1 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
My pinnacle-height-experience
Tells me
That every human being is Your Heart.
My abysmal abyss-experience
Tells me
That I am Your only Heart.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

1 September 1999, 6:54 a.m. Before lifting 270 lbs. with both arms simultaneously twice. (Total: 540 lbs.)

1 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Today I have put up
Welcome signs for You
Not only in my heart-garden,
But also in my mind-jungle.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

1 September 1999, 7:04 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with one arm thirty-five times. (18 right, 17 left)

1 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
When my heart surrenders to Your Will,
You smile at my heart
And You also ask my heart
To smile at You.
When my mind surrenders to Your Will,
You ask my mind
To come and sing with You.
When my entire life surrenders
To Your Will,
You ask my life
To come and dance with You.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

1 September 1999, 7:13 a.m. Before lifting 400 lbs. with one arm one hundred and ten times. (55 right, 55 left)

1 September 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I know, I know,
You never turn a deaf ear
To my heart’s sincere prayer-cries.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

1 September 1999, 7:34 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 160 lbs. with both arms simultaneously and 200 lbs. with each arm separately.

1 September 1999 (V)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Do come down from wherever You are
To inspect my mind,
To correct my heart
And to perfect my life.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

1 September 1999. Before doing bench press.

1 September 1999 (VI)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I shall no more keep You,
My Lord Beloved Supreme,
Waiting.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

1 September 1999

1 September 1999 (VII)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Sleeplessly I must think
Only of my Lord’s Happiness.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

1 September 1999

2 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
My heart, invoke patience-light.
Behold, Infinity’s Peace-Delight
Is fast approaching you.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

2 September 1999, 6:37 a.m. Before doing clean and press from the ground up to 50 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (41 reps)

2 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
In the morning and in the evening
Your Forgiveness and Your Compassion
Ceaselessly talk
To my doubting mind,
And Your Joy and Your Pride
Ceaselessly talk
To my aspiring heart.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

2 September 1999, 6:56 a.m. Before lifting 270 lbs. with both arms simultaneously three times. (Total: 540 lbs.)

2 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Day and night,
Around the clock,
My Lord Beloved Supreme
Pays blissful Attention
To my unconditional
Surrender-life.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

2 September 1999, 7:07 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with one arm forty-two times. (20 right, 22 left)

2 September 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
At every step
On my aspiration-dedication-road,
I clearly see
That my inner fragrance
Is multiplying and multiplying
And multiplying,
And my outer beauty is growing
And growing and growing.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

2 September 1999, 7:17 a.m. Before lifting 400 lbs. with one arm ninety-five times. (56 right, 39 left)

2 September 1999 (V)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Alas, You shed bitter Tears
When my mind enjoys
Brooding and spreading doubts.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

2 September 1999, 7:36 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 120 lbs. with both arms simultaneously and 160 lbs. with each arm separately.

2 September 1999 (VI)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Out of Your infinite Bounty,
Every morning
You write something encouraging,
Inspiring, illumining and fulfilling
On the tablet of my aspiration-heart.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

2 September 1999, 7:52 a.m. Before using seated calf raise machine up to 1,000 lbs.

3 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
My real spirituality
Is my heart-offering
And my life-blossoming,
Not my God-possessing desire.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

3 September 1999, 8:03 a.m. Before lifting 270 lbs. with both arms simultaneously three times. (Total: 540 lbs.)

3 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
My heart goes to Your Heart
With prayer-cries.
Your Heart comes to my heart
With Blessing-Smiles.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

3 September 1999, 8:13 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with one arm thirty-five times. (15 right, 20 left)

3 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
When my heart is on its knees
Before You,
You tell my heart,
“My child,
I am all for you,
I am all for you.”
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

3 September 1999, 8:21 a.m. Before lifting 400 lbs. with one arm one hundred and fifteen times. (55 right, 60 left)

3 September 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I am indeed
Your blessingful gift
To Mother Earth.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

3 September 1999, 8:51 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine.

4 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
No desire-dream can forever last.
There comes a time
When it has to burst,
Like a bubble.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

