My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 3
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I know, I know,Definitely I know the way
To my Lord Beloved Supreme,
Even in the stark darkness
Of my ignorance-night.
APR 236. These prayers were given in Foz do Iguacu, Brazil — 7 January 2000.↩
2
No more towering promises,But flowering
God-manifestation-fulfilments-
More, ever more.
3
Every dayMy Lord Beloved Supreme
Devours the golden tears
Of my silver heart.
4
To my great astonishment,Today delight is dancing
From my lotus-heart
To my rose-eyes.
5
Every day without failI ply my life-boat
Between my resolute mind-river
And my aspiring heart-river.
6
God's Hand, God's EyeAnd God's Heart
Are unconditionally showing me the way
To Eternity's Peace and Infinity's Bliss.
7
My Lord, today I haveTwo very special presents for You,
And I am placing them
Cheerfully and unconditionally
At Your Feet:
My tearful heart and my grateful life.
8
God does not like at allMy fearful and doubtful mind.
God immensely loves
My tearful and blissful heart.
9
My heart's aspiration-criesAnd
My life's dedication-smiles
Thrive only
In my God-surrender-life.
10
I keep my ever-blossomingGratitude-heart
Safe in the homeland
Of my soul.
112
My heart's devotion-trainKnows
No full stop.
APR 246. These prayers were given in Foz do Iguacu, Brazil — 8 January 2000.↩
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What is expectationIn my spiritual life,
If not an ever-empty cup?
13
My Lord Beloved SupremeAllows me to feed Him sumptuously
Only when my aspiration-heart
Flies at top speed.
14
God has been telling me all alongThat self-pity
Is the worst possible crime
In a seeker's life.
15
My mind has been studying for yearsTo receive a doubt-diploma.
My heart has been studying
For years and years
To receive God-love, God-devotion
And God-surrender-diplomas
From God Himself.
16
May the smiles of my inner sunIllumine the dense clouds
Of my outer mind-sky.
17
We cry and cryFor the Compassion-Moon
Of God's Eye.
God cries and cries
For the satisfaction-sun
Of our heart.
18
When our aspiration is on the rise,Paradise lovingly, cheerfully and proudly
Beckons us.
19
God tells meThat my expectations and frustrations
Do not have the last word.
He also tells me
That my love of God
Has ever the last word.
20
Today I have madeA solemn promise to myself
That I shall not compel my Lord Supreme
To go hungry for my smile.
213
My heart and I always whisperSorrows and joys
In our God-manifestation-activities.
APR 256. These prayers were given in Foz do Iguacu, Brazil — 10 January 2000.↩
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Nobody is exemptFrom God's ultimate
Justice-Light-Examination.
23
I shall not waste my life any moreBy begging the mind
To be good.
I shall from now on
Love my heart more and more,
Infinitely more.
24
The life of a seekerIs meant to be ever-transcending
In his God-search
And God-discovery.
25
I must realise by this timeThat to try to perfect others
Is, indeed, a blind
And hopeless quest.
26
May my life beA long-forgotten
World-attachment-story.
27
All good seekers are commandedBy God Himself
To answer His Heart-Calls
On the very first ring.
28
To run awayWith the mind's freedom
Is to lose one's own
Heart-wisdom.
29
My heart, keep climbing,Keep climbing,
Even if on rare occasions
You slide down.
30
Only a heartOf sleepless God-surrender
Knows the way
To God's blissful Eye,
God's peaceful Heart
And God's powerful Feet.
314
My Lord,In my outer life
You are Your Compassion-Eye.
In my inner life
You are Your Protection-Feet.
APR 266. These prayers were given in Foz do Iguacu, Brazil — 11 January 2000.↩
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I do not want to unearthMy past ancestry.
I want to prepare myself
For my future God-discovery.
33
My Lord's Fulfilment-OceanIs eagerly waiting for the arrival
Of my life's enthusiasm-river.
34
With our soul's indomitable heroismWe must silence
Our ignorance-terrorism.
35
The man-discussion-mindsI like.
The God-conversation-hearts
I adore and love.
36
The human life is torn betweenThe division-mind-night
And the oneness-heart-delight.
37
O seeker, do not be afraidOf temptation-obstacles.
You can definitely conquer them.
God is more than willing to help you.
38
O seeker, do not buryYour God-gratitude-heart
In the night of your mind-forest.
39
We cannot climbThe liberation-mountain
Unless we have a heart
Of God-surrender-fountain.
4
My Lord, do give me the capacityTo stop once and for all
My life's imperfection-downpour.
415
My Lord,Although my spiritual progress
Is most deplorable,
I beg of You a million times:
Please, please do not allow me
To go back to my old,
Desire-bound, ordinary life.
