My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 21

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11

Today I shall have to be
My true self
So that my Lord can use me
In a very special way.


APR 1805. These prayers were given in Cairns, Australia — 26 January 2003.

2

If my love of God
Is genuine,
Then I cannot have
Burdening anxieties.

3

If I cannot forgive myself
For all the blunders
That I have made over the years,
Then how can I proceed?
How can I ever dream
Perfection-dreams?
Move, I must, forward.
Fly, I must, upward.
Dive, I must, inward,
To be once more
What I truly am
And shall forever remain.

4

What am I doing?
I am powerfully discarding
My cluttering mind-thoughts.

5

What am I doing?
I am remembering
That God and I were
Once upon a time
One heart in two bodies.

6

What am I doing?
I am most devotedly
Listening to God.
He is telling me
What His Transcendental Self
And His Universal Self do
In order to feed humanity’s
Birthless and deathless hunger.

7

O my cradling hopes,
You I love,
You I need.

8

O my twinkling dreams,
You I love,
You I need.

9

O my blossoming realities,
You I love,
You I need.

10

O my ascending God-tears,
O my descending God-smiles,
You I love,
You I need.

112

Every little thing
That my Lord does for me
Thrills me, my heart,
My very existence.


APR 1815. These prayers were given in Gold Coast, Australia — 28 January 2003.

12

Every morning and evening
God blesses and embraces
His surrender-lamb-seekers.

13

My Lord proudly loves
My staunch obedience-life.

14

Every day without fail,
My Lord and I deeply enjoy
Our tears-and-smiles-moments together.

15

My soulful heart
Sleeplessly and self-givingly
Pays attention
To all God’s Needs and Wants.

16

My Lord deeply and profusely
Inhales my tearful and cheerful
Gratitude-heart-incense.

17

O my proud disobedience-mind,
Be careful!
God is secretly watching.

18

God’s every Hope, every Dream
And every Promise
Have become
My extremely intimate friends.

19

When this world of ours
Was first born,
There was only one thing:
Delight, Infinity’s Delight.

20

I do not mean to be
A God-attention-beggar,
But, unfortunately or fortunately,
I am.

213

Each new moment
Is a new
God-search-joy.


APR 1825. These prayers were given in Gold Coast, Australia — 30 January 2003.

22

We dream
Of many, many things,
But God dreams only
Of our devotion-heart-tears.

23

Time immediately disappears
When my Lord Beloved Supreme
Appears before me.

24

Morning proudly takes me
To my heart’s silence-temple-shrine
To meditate.

25

Evening peacefully takes me
To my Lord’s Heart-Home
To meditate.

26

Each time I meditate,
My Lord reveals to me
A new heart-world.

27

My aspiration-heart-sunrise
Gives my Lord joy
Far beyond my imagination.

28

My heart lives only
For the Beauty and Fragrance
Of my Lord’s Closeness-Heart.

29

My outer life
Heavily leans
On God the Duty.

30

My inner life
Sleeplessly and breathlessly relies
On God the Beauty.

314

I felt God’s Forgiveness-Heart
Long before I saw it.


APR 1835. These prayers were given in Gold Coast, Australia — 1 February 2003.

32

My choice:
Either God’s Nectar-Feet
Or my pride-head.

33

Neutrality is not
Wisdom-light.
Neutrality is
Weakness-foolishness.

34

My Lord,
Will the long, very long years
Of my utter helplessness,
Hopelessness and uselessness
Be ever over?

35

Hope-heart definitely blossoms.
It blossoms only
At God’s choice Hour.

36

The binding mind
Has to be either illumined
Or blinded.

37

God’s Compassion-Eye
Eagerly devours
The sincere seeker’s
Himalayan blunders.

38

When oneness
Embodies everyone,
Fulness it becomes.

39

There are many
Secret and sacred ways
To enter into God’s Heart-Home.
The seeker can play the role
Of the chooser.

40

Face and brave your arch-enemy
With the beauty and fragrance
Of your God-smiling heart.

415

My Lord tells me
That if I start
To like and love myself,
Then He will like me and love me more,
Infinitely more.


APR 1845. These prayers were given in Gold Coast, Australia — 2 February 2003.