4 September 1999, 7:50 a.m. Before doing clean and press from the ground up to 90 lbs.

4 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
No expectation, no expectation,
No expectation!
Alas, the expectation-boat
Quite often capsizes.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

4 September 1999, 8:06 a.m. Before lifting 270 lbs. with both arms simultaneously three times. (Total: 540 lbs.)

4 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
The pure prayer-heart of a seeker
Is bound to succeed.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

4 September 1999, 8:16 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with one arm forty-four times. (29 right, 15 left)

4 September 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
At long last I have come to realise
That ignorance-night
Is terribly and helplessly afraid
Of my prayer-heart.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

4 September 1999, 8:25 a.m. Before lifting 400 lbs. with one arm one hundred and seven times. (55 right, 52 left)

4 September 1999 (V)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
My true spirituality
Is the love of Your Breath
In every heart.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

4 September 1999, 8:37 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 120 lbs. with both arms simultaneously and 160 lbs. with each arm separately.

4 September 1999 (VI)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
It is indeed an impossible task
To recognise You
In all Your infinite disguises.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

4 September 1999

5 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Please, please bless me
With a perfection-searching mind,
Perfection-aspiring mind,
Perfection-loving mind
And perfection-living mind.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

5 September 1999, 7:48 a.m. Before lifting 270 lbs. with both arms simultaneously three times. (Total: 540 lbs.)

5 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
May my mind at every moment
Experience peace-light
And peace-delight,
And not anxiety-worry-night.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

5 September 1999, 7:57 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with one arm thirty-three times. (16 right, 17 left)

5 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
You are telling me
That there is only one way
To achieve inner freedom,
And that is through
Constant God-obedience.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

5 September 1999, 9:03 a.m. Before doing clean and press from the ground up to 40 lbs. with both arms simultaneously twice. (65 and 75 reps)

6 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Do bless me
With a cheerfully, enthusiastically
And eagerly correctable
Heart, mind, vital and body.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

6 September 1999, 8:02 a.m. Before lifting 270 lbs. with both arms simultaneously three times. (Total: 540 lbs.)

6 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Do liberate my aspiring heart
And my dedicated life
From this thought-encumbered mind.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

6 September 1999, 8:12 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with one arm twenty-four times. (13 right, 11 left)

6 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I know, I know,
Peace-achievement
Is not a one-day task.
It is a most serious
Lifelong endeavour.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

6 September 1999, 8:19 a.m. Before lifting 400 lbs. with one arm one hundred and twenty times. (61 right, 59 left)

6 September 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Aspiring or desiring —
I unmistakably know
That I belong only
To the golden dust
Of Your Compassion-Forgiveness-Feet.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

6 September 1999, 8:34 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 140 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

6 September 1999 (V)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
You are telling me
Not to enjoy repetition,
But to live in the fulness
Of ever-newness.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

6 September 1999, 8:57 a.m. Before doing clean and press from the ground up to 70 lbs. (73 reps)

6 September 1999 (VI)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
When I am in my mind,
You ask me to be careful.
When I am in my heart,
You ask me to be soulful.
When I am in my soul,
You ask me to be forceful.
When I am in You,
You ask me to remain
Eternally blissful.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

6 September 1999, 10:54 a.m. Before using seated calf raise machine up to 1,000 lbs. (3 lifts)

8 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Only my heart’s aspiration-tears
And my life’s dedication-smiles
Can slake my God-thirst.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

8 September 1999, 8:19 a.m. Before lifting 270 lbs. with both arms simultaneously four times. (Total: 540 lbs.)

8 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I must never, never, never allow
My full God-manifestation-hopes
To dwindle to nothingness.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

8 September 1999, 8:30 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with one arm twenty-three times. (12 right, 11 left)

8 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
You are telling me
That if I want to please You always
In Your own Way,
Then I must triumph over
My self-doubts and my world-criticism.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

8 September 1999, 8:46 a.m. Before doing clean and press from the ground up to 50 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (63 reps)

