

I become a member

Of His immediate Family. ```

1297

```

My Lord,

Can You not count and count and count

All the good things

I have done for You?

I am sure that while counting,

You will fall fast asleep.

Then You will not be able

To count all the bad things

I have done to You.

God smilingly says to me, “Amen!” ```

1298

```

My Lord,

When I place my head

At Your Feet,

You say to me, “Not enough!”

When I place my life

At Your Feet,

You say to me, “Not enough!”

My Lord, when will it be enough?

“It will be enough

When you can assure Me

That you will not take them back.”

```

1299

```

My Lord,

Can You not see

That I am suffering

From a life-threatening doubt-stroke?

Where is

Your Compassion-Emergency Room,

Where?

```

1300

```

May my gratitude-heart-flower

To my Lord Supreme

Forever and forever remain pure.

```

1301

```

My prayer, my meditation,

My aspiration and my dedication

Together are on

A world-peace-tour. ```

1302

```

O seeker,

Be fully determined

Not to allow your mind

To collapse

Under its doubt-burden.

```

1303

```

I am astonished

That I have

A shameless desire-mountain-life.

```

1304

```

I have taken a short cut

By avoiding my mind’s

Desire-forest

To enter into my heart-garden. ```

1305

```

My Lord,

I do not know how You do it.

You never count it

And my heart gets terribly frightened. ```

1321

```

My soul tells my heart

That if I want to make

Rapid progress

In my spiritual life,

Then I have to look at

The brightness only

In every little thing

That I see and do. ```

1322

```

I tell God,

“My Lord, I am not in a hurry.

I can linger indefinitely

In expectation of Your Arrival.” ```

1323

```

Self-indulgence-fire

Is unimaginably difficult

To extinguish altogether.

```

1324

```

If you are not on speaking terms

```

There are many games

God plays with me,

But He loves most

The hide-and-seek game. ```

1339

```

My Lord, I love Your Lotus-Feet

Infinitely more than I love

Anything else of Yours.

```

1340

```

God tells me

```

1352

```

My Lord’s Compassion-Eye

And my own aspiration-heart

Every day dine

In the Heart-Garden of my Lord. ```

1353

```

Even the convictions

Of the human mind

Are more fickle

Than the wind. ```

1354

```

My seeker-friend,

```

1364

```

No more shall I surrender

To my mind’s labyrinthine thoughts,

No more!

```

1365

```

A clever man relies on nothing.

A wise man relies on everything.

A God-loving man relies on God

In everything. ```

1366

```

I offer my heart’s gratitude-breath

To my Lord Supreme

Before the birth of my prayer-hour.

```

1367

```

I have regained

My God-faith completely.

My doubting mind

Is thunderstruck! ```

1368

```

My ego-satisfaction

```

Do not retire.

```

1384

```

My Master’s outer strictness-face

Frightens me.

My Master’s inner sweetness-heart

```

1419

```

Sweeter than the sweetest

And richer than the richest

Are our gratitude-tears.

```

1420

```

Alas, how can I make progress

```

No matter how thorny,

```

A hero-God-warrior

Is he whose temptation-life

Dies untested.

```

1454

```

When my mind suffers,

All my God-fulfilment-dreams

Into pieces.

```

1466

```

My mind’s hesitation-torture-life

Has devoured

All my God-fulfilment-promises.

```

1467

```

An unconditional surrender-path

My Lord Supreme

Has already paved for me.

```

1468

```

The brilliance

Of my intelligence-mind

Is no match for

The radiance

Of my aspiration-heart.

```

My Lord, when I do not please You

In Your own Way,

Do make me feel only one thing:

That I am a mere nothing.

This feeling of nothingness

Will wake me up. ```

1480

```

My Lord,

Without Your unconditional Compassion,

I could not have separated

My heart-dreams

From my mind-nightmares.

```

1481

```

My Lord,

How can I destroy

My insincerity-mind?

“My child,

Forget about your insincerity-mind.

