Ten Thousand Flower-Flames, Part 1
Note
The following seventy poems were written on a Pan Am flight to Japan on 22 October 1979.
1. A NEW MARATHON
Who am I?A completely long lost tornado-speed.
Yesterday my supremely uncooperative body
Ran the New York Marathon.
The lightning-arrows of anxieties
And worries did not attack me.
I must say, they have
  Always
Been very kind to me.
They do not knock at my heart’s door.
No, not even by mistake!
  But cramps,
My unfailing friends, came and
Shook hands with me gently
Even before I had covered eleven miles.
Usually they come to befriend me
At the eighteenth mile.
But this time, after fifteen miles,
They desired to lavish
  Infinitely more affection on me.
So they embraced me most avidly
  And most powerfully.
Alas, alas!
From fifteen miles on,
I dragged my ill-fated body,
At times with my compassion-smiles,
At times with my frustration-cries.
To my great joy and sublime relief,
The worst possible nightmare
Finally ended
At the end of twenty-six miles.
One marathon-world
Leads me into another marathon-world.
To satisfy this new marathon-world,
Or to be satisfied by this new one, will be
Infinitely — I really mean it —
More difficult.
For here it is not just twenty-six miles
    and 385 yards to run,
But to sow the seeds
Of ten thousand flaming flower-poems
Which at long last I shall place
Devotedly, unreservedly and unconditionally
At the Compassion-Feet
  Of my Beloved Supreme.
2. ARE YOU NOT ASHAMED?
Hurry up, my body!Are you not ashamed
  Of your lethargy-night?
Hurry up, my vital!
Are you not ashamed
  Of your aggression-fight?
Hurry up, my mind!
Are you not ashamed
  Of your doubt-poison?
Hurry up, my heart!
Are you not ashamed
  Of your timidity-insecurity?
3. DAYS PASS BY
Days pass by.  No success-height.
Days pass by.
  No progress-light.
Days pass by.
  No perfection-delight.
4. AFRAID
My mind is afraid  To feel anything.
My heart is afraid
  To discuss anything.
My soul is afraid
  To manifest anything.
And I am afraid
  To like anything.
5. THE TEARS OF MOTHER EARTH
The tears of Mother EarthMake my life pure.
The smiles of Father Heaven
Make my heart sure.
6. SELF-DEFEAT
YesterdayYou defeated yourself
  Because
You did not try.
  Today
You are defeating yourself
  Because
You are not crying.
  Tomorrow
You will defeat yourself
  Because
You will not be living.
7. PRAYER-CRY
A tree is the seeker’s  Prayer-cry.
A flower is the seeker’s
  Meditation-smile.
A fruit is the seeker’s
  Realisation-song.
8. INSIDE MY SILENCE-LIFE
Inside my sound-life  I realise how weak I am.
Inside my silence-life
  I discover that God’s God-Power
  Is my other name.
9. GOD IS NOT DISCOURAGED
God is not discouraged  Although
You are an unthinkable fool.
God is not discouraged
  Although
You are an unspeakable rogue.
God is not discouraged
  Although
You are an unbelievable failure.
10. A SMALL TROUBLE
A small trouble:  I do not think of God.
A big trouble:
  God does not think of me.
A small fear:
  I do not love God.
A big fear:
  God does not love me.
11. A TAMED MIND
A tamed mind  Can do anything.
It can even think
  Of the Compassion-God
And the perfection-life.
12. PRIDE
A woman’s pride:  Beauty-revelation.
A man’s pride:
  Power-multiplication.
Earth’s pride:
  Tolerance-height.
Heaven’s pride:
  Satisfaction-delight.
13. WHAT YOU NEED
What you need is another moon  To reveal you.
What you need is another sun
  To fulfil you.
14. MY JOURNEY'S COMPANION
My journey’s companion:  A silence-world.
My journey’s goal:
  God’s Heaven-blossoms.
15. MINE IS THE LIFE
Mine is the life that cries  In man’s binding chains.
