My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 22
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My heartShall no more remain
A short-lived God-hunger.
APR 1880. These prayers were given in Singapore — 24 November 2003.↩
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God’s FaceMay at times be invisible,
But His Heart
Is always visible.
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God’s ClosenessIs my life’s fulness-smile.
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Alas, God’s HeartIs a sleepless Tear for me.
5
Doubt is dangerous,And self-doubt
Is infinitely more dangerous.
6
By nature, man is notA God-Conversation-attention-ear.
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My heart’s solemn promiseTo God
Is my aspiration-return.
8
My God-unwillingnessDoes not become me.
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Today I am my heart’sAspiration-candle.
Tomorrow I shall become my soul’s
Illumination-sun.
10
My mind never opens.God’s Eye never closes.
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I need only one thing:I need a tireless
God-surrender-heart.
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When God’s Compassion-Eye appears,My sufferings start to disappear.
APR 1891. These prayers were given in Singapore — 25 November 2003.↩
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When God’s Forgiveness-Heart appears,My sufferings completely disappear.
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Heaven’s BeautyAnd earth’s duty
I equally love.
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Heaven’s BeautyAwakens my heart.
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Earth’s dutyEnergises my life.
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Oneness and fearAre perfect strangers
To each other.
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My Lord,May I come close
To Your Feet?
“No, My child,
I want you to come close
To My Heart.”
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Even the abysmal abyssHas more light
Than our conscious and deliberate
God-disobedience.
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No God-loving meditationCan ever be an escape
From the world.
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My constant self-offeringTo the world
Is a local call
To my Lord Beloved Supreme.
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My hesitant self-offeringTo the world
Is the longest-distance call
To God.
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My mind is determinedTo possess the world.
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My soul is determinedTo address the world.
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My heart is determinedTo caress the world.
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I am determinedTo become the world.
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God the Eye beckons me.God the Heart speaks to me.
God the Breath embraces me.
APR 1906. These prayers were given in Singapore — 26 November 2003.↩
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When God the EyeBeckons me,
I offer my heart’s gratitude-tears.
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When God the HeartSpeaks to me,
I offer my life’s gratitude-smiles.
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When God the BreathEmbraces me,
I become the flood
Of oneness-gratitude-delight.
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Who is safe in today’s world?No, not even multibillionaires,
Needless to say
The poorer than the poorest.
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Who is safe in today’s world?Not he who is wallowing
In the supremacy-pleasures
Of unbounded power.
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Who is safe in today’s world?He who is endowed
With God’s Protection-Assurance
Here, there and all-where.
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What do I learn from God’s Tears?I learn from God’s Tears
That He has infinite concern for me.
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What do I learn from God’s Smiles?I learn from God’s Smiles
That He has confidence in me
In measureless measure.
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My Lord, please tell me,Why am I so unkind to You?
Why, why?
Why do I keep You waiting for me
For Eternity?
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“My child, if you come to MeEven beyond Eternity’s Eye and Heart,
I shall not mind,
As long as you come to Me,
Enter into My Heart
And become the Beauty of My Dream
And the Duty of My Reality.”
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God tells meThat He is not at all worried
About my transformation,
Since He has no fixed schedule for me.
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O ignorance-night,I am not afraid of conversing with you,
But I am terribly afraid
Of your unthinkable vibration
That indefinitely lasts.
I am preparing myself
To conquer your vibration-power,
So that I can inundate my Mother Earth
With Infinity’s Delight.
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No moreMy mind’s outer eye!
No more
My mind’s outer ear!
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From now on,My heart’s inner eye and inner ear
I shall immediately welcome
And eternally treasure.
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In the small hours of the morningGod comes to me
Not to preach, not to teach,
But to love me, my entire being.
APR 1921. These prayers were given in Singapore — 27 November 2003.↩
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God comes to me in the eveningNot to bless, not to smile,
But to examine my love, devotion
And surrender.
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God comes to me at nightOnly for one thing:
He comes to dream in and through me
His Infinity’s Dream.
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When I run forward,I easily receive God’s Smile.
When I climb upward,
I more easily receive God’s Smile.
When I dive inward,
I most easily receive God’s Smile.
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My meditationIs my God-invocation
In the heart of my silence-smile.
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My meditationIs my animal life-purification.
My meditation
Is my human life-transformation.
My meditation
Is my divine life-manifestation.
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No mind-emptiness,No heart-oneness,
No God-fulness.
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My streaming heart-tearsStrengthen my prayer-life.
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My beaming soul-smilesLengthen my silence-meditation.
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My madness-mindChallenges God.
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My gladness-heartEmbraces God.
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God is all the time cryingFor the illumination
Of the doubting and suspecting mind.
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The doubting and suspecting mindIs spying all the time on God
To discover some imperfection in God.
555
My Lord tells meThat every eager effort
Of my heart
He deeply values.
APR 1934. These prayers were given in Singapore — 28 November 2003.↩
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An intense God-loveMeans a desire-conquered life.
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Alas,The fleeting moments of my life
Are empty of God’s Light.
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God’s FluteAwakens my heart.
God’s Gong
Awakens my mind.
God’s Drum
Awakens my life.
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I have millions of flowersIn my heart-garden,
But I love the silence-flower
Infinitely more than any other flower.
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Detachment — not out of shock,But out of wisdom-light —
Permanently lasts.
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A God-unwillingness-mindIs, indeed,
A real God-failure-life.
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What I sleeplessly needIs a Heaven-ascending heart.
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My Lord,Every day my love increases for You.
How is it that Your Love for me
Does not increase even once a year?
“My child,
I really do not know
How to answer your question.”
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My Lord,Please, please free me
With Your Compassion-Eye.
APR 1943. These prayers were given in Solo, Indonesia — 29 November 2003.↩
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My Lord,Please, please, please bind me
With Your Affection-Heart.
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When I arriveAt my Lord’s Palace,
He immediately embraces me
Most fondly and most proudly.
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When my Lord arrivesAt my cottage,
I immediately place myself
At His Feet
And devour the dust of His Feet.
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My heart’s gladnessAnd my life’s sadness
Both hear my Lord’s choice Voice.
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Impossibility-accomplishments:This is what my Lord
Every day expects from me.
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Each time I prayerfully cryOr soulfully smile,
My Lord invites me
To enter into
His Heaven-Heart-Garden.
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The divine GraceComes down from Above
Not when I want it,
But only when I desperately need it.
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Not God’s Eye,But God’s Heart takes the timing
In all our Heavenward races.
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A gratitude-God-loverAnd a devoted God-seeker
Are God’s most favourite children.
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God has a very big Desire:His Desire is to see me happy
Twenty-four hours a day.
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What is my mission?My mission is the outer manifestation
Of my Lord’s inner Vision.
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Heaven is nowhere elseSave and except
In my Lord’s Compassion-flooded Eye.
Editor's note
Sri Chinmoy offered the following prayers during his visit to Singapore and Solo, Indonesia in November 2003.