Just think of the beauty and fragrance

Of your sincerity-heart

```

My Lord,

By Your Grace I have many good things

In my life.

But now can You tell me

If by offering only one particular thing

```

1491

```

My Lord quite abruptly

Entered into my mind,

Caught my pride

And threw it away. ```

1492

```

My Lord quite unexpectedly

Entered into my vital,

Caught my impurity

And threw it away. ```

1493

```

My Lord, with no warning,

Entered into my heart,

Caught my insecurity

```

My Lord tells me

That He gets joy only twice:

Once when I preach to His Mind

And once when He teaches my heart. ```

1498

```

Each enlightened soul

Shortens the distance

Between humanity

And the God-Satisfaction-Shore. ```

1499

```

Alas, when my Lord says nothing

To my heart,

My heart feels miserable,

And when my Lord says something

To my mind,

My mind feels miserable.

I ask my Lord,

“How can I have such a miserable fate?”

My Lord tells me

That I have such a miserable fate

Because my heart has not studied

Oneness-lesson,

And my mind has not studied

Illumination-lesson. ```

1500

```

Inactive faith

Sleeps inside our minds.

Active faith

Lives inside our hearts. ```

1501

```

Poor God every day

Begs us to allow Him

To arrest all the evil forces

That are ruthlessly torturing us.

But we do not allow Him

Because we are somehow enjoying

The wild temptation-bond

Of the evil forces. ```

1502

```

When we soulfully pray

And self-givingly meditate,

Our prayer-universe

And meditation-universe

Immediately expand.

```

1503

```

A God-server is, indeed,

A supreme hero

Of both the inner world

And the outer world. ```

1504

```

Early in the morning

God rings only three doorbells —

My life’s readiness-doorbell,

My mind’s willingness-doorbell

And my heart’s eagerness-doorbell.

```

1505

```

The twentieth century is undoubtedly

An age of self-imposed worries

And anxieties.

```

I was drowning

In my mind’s ignorance-sea

Until I bravely and safely reached

```

We get tremendous pleasure

Speaking to our friends,

And we forget to speak to God.

But God exists in the very breath

Of our life,

That I am Your Dream-Reality’s all. ```

1529

```

My Lord says to me,

“My child,

Now that I have burnt up

Your past life-history,

Can you not come and be with Me

As My Heart’s

Perfection-Satisfaction-Smile?”

```

1530

```

The path that leads me back to life

For God-manifestation

I shall follow happily and proudly.

```

God has no time

To think of my ascetic mind,

But He has all the time

To bless my self-giving heart. ```

1536

```

I am a beggar,

And I am proud of my beggar-life.

But what do I actually beg for?

God’s Compassion-flooded Smile. ```

1537

```

I know the sacred meaning

Of what God says to me.

God knows the secret significance

Of what I do not say to Him. ```

1538

```

My Lord always encourages me,

Inspires me and feeds me

By saying that I am not

What I seem.

According to Him,

```

O seeker, do not miss the road.

Do not enter into your mind-jungle.

Be careful, be cautious, be watchful,

Be mindful!

Take the right path.

Your heart-garden is eagerly

Waiting for you.

```

1543

```

My Lord,

I have come crying to You.

I want to love You once more.

Do give me a chance.

Do turn me into Your Eternity’s

Smiling self-giver. ```

1544

```

My Lord, once upon a time

My heart was faithful,

My mind was dependable,

My life was serviceable.

Do tell me, who has robbed me

Of those virtues? ```

1545

```

When my mind spends time

Studying the differences

Between the scriptures,

The seeker in me

Gets painfully and completely lost.

```

1546

```

When my heart spends time

In meditation,

God’s Heart proudly claims me

And God’s Life blessingfully

Appoints me.

```

1547

```

The secret desire of my mind

Is to dominate the world.

The sacred desire of my heart

Is to love the world.

The perfect desire of my soul

Is to become inseparably one

With the world.

```

1548

```

May every human being

Tell every other human being

How close he feels to God.

```

1549

```

My Lord,

Since I cannot govern my desires,

Can You not, on my behalf,

Govern them

With Your absolute Authority?

```

1550

```

My Lord tells me

That He will protect me

From all future entanglements

If I can place,

Once and for all,

My information-head

And my confusion-mind

At His Feet. ```

1551

```

It may be difficult

```

Do not exercise

```

My Lord,

Do not give me freedom!

I am apt to misuse it,

And then my doom chases me.

```

1576

```

You cannot and you must not

Avoid reality.

You must face reality

And cast forth your reality

In accordance with God’s Will.

```

Lord Buddha saw

Over two thousand years ago

What I am seeing now.

Lord Krishna saw

Over five thousand years ago

What I am seeing now.

What am I seeing?

