My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 10
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My Lord asks meHow I can be so low
That I want to give Him
A solo performance.
APR 920. These prayers were given in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia — 14 December 2001.↩
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God the EyeFeeds my God-aspiration-hunger.
God the Heart
Feeds my God-manifestation-hunger.
3
Nothing else is our birthrightSave and except
Our inner delight.
4
The more possessions,The more processions.
The less outer prosperity,
The more inner divinity.
5
God comes downFrom His transcendental Height
To measure my heart,
And not
To measure my house.
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God’s visible Love for meIs my sleepless service-life.
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I must transformAll my mind-stories
Into my God-pleasing
Heart-songs.
8
The soil of faithAnd the seed of love
Receive from God
His transcendental Blessings
And Pride.
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God cries and criesWhen the fulfilment of our desires
Gives us endless pleasures.
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We must not ask GodWhy, how, when and where.
We must tell God
That we are sleeplessly ready
With our eagerness-heart
To please Him in His own Way.
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In our heart-garden,Each flower reminds us
Of our meditation-hours.
APR 930. These prayers were given in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia — 16 December 2001.↩
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Every morningWe shall have to make a choice:
Either to remain in our mind-sighs
Or in our heart-skies.
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Only the God-devotion-heart-seekersAre allowed to drink deep
God’s Affection-Ambrosia.
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Infinitely more concern has to bloomIn the heart of Heaven.
Then only
Peace will blossom
On the lap of Mother Earth.
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May my heart beat sleeplesslyOnly for the full manifestation
Of my Lord Beloved Supreme
Here on earth.
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The heart is a dream.The soul is the dreamer.
God is the Reality-Bridge
Between the heart-dream
And the soul-dreamer.
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Greatness likes to sit.Goodness likes to stand.
Selflessness likes to serve the world
While sitting and while standing.
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When the talkers begin to listenTo the Inner Pilot,
This world will be flooded
With God-lovers and God-servers.
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God loves our small jokes,But He never likes our big jokes.
Our biggest joke is:
God does not need us.
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God does not want me to beA slave to my every desire.
He wants me to be
A master-fulfiller of every promise.
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Every morningGod’s Compassion-Eye descends
And helps me fly
To far horizons of self-transcendence.
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In my outer life,God is His Compassion-Eye.
In my inner life,
God is His Inspection-Eye.
APR 941. These prayers were given in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia — 18 December 2001.↩
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My mind,Do not dare to delay
My heart’s blooming.
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Every dayMy Lord pilots my life-boat
Between the shore of my heart’s tears
And the shore of my soul’s smiles.
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Each time I offer my heart-tearsTo my Lord Supreme,
He immediately comes one step closer
To my life.
APR 944. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 19 December 2001.↩
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Each time I offer my life-smilesTo my Lord,
He immediately grants me a visa
To enter into a new country
In His universal Life.
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My Lord,I would like to remain
Eternally a server of Yours,
And I do not want to become
Your Eternity’s partner.
“My child,
Then your heart will be empty
Of My Love,
Your life will be empty
Of My Concern
And your breath will be empty
Of My Satisfaction.
My child,
If you become My partner,
Then you will take so much
Of My world-transforming responsibility.”
My Lord, forgive me.
I shall abide by Your Request.
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Each self-giving lifeIs a very special God-emissary
Here on earth.
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The inner lifeIs a blissful dream.
The outer life
Is a painful reality.
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Like my soul,I must become
A bliss-discoverer
And
A doubt-invader.
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My aspiration is not a substituteFor God-manifestation.
My meditation is not a substitute
For God-manifestation.
My constant God-oneness-life
Is an infallible substitute
For God-manifestation.
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We must singAll our God-manifestation-songs
While paving
Our golden life-road.
APR 951. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 20 December 2001.↩
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My heart’s God-obedience-flowerMust forever last.
My life’s God-obedience-hour
Must forever last.
My mind’s God-obedience-tower
Must forever last.
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Every dayI must self-givingly bend and kneel
Before the Will
Of my Absolute Lord Beloved Supreme.
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Only one thing is needed —A oneness-heart —
For peace to bloom and blossom
On the lap of Mother Earth.
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My mind wants to interpretAll my dreams.
My heart wants to love
All my dreams.
My soul wants to fulfil
All my dreams.
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In my outer life,My Lord wants me to be
His inspiration-voice.
In my inner life,
My Lord wants me to be
His aspiration-choice.