9 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
You want me to live
In the neatness of my body,
In the strictness of my vital,
In the openness of my mind
And in the sweetness of my heart.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

9 September 1999, 8:20 a.m. Before doing clean and press from the ground up to 96 lbs. (13 reps)

9 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
God can easily obliterate
My past blunders
If He sees that the tears of my heart
Are absolutely sincere and pure.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

9 September 1999, 8:37 a.m. Before lifting 270 lbs. with both arms simultaneously four times. (Total: 540 lbs.)

9 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
You want me to be
A seasoned pilgrim
On Eternity’s Aspiration-Road.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

9 September 1999, 8:48 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with one arm twenty-four times. (13 right, 11 left)

9 September 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Do occupy my mind’s desire-house
Exactly the way You have occupied
My heart’s aspiration-temple.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

9 September 1999, 8:55 a.m. Before lifting 400 lbs. with one arm one hundred and five times. (53 right, 52 left)

9 September 1999 (V)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
A discouragement-mind —
No, no, no!
An encouragement-heart —
Yes, yes, yes!
An enlightenment-life —
Yes, yes, yes,
A million times!
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

9 September 1999, 9:08 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 160 lbs. with both arms simultaneously and 200 lbs. with each arm separately.

10 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
My life’s God-nearness
Entirely depends on
My heart’s God-gratitude-progress-tears.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

10 September 1999, 7:10 a.m. Before lifting 270 lbs. with both arms simultaneously three times. (Total: 540 lbs.)

10 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I shall never, never, never allow
My disbelief-enemy
To enter into
My God-loving, God-searching
And God-crying mind.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

10 September 1999, 7:19 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with one arm twenty-five times. (12 right, 13 left)

10 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
When my ego-monster completely died,
You invited all the cosmic gods,
And most happily and most proudly
Gave them a very special banquet.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

10 September 1999, 7:27 a.m. Before lifting 400 lbs. with one arm one hundred times. (50 right, 50 left)

10 September 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
You cheerfully smile
At my simplicity-life.
You proudly shake hands
With my sincerity-mind.
You unreservedly embrace
My purity-heart.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

10 September 1999, 7:45 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 140 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

10 September 1999 (V)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
How I wish You could give me
More, infinitely more,
God-manifestation-responsibilities!
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

10 September 1999, 8:22 a.m. Before doing clean and press from the ground up to 40 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (87 reps)

11 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I have come to realise
That when I take pride in thinking
And feeling
That You love me infinitely more
Than anybody else,
That is the time I create
An insurmountable barrier
Between You and me.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

11 September 1999, 8:17 a.m. Before lifting 270 lbs. with both arms simultaneously three times. (Total: 540 lbs.)

11 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Let me stop talking about
My spirituality —
My aspiration, my dedication,
My love, my devotion, my surrender
And so forth —
Once and for all.
Let me speak only about
Your infinite Compassion
And infinite Forgiveness.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

11 September 1999 8:27 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with one arm twenty-three times. (12 right, 11 left)

11 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
When my heart is bathed in tears,
I pray to the visible God
For His Compassion and Forgiveness.
When my heart is wreathed in smiles,
I meditate on the invisible God
For His own Satisfaction.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

11 September 1999, 8:45 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 140 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

11 September 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
O my God-disobedience-mind,
Alas, will there come a time
When you will truly be ashamed
Of yourself?
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

11 September 1999, 9:05 a.m.

12 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
May my life-boat every day ply
Between my heart’s hope-shore
And my soul’s promise-shore.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

12 September 1999, 8:15 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with both arms simultaneously three times. (Total: 600 lbs.)