I am seeing

The beauty, the harmony

And the fragrance

Of Infinity’s Vision-Delight-Light.

```

1582

```

Each desire of our mind

Leads us with tremendous eagerness

To more and more and more desires.

```

1583

```

An inner revolution

Is of paramount importance

To shatter the ignorance-pride

Of humanity. ```

1584

```

Who chooses what?

God chooses

My mind’s ignorance-night

For transformation.

I choose

My Lord’s Compassion-Eye

For satisfaction.

```

1585

```

My Lord,

If You do not love me,

Tell me the truth.

I shall become a better person

So that You can love me.

```

1586

```

My Lord,

Once more invent my soul,

Invent my heart,

And invent my life

To please You in Your own Way.

```

1587

```

To succeed and to proceed,

I must reconcile first

My outer life and my inner life.

```

1588

```

At long last

I have restored

My long-lost heart-shrine.

```

1589

```

My Lord, I beg of You

To stop my insatiable

Power-hunger.

```

1590

```

My mind,

I shall be so happy

And so proud of you

If you allow me to enjoy

A longer than the longest

Vacation from you. ```

1591

```

When disaster strikes,

It never, never gives us

Any notice.

```

1592

```

The human mind

Does not mind

When contradictions

Become its ruler. ```

1593

```

When we pray and meditate

Soulfully and ceaselessly,

We enter into a world

Where Divinity blooms

And blossoms.

```

1594

```

The purity, fragrance, light

And power

Of a prayerful action

Are unimaginable. ```

1595

```

You say that you have nothing to do.

But I tell you,

You have something to do

```

Although it was

An extremely difficult task,

I did finally bid adieu

To my suspicion-mind

And my frustration-vital.

```

1604

```

Why does God keep countless secrets

From us?

He does it so that we will value them

And be worthy of them,

And one day be able to manifest

These secrets,

Which are nothing other than

His blossoming Dream-Realities. ```

1605

```

When all else fails,

```

My Lord asks me

```

My Lord says to me:

“My child,

Humility is what you need.

But on the way,

If humiliation precedes humility,

Do not lose faith in Me.

I shall adorn you

Our depression-vital. ```

1639

```

What your mind

Thinks is great

May not necessarily

Be great. ```

1640

```

What your heart

Feels is good

Is unquestionably good.

```

1641

```

Be not discouraged!

Today you may be a novice

In your aspiration-life,

But in the near future,

You can become

A super-excellent aspirant. ```

1642

```

When we live in the mind,

Then everything new

Is a wonder of wonders.

```

1643

```

When we live in the heart,

Then everything new

Is a natural and spontaneous expression

Of our inner divinity. ```

1644

```

Every human being

Is worthy of being loved,

For he is a unique

God-blossoming life. ```

1645

```

What can our meditation

The inner joy will start

Accompanying you.

```

You must accept your fate

Bravely,

And then master it

Slowly, steadily

And unerringly.

```

1670

```

Every day we must pray

And meditate

In the light-flooded garden

Of our heart. ```

1671

```

Man’s oft-repeated conversation

With God:

“God, do You love me?

Do You need me?

If so, then prove it!”

```

1672

```

Immortality befriends

The beauty of our aspiration-heart

And

The fragrance of our dedication-life. ```

1673

```

God gave you the capacity

To create Heaven,

But He never, never imagined

```

Our conscience tells our mind:

“Compromise is the height

Of stupidity,

```

Our undivine life

Can never intrude

On the ecstasy-life

Of our soul. ```

1682

```

If we do not develop

The power of discrimination,

We will not be able

To proceed successfully

In our spiritual life.

```

Sleepless love of God

Is the true measure

Of a real devotee.

```

1687

```

Those who at every moment

Overestimate themselves

Deserve to be underestimated

By all and sundry. ```

1688

```

Learn the art

From chronic disobedience-illness. ```

1694

```

Nobody can forecast

The daily mind-weather,

Nobody.

```

1695

```

My doubting mind

Is at odds

With each and every

Human being. ```

1696

```

My aspiring heart

Is at peace

With the whole world.

```

1697

```

Each seeker must know

That there can be no overdose

Of aspiration, dedication

And God-manifestation. ```

1698

```

My soul says to my heart:

```

1708

```

My Lord Supreme

Is pleased with me

Only when I breathe

My heart’s ecstasy-flooded breath. ```

1709

```

My God-surrender

Is the most meaningful

And most fruitful necessity

In my aspiration-life. ```

1710

```

I prayerfully follow

My Lord’s every Footstep.

