The Wings of Light, part 18

851. They are pleased with my books

```

I am truly grateful

To man and God,

To earth and Heaven,

Because

They are pleased with my books.

God is pleased with my books,

Because

My books devotedly manifest Him

On earth.

Man is pleased with my books,

Because

My books represent him

Adequately.

Heaven is pleased with my books

Because

My books carry many seekers

To Heaven.

Earth is pleased with my books

Because

My books embody earth-pangs

And earth-smiles. ```

852. Surrender is the answer

```

Desire receives the answer

From the world of night.

Aspiration receives the answer

From the world of Light.

Meditation receives the answer

From the world of Peace.

But

Surrender receives no answer.

Surrender needs no answer

Because

Surrender itself is the Answer

Of answers. ```

853. Why are you so late?

```

Is that you, daughter?

Why are you so late?

“Father, I thought I could do

Without You.

I thought You could do

Without me.

Therefore

I found no necessity to come

Earlier.”

Is that You, Father?

Why are You so late?

“Daughter, I am late

Because

You have made Me late.

Until now,

You thought your

Desire-life was all.

That is why.”

```

854. How it ended

```

My animal life,

How it ended:

It ended when mind

Knocked at its door.

My human life,

How it ended:

It ended when love

Knocked at its door.

My divine life,

How it began:

It began when oneness,

Universal oneness,

Was released from my

Transcendental Being. ```

855. I await your command

```

Captain, O captain

Of my outer world,

My desire-life is waiting

For your command.

Captain, O captain

Of my inner life,

Your command is waiting

For my inner preparation.

Captain, O captain

Of my God-life,

Will you ever command me?

Will you ever guide me, will you? ```

856. The choice:

```

Whom am I going to choose

This time?

I chose Satan once,

And then we two

Fought and fought against God.

I chose man once,

And then we two

Cried and slept, slept and cried.

This time I am definitely planning

To choose God.

Let me see what we two

Together can do. ```

857. I shall offer

```

To the sun-power

I shall offer my newly acquired power:

Aspiration.

To the moon-beauty

I shall offer my long treasured beauty:

Heart.

To the God-light

I shall offer my ever-deepening light:

Surrender.

```

858. I could have done far better

```

When I study my life

I see clearly

How foolish I was.

I could have done far better.

I wasted all my precious time

In the company

Of brooding fears,

Shooting doubts

And dying insecurities.

Yet

God loves me compassionately.

Yet

I love God unknowingly,

Unwillingly,

Undivinely.

```

859. I wrote a book

```

I wrote a book on Satan.

He wanted to read my book

But unfortunately,

Time was hostile to him.

I wrote a book on man.

Man had the time

But

He did not care to read it.

Unfortunately, he did not want

To waste his precious time.

I wrote a book on God.

God immediately read it,

And then

He smiled and cried.

He smiled at my moon-white

Sincerity;

He cried at my sun-vast

Stupidity. ```

860. What happened?

```

When I sat at God’s Feet,

What happened?

He blessed me with His infinite

Compassion-Light.

When I shook hands with God,

What happened?

He gave me His infinite Love

Freely to use.

When I embraced God,

What happened?

I totally forgot

That I was a lump of clay. ```

861. I thought

```

I thought God did not care for me.

Therefore

I paid no attention to God.

I thought only man cared for me.

Therefore

I paid all attention to man.

Although

I have changed my opinions

Totally,

Will I succeed?

Will I ever?

```

862. He is master of himself

```

Fear has left him.

Therefore

Once more he is master of himself.

Doubt has left him.

Therefore

Once more he is master of himself.

He is master of himself.

Therefore

He knows how God in him proceeds

And

How man in him succeeds.

```

863. Before and after

```

Before my realisation

My inner cry

Was a loving guest of peace.

After my realisation

My divine smile

Became a fulfilling host of peace.

```

864. I love you, I hate you

```

O machine-loving man,

I love you.

I shall always love you

Because

You love something.

O God-doubting man,

I hate you.

I shall always hate you

Because

You doubt Someone.

```

865. Goal

```

O curious traveller in me,

Your Goal is very far.

O laborious traveller in me,

Your Goal is absolutely sure.

O precious Goal,

How far are you?

O gracious Goal,

I love you. ```

866. Three new ways of thinking

```

I have discovered

Three new ways of thinking:

Man can think

With his heart of love-light.

Man can think

With his life of surrender-might.

Man can think

With his soul of God-right. ```

867. They always come

```

My body knows

Darkness always comes.

My vital knows

Night always comes.

My mind knows

Evening always comes.

My heart knows

Noon always comes.

My soul knows

The sun always comes.

And I know

Grace from Above always comes. ```

868. Grace

```

You want to know

The history of the world?

Grace!

I tell you, it is so simple

And

It is so clear.

The father of Grace is all-illumining Concern.

The mother of Grace is all-fulfilling Love.

Grace has only one brother

And

Only one sister.

Brother’s name is Courage-prince,

Sister’s name is Faith-princess.

