False encouragement7

At one point in the first race Pratyaya made me feel that the goal was very near. She told me to go straight, but actually I had to make another turn. Then, in the last race, she screamed, “Just cross the road and you can see the end!” But the end was not in sight.

Databir also gives me false encouragement. In the second race today he was saying, “The end is very near.” O God, I had to run about two hundred metres, and only then I saw the finish line way ahead of me.

Of course, these two and all those who cheer for me are only trying to encourage me. In a sense they do the right thing when they say these kinds of things. Encouragement comes and makes me feel that the goal is just in front of my nose.

7. RB 397. 18 October 1981