Mine is the heart that flies
  In God’s liberating reins.
16. IN THE FIELD OF FRUSTRATION
In the field of frustration  My desire-life grows.
In the sea of satisfaction
  My aspiration-life glows.
17. TWO MIRACLES
The miracle of my sound-life:It can chase God.
The miracle of my silence-life:
It can embrace God.
18. THE FEVER OF MY LIFE
The first feverOf my human life:
God does not think of me.
The last fever
Of my human life:
I have not loved God.
19. YOUR ASPIRATION-LIFE
Your aspiration-lifeHas drowned the power of death.
Your realisation-life
Shall turn you into another God.
20. MY ACHING URGENCY
My aching urgency  Has helped me see
God’s unseen Feet.
You are not an inferior flame.
Like me, you too are meant
  To be a God-lover
    And
  A God-seer.
21. AN INFANT GOD
True, today you areAn infant and inferior God.
  But tomorrow
You can and you will
Be a mature and superior God.
22. FIRST GIFT, LAST GIFT
My first gift to God:  My sincerity-awareness.
God’s last gift to me:
  His ever-transcending
    Oneness-Satisfaction.
23. MY PROGRESS
YesterdayMy thought-freed mind
  Was a God-seeker.
    Today
My crying heart
  Is a God-lover.
    Tomorrow
My faithful life
  Shall be a God-server.
24. TRY NOT TO ROB MY HEART
Humanity,Try not to rob my heart.
My heart has already been robbed
  By my Lord’s Compassion-Feet
    And
  Forgiveness-Heart.
25. COMPETITION-SEPARATION
Competition-separationDoes not find him
Either here or there
  Or elsewhere.
Affection-perfection
Finds him
Here and there
  And all-where.
26. O MY BELOVED
O my beloved Eternity,  Do not forget me.
From this moment on, I shall always
    Remember you.
O my beloved Infinity,
  Do not desert me.
From this moment on, I shall always
    Love you.
O my beloved Immortality,
  Do not disown me.
From this moment on, I shall always
    Claim you.
27. AMBITION-NOON, AFFECTION-MOON
Ambition-noonFinds him.
    Therefore,
  Affection-moon
Does not know him.
28. YOU HAVE LOST
You have lost  Your beloved Satisfaction-God
    Because
You have overfed
  Your insistent ambition-horse.
29. YOU ARE DESTINED
BecauseYou have a sunlit mind
  You are destined
To become a moonlit heart.
30. A SOLEMN PROMISE
I have made a solemn promise  To myself:
Next time
I see my Beloved Supreme,
  I shall beg Him
To build me a new little heart
  And totally destroy
  My proud, giant mind.
31. HE IS GOD'S
He is God’s.God loves him
  In planetary sweep.
His heart is a perpetual surprise
  To changing and unchanging,
  To loving and unloving
    Mankind.
32. BEAUTY BORN OF LIFE
Beauty born of lifeHas deepened my love.
Beauty born of death
Has deepened my wisdom.
33. SURRENDER-FULNESS
Obsession is not love.Possession is not love.
Compulsion is not love.
  Surrender-fulness
    In oneness-light
      Is alone love.
34. PRAYERS ARE MADE OF TEARS
PrayersAre made of tears.
  Meditations
Are made of smiles.
  Realisation
Is made of surrender-perfections.
35. TWO THINGS I IMMENSELY ENJOY
Two things I immensely enjoy:A sleepless perfection
  And
A dreamless satisfaction.
36. SUCCEED AND PROCEED
I like man the God  To succeed daily.
I love God the man
  To proceed constantly.
37. A SLY DECEPTION
Your very life  Is a sly deception.
How do you expect
  Even an iota
Of your Master’s Compassion-Salvation?
38. THE TELESCOPE OF TIME
My desire-lifeWants to possess
  The telescope of time.
My aspiration-life
Likes God
  To keep it always with Him
  And always use it,
Him to please in His own Way.
39. YOUR REAL NEED
Because of your ocean-greedYou have lost your real need,
Your only need:
  God-satisfaction.