12 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
When my mind believes,
My heart receives.
And when my heart receives,
My life achieves.
What does my life achieve?
It achieves Your Compassion,
It achieves Your Satisfaction.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

12 September 1999, 8:28 a.m. Before lifting 270 lbs. with both arms simultaneously twice. (Total: 540 lbs.)

12 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
When I am in my outer existence-life,
I am my body-temple.
When I am in my inner existence-life,
I am my heart-shrine.
When I am in my inmost existence-life,
I am my soul-deity.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

12 September 1999, 9:06 a.m. Before using seated calf raise machine up to 1,000 lbs.

13 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
My dreamboat-life
Is sailing and sailing and sailing
In my Lord’s
Compassion-Heart-Dream-Sea.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

13 September 1999, 8:20 a.m. Before doing clean and press from the ground up to 70 lbs.

13 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I was born to please You
In Your own Way,
And even when I am dying,
I shall please You in Your own Way.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

13 September 1999, 8:43 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 600 lbs.)

13 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Every morning
I renew my unconditional surrender
To Your Will
And immediately I receive
Thunderous applause from Your Heart.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

13 September 1999, 8:56 a.m. Before lifting 275 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 550 lbs.)

13 September 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Today my soul is using
Its adamantine will-power
To compel my mind to touch
The dust of Your Feet
And please You always
In Your own Way.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

13 September 1999, 9:06 a.m. Before lifting 400 lbs. with one arm.

13 September 1999 (V)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Today,
Out of Your infinite Bounty,
You want me to enjoy
The highest flight
On Your Vision-Wings
In Your Infinity’s Sky.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

13 September 1999, 9:22 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 140 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

14 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Every day, every hour,
Every minute, every second
I must consecrate my earth-existence
To Your Will.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

14 September 1999, 7:56 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with both arms simultaneously five times. (Total: 600 lbs.)

14 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Every second of my life
I must offer my breath
To absolute God-obedience.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

14 September 1999, 8:09 a.m. Before lifting 275 lbs. with both arms simultaneously three times. (Total: 550 lbs.)

14 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Sleeplessly
I must keep my heart-eye open
To Your Compassion-flooded Eye.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

14 September 1999, 8:30 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 160 lbs. with both arms simultaneously and 200 lbs. with each arm separately.

14 September 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I know, I know,
My insecurity gives You
A severe headache;
My jealousy gives You
A real heart attack.

“My child, My child, My child,
To My greatest Joy,
It is your gratitude-heart
That cures My headache;
It is your surrender-life
That cures My heart attack.”
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

14 September 1999, 9:00 a.m. Before doing clean and press from the ground up to 40 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (84 reps)

15 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I must stop crying
For Your constant Attention.
I must start praying
And meditating
For my mind’s purification
And my heart’s expansion.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

15 September 1999, 7:50 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 600 lbs.)

15 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Every morning,
Out of Your infinite Compassion,
You come to plough
My life’s gratitude, obedience
And surrender-fields.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

15 September 1999, 8:09 a.m. Before lifting 275 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 550 lbs.)

15 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Your Will has travelled
The entire length and breadth
Of the world.
Alas, only very few aspiring souls
Have responded.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

15 September 1999, 8:15 a.m. Before lifting 400 lbs. with one arm.

15 September 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Those who are living in
The mind-supremacy,
The vital-supremacy
And the body-supremacy
Are destroying the peace-blossom-dream
Of the world.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

15 September 1999, 8:25 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 140 lbs. with both arms simultaneously and 160 lbs. with each arm separately.

15 September 1999 (V)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Only when I am ready —
When my mind is willing
And my heart is eager —
Do You teach me.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

15 September 1999, 11:48 p.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 600 lbs.)

15 September 1999 (VI)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
You gave me the capacity
To surrender unconditionally to You.
Now You have given me the capacity
To reach the zenith-heights
Of spiritual excellence.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

15 September 1999, 11:55 p.m. Before lifting 275 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 550 lbs.)

17 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
My mind’s thirst for You,
My heart’s hunger for You
And my life’s tears and smiles for You
Lovingly, prayerfully, soulfully
And self-givingly
I place at Your Feet.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

17 September 1999, 7:06 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with both arms simultaneously three times. (Total: 600 lbs.)