My Lord proudly follows

My heart’s every smile-step. ```

1711

```

My Lord,

I am offering You

Everything that I have,

Including my impossible

Ingratitude-heart,

For Your Forgiveness,

For Your Perfection

And for Your Transformation. ```

1712

```

Only one individual can change

My life entirely,

And that is

My Lord Absolute Supreme. ```

1713

```

My Lord,

I am begging You,

From the very depths of my heart,

To revive my God-loving life. ```

1714

```

Nobody has compelled me

And nobody can compel me

To love God.

I am loving God

Because it is my free choice.

```

1715

```

God is not a policeman,

But God is an ever-serving

Volunteer Watchman.

```

1716

```

The mind likes to be always

In a whirlwind of activities

Without any destination.

```

1717

```

How I believed

In my spiritual life once!

Alas, what has gone wrong

With me?

I have lost my spirituality.

I have lost everything

That was divine in me.

```

1718

```

God wants me to fly and fly

To Him

In His Compassion-Benediction-Chariot.

```

1719

```

If you start crying in repentance

For every mistake

That you have committed,

Then there will be no time

For you to pray to God

For a new life of illumination. ```

1720

```

Hesitation prevents us

From doing anything

That is illumining and fulfilling.

```

1721

```

I am determined

Not to neglect anymore

My gratitude-heart-field.

```

1722

```

No discipline,

No determination,

No goal,

No satisfaction

From my heart

To God’s Heart. ```

1723

```

My Lord,

Speed up, speed up!

Do deface my pride-drunk mind

And my pride-drunk life. ```

1724

```

This moment

Life is a broken hope.

Next moment

Life is a God-fulfilment-promise. ```

1725

```

O my soul’s rainbow-smile,

I am prayerfully yearning

For you to appear before me

For the illumination of my life. ```

1726

```

Where is safety?

```

My soul has

What my heart needs,

And not what my mind wants.

```

1741

```

Go deep within.

To your great surprise,

All obstacles

Will turn into opportunities. ```

1742

```

My mind,

```

I hinder not only my growth,

But also the growth of the entire world,

When I do not feed God

With my love, devotion

And surrender.

```

1761

```

My mind,

God is talking to you.

Why are you so careless and callous?

Take heed! ```

1762

```

How can you neglect

The inner voice

When you tell the world

That God is your only choice? ```

1763

```

Are you waiting for an invitation

From God?

He may not invite you at all.

The best thing is for you to go to Him

Uninvited.

I assure you, He will not mind. ```

1764

```

Break

The exorbitant pride

Of your sound-mind!

```

1765

```

Make friends

With the silence-beauty

Of your heart.

```

1766

```

Worthless and useless words

To the doubting mind. ```

1778

```

My Lord,

```

To me, my faith is not something

```

My Lord Supreme,

In all sincerity,

I am begging You

To humiliate me

And my endless ignorance-pride!

```

1791

```

The seeker’s negativity-mind

Is to be fully blamed

For his sad failure-life.

```

1792

```

My Lord,

Please take me wherever You go,

Even if You go to hell.

“My child,

Where am I now?”

```

1793

```

My Lord,

Can You make my life a little better?

“Of course, My child,

If you seriously want Me to.” ```

1794

```

My Lord,

I am with You twenty-four hours a day

In my thoughts and in my deeds.

I beg of You only one thing:

Allow me never to feel

That I have had enough

Of Your company.

```

1795

```

We commit countless sins,

But when we recite Your very Name

With our gratitude-heart-tears,

You burn all our sins to ashes. ```

1796

```

My Lord,

You have saved my life

Countless times

With Your Greatness-Power. ```

1797

```

My Lord,

You are loving my heart

At every moment

With Your Goodness-Delight. ```

1798

```

My Lord,

When I do not fulfil my promise,

Do not think that I love You less.

```

We should not be discouraged.

Our desire-life does not die

All at once.

Slowly, steadily and unerringly

We can put our desire-life

To death. ```

1805

```

Our adamantine determination-power

Can easily tame

All our stray and unwilling thoughts.

```

1806

```

Eventually,

Each human being will be able

To discover his heart’s

```

Aspiration-cries

And dedication-smiles

Can easily uproot

Our desire-life-tree. ```

1811

```

May positive thoughts

Sing and dance

Right in front of

My aspiration-heart-cries. ```

1812

```

The heart-host takes very special care

When simplicity, sincerity and purity

Arrive.

