24. Lord of my heart (1948)

“Who and what am I? Why have I come into this mortal world? And what is the aim of my life?” Some sort of answers to these questions arose in my mind. But my mind was not at all satisfied with them. All of a sudden, in a full moon night of spring, a young boy appeared before me. His face was so beautiful! And it seemed to me that his twinkling eyes were playing with the little waves of light.

He must have been in his teens, most probably fourteen or fifteen. I asked him very gently, “Where have you come from? And what do you want?”

He answered, “From your own heart I have appeared to fulfil your wish. Can’t you recognise Me?” Soon I came to know that he was no one else but my Lord. I bowed down before His Lotus Feet and prayed to Him not to leave me alone any more.

My Lord said, “I will never leave you. Remember ever that he alone who loves Me wholeheartedly, without any desire, and likes to play with Me, is dear to Me. He is My very soul. Alas! only a few companions I have in this world.”

Sri Chinmoy, Awakening, Citadel Press, Edinburgh, 1988