I climb up, I fall down
1.
I climb upImmediately
When I love God only.
2.
I fall downJustifiably
When I want God
To love me only.
3.
I climb upWhen I have dedication-smiles
Inside my aspiration-tears.
4.
I fall downWhen my aspiration is empty of tears
And my dedication is empty of smiles.
5.
I climb upWhen my mind's equanimity
And my heart's divinity
Enjoy their transcendental
And universal partnership.
6.
I fall downWhen my mind and my heart
Are at daggers drawn.
7.
I climb upWhen my heart becomes
A God-obedience-feast.
8.
I fall downWhen I attend my mind's
God-unwillingness-banquet.
9.
I climb upWhen my heart's sincerity-tears
And purity-smiles
Grow, glow and flow together.
10.
I fall downWhen I jump into
The hostile turmoil
Of my mind's confusion-life.
11.
I climb upWhen I pine for
My Lord's Forgiveness-Smiles.
12.
I fall downWhen I indulge in
My God-unawareness
And God-unwillingness-life.
13.
I climb upWhen I readily, gladly
And eagerly accept
My heart's God-wisdom-light.
14.
I fall downWhen I greedily, stubbornly
And willfully cherish
My mind's ignorance-futility-night.
15.
I climb upAnd fly and fly in Infinity's Sky
On God-Compassion-Plane.
16.
I fall downAnd fracture all my limbs
When I board my
Ego-gratification-plane.
17.
I climb upWhen my heart becomes
The quintessence
Of angelic sweetness.
18.
I fall downWhen my mind becomes
The epitome
Of satanic bitterness.
19.
I climb upWhen my aspiration-heart
Is supercharged
With God-manifestation-eagerness.
20.
I fall downWhen I consciously
And deliberately enjoy
My God-indifference-mind.
21.
I climb upWhen I prayerfully long for
God-Satisfaction-Breath.
22.
I fall downWhen I arrogantly enjoy my mind's
Self-aggrandisement-game.
23.
I climb upWhen I stoically and callously
Disregard my mind's
Doubt-summons.
24.
I fall downWhen my heart deliberately embraces
God-faith-famine.
25.
I climb upWhen I have an allergic reaction
To name and fame.
26.
I fall downWhen I richly indulge
In name and fame.
27.
I climb upThe moment I become
My desire-cremator.
28.
I fall downThe moment I become
My frustration-follower.
29.
I climb upWhen I burn down
My doubt-bridge.
30.
I fall downWhen I sleeplessly and breathlessly
Build my doubt-bridge.
31.
I climb upThe day my mind
Willingly goes with my heart
To visit God.
32.
I fall downThe day my mind
Vehemently rejects the idea
Of visiting God.
33.
I climb upWhen I have complete faith
In my soul-compass.
34.
I fall downWhen I take my suspicion-mind
As my polestar.
35.
I climb upWhen I am in perfect harmony
With the world.
36.
I fall downWhen I cherish my mind's
Disharmony-discovery.
37.
When I forcefully tear downMy mind's towering doubts,
I climb up
High, higher, highest.
38.
When I sumptuously feedMy mind's brooding doubts,
I fall down
Far, farther, farthest.
39.
I climb upWhen I become
My oneness-purity-heart.
40.
I fall downWhen I become
My division-impurity-mind.
41.
When I cry for theGod-necessity-experience,
I climb up.
42.
When I take prideIn my self-analysis-experiment,
I fall down.
43.
I climb upExtremely high
The moment I relinquish
My ego-crown
And my ego-throne
Forever.
44.
I fall downTo the very depths
The moment I proudly
And sovereignly enjoy
My ego-crown
And my ego-throne.
45.
I climb upWhen I just ring
My aspiration-heart-bell.
46.
I fall downEven when I gently strike
My ostentation-mind-gong.
47.
I climb upWhen I use
My aspiration-eye
And my faith-heart.
48.
I fall downWhen I employ
My overconfidence-mind
And my arrogance-vital.
49.
When I take GodAs my only escort,
I climb up
Immediately.
50.
When I take either my mindOr my vital as my escort,
I fall down
Unavoidably.
51.
When I awakeFrom my spirituality-coma,
I climb up.
52.
When I enjoy even unconsciouslyMy ego-drama,
I fall down.
53.
When I use my God-devotionTo raise the world's standard,
I climb up.
54.
When I use my pride-mindTo raise the world's standard,
I fall down.
55.
When I pray to God:"My Lord, do not lose
Your Grip on me,"
God smiles
And I climb up.
56.
When I think I can steerMy life-boat
Easily and perfectly all by myself,
I fall down.
57.
When I receive enormous joyFrom every little thing I do,
I climb up.
58.
When I get no joyNo matter what I do
Or how I do,
I fall down.
59.
When I enjoyMy God-obedience-bliss,
I climb up.
60.
When I enjoyMy God-disobedience-volcano,
I fall down.
61.
When I becomeMy God-devotion-heart,
I climb up.
62.
When I becomeMy confusion-addiction-mind,
I fall down.
63.
When God's CompassionSteers my heart-boat,
I climb up
Into the skies.
64.
When I allow my mindTo steer my life-boat,
I fall down
Into the abysmal abyss.