```

1813

```

Meditation helps the heart

To empty

Its insecurity-purse.

```

1814

```

I appreciate most sincerely

And most proudly

My readiness-mind.

I admire and love

My willingness-life.

I love and love

My eagerness-heart.

```

1815

```

Who is fit for the spiritual life?

```

My morning prayer

And Nature’s morning song

Begin at the same time.

```

1824

```

Each soul is selected

By God Himself,

And each soul is shaped and moulded

By God Himself. ```

1825

```

Sweeter than the sweetest,

Stronger than the strongest

Are the teardrops of surrender-light.

```

1826

```

God has just touched

The same game. ```

1868

```

A life of seclusion

```

When we talk, we do not realise

That God’s Compassion-Eye

Is the speaker,

And God’s Satisfaction-Heart

Is the listener.

```

1887

```

If you have a readiness-mind,

A willingness-life

And an eagerness-heart,

Then nobody will be able to equal you. ```

1888

```

In the spiritual life,

If you crave friends to chat with,

Then you are bound to lose

Your hard-earned friendship

With God.

```

My Lord,

What were You doing

When I was shedding

Such sad heart-tears

For You?

“My child,

Did you not see Me

Devouring greedily and proudly

Your heart-tears?”

```

1900

```

The moment I touch the Lotus-Feet

Of my Lord Supreme,

My desire-life gets frightened

And runs away. ```

1901

```

There can be no

Totally threatening eclipse

Of the aspiration-heart.

```

1902

```

The aspiring heart

Is often a victim

To the mind’s prejudice

And indifference. ```

1903

```

The mind refuses to commit itself

To anything

That is not of immediate profit.

```

```

Each opportunity is, indeed,

A special blessing from Above

For the effacement

Of our undivine qualities

And the advancement

Of our divine qualities. ```

1916

```

There is nothing in God’s creation

That God loves so well

As the transformation of human nature.

```

1917

```

Do not underestimate

```

```

O God!

Had I been wiser,

I would have accepted

The life of aspiration

Long ago.

```

1938

```

Lord, save me once again

So that I can love You

Self-givingly

For Your enormous Satisfaction. ```

1939

```

To enjoy God’s infinite Beauty

In the garden of our aspiration-heart,

We must go beyond the territory

Of our superficial and commercial mind. ```

1940

```

God’s Compassion-Eye

Does not have to remain

Always open,

Especially when we deliberately misuse

The freedom bestowed upon us.

```

1941

```

God’s Smiles are irresistible.

So are God’s Tears.

Whatever God has and is

Is irresistible. ```

1942

```

To enjoy a moment

Of God-receptivity

Is all I need.

```

Our greatness

Can at times be

Our life’s frustration-reality.

```

1947

```

God compassionately and emphatically

Tells me

That to increase the beauty

Of His universe,

He unmistakably depends on

My heart’s aspiration-flames. ```

1948

```

When calamity is asleep,

Do not arouse it

To see how destructive it is.

```

1949

```

Anything inspiring and illumining

Will definitely make you

A better God-lover

```

If you are afraid of the consequences

Of your God-dedication-life,

Then your life can do nothing

And you will be nothingness itself. ```

1955

```

It is not the doubting mind

```

If you are always

In the world of self-concern,

Then poor God has to remain

Outside your life’s boundary. ```

1970

```

I call it my self-awakening,

But God says that very thing

Is the beauty of His own

```

The moment I fall flat

At the Feet of God’s Will,

My life becomes

Ecstasy’s thrill. ```

1997

```

God’s enduring and endearing Affection,

Tears and Smiles

Have changed my unchangeable life.

```

1998

```

To adorn my Lord’s Heart

With joy,

I must turn my life

Into humility-grass. ```

1999

```

To collect my heart’s gratitude-tears

And place them at the Feet

Of my Lord Supreme

Is my only task. ```

2000

```

I feel that I can be perfect

If I adore, love and obey

God’s Blessing-flooded

Commands. ```

From:Sri Chinmoy,Seventy-Seven Thousand Service-Trees, part 2, Agni Press, 1998
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