17 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
May I sleeplessly and breathlessly cry
For the ever-transcending Beyond.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

17 September 1999, 7:19 a.m. Before lifting 275 lbs. with both arms simultaneously three times. (Total: 550 lbs.)

17 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
May my constant self-giving
Be an inspiration
To the citizens of this world
And a joy
To the denizens of the higher worlds.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

17 September 1999, 7:53 a.m. Before doing clean and press from the ground up to 70 lbs.

17 September 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
The Tears
Of Your Compassion-Eye
And the Smiles
Of Your Forgiveness-Heart
Are the answers
To my life’s questions.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

17 September 1999, 9:40 a.m. Before using seated calf raise machine up to 1,000 lbs.

18 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
My God-devotion
Is the beauty of my heart’s tears.
My God-surrender
Is the divinity of my soul’s smiles.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

18 September 1999, 8:33 a.m. Before doing clean and press from the ground up to 96 lbs. (18 reps)

18 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
To place myself at Your Forgiveness-Feet
Once again
Is the crying, tearing
And burning hunger
Of my heart.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

18 September 1999, 9:15 a.m. Before lifting 275 lbs. with both arms simultaneously twice. (Total: 550 lbs.)

18 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
O my stupid mind,
My stupid vital, my stupid body,
Come out!
Come out of your spiritual coma.
Our Lord Beloved Supreme
Has so many things
For you to do for Him
Here on earth.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

18 September 1999, 9:20 a.m. Before lifting 400 lbs. with one arm one hundred times. (50 right, 50 left)

19 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Shake me,
Wake me and shock me,
To make me
A faithful and choice instrument
Of Yours.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

19 September 1999, 8:04 a.m. Before doing clean and press from the ground up to 50 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (67 reps)

19 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
The moment I pray to You
Soulfully and self-givingly
For world peace,
You immediately promise me
An undivided, happy, illumining
And fulfilling oneness-world.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

19 September 1999, 9:06 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with both arms simultaneously three times. (Total: 600 lbs.)

19 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Like Your dictionary,
My dictionary also will not house
The word ‘failure’.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

19 September 1999, 9:20 a.m. Before lifting 275 lbs. with both arms simultaneously three times. (Total: 550 lbs.)

19 September 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
To my greatest astonishment
And deepest joy,
When my body speedily runs,
My heart peacefully rests.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

19 September 1999, 9:36 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 140 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

21 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Each creation is a very special
Blessing-heart
Of Your transcendental Vision-Eye.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

21 September 1999, 9:13 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with both arms simultaneously three times. (Total: 600 lbs.)

21 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Each heart carries
A very special Message from God
For the betterment of this world.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

21 September 1999, 9:26 a.m. Before lifting 275 lbs. with both arms simultaneously twice. (Total: 550 lbs.)

21 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
To my heart’s greatest joy
And my life’s greatest relief,
My doubting mind
Has completely surrendered
To my aspiring heart.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

21 September 1999, 9:32 a.m. Before lifting 400 lbs. with one arm sixty-five times. (33 right, 32 left)

21 September 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
You bless the seeker
With Your own highest Realisation
Only when he is
A sleeplessly unconditional life
And a breathlessly unconditional heart.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

21 September 1999, 9:49 a.m. Before doing clean and press from the ground up to 40 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (101 reps)

22 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Every morning
May seven new aspiration-flames
Take birth
Inside my heart-temple.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

22 September 1999, 8:48 a.m. Before doing clean and press from the ground up to 70 lbs. (95 reps)

22 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I must most devotedly kneel down
In the temple of my aspiration-heart
First
And then start praying to You.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

22 September 1999, 9:07 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with both arms simultaneously four times. (Total: 600 lbs.)

22 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
O my God-gratitude-heartbeat,
If you want to remain invisible,
You can,
But I must compel you
To remain audible.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

22 September 1999, 9:27 a.m. Before lifting 275 lbs. with both arms simultaneously twice. (Total: 550 lbs.)

22 September 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
You are commanding my mind
To take baby steps.
You are commanding my heart
To fly towards You.
You are commanding my life
To sit down and remain
At Your Compassion-Forgiveness-
Protection-Feet.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

22 September 1999, 9:46 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 140 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

23 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I love Your beautiful Compassion-Eye.
I love Your blissful Forgiveness-Heart.
I love Your powerful Protection-Feet.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

23 September 1999, 8:36 a.m. Before doing clean and press from the ground up to 50 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (62 reps)

23 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
My mind, why are you so unspiritual?
Why are you such a fool?
Why do you deliberately want to remain
Spiritually unfed or undernourished?
Can you not realise
How much suffering you are creating
For me and my poor heart, my mind?
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

23 September 1999, 9:21 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with both arms simultaneously four times. (Total: 600 lbs.)