APR 276. These prayers were given in Foz do Iguacu, Brazil — 13 January 2000.↩
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My Lord, please, please devourEverything that I have
And everything that I am.
Be pleased to start with
My abominable pride.
43
My body-fitness-trainerIs my resolute mind.
My heart-fitness-adviser
Is my luminous soul.
My soul-fitness-leader
Is my Absolute Supreme.
44
My mind'sInsincerity and impurity-flights
Frighten me.
My heart's
Sincerity and purity-flights
Enlighten me,
My very existence.
45
My unconditional God-surrenderHas paved the shortest
And brightest road
To Paradise.
46
The unfortunate manyCry and cry and cry ceaselessly.
The fortunate few
Fly and fly and fly sleeplessly.
47
My mind and my vitalAre terribly afraid of God's
Forgiveness-flight-cancellation.
48
My Lord Supreme wantsEvery moment of my life
To be my aspiration-thrill-ride.
49
Man's promise to God:A very quick start.
God asks:
"Are you sure?"
God's Promise to man:
A very quick start.
Man says:
"Sorry, I am not interested."
50
God immediately stopsInspiring me and encouraging me
The moment He sees my mind's
Deliberate indifference-walls.
516
To my greatest joy and satisfaction,Mine is a God-enthusiastic heart
And mine is a God-energetic life.
APR 286. These prayers were given in Foz do Iguacu, Brazil — 15 January 2000.↩
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My mind, you are such a fool!You are never ready to receive
Our Lord Beloved Supreme.
53
I do not know why,But it is absolutely true
That God loves my God-claiming heart
Infinitely more than He loves
My God-loving and God-serving life.
54
Only my happiness-heartEmbodies and reveals
Abundant God-Smiles.
55
O my God-obedience-heart,Shake, shake powerfully and ceaselessly
My shameless God-disobedience-mind!
56
A world-indifference-mindIs
A God-forsaken life.
57
God's ever-blossomingCompassion-Eye
Is my heart's rock-solid choice.
58
Doubt, enough!Get out, get out!
Faith, enough!
Get up, get up!
59
An attention-begging mindAnd an expectation-begging heart
Have turned my spiritual life
Into a complete failure.
60
Each time you see God,Think and feel
That you are meeting with Him
For the first time.
Only then your love, devotion
And surrender
Are bound to increase.
617
My Lord,My heart is all gratitude to You,
For You are shaping my life
To Your own liking.
APR 296. These prayers were given in Asuncion, Paraguay — 17 January 2000.↩
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Tomorrow's golden dawn-smilesAre beckoning
My today's silver heart-tears.
63
God the Eye asks meMany difficult questions.
God the Heart answers them
Very easily for me.
64
If we soon do not changeThe mind-channel,
Then we shall be forced
To enter into
The darkest and endless
Vital-tunnel.
65
My curious mind is always eagerTo collect world-news.
My spiritual heart sleeplessly desires
Only God-views in everything.
66
Alas, when shall I realiseThat my whimsical seeking
Is hurting very badly
The Heart
Of my Lord Beloved Supreme?
67
God is extremely eagerTo share with His
Unconditionally surrendered seekers
All His Heart-Secrets.
68
My Lord loves to hearOnly my heart-history,
And He vehemently discards
My mind-mystery.
69
This morningI was so surprised and excited
To see my heart-river speedily,
Charmingly and self-givingly
Entering into my soul-beauty's sea.
70
My Lord Beloved Supreme,Do make my aspiring heart
An eternal prisoner
Of Your Love infinite.
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My aspiration-heart-harpPlays only God's
Infinite Ecstasy-Melodies.
APR 306. These prayers were given in Asuncion, Paraguay — 18 January 2000.↩
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Between my sleepless prayer-lifeAnd the Satisfaction-Answer
Is God the Compassion-Eye.
73
Repeated defeats can makeA genuine seeker's life
Eventually invincible.
74
When we expect rush service from God,God complies.
When God expects rush service from us,
In the twinkling of an eye
We disappear, we hide
And we continue our ignorance-ride.
75
God wants each and every human beingTo cherish God's uniqueness
In each individual.
76
God sleeplessly loves meAnd breathlessly treasures my all.
This much is unmistakably true.
77
The silence-sky of my Lord's HeartImmediately embraces
The thunder-sighs of my heart.
78
Every morningGod teaches my heart
How to become
An ever-climbing cry.
79
God tells meThat my gratitude-heart-songs
Are extremely pure and sacred.
They must never be
Published or publicised.
80
My Lord, You are at onceThe Breaker
Of my ignorance-frown-life
And the Maker
Of my heart's golden hopes
And my soul's diamond promises.
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My Lord, I really want to stopPlaying desire-games.
Please, please, please help me.