42

Not my own efforts,
But my Lord’s unconditional Love
Has made me
What I am now.

43

Man plays.
God watches and suggests.
His Suggestions end in vain.
God plays.
Man sleeps and sleeps.

44

God cares.
He cares sleeplessly for us.
To believe in Him,
We need a daring heart.

45

Do not hesitate.
Meditate.
God Himself is going to open
His Heart-Gate
And leave it wide open for you.

46

My courage
Lies in my tolerance.
In my tolerance,
God’s Pride in me looms large.

47

Prayer-life is protection.
Meditation-life is illumination.
Service-life is liberation.
Surrender-life is satisfaction,
God’s Satisfaction and my satisfaction.

48

An intensity-heart
Is an immense
God-fulfilment-capacity.

49

All my mind’s doubt-threats
Are being devoured
By my mounting
Aspiration-heart-flames.

50

Today my soul
Is in full control.
Therefore, today I must succeed
In the battlefield of my life.

516

In Heaven,
We see Paradise.
On earth,
We make Paradise.


APR 1855. These prayers were given in Gold Coast, Australia — 3 February 2003.

52

My dreams
Are my heart-wings.
My reality
Is my soul-bird.

53

I am the possessor
Of two dreams:
God-quest-dream
And
Ignorance-conquest-dream.

54

My soul-life
Is oneness.
My heart-life
Is vastness.
My earth-life
Is God-manifestation-fulness.

55

God wants my patience
And perseverance
To draw His Victory-Chariot.

56

My Lord, I miss You.
“My child, I miss you too.”
My Lord, I love You.
“My child, I love you too.”
My Lord, I need You.
“My child, I need you too.”
My Lord,
Will I ever be able
To become like You?
“My child,
That is My only Dream,
My only Dream,
My only Dream.
I want you to be like Me,
Another God.”
My Lord,
Will I be happy then?
“My child,
That I do not know
And I do not want to know.”
My Lord,
Will I be miserable then?
“My child,
That I do not know
And I do not want to know.”
God, my Lord, my Father,
My Eternity’s All,
Such being the case,
I do not want to be another God.
You remain what You eternally are
And please allow me to remain
What I am.
I want to mingle
With the dust of Your Feet
Throughout Eternity.

577

Absurd to think and feel
That we take a great risk
While serving God the man
And man the God.


APR 1861. These prayers were given in Gold Coast, Australia — 4 February 2003.

58

I am divinely and supremely brave.
That means my enemies
Have either surrendered
Or are about to surrender.

59

The only purpose of my life
Is to grow world-oneness-plants
Inside my aspiration-heart-garden.

60

Be quiet.
God the Justice-Light
Is watching you.
Be quiet.
God the Compassion-Height
Wants to whisper something
Extremely important to you.

61

I want to be
A corrected man.
God wants me to be
A perfected God.

62

The outer world
Values power.
The inner world
Values time.

63

My eyes are afraid of
World-darkness.
My body is afraid of
My soul’s light.

64

My outer journey
Is the shortest breath.
My inner journey
Is Eternity’s Breath.

658

A new friend
Is a new blessing
From Above.


APR 1869. These prayers were given in Gold Coast, Australia — 6 February 2003.

66

An old friend
Is made of
God’s gold Heart.

67

An eternal friend
Is a constantly self-giving heart
From the Unseen.

68

The only Friend
Both in Heaven and on earth
Is my Lord God,
The Unknowable.

69

In our spiritual life,
Patience is
The success-harbinger.

70

In our spiritual life,
Surrender is
The progress-precursor.

71

I trust.
Therefore I last
And I outlast.

72

My happiness does not depend on
My possessions.
My happiness does not depend on
My renunciation.
My happiness entirely depends on
My constant, cheerful and eager oneness With God’s Will.

73

In theory,
We all have gladly surrendered
To God’s Will.
In reality,
It is shockingly false.

74

Alas,
I think of God
Only when my desire-hunger
Ruthlessly tortures me.

75

I love God
Not because God loves me
Infinitely more.
I love God
Precisely because
I am extremely, extremely
And extremely fond
Of His inescapable Love-Net.

Editor's note

Sri Chinmoy offered the following prayers during his visit to Australia in January 2003.