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My day I beginWith my God-obedience-nectar-drink.
My night I begin
With my God-surrender-nectar-drink.
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My aspiration-sunrise-shoreIs inside my heart,
And nowhere else.
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Our God-gratitude-roadIs absolutely safe,
And it is never
Overcrowded.
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When I am in my mind,My mind gives me what it has:
Sighs.
When I am in my heart,
My heart gives me what it is:
Delight.
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My Lord compels meTo sleep.
He promises
To remain awake.
APR 961. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 21 December 2001.↩
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My faith clears my wayTo God’s Palace.
My love shortens my way
To God’s Palace.
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I take most valuable lessonsFrom my past failures.
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Real forgivenessDoes not remember
The past.
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My heart-tearsAnd my soul-smiles
Are discovering everything
That my Lord has kept hidden
From me.
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The hour of struggleIs powerful.
The hour of victory
Is blissful.
The Hour of God
Is Godful.
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I love.That means I am ready to trust.
I trust.
That means I am not sure
Whether I shall love or not.
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My Lord tells meThat there is only one safe place
For me,
And that place
Is His Heart-Home.
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When God is in my heart,I start the race.
When I am in God’s Heart,
I complete the race.
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My soul is asking meNot to be afraid
Of the unknown tomorrow,
For my soul is already there.
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The Golden BoatHas just arrived.
I must go
Immediately.
APR 971. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 22 December 2001.↩
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I love to flyOn the blue-gold wings
Of my selfless God-service.
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When the heart speaks to you,Take it as an infallible
And invaluable truth.
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God’s Forgiveness-PowerHas shattered
All my mind-boundaries.
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Cheerfully and sleeplesslyI must cultivate
The art of a oneness-heart.
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Each divine thoughtIs a new God-fulfilment-promise
Of my heart.
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My Lord,The fragrance of Your Compassion-Eye
Is all I need
To become a choice instrument
Of Yours.
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My Lord Beloved SupremeGives me His tearful Eye
And sorrowful Heart
To carry with me
When I go back
To my old desire-land.
APR 978. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 23 December 2001.↩
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Sincerity-prayers succeed.They do not fail.
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O seeker,You are such a fool!
How do you expect your mind-forest
To be without desire-thorns?
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My God-FriendHas been indefinitely waiting
For my desire-friends
To leave me permanently.
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Selfless service is the golden bridgeBetween this world of aspiration
And the world of God-realisation.
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Alas,When will I be able to meet
With my divine tutor,
My soul?
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God’s Compassion-EyeAnd His Forgiveness-Heart
Know what I do and what I have become,
Yet His Love for me
Is always on the increase.
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I may not knowWhat God’s Eye looks like,
But I do know God’s Heart
Unmistakably plus perfectly.
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At long last,Today I have given up
My God-disbelief-profession.
I have now seen
My life’s real teacher:
My illumination-soul.
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My Lord,May my longing
For Your Smile, Compassion,
Love and Affection
Be sleepless and breathless.
APR 987. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 24 December 2001.↩
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My Lord tells meThat my heart must not miss
Even a single opportunity
To be in His Presence.
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My Lord tells meThat He will meet me
At every point
Where my meditations
And my actions
Are inseparable.
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Unless I have convinced myselfThat I am a supremely chosen child
Of my Master,
My Goal shall perpetually remain
A far cry.
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God is always ready and eagerTo remove the veil
That exists between Him and me,
But alas,
I enjoy watching the veil.
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My Lord tells meThat He definitely wants me to have
Indomitable courage and strength,
But He wants to walk, march,
Run and sprint
All the time ahead of me
To reach the Goal.
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My Lord,I love You beyond measure!
“My child, I never thought
That you would be a perfect stranger
To truth.
If you really love Me,
Then you will leave
All you have and all you are
In My safe Hands.”
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Alas, it is too lateFor me to ask God
Where I can find Him,
When it will be the right time
And how I can please Him.
Now my desire-bound life and I
Can tell my Lord only this:
“O Lord, we love You.”
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My mind must liveIn prayers.
My heart must live
In meditations.
Only then shall I be able to have
A full life of God-Beauty
And God-Fragrance.
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My Lord tells me,“My child,
Do not reverse the truth.
Dive deep within.
My Dictates are not binding you.
It is you who are binding My Dictates
And delaying My manifestation
Here on earth.”
Editor's note
Sri Chinmoy offered these prayers during his visit to Malaysia and Cambodia in December 2001.