APR 316. These prayers were given in Asuncion, Paraguay — 19 January 2000.↩
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My Lord, I really do not wantTo live any more in the desire-arena.
Please, please, please help me.
83
Alas, the mind-made compromiseIn the spiritual life
Is a very, very serious heart-ailment.
84
Today my Lord SupremeHas commanded my soul
To proclaim
Worldwide ignorance-illumination.
85
May my mind be liberatedFrom the loudest clamour
Of brooding frustrations.
86
May I spend the rest of my lifeWith my life's pure prayers
And my heart's sure meditations
For the speedy progress
Of my fellow seekers.
87
Alas, an endless battle is going onBetween my heart's silence-light
And my mind's sound-night.
88
May my outer life and my inner lifeBe suffused with the Sunshine
Of my Lord's Compassion-Eye.
89
Once we open the floodgatesOf our heart's aspiration
And our life's dedication,
Then God-realisation
Can never remain a far cry.
90
I must go forward.I have no time to enjoy
My past stabs of remorse.
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My heart's blossomingRainbow-dawn
In my tomorrow's sky
Is predestined.
APR 326. These prayers were given in Asuncion, Paraguay — 20 January 2000.↩
92
In the spiritual life,Each forward step
In the march of time
Is extremely and extremely
Significant.
93
My strong, very strongAnd extremely strong heart-muscles
I have developed
From my constant soul-obedience.
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I want everything that is divine in meTo grow and glow
And anything that is undivine in me
To shrink and fade.
95
The mind's ego-assertionIs the life's unavoidable
And inevitable destruction.
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I shall devote my life to spiritualityThroughout Eternity
And never, never return
To worldliness and ordinariness.
97
Anything divine, either in our inner lifeOr in our outer life,
Can never be exhausted.
It can only be astronomically increased.
98
The mind guesses quicklyBut incorrectly.
The heart blesses slowly
But unreservedly.
99
I shall no more readMy yesterday's failure-stories.
From now on, I shall sing and sing
Only my tomorrow's destined
Victory-songs.
100
Humanity's faith-heartIs a most admirable service
To Divinity's Life.
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God proudly smilesAt the seeker's
Mind-vital-jungles' conquest.
APR 336. These prayers were given in Asuncion, Paraguay — 22 January 2000.↩
102
God tells me not to forgetThat the sadness, sorrows and tears
Of this world
Are overwhelming.
103
My Lord, even yesterdayI tried hard, very hard,
To convert You to my side.
But today I am begging You
In all sincerity
To convert me to Your side.
104
It takes many, many yearsOf very hard work
To convict the clever mind,
But today I have done it!
105
At long last I have come to realiseThat compromise in any sphere of life
Is, indeed, the stupidity-flooded wisdom
Of two weak parties.
106
I want my aspiration-life to endAt the Feet of my Lord Beloved Supreme
And not in the arms of my desire-life.
107
God keeps His Heart-Room wide openAnd most beautifully decorated
To welcome a seeker
Of sleepless obedience.
108
Heaven selectsBoth ignorance-fighters
And world-peace-dreamers.
109
My aspiration-heartAnd
My dedication-life
Thrive
Only on my Lord's Nectar-Smiles.
110
It is only whenMy unconditional surrender-life
Is complete and perfect
That my Lord's infinite Joy
And infinite Satisfaction
Befriend my soul, my heart,
My mind, my vital, my body-
Everything that I have
And everything that I am.
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My gratitude-heart-prayersHasten my God's God-Hour
To transform my entire life.
APR 346. These prayers were given in Brasilia, Brazil — 29 January 2000.↩
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Each time I want to performSomething divine,
I am immediately helped
By the firm hand of my God-faith.
113
Alas, ceaseless, worthless and uselessAnxieties and worries
Are devouring the peace of my heart.
114
Only the unparalleled powerOf my silence-mind
Can put an end to my topsy-turvy life.
115
Run away, run away,My mind, my vital and my body,
From the temptation-hounds!
116
Alas, my unlit vitalIs obstinately continuing
In its own inimitable way.
117
If you want to liveAll the time in the heart
To satisfy your Inner Pilot,
Then take proper care
Of your heart-vessel
And never allow it to spring a leak.
118
If I constantly enjoyMy bondage-chain-life,
Then God is bound to withdraw
His Compassion-Fountain-Heart
From me.
119
I am cultivatingMy heart-blossoms.
No more do I see
My mind-weeds.
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May my life every dayPlace a most beautiful flower
At the Feet
Of my Lord Beloved Supreme.
Editor's note
Sri Chinmoy offered these morning prayers during his visit to Brazil and Paraguay in December 1999 and January 2000. Ten different groups recited the prayers turn by turn three times, then twice, then once.