40. TOO POOR
Too poor for God:  Your mountain-pride.
Too poor for man:
  Your fountain-surrender.
41. WHAT DELAYS OUR MEETING?
I am dying to see God.God is seriously planning
  To meet me.
What, then, delays our meeting?
  Alas, my surrender-smile.
42. EACH NIGHT, EACH DAY
Impossibility does not  Discourage me.
Each night I dream of God-realisation.
Impossibility does not
  Dishearten me.
Each day I plan for God-manifestation.
43. ALTHOUGH GOD LOVES HIM
AlthoughGod loves him,
  He is his heart’s sorrow.
      Although
God blesses him,
  He is his life’s failure.
      Why? Why? Why?
Because he has not
    Changed his name
  Into love-devotion-surrender.
44. POOR LITTLE HEART
Poor little heart,Do not cry.
I have come to you
  With a rising rainbow.
Poor little heart,
Do not cry.
I have come to you
  With my beloved Father’s
  Fountain-Flow.
45. BECAUSE HE LOVES
BecauseHe loves the ascending earth,
God has given him
His Eternity’s Strength.
  Because
He loves the descending Heaven,
God has given him
His Infinity’s Length.
46. GOD DOES NOT LOVE ME
God loves herMore than He loves me.
    Alas! Alas!
God does not love me any more.
    Alas! Alas!
My last and only resort
  Is my sincerity-security-light.
47. GOD DOES NOT CARE FOR ME
God cares for himMore than He cares for me.
    Alas! Alas!
God does not care for me any more.
    Alas! Alas!
My last and only resort
  Is my humility-purity-height.
48. SLOWLY AND STEADILY
Slowly the mind  Becomes clean.
Steadily the heart
  Becomes pure.
Unconditionally the soul
  Manifests the Supreme.
Supremely our Beloved Supreme
  Fulfils Himself
In and through His creation-child.
49. THE BEST, THE WORST
The best in manIs his gratitude-flame.
  The worst in man
Is his insurmountable
Ingratitude-mountain.
50. ALL DUE TO JEALOUSY
I have lost my patience-seed.I have lost my flower-heart.
I have lost my satisfaction-soul.
All this is due
  To my deplorably stupid jealousy.
51. THE CALL OF AMERICA
The call of AmericaTurned the timid cat
  Into a roaring lion.
The love-blessing of America
Has turned the lion
  Into a choice and fond lamb.
52. THE STORIES TOLD
The stories told by my soul’s delight  Are difficult to believe.
The stories told by my heart’s pangs
  Are impossible to believe.
53. TWO INSEPARABLE FRIENDS
Ignorance and incompetence:  Two inseparable friends.
Wisdom and competence:
  Two inseparable friends
      Plus
Eternity’s perfection-friends.
54. FINALLY
Finally,  Truth is on the march.
Finally,
  I can declare God’s Victory.
Finally,
  I shall see my Lord Supreme smiling.
55. CLUTCHING THE LAST HOPE-RAY
Clutching the last hope-ray  I seek
Perfection-light,
Satisfaction-delight,
  Within, without.
56. HE TOOK UP DEATH'S CHALLENGE
He took up death’s challenge and declared:“Earth-life is not
  Man’s failure-night.
Heaven-life is descending
  With satisfaction-delight.”
57. HUMAN AND DIVINE BUSINESS
My human businessIs to know the right thing
    And
Do the right thing.
  God’s Divine Business
Is to forget my past,
Forgive my present
    And
Grant hope to my future.
58. THE SUPREME REALITY
The great reality,  Above.
The good reality,
  Below.
The vast reality,
  Within.
The supreme Reality,
  Within, without,
  Below, above.
59. HUMAN LIFE, DIVINE LIFE
Human lifeIs the slave of fear.
  Divine life
Is the courage of freedom-sphere.
60. MY MIND IS TIRED
My mindIs tired of its supremacy.
  My heart
Can never be tired of its intimacy.
