The Golden Boat, part 19
1. Hope entered
Hope entered.    He smiled and danced.
He became God’s Vision-Race.
    Hope departed.
    He cried and slept.
He became Eternity’s ignorance-face.
2. God's Grace
God’s unconditional Grace:    My soul’s illumining face.
God’s unconditional Perfection-shower:
    My heart’s climbing tower.
3. My silence
My silenceIs the morning light
    Of God’s God-Vision.
    In God-Vision I have become
The angel-eye
    Of Infinity’s Soul-Smile.
4. God thanked me
I prayed to God.    He thanked me compassionately.
I meditated on God.
    He thanked me smilingly.
I surrendered my gratitude-life to God.
    He thanked me lovingly.
I declared my sovereign equality to God.
    He embraced me unreservedly.
5. My dark secret, my bright secret
I love myself only:    This is my dark secret.
I love God only:
    This is my bright secret.
God blesses and perfects
    My dark secret.
God fondles and treasures
    My bright secret.
6. My eternal sunrise
My doubt’s desire-lifeIs my slow, gradual death.
    I know it.
My faith’s aspiration-life
Is my eternal sunrise.
    I know it.
    I love it.
    I need it.
7. My beauty
YesterdayI was despair-beauty.
    Today
I am hope-beauty.
    Tomorrow
I shall become surrender-beauty.
    The day after tomorrow
I shall become God-Beauty.
8. Who are you?
Jealousy, do you know    Who you are?
In case you do not know
    I shall tell you who you are.
You are the shameless weakness
    Of humanity.
Doubt, do you know
    Who you are?
In case you do not know
    I shall tell you who you are.
You are the useless sickness
    Of humanity.
9. Three worlds
A moment’s pleasure    Your vital-world wants.
Eternity’s joy
    Your heart-world needs.
Immortality’s satisfaction
    Your soul-world is.
10. My identity
Who was I?Earth’s idle dreamer.
    Who am I?
Earth’s slowest walker.
    What shall I be?
My life’s frustration
And failure collector.
11. In silence
In silence you suffered    Because
You were too great.
In silence you suffer
    Because
You are too good.
In silence you will smile, sing and dance
    Because
The Hour of God before long will strike.
12. When I pray and meditate
When I prayI enjoy the depth
    Of God-Compassion
    In my heart-world.
    When I meditate
I enjoy the embrace
    Of God-Concentration
    In my soul-world.
13. The life of light
The life of nightHas only one destructive thing:
    The poison of despair.
The life of light
Has not one,
Not two,
But three constructive things:
    The love of light,
    The path of progress,
    The victory of aspiration.
14. Only one armour
There is only one armourAgainst fate:
God’s transcendental
    Silence-Grace.
There is only one armour
Against God-satisfaction:
Man’s ephemeral
    Ingratitude-face.
15. The role of Time
The role of Time:    Duty, constant duty.
The soul of Time:
    Beauty, illumining beauty.
The goal of Time:
    Love-reality
    And
    God-necessity.
16. He is afraid of three things
He is afraid of three things:Silence, sound and perfection.
When he is afraid of silence
    Earth loves him.
When he is afraid of sound
    Heaven loves him.
When he is afraid of perfection
The animal in him loves him
    Plus
The human in him loves him;
    But
The divine in him pities him
    And
The Supreme in him forgives him.
17. Father and sons
Prayer says to God:    “Father, I have come to You.
    What will You give me?”
“Son, I shall give you joy.
Look, I am massaging your feet.”
Meditation says to God:
    “Father, You have come to me.
    What can I offer You?
    What will give You joy?”
“Son, you can massage My Head.”
18. Two blessings
Earth-ignorance    Blesses me
By forgetting me.
    I am grateful.
Heaven-Justice
    Blesses me
By forgiving me.
    I am grateful.
19. The flame of courage
The flame of courageIllumines me, my earth’s life.
    I am grateful.
The flame of love
Fulfils me, my soul’s role.
    I am grateful.
20. Only one food
His is the bodyThat cries for only one food:
    Night, brooding night.
His is the vital
That cries for only one food:
    Might, controlling might.
His is the mind
That cries for only one food:
    Light, glowing light.
His is the heart
That cries for only one food:
    Delight, flowing delight.
21. The ladder of life
The ladder of humilityLeads us to God-Heights of
    Man-emancipation
    And
    Man-perfection.
The ladder of pride
Is uncertainty’s song,
    Imperfection’s dance
    And
    Futility’s hush.
22. Two secrets
A heart-shattering secret:    My God-realisation
    Will not take place
    In this lifetime.
A life-illumining
    And
    Life-immortalising secret:
    God’s Eternity
    Loves me supremely
    And
    Needs me constantly.
23. A never-ending Now and an ever-ending now
He livesIn a never-ending Now
    And
    In an ever-ending now.
A never-ending Now
    Is God’s choice for him.
An ever-ending now
    Is the voice of his treasured
    Ignorance-night.
24. In spite of what I am
A daily miracle:The human in me prays to God
In spite of what I am.
A constant miracle:
God-Compassion dreams in me,
God-Joy loves me
    And
God-Reality needs me
In spite of what I am.
25. Leave me not alone
O earth, leave me not alone.I need you.
I need your heart’s
    Aspiration-cry
To see the Face of God.
O Heaven, leave me not alone.
I need you.
I need your soul’s
    Divinity-smile
To discover the Beauty of God.
26. Be not proud
Death, be not proud;Life is aspiring.
Life, be not proud;
Death is approaching.
