My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 2
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Run, speedily run!Covet, greedily covet
God-service-opportunities.
APR 117. These prayers were given in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil — 22 December 1999.↩
2
My Lord,Out of His infinite Bounty,
Pilots my life-boat
To His own Golden Shore.
3
God begs us every day to studyThe life-transformation-course
Given by Him.
4
Devotion is notAn emotional exuberance.
Devotion is
Our God-love-perfection
And our God-service-satisfaction.
5
I must never allowMy aspiration-heart
To be blighted
By God-doubts and self-doubts-
Even for a fleeting second.
6
May my present God-love,God-devotion and God-surrender
Be dwarfed by my future giant
God-love, God-devotion
And God-surrender.
7
When my mind fails, my heart cries.When my heart fails, my soul cries.
When my soul fails, my God cries.
When my God fails,
He tries again and again and again
Until He ultimately
And unmistakably succeeds.
8
As God's ForgivenessIs not far away,
Even so, my life's absolutely new start
Must not take a long time.
9
Day in and day outGod has made Himself available
So that He will not be assailable.
10
God loves and treasuresMy sleepless selflessness
Infinitely more than
My uniqueness.
112
A self-offering prayerTo God's Will
Is a most sacred sunrise
Upon my heart's horizon.
APR 127. These prayers were given in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil — 23 December 1999.↩
12
God-seekers, God-loversAnd God-servers
Are definitely on the right track.
13
While asking ignorance-nightTo get lost,
Alas, I find myself
Totally lost instead.
14
Unlike our minds,Our hearts are always
Deeply in love
With God's Sweetness-Will.
15
I cried and criedPitifully and helplessly
When I saw God's Tolerance-Eye
Was narrowing.
16
God's Eye receivesAll the questions from me.
God's Heart immediately
Answers them.
17
A sea of self-giving tearsIs needed
To open the floodgates
Of my inspiration-mind,
Aspiration-heart and dedication-life.
18
If I worship God's Feet,Love God's Heart
And serve God's Eye,
Only then
My God-realisation-impossibility
Surrenders to me.
19
My God-surrendered lifeIs heading towards Heaven
To receive from God
His Infinity's Bliss.
20
My deep ignorance-friendshipIs truly a great shock
For my Beloved Supreme.
213
I call itMy devotion-heart.
God calls it
His own living Body.
APR 137. These prayers were given in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil — 25 December 1999.↩
22
Man's home in God's HeartIs transient.
God's Home in man's heart
Is permanent.
23
Without a devotion-ticket,God does not allow any seeker
To participate
In His Cosmic Game.
24
God loves everything of me,Save and except
My indifference.
25
What I desperately needIs a lion-roaring
Devotional life.
26
Alas,I am a desire-boat
Without a boatman.
27
My meditation has taught meHow to escape
From the desire-mind-prison.
28
As it is trueThat I am not God,
Even so, it is quite true
That I love God only.
29
My unconditionalGod-surrender-life
Is a high jump
Into Infinity's Immortality.
30
A self-loving manIs a half man and a half animal.
A God-loving man
Is not only a full man
But also a half God.
314
The greatness-mindOf the Father Heaven
I wish to see.
The goodness-heart
Of the Mother Earth
I wish to become.
APR 147. These prayers were given in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil — 26 December 1999.↩
32
O God-seeker, be careful!Your sacred compassion-heart
May be nothing other than
Your secret attachment-life.
33
My Lord Beloved SupremeTells me
That everything I need
Is within the limitless orbit
Of my love divine.
34
No oneness-heart-loveCan ever be found
Inside the mind's abysmal abyss.
35
My mind's sincere God-acceptanceAnd God-surrender
Are, indeed, two great surprises
For my God-loving
And God-surrendering heart.
36
No tremendous zealOf a seeker's heart,
No true God-satisfaction-
Never!
37
Alas, alas!My mind's surrender
To God's Will
Is unthinkably overdue.
38
I am absolutely sureThat my God-faith
Shall stand the test of time.
39
May all God-seekers,God-dreamers and God-lovers
Be peace and bliss-melodies
To the aspiring world.
40
O my desire-beggar-mind,Step back from the public eye,
Step back from the spotlight.
Lo and behold,
God's boundless Pride-Heart
Is beckoning you.
415
I have made my sleeplessAnd breathless commitment
Only to my Lord Beloved Supreme.
APR 157. These prayers were given in Curtiba, Brazil — 27 December 1999.↩
42
My crying and smiling heartIs a very important member
Of God's immediate Family.
