I usually finish my running before our races start so that I can enjoy them. Abadh is always far ahead; he does not die. But second is always Abarita, and he always dies while he runs. Kailash and others struggle, but they don’t actually die. Jason never even struggles. I don’t see him even getting properly tired during a race.
When Kalatit runs, he looks like he has some bitter thing in his mouth. His whole face is miserable.
Gayatri is also miserable, absolutely miserable, when she runs. She does not have the misery of tiredness; she is just miserable.
In every race Nilima gives her life-breath at the end. Today she and Karabi were sprinting so fast at the end. They were chasing Nirjhari. Then, in the last two metres, Nilima gave up.
Whenever Nayana sees me, she smiles. Hashi tries to smile, but Chetana does not even try. She surrenders.
Today Garima was very good. When she saw me, she folded her hands and bowed to me. The other day I made complaints that she did not even seem to recognise me while she was running. So this time when she saw me, she bowed.
RB 450. 31 December 1981↩