61. YESTERDAY, TODAY AND TOMORROW
YesterdayImitation was my ignorance-nourishment.
  Today
Limitation is my bondage-increment.
  Tomorrow
Aspiration will be my freedom-announcement.
62. THE BLOSSOM OF YOUR HEAVEN-FAME
Sooner than the soonest,The blossom of your Heaven-fame
You will see all around.
Just once and for all
Your wild mind tame!
63. THE SURE HOUR OF GOD
The pure hour of prayerAwakens the sleeping man in me.
  The sure Hour of God
Feeds the starving God in me.
64. THE SAME DAY
The searching heart of earthWill one day become soulful.
  The beckoning hand of Heaven
Will the same day
Become fruitful.
65. A SAD MISTAKE
O my poor body,Your marathon run
Was not a bad mistake.
    But
Your lack of marathon fun
Is, indeed, a sad mistake.
66. I DO NOT DESERVE
God’s unconditional pardonI do not deserve.
  Man’s regular prosecution
I do not deserve, either.
67. A GOD-KNOWER MASTER
A God-knower Master  Helps me to stand
On Eternity’s Shore,
  Helps me to open
Immortality’s Door
    And
  Helps me to enter
Infinity’s Core.
68. IN HUMAN NATURE
In human natureThere is something
Which everyone knows:
  Bondage-bite.
In human nature
There is also something
Which practically nobody knows:
  Freedom-kite.
69. TO TEACH HUMANITY HOW TO LOVE
To teach humanity how to love,I must first become
God’s choice dove
And always soar above.
70. DESPERATE NEEDS
The world’s most desperate needs:  A crying heart,
  A self-giving life,
  A God-becoming soul.
Note
The following thirty poems were written in the Tokyo Prince Hotel, Tokyo, on 23 October 1979.
71. WHY NOT TAKE A CHANCE!
Why not take a chance!Be a climbing cry
    Or
A running smile.
  I assure you,
God is awaiting
Your great arrival
At the end of both roads.
72. SPREAD YOUR CHEERFULNESS
Spread your cheerfulness.God’s Love you will feel
  Infinitely more.
    Deepen your soulfulness.
God’s Satisfaction you will feel
  Infinitely more.
73. THE MESSAGE I HAVE HEARD
This is the message I have heardFrom the lips of rank fools:
  Man can hide
    If he wants to;
  God cannot abide
    Although He wants to.
74. A SIMPLE TRUTH
A simple truth:  God is.
A brief message:
  God loves me.
A deep realisation:
  I am of God alone
    And
  I am for God alone.
75. A FULL HARVEST OF PEACE
A full harvest of peaceI collected
The day I realised
   That neither earth’s great hunger
   Nor Heaven’s good feast
Desires my eager presence.
76. THE ROAD FROM HEART TO HEART
The road from heart to heartHas perfection-trees
With satisfaction-fruits
  On either side.
I have all along seen it.
77. I LIVE FOR YOU ALONE
I live for You alone,My Lord of Compassion Supreme.
  I live in You alone,
My Lord of Satisfaction Supreme.
78. A SECRET WAY
To reach God’s HeightI have discovered
  A secret way:
I just touch the lowest man’s
  Filthiest feet.
79. WHO LIVES ABOVE ME?
Who lives above me?Certainly not my Beloved Supreme.
Who lives below me?
Certainly not my Beloved Supreme.
Who lives inside me?
Who else if not my Beloved Supreme!
80. THREE ARE THE FALSE EXCUSES
Three are the false excuses:  Sorry, I have no time.
  Alas, I am not ready.
  Surely God does not care for me;
    Therefore, why should I...?
81. TRUE SACRIFICE GLOWS
True sacrifice glows.True happiness flows.
True perfection grows.
True gratitude sows.
82. TO SPEAK WITH AUTHORITY
Three times God will allow youTo speak with authority:
  If you know the Truth,
  If you have the Light,
  If you are the Sea of Peace.
83. HEAVEN DESCENDS, EARTH ASCENDS
Heaven descendsWhen I consciously
And soulfully serve.