43
My hopes are no matchFor God's continuously
Torrential Blessings
Upon my devoted head
And surrendered life.
44
God's Pride in me is unlimitedWhen He sees even a partial death
Of my ego-life.
45
At long lastMy heart has come to learn
How to implore and invoke
My Lord's express Presence.
46
My inspiration-mind breathesThe breath of the earth.
My aspiration-heart breathes
The breath of Heaven.
I breathe the Breath
Of my Absolute Lord Supreme.
47
My life of constant God-obedienceEntirely depends on the intensity-heart
Of my love for God.
48
I amMy mind's proud achievement.
My surrender-heart is
A most sublime achievement of God.
49
What I desperately needIs a God-sanctified heart
And not a computerised mind.
50
Alas, my disobedience-mindHas completely muddled and polluted
The most charming
And the most peaceful pond
Of my heart.
51
My oneness-heartIs God's infinite Breath.
God's Sadness-Eye
Is my immediate death.
526
My Lord,Out of Your infinite Bounty,
You have allowed me
To be a frequent visitor
To Your Forgiveness-Heart.
APR 168. These prayers were given in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil — 30 December 1999.↩
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My Lord,The human in me
Wants to need countless things.
The divine in me
Wants to need You only.
54
My Lord,When I obey You cheerfully,
I immediately become
The full Bloom of Heaven.
55
O my mind,You are such a fool!
You are forcing
Our Lord Beloved Supreme
To please you in your own way.
56
Alas, every dayWe are squandering our Lord's
Blessing-flooded opportunities.
57
We must smileWith our God-ordained commitments
Long before we can shine
With our enlightenments.
58
What is my self-doubt,If not a formidable rival
Of my Lord's faith in me?
59
The aspiring heart knowsThat there is a way out
Of every dark mind-corner.
60
God tells me thatMy God-service-happiness
Can easily equal
God's Heaven-Happiness.
617
My Lord,You can do anything You want to
Except one thing:
You cannot escape my surrender-life.
APR 177. These prayers were given in Curtiba, Brazil — 31 December 1999.↩
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God wants me to climbEvery day without fail
My life's spiritual progress-staircase.
63
My Lord,May my inspiration-eyes
And my aspiration-heart
Every day long for a newness-dawn.
64
My Supreme is telling meThat one disobedience-moment
Can give birth
To lifelong misery.
65
God is extremely happy with meAnd extremely proud of me
Even when I offer Him
My belated gratitude-heart.
66
I want my heartTo be God's sleepless
Victory-drummer.
67
All the disciplines of the mindHave to be tightened
If we truly want to expedite
Our Godward journey.
68
My heart-home belongsTo God alone.
I shall not allow anybody
To trespass.
69
Every day my heart and IWrite a book of devotion
With my devotional songs.
My God the Pride
Every day publishes it.
70
I must never, neverSpin out of
My God-Compassion-obedience-orbit.
718
My Lord Supreme,Here and now
Do give me the capacity
To love You and need You only.
APR 187. These prayers were given in Curtiba, Brazil — 1 January 2000.↩
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I am so ashamed of my mind.It specialises in doubting
My Lord Beloved Supreme.
73
My Lord Beloved Supreme,Long before I prayerfully
And soulfully
Touched the dust of Your Feet,
You had firmly caught my heart.
74
My Lord,With Your Love
I become a fulness-heart.
Without Your Love
I become Eternity's nothingness itself.
75
My aspiring heartAccepts everything divine
Infinitely faster than
My unaspiring mind can reject.
76
At long lastI have come to learn
That my loneliness-life
Is, indeed,
My heart-destruction-blow.
77
My Lord tells me thatMy heart's soulful smile
Is my love divine in action.
78
We must never allowOur God-manifestation-dreams
To gather dust.
79
Every day God wantsMy God-searching mind
And my God-crying heart
To communicate.
80
My happiness-heart pavesThe clearest and brightest road
To my God-Destination.
819
Today God has given meA new name:
An ever-blazing enthusiasm-sun.
APR 197. These prayers were given in Curtiba, Brazil — 2 January 2000.↩
82
The desiring mindDoes not need God.
The aspiring heart needs God,
But it is too impatient to wait
For God's blessingful Arrival.
83
May my God-fulfilment-promise-boatSleeplessly sail
In my heart-river.
84
Paradise is whereGod asks my heart to cry,
And I ask God's Eye to smile.
