Part I

1.1

O my aspiration-heart,
Where are you?
Since you left me,
I have never seen
God smiling at me.


  1. MAH 1-34. The following 34 poems were written on August 23rd and 24th, 1993 in New York.

2.

O my aspiration-heart,
Where are you?
You are my God-faith-
Confidence-foundation.

3.

O my aspiration-heart,
Where are you?
It is you who have given me
The indomitable courage
Not only to brave the unknown,
But also to satisfy the Unknowable.

4.

O my aspiration-heart,
Where are you?
You are the only one
To end my earth-sufferings
And awaken my Heaven-ecstasy
Here on earth.

5.

O my aspiration-heart,
Where are you?
Can you not see that both
My dream-world
And
My reality-world
Are pitifully and helplessly
Crying for you?

6.

O my aspiration-heart,
Where are you?
Without your cheerful assistance,
My ignorance-sleep of millennia
Will not come to an end.

7.

O my aspiration-heart,
Where are you?
All I need from you
Is my soul's silence-sea-poise.

8.

O my aspiration-heart,
Where are you?
Without you,
No matter which direction I take,
It leads me
To useless nothingness.

9.

O my aspiration-heart,
Where are you?
Please come back.
I promise you that I shall give up
Leading the mind-life
For good.
Do trust me.

10.

O my aspiration-heart,
Where are you?
Do come back.
From now on I shall give you
My cheerful and sleepless willingness.
I shall obey you and please you
In every way.

11.

O my aspiration-heart,
Where are you?
Each time I think of you,
I hear a new
God-throbbing melody.

12.

O my aspiration-heart,
Where are you?
I am blinded and stabbed
By the doubt-hooligan.
Come immediately to my rescue!

13.

O my aspiration-heart,
Where are you?
Let us try once more
Carefully, soulfully and self-givingly
To walk along the path
Of God-discovery.

14.

O my aspiration-heart,
Where are you?
Do not forget
That you are the only golden bridge
Between my hope-life
And God's Promise-Eye.