I climb up, I fall down

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1.

I climb up
Immediately
When I love God only.

2.

I fall down
Justifiably
When I want God
To love me only.

3.

I climb up
When I have dedication-smiles
Inside my aspiration-tears.

4.

I fall down
When my aspiration is empty of tears
And my dedication is empty of smiles.

5.

I climb up
When my mind's equanimity
And my heart's divinity
Enjoy their transcendental
And universal partnership.

6.

I fall down
When my mind and my heart
Are at daggers drawn.

7.

I climb up
When my heart becomes
A God-obedience-feast.

8.

I fall down
When I attend my mind's
God-unwillingness-banquet.

9.

I climb up
When my heart's sincerity-tears
And purity-smiles
Grow, glow and flow together.

10.

I fall down
When I jump into
The hostile turmoil
Of my mind's confusion-life.

11.

I climb up
When I pine for
My Lord's Forgiveness-Smiles.

12.

I fall down
When I indulge in
My God-unawareness
And God-unwillingness-life.

13.

I climb up
When I readily, gladly
And eagerly accept
My heart's God-wisdom-light.

14.

I fall down
When I greedily, stubbornly
And willfully cherish
My mind's ignorance-futility-night.

15.

I climb up
And fly and fly in Infinity's Sky
On God-Compassion-Plane.

16.

I fall down
And fracture all my limbs
When I board my
Ego-gratification-plane.

17.

I climb up
When my heart becomes
The quintessence
Of angelic sweetness.

18.

I fall down
When my mind becomes
The epitome
Of satanic bitterness.

19.

I climb up
When my aspiration-heart
Is supercharged
With God-manifestation-eagerness.

20.

I fall down
When I consciously
And deliberately enjoy
My God-indifference-mind.

21.

I climb up
When I prayerfully long for
God-Satisfaction-Breath.

22.

I fall down
When I arrogantly enjoy my mind's
Self-aggrandisement-game.

23.

I climb up
When I stoically and callously
Disregard my mind's
Doubt-summons.

24.

I fall down
When my heart deliberately embraces
God-faith-famine.

25.

I climb up
When I have an allergic reaction
To name and fame.

26.

I fall down
When I richly indulge
In name and fame.

27.

I climb up
The moment I become
My desire-cremator.

28.

I fall down
The moment I become
My frustration-follower.

29.

I climb up
When I burn down
My doubt-bridge.

30.

I fall down
When I sleeplessly and breathlessly
Build my doubt-bridge.

31.

I climb up
The day my mind
Willingly goes with my heart
To visit God.

32.

I fall down
The day my mind
Vehemently rejects the idea
Of visiting God.

33.

I climb up
When I have complete faith
In my soul-compass.

34.

I fall down
When I take my suspicion-mind
As my polestar.

35.

I climb up
When I am in perfect harmony
With the world.

36.

I fall down
When I cherish my mind's
Disharmony-discovery.

37.

When I forcefully tear down
My mind's towering doubts,
I climb up
High, higher, highest.

38.

When I sumptuously feed
My mind's brooding doubts,
I fall down
Far, farther, farthest.

39.

I climb up
When I become
My oneness-purity-heart.

40.

I fall down
When I become
My division-impurity-mind.

41.

When I cry for the
God-necessity-experience,
I climb up.

42.

When I take pride
In my self-analysis-experiment,
I fall down.

43.

I climb up
Extremely high
The moment I relinquish
My ego-crown
And my ego-throne
Forever.

44.

I fall down
To the very depths
The moment I proudly
And sovereignly enjoy
My ego-crown
And my ego-throne.

45.

I climb up
When I just ring
My aspiration-heart-bell.

46.

I fall down
Even when I gently strike
My ostentation-mind-gong.

47.

I climb up
When I use
My aspiration-eye
And my faith-heart.

48.

I fall down
When I employ
My overconfidence-mind
And my arrogance-vital.

49.

When I take God
As my only escort,
I climb up
Immediately.

50.

When I take either my mind
Or my vital as my escort,
I fall down
Unavoidably.

51.

When I awake
From my spirituality-coma,
I climb up.

52.

When I enjoy even unconsciously
My ego-drama,
I fall down.

53.

When I use my God-devotion
To raise the world's standard,
I climb up.

54.

When I use my pride-mind
To raise the world's standard,
I fall down.

55.

When I pray to God:
"My Lord, do not lose
Your Grip on me,"
God smiles
And I climb up.

56.

When I think I can steer
My life-boat
Easily and perfectly all by myself,
I fall down.

57.

When I receive enormous joy
From every little thing I do,
I climb up.

58.

When I get no joy
No matter what I do
Or how I do,
I fall down.

59.

When I enjoy
My God-obedience-bliss,
I climb up.

60.

When I enjoy
My God-disobedience-volcano,
I fall down.

61.

When I become
My God-devotion-heart,
I climb up.

62.

When I become
My confusion-addiction-mind,
I fall down.

63.

When God's Compassion
Steers my heart-boat,
I climb up
Into the skies.

64.

When I allow my mind
To steer my life-boat,
I fall down
Into the abysmal abyss.

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