23 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
May all my prayers and meditations
Every day strengthen
My God-gratitude-heartbeat.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

23 September 1999, 9:39 a.m. Before lifting 275 lbs. with both arms simultaneously three times. (Total: 550 lbs.)

24 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I must liberate my aspiration-heart
And my dedication-life
From my mind’s uncertainty-prison.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

24 September 1999, 7:30 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with both arms simultaneously three times. (Total: 600 lbs.)

24 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
With everything that I have
And everything that I am,
May I become
A God-fulfilment-eagerness-dynamo.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

24 September 1999, 7:47 a.m. Before lifting 275 lbs. with both arms simultaneously twice. (Total: 550 lbs.)

24 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
May I be blessed every morning
With a newness-hope-heart
And a fulness-promise-life.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

24 September 1999, 7:57 a.m. Before lifting 400 lbs. with one arm seventy-two times. (36 right, 36 left)

24 September 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
When I embark
On my heart’s pilgrimage
To Your celestial Palace,
I must always carry with me
My heart’s devotion-shrine.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

24 September 1999, 8:12 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 140 lbs. with both arms simultaneously and 160 lbs. with each arm separately.

26 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
If I can have God-closeness,
God-faithfulness and God-devotedness,
Then I have everything that I need.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

26 September 1999, 6:27 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 120 lbs. with both arms simultaneously and 160 lbs. with each arm separately.

26 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Today and every day
I shall pray to You
To see Your smiling Face
Inside each and every
Aspiring heart.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

26 September 1999, 6:33 a.m. Before lifting 200 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 400 lbs.)

26 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Your earthly Tears are inside
The broken-hearted.
Your Heavenly Smiles are for
The broken-hearted.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

26 September 1999, 6:45 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with both arms simultaneously twice. (Total: 600 lbs.)

26 September 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
This morning I looked far beyond
My mind’s clouds
And immediately found
My heart’s sunshine.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

26 September 1999, 6:56 a.m. Before lifting 250 lbs. with both arms simultaneously twice. (Total: 500 lbs.)

26 September 1999 (V)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
As the flowers bloom
To receive Your Smile,
Even so, my heart blooms
To love You
And my life blossoms
To serve You.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

26 September 1999, 7:07 a.m. Before lifting 400 lbs. with one arm seventy-one times. (36 right, 35 left)

26 September 1999 (VI)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
On my behalf, my Lord Supreme,
You have chosen
Aspiration-cries for my heart
And dedication-smiles for my life.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

26 September 1999, 7:40 a.m. Before using seated calf raise machine up to 700 lbs.

27 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
In my outer life
You live in the beauty
Of my heart’s streaming tears,
And nowhere else.
In my inner life
You live in the fragrance
Of my soul’s beaming smiles,
And nowhere else.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

27 September 1999, 8:28 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 140 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

27 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I must increase my faith in You
Immensely.
Otherwise, I shall continue
To stumble and stumble
In my inner running.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

27 September 1999, 8:34 a.m. Before lifting 200 lbs. with both arms simultaneously twice. (Total: 400 lbs.)

27 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
You have taken away
Many uninspiring, unaspiring things
From my life.
Now please take away one more thing:
Frustration, frustration,
Frustration.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

27 September 1999, 8:43 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with both arms simultaneously twice. (Total: 600 lbs.)