85
May my heart beAn ever-blossoming
Purity-temple-flower.
86
O my mind, can you not seeThat your prayerful and soulful attention
To our Lord Supreme
Is overdue?
87
A minute out ofMy Beloved Lord's Boat
Is a well-deserved, lifelong punishment.
88
I call itMy God-obedience-heart.
God calls it
His Sweetness-Fondness-Nest.
89
God wanted me, God wants meAnd God will forever want me
To be His lion-roaring Power-Life.
9010
My divinity's heartLives far beyond
The sea of time.
APR 206. These prayers were given in Curtiba, Brazil — 3 January 2000.↩
91
My life loves the beautyOf the finite.
My heart enjoys the fragrance
Of the Infinite.
92
When life knockedAt my door,
Joy accompanied my life.
When death shall knock
At my door,
Peace shall accompany my death.
93
God's Forgiveness-HeartPerhaps has time to waste,
But not God's Justice-Eye-
Never!
94
God Himself cradlesMy devotion-heart
In His Power-Blessing-Arms.
95
Mine is the lifeOf sleepless and breathless surrender.
God's is the Heart
Of priceless and tireless Satisfaction.
96
May my mind always remain emptyOf freedom.
May my heart be always full
Of God-surrender
And God-oneness-freedom.
97
A universe of book knowledgeCannot quench even an iota
Of the heart's thirst for God.
98
I must trumpetMy soul-
The ignorance-challenger
And ignorance-conqueror.
99
My mind,The impossibility-sower,
Must finally surrender
To my heart,
The God-manifestation-fulfilment-grower.
10011
My aspiring heart prays and prays,But it does not expect
Prayer-results
The way my desiring mind
Always does.
APR 216. These prayers were given in Curtiba, Brazil — 4 January 2000.↩
101
No enthusiasm-light,No progress-delight.
No progress-delight,
No God-satisfaction.
No God-satisfaction,
Life is death itself
For a God-seeker.
102
God appears before meAnd nears me
And finally enters into my heart
To see if my heart's streaming tears
Are fed.
103
My God-gratitudeAnd my God-surrender
Are two divine seeds
That God Himself has sown
Inside my aspiring heart-garden.
104
Prayer is a dropThat flows into the meditation-ocean.
Meditation is a drop
That flows into the contemplation-ocean.
Contemplation is a drop
That flows into the God-realisation-ocean.
105
God does not wantHis Justice-Light
Forever to sleep
Because He does not want
His beautiful world
To meet with destruction.
106
Only a fully awakened heartCan make a God-climbing
Progress-delight-journey.
107
My Lord Supreme wants me to takeMy morning beauty-walk
Not only in my heart-garden
But also in every heart-garden.
108
My sleepless and breathlessGod-devotion-heart
Is a fountain-ecstasy
In my Lord's Heart.
109
Only a heart that is blessedBy God's Compassion-Eye
Can wipe away
The mind's frustration-tears.
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My Supreme, my Supreme,You are killing Yourself
To please me.
The least I can do
Is give You a sweet smile
From my heart.
APR 226. These prayers were given in Curtiba, Brazil — 5 January 2000.↩
111
My Lord, I beg of You,Do not delay any more.
May Your Heart-Sun break through
My thick mind-clouds.
112
My Lord Beloved,Day in and day out
You try so hard to make me happy.
Can I not try
To do the same for You,
At least once in a while?
113
I need a sincerity-mindAnd an intensity-heart
Desperately
To be worthy of my Lord's
Infinite Affection.
114
My only desireIs to desire You,
My Beloved Lord Supreme,
And nothing else and nobody else
In this incarnation.
115
My Lord, from now onAnd for the rest of my life,
I shall need only
The Compassion-Beauty
Of Your Eye
And the Satisfaction-Fragrance
Of Your Heart.
116
Alas,Why is it so difficult
Either for us to conquer
Our doubting minds
Or to allow God to conquer
Our doubting minds
Once and for all?
117
God loves to enjoyMy simplicity-mind
And not my stupidity-mind.
118
A purity-heartGod treasures infinitely more
Than we can ever imagine.
119
God runs infinitely fasterThan the speed of light
To reach me
When He sees that my heart
Has a burning need for Him.
Editor's note
Sri Chinmoy offered these morning prayers during his visit to Brazil and Paraguay in December 1999 and January 2000. Ten different groups recited the prayers turn by turn three times, then twice, then once.
