24. On my part

On my part
It is painfully inappropriate
To speak ill of my earth-reality.
    Yet
I do it.
I do it because I am a citadel
Of inconscience-night.

On my part
It is fruitlessly inappropriate
To speak ill of my Heaven-dream.
    Yet
I do it.
I do it because my life
Is a dance of frustration-annihilation.
Sri Chinmoy, The Golden Boat, part 1, Aum Press, Puerto Rico, 1974