27 September 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
My darkness-mind,
Get out, get out!
My heaviness-heart,
Get out, get out!
My soulfulness-life,
Let us live together
Forever.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

27 September 1999, 8:56 a.m. Before lifting 250 lbs. with both arms simultaneously twice. (Total: 500 lbs.)

27 September 1999 (V)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Please inspire my mind,
Please protect my heart,
Please lead my life.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

27 September 1999, 9:15 a.m. Before lifting 400 lbs. with one arm.

27 September 1999 (VI)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
My today’s self-giving dreams
Shall become
My tomorrow’s God-satisfying realities.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

27 September 1999, 9:31 a.m. Before using seated calf raise machine up to 700 lbs.

27 September 1999 (VII)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I tell God what I can do:
I can pray and meditate for hours
Every day.
God tells me what I must do:
I must sing His Victory-Songs
Sleeplessly.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

27 September 1999

27 September 1999 (VIII)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
My Lord tells me
That in the inner world
There is nothing to discover,
Only to uncover.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

27 September 1999. Before using seated calf raise machine up to 800 lbs.

27 September 1999 (IX)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
God tells me that my mind-voice
Hurts Him badly
Because it is so sharp.
He also tells me that my heart-voice
Gives Him tremendous joy
Because it is so sweet.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

27 September 1999. Before using seated calf raise machine.

28 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
May Your blessingful Presence
And Your cheerful Guidance
Play hide-and-seek
Inside my aspiration-heart-temple.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

28 September 1999, 8:06 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 140 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

28 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I shall never, never try
To understand You.
This is my sole promise to You.
My Supreme, do increase my faith
At every moment
In Your Compassion-Eye,
Forgiveness-Heart
And Protection-Feet.
This is my sole prayer to You.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

28 September 1999, 8:16 a.m. Before lifting 200 lbs. with both arms simultaneously twice. (Total: 400 lbs.)

28 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Patience, patience,
I need patience
For the complete fulfilment
Of Your Will
In and through me.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

28 September 1999, 8:21 a.m. Before lifting 250 lbs. with both arms simultaneously twice. (Total: 500 lbs.)

28 September 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I must realise
That You will come to me
At Your choice Hour —
Neither too soon nor too late!
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

28 September 1999, 8:29 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with both arms simultaneously three times. (Total: 600 lbs.)

28 September 1999 (V)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
O my unconditional surrender
To God’s Will,
You are my heart’s only joy,
You are my life’s only satisfaction.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

28 September 1999, 8:41 a.m. Before lifting 400 lbs. with one arm sixty-eight times. (33 right, 35 left)

28 September 1999 (VI)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I am offering You my prayerful gratitude
For touching my tearful heart.
I am offering You my soulful gratitude
For allowing me to sit
At Your blessingful Feet.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

28 September 1999, 9:04 a.m. Before using seated calf raise machine up to 1,000 lbs.

30 September 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
My self-doubt is a ruthless insult
To the fulfilment
Of Your Vision-Eye.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

30 September 1999, 8:29 a.m. Before lifting 200 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 400 lbs.)

30 September 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Self-doubt is indeed
An almost incurable disease.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

30 September 1999, 8:34 a.m. Before lifting 250 lbs. with both arms simultaneously twice. (Total: 500 lbs.)

30 September 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
My self-doubt takes me away
Farther than the farthest
From Your Compassion-Eye.
Alas, alas!
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

30 September 1999, 8:41 a.m. Before lifting 300 lbs. with both arms simultaneously twice. (Total: 600 lbs.)

30 September 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
O self-doubt,
Get out of my breath,
Get out of my heart,
Get out of my mind,
Get out of my vital,
Get out of my body,
Get out of my earth-existence-life.
Get out, get out immediately,
O self-doubt!
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

30 September 1999, 8:49 a.m. Before lifting 400 lbs. with one arm sixty-six times. (33 right, 33 left)

30 September 1999 (V)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
When I enjoy my self-doubts,
You pitifully cry,
You helplessly shed tears.
Alas, alas,
This is what I do to You,
My Lord Beloved Supreme!
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

30 September 1999, 9:10 a.m. Before doing clean and press from the ground up to 70 lbs. (94 reps)

Editor's preface to the first edition

These morning prayers were offered by Sri Chinmoy during his weightlifting sessions at his home in New York in September 1999.