```

869. I assure you

```

You say

God does not love you.

I say

Just love God.

I assure you

He cannot and will not

Remain indebted to you.

You say

God does not care for you.

I say

Just use your concern-machine.

I assure you

God will use His Concern-machine

To claim you today,

To fulfil you tomorrow. ```

870. The greatest man

```

In the human world

The greatest man is he

Who dares to love

Cheerfully,

Ceaselessly

And

Selflessly.

In the divine world

The greatest man is he

Who dares to try

Soulfully,

Untiringly

And

Unconditionally.

```

871. A proposal

```

God, it is just a proposal:

Kindly come and share

With me my food, ignorance.

“Man, in My case

It is more than a proposal,

It is My most sincere request:

Just come and share

With Me My food, Light.

And I assure you, man,

My food is infinitely more

Than yours

Both in quality and in quantity.

Therefore

You can easily eat

My food with Me

Through Eternity.” ```

872. Imagination, inspiration, aspiration

```

I need imagination,

I need inspiration,

I need aspiration.

Imagination I need

To invite God.

Inspiration I need

To love God.

Aspiration I need

To serve God. ```

873. An insecure life

```

Who is most afraid of death?

Fear.

Who is most afraid of fear?

An insecure life.

Who is most afraid of an insecure life?

God, God Himself.

Do you know why?

Here is the answer:

God just does not know

How to satisfy

An insecure life.

```

874. Since God is kind to me

```

For the time being

I am kind to God.

For the time being

God is kind to me.

Since I am kind to God,

Let me give Him what He has been

Asking me for all the time:

Aspiration.

Since God is kind to me,

Let me at least ask Him

For a favour:

God-realisation. ```

875. The achievement

```

Compassion, what is it

If not the achievement of concern?

Concern, what is it

If not the achievement of sacrifice?

Sacrifice, what is it

If not the achievement of love?

Love, what is it

If not the achievement of

Man in God

And God in Man? ```

876. The supreme power

```

Inspiration is the brightest power

Of the poet in me.

Aspiration is the purest power

Of the seeker in me.

Surrender is the strongest power

Of the lover in me.

Oneness is the supreme power

Of the Yogi in me. ```

877. The eternal student

```

To you, God is a loving Teacher.

To him, God is a strict Teacher.

To me, God is a wise Teacher.

To earth, God is a compassionate Teacher.

To Heaven, God is a kind Teacher.

To God, God is the Eternal Student

Of our never-dying ignorance.

```

878. Your God, my God

```

You stay with your God;

Let me stay with mine.

Your God tells you

That I am unrealised,

That I am undivine

And

That I am imperfect.

My God tells me

That I am realised;

More than realised,

That I am divine;

More than divine,

That I am perfect.

My God tells me something more:

“My son, you are My

Only successor.”

```

879. Three lives

```

I have three lives.

I will gladly offer

The first to the animal kingdom,

The second to the human kingdom

And the third to the divine Kingdom.

The animal kingdom

Admires my destruction-life.

The human kingdom

Admires my aspiration-life.

The divine Kingdom

Admires my dedication-life. ```

880. The difference

```

The difference between your God

And my God is this:

Your God may not know

How great, how powerful

And how kind you are;

Whereas

My God does not know

And yet

Does not want to know

How stupid, how worthless

And how useless I am.

```

881. What do you mean?

```

What do you mean

When you say that God is very kind?

“I mean that God has a big heart.”

What do you mean

When you say that God has a big heart?

“I mean that God has two big eyes.”

What do you mean

When you say that God has two big eyes?

“I mean that

God watches me,

Examines me,

Perfects me

And

Fulfils me.” ```

882. I forgot and God forgave

```

How did it happen?

How did you forget God?

How did it happen?

How did God forgive you?

“I deliberately forgot God

Because

He did not care to fulfil

My sweet and strong desires.

“God forgave me

Because

His Compassion gave Him

No other choice.” ```

883. Who is God?

```

Who is God?

You asked me

The same question before.

I shall give you the answer

Lovingly and cheerfully again.

Who is God?

God is the son

Of your teeming desires.

God is the father

Of your blossoming aspiration.

God is the number-one enemy

Of your insecurity-heart.

God is the number-one friend

Of your courage-life.

```

884. When I surrendered myself

```

When I surrendered myself

To the morning light,

God’s Eyes of Beauty

Blessed me.

When I surrendered myself

To the midday light,

God’s Heart of Beauty

Blessed me.

When I surrendered myself

To the evening light,

God’s Hands of Beauty

Blessed me.

