I know why I am helpless

I know why I am helpless.
I am helpless
Because
I want to take a prominent part
In the desire-drama.

I know why I am helpless

I know why I am helpless.
I am helpless
Because
I do not believe
In my illumination-whispering heart.

I know why I am helpless

I know why I am helpless.
I am helpless
Because
I feel that opportunity
Is another name for forced responsibility.

I know why I am helpless

I know why I am helpless.
I am helpless
Because
I am afraid of climbing up
The reality-tree.

I know why I am helpless

I know why I am helpless.
I am helpless
Because
I do not want to accept
That my desire-life
Is indeed a frustration-heart.

I know why I am helpless

I know why I am helpless.
I am helpless
Because
I like constant sound-success
And not sleepless silence-progress.

I know why I am helpless

I know why I am helpless.
I am helpless
Because
I do not allow patience
To feed me.

I know why I am helpless

I know why I am helpless.
I am helpless
Because
I have turned my mind
Into a self-importance-volcano.

I know why I am helpless

I know why I am helpless.
I am helpless
Because
I want to succeed
In substituting my mind-cleverness
For my heart-soulfulness.

I know why I am helpless

I know why I am helpless.
I am helpless
Because
I always carry a doubt-dagger
Wherever I go.

I know why I am helpless

I know why I am helpless.
I am helpless
Because
I am afraid of training my mind
To hope.

I know why I am helpless

I know why I am helpless.
I am helpless
Because
I do not want to accept the fact
That because of my unbending mind
My life has become an unending darkness.

I know why I am helpless

I know why I am helpless.
I am helpless
Because
I want to live
Inside a binding and blinding
Desire-room
And not inside
An illumining and liberating
Aspiration-palace.

I know why I am helpless

I know why I am helpless.
I am helpless
Because
I am always quick to anger
And slower than the slowest to smile.