  Earth ascends
When I unreservedly
And unconditionally love.
84. TWO SECRET WISHES
TwoAre my secret wishes:
I shall show God
  Man’s transformation-head,
I shall show man
  God’s Compassion-Feet.
85. ONLY THREE STRIDES AHEAD
Only one stride ahead:  God’s Compassion.
Only two strides ahead:
  My transformation.
Only three strides ahead:
  God’s Satisfaction-Smile
    And
  My gratitude-cry.
86. A DREAMLESS NIGHT
A dreamless nightGrants an unpromising day.
  A sleepless night
Grants a sickening day.
87. A WILD SOUND-CALL
A wild sound-call from below  Frightens me,
  My entire being.
A perfect silence-call from Above
  Enlightens me,
  My all.
88. MY SECRET REHEARSAL
I took my failure-life  As my secret rehearsal.
I take my success-life
  As my open and free performance.
89. THE LESSON SUPREME
I barter my aspiration-cryWith humanity’s indifference-sky.
Why am I such a fool?
Indeed, this is the lesson supreme
I have learnt in my Lord’s
Compassion-Forgiveness-Perfection-Satisfaction-School.
90. FREEDOM-IMMORTALITY
Selflessness means  Freedom-dream.
Closeness means
  Freedom-reality.
Oneness means
  Freedom-Immortality.
91. THE SYMPHONY OF MENTAL CLOUDS
The symphony of mental clouds  Always has the same message:
Human life is doomed
  To dine with ignorance-night.
92. MY GOD-REALISATION
Everything in life grows,  Then goes;
But not my God-realisation.
It grows only to glow,
It glows only to grow,
And it never, never goes.
93. NOT BEYOND POSSIBILITY
Not beyond man’s possibility  Is God-realisation.
Not beyond earth’s possibility
  Is earth-transformation.
Not beyond my possibility
  Is my Himalayan self-transcendence.
94. MY LIFE IS BURNING OUT
My life is burning out.  I see no boatman.
My life is burning out.
  I see no boat.
My life is burning out.
  I see no life-river.
Alas, alas!
Nowhere my three old, good friends
  Are to be found.
95. MY GOD-HUNGER
Material things age and ache.Spiritual things grow and glow.
And my God-hunger
Is a birthless and deathless thing.
96. I DO NOT INTERFERE
I do not interfere in God’s Affairs.Every day I let Him
  Create a new world.
God does not interfere in my affairs
  Either.
Every day He lets me
  Destroy an old world.
97. AN IDLE THOUGHT
An idle desire awakensThe ignorance-prince in me.
  An idle thought destroys
My heart’s inner beauty-world
    And
My life’s outer duty-world.
98. THEREFORE I LOVE
Life is lovely.  Therefore I live.
Prayer is lovely.
  Therefore I pray.
Creation is lovely.
  Therefore I love.
99. NOTHING IS EQUAL
Nothing is equal  To my God-need.
Nothing is equal
  To my God-satisfaction.
My aspiration-world
  Is sleeplessly crying
To enter into
  My God-realisation-world.
100. JUST FOR A SECOND
O my narrow faith,How long am I supposed to live
  In your tiny hole?
I am suffocating, I am dying.
Leave me alone!
  Just for a second
I wish to enjoy
The Universal Breath of my Beloved Supreme.
Editor's introduction to the first edition
This is the first volume in a series of ten thousand “flaming flower-poems” which Sri Chinmoy is placing devotedly, unreservedly and unconditionally at the Compassion-Feet of God, our Beloved Supreme. They stand as a supreme offering from the unfolding beauty of his flower-heart and the flaming heights of his realisation-sun. Indeed, a treasure-tower which will at once be claimed by humanity’s self-ascending cry and Divinity’s God-descending Smile.
Editor's note
Some poems in this first edition were later selected by the author for a special collection of 207 Flower-Flames (FFP). The author also chose to revise some of his original poems for this anthology:FF-93: FFP 12 (revised version).