When I surrendered myself

To the inner light,

God the Eternal Beauty

Blessed me,

Embraced me,

Claimed me. ```

885. The unknown and the immediate

```

O silence of death,

I love you.

O sound of life,

I love you.

O silence of death,

I love you

Because

I love the unknown.

O sound of life,

I love you

Because

I love the immediacy of today. ```

886. By this time

```

Why don’t you care for God?

“Why should I?”

The reason is quite obvious.

“Did God ever care for me?”

How do you know

That God did not care for you?

“I know it,

And I tell you

From my own personal experience,

Had God cared for me

By this time I would have

At least

Become a demigod.”

```

887. Perhaps I am wrong

```

Perhaps I am wrong,

Totally wrong,

When I criticise humanity.

Perhaps I am wrong,

Unmistakably wrong,

When I speak ill of Heaven.

Perhaps I am wrong,

Unpardonably wrong,

When I ridicule earth-aspiration.

O how I wish to be wrong,

Always wrong,

When I deliberately find fault

With my Inner Pilot! ```

888. Therefore I am happy

```

My vital is unused to tears.

Therefore

I am happy.

My heart is used to tears.

Therefore

I am happy.

My mind judges the world.

Therefore

I am happy.

My soul embraces the world.

Therefore

I am happy.

My body is the innocence-world.

Therefore

I am happy.

```

889. Tomorrow

```

Yesterday

Unwillingly your vital and mind

Fulfilled God.

Today

Willingly your heart and soul

Are fulfilling God.

Tomorrow

Your body will fulfil God devotedly,

Your vital dynamically,

Your mind consciously,

Your heart unconditionally,

Your soul constantly. ```

890. My gratitude-flames

```

Thorns die,

Roses live.

Hate dies,

Love lives.

Desire dies,

Aspiration lives.

The human in me dies,

The divine in me lives.

My gratitude-flames

In the Heart of God

Never shall die.

Eternally they breathe,

Eternally they sport,

Eternally they manifest

The Supreme,

My Supreme. ```

891. I do not deserve it

```

Lord, I ask You humbly:

Throw me not

Ruthlessly

Into the world again.

I do not deserve

Such severe punishment.

Lord, I ask You sincerely:

Accept me not

Compassionately

Into Heaven again.

I do not deserve

Such a high blessing. ```

892. Wherever we are free

```

We never speak to God,

But we love God

Wherever we are free.

We never think of God,

But we love God

Wherever we are free.

We never serve God,

But we love God

Wherever we are free.

Where are we free?

We are free

In our sweet imagination,

In our bold declaration. ```

893. His own descending self

```

He likes man

But

Not men.

He likes God

But

Not the cosmic gods.

Who is his man?

His own ascending self.

Who is his God?

His own descending Self. ```

894. A serious commitment

```

Earth, my sister earth,

I cannot die with you

Because

I have made a serious commitment

To Heaven.

I have told Heaven

That I shall establish

Heaven on earth.

Heaven, my brother Heaven,

I cannot fly with you

Because

I have made a serious commitment

To earth.

I have told earth

That I shall transform

Her untold sufferings

Before I do anything else.

```

895. Your sweet imagination and your bold will

```

Here is the difference

Between

Your sweet imagination

And

Your bold will:

Your imagination

Lovingly and soulfully

Speaks to God,

Speaks about God;

Your will

Consciously and unmistakably

Becomes God,

Fulfils God.

```

896. I avoid my friends

```

I avoid my fear-friends.

They are shameless.

I avoid my doubt-friends.

They are useless.

I avoid my jealousy friends.

They are senseless.

I avoid my insecurity-friends.

They are baseless.

Finally

I avoid myself.

Why?

Because my life is faceless. ```

897. Leave yourself to me

```

Leave yourself to me.

I shall look after you.

Leave yourself to me.

I shall perfect you.

Leave yourself to me.

I shall immortalise you.

I leave myself to you

For your service.

I leave myself to you

For your pleasure.

I leave myself to you

For your consideration. ```

898. Can you?

```

Lord, can You see my face?

My face is bleeding.

“Daughter, can you feel My Grace?

My Grace is working.”

Lord, can You make me

Worthy of Your Compassion?

“Daughter, I shall try.

But I cannot guarantee it.

But if you want Me to make you

Worthy of My Pride,

I assure you,

I shall undoubtedly succeed.” ```

899. Love shall be my perfection

```

Lord, service was my imagination,

Service is my aspiration,

Service shall be my realisation.

Daughter, love was My Realisation,

Love is My Manifestation,

Love shall be My Perfection.

```

900. Your pilgrimage

```

I tell you once and for all:

Simplify your life-pilgrimage.

God will be proud of you.

Intensify your heart-pilgrimage.

God will be proud of you.

Purify your mind-journey.

God will be proud of you.

Cancel your vital-journey.

God will be proud of you.

Expel your body-journey.

God will be proud of you. ```

From:Sri Chinmoy,The Wings of Light, part 18, Agni Press, 1974
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