Death and life,
Be not proud;
The Lord Supreme is watching.
27. I love my heart
My heart of loveIs divinely beautiful.
I love my beautiful heart.
My heart of devotion
Is eternally soulful.
I love my soulful heart.
My heart of surrender
Is supremely fruitful.
I love my fruitful heart.
28. They need her
She embodiesThe Eye of Heaven;
    Therefore
Earth constantly needs her.
    She embodies
The heart of earth;
    Therefore
Heaven unreservedly needs her.
    She heralds
God-perfection on earth;
    Therefore
God supremely needs her.
29. Doubt-cure
If you are a doubter,Then your faith in yourself
Will one day
Come to the fore
And cure you.
    But
If you are doubt itself,
Then God alone
Can cure you
And that, too,
He will do at His choice Hour
And not at your hopeful hour.
30. Love me not, leave me not
My Lord,    Love me not
    If You do not
    Want to.
My Beloved,
    Leave me not
    Even if You
    Want to.
31. Yesterday, today, tomorrow
YesterdayMy life was a thorn-crown.
    I endured it.
    Today
My life is a clown-frown.
    I endure it.
    Tomorrow
My life shall be a God-town.
    The whole world will treasure it.
32. God and we
God has no Hands    Of His own.
We are His hands.
We have no eye
    Of our own.
God is our Eye.
God and we
Have one thing
    In common:
    Oneness-Heart.
33. Yet God loves us
You are an artist    Who cannot draw;
    Yet
    God loves you.
    Why?
Because you are pure.
He is a singer
    Who cannot sing;
    Yet
    God loves him.
    Why?
Because he is humble.
I am a seeker
    Who cannot seek;
    Yet
    God loves me.
    Why?
Because I am sincere.
34. My body and my heart
My body says to my heart:“Beloved, I have only you.”
My heart says to my body:
“My sweet little chariot,
For you alone
God’s transcendental Crown
    And
God’s universal Throne.”
35. Mine
Mine is the hope-skyThat keeps me alive.
Mine is the faith-moon
That guides me safely.
Mine is the promise-sun
That fulfils me unreservedly.
36. A broken life
YesterdayI embodied a heap
    Of broken hopes.
    Today
I reveal the thoughts
    Of an arid brain.
    Tomorrow
I shall sit down
    Quietly
    And
I shall weep
    Helplessly.
37. When he died
WhenHis body-vital-mind died,
    There was silence in Heaven.
    When
His heart died,
    There was sound in Heaven.
    When
He himself died,
    Earth gave him earth’s heart-cry
    And
    Heaven gave him Heaven’s soul-smile.
38. God's Hospitality and man's hospitality
God’s Hospitality    Tells me:
I need not shout my faith.
    Man’s hospitality
    Tells me:
I must show
    Not only
My heart of gratitude
    But also
My soul of admiration.
39. When I am alone
Believe it or not,My eyes do not see
    When I look alone.
    Believe it or not,
My heart does not breathe
    When I live alone.
    Believe it or not,
My God does not need me
    When I meditate alone.
40. My pride
My yesterday was proud    Of its wild disbelief.
My today is proud
    Of its blind unbelief.
My tomorrow shall be proud
    Of its spontaneous belief.
41. O Silence
O Eye of Silence,Your Eye is beautiful.
    I need your transcendental Eye.
    O Heart of Silence,
Your Heart is beautiful.
    I need your universal Heart.
    O Life of Silence,
Your Life is beautiful.
    I need your immortal Life.
42. Your teachers
Let the sky    Become
Your teacher.
You will learn
    How to serve.
Let the moon
    Become
Your teacher.
You will learn
    How to love.
Let the sun
    Become
Your teacher.
You will learn
    How to become.
43. The voice
YesterdayI was the trembling voice
    Of earth’s cry.
    Today
I am the illumining voice
    Of Heaven’s smile.
    Tomorrow
I shall become the fulfilling voice
    Of God’s Promise.
44. Like yesterday
God cares for me;    Therefore,
    Like yesterday,
Today for me
Is another aspiration-experience.
I care for God;
    Therefore,
    Like yesterday,
Today for God
Is another satisfaction-dawn.
45. Hidden failure and hidden success
My hidden failure:    My dark ingratitude.
My hidden success:
    My climbing love for God.
46. Reality of love
Intensity of loveMy heart of gratitude
    Embodies.
    Immensity of love
My life of fortitude
    Reveals.
    Divinity of love
My soul of plenitude
    Manifests.
    Reality of love
My God of infinitude
    Eternally is.
47. Three Gods
You are, at your best,    A different God.
He is, at his best,
    An indifferent God.
    And
I am, at my worst,
    A transparent God.
48. Heaven-silence and world-sound
My life’s world-sound    Is my success-plant
    Threatened and frightened
    By earth-storms.
My heart’s Heaven-silence
    Is my progress-tree
    That shelters and feeds
    Earth’s excruciating pangs.
49. They are dead
You have deserted your honesty.    Lo, God’s Duty-Tree
    Which has been pleasing you
    Is dead.
You have completely deserted your humility.
    Lo, God’s Beauty-Flower
    Which has been enlightening you
    Is unmistakably dead.
You have deserted your purity.
    Lo, God’s Spontaneity-Fruit
    Which has been nourishing you
    Is helplessly dead.
50. Victory
Human victoryIs always precarious.
    Divine victory
Is always prosperous.
    God’s Victory
Is always
    Precious,
    Gracious
    And
    Advantageous.