My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 32
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My own inner capacitiesFrighten me.
My own outer capacities
Sadden me.
APR 2635. These prayers were given in Sanya, China — 29 November 2004.↩
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My Lord is telling meThat He feeds on my aspiring,
Climbing and flaming heart.
3
To transform the world,The God-messengers do bring down
The nectar-flooded Messages
From God
Most perfectly.
4
Alas,I do not know when and where
I shall start my gratitude-heart
To my Lord Beloved Supreme.
5
My Lord has promised meHis Golden Shore.
Therefore, I do not mind in the least
Travelling through endless
Darkness-nights.
6
My world-attachment-addiction-licenceHas just expired.
I shall never, never, never renew it.
7
No seekerWill ever be able to escape
From his giant ego-enemy.
The seeker must conquer
This enemy.
8
Each seekerHas to be endowed
With an indomitable faith
In God.
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Each prayerIs a flame of my heart
Climbing towards
The highest Heaven.
APR 2643. These prayers were given in Sanya, China — 30 November 2004.↩
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Each meditationIs a unique opportunity
For me to establish
My conscious oneness
With my Absolute Lord Supreme.
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If I am not absolutely sincereIn my prayers
And in my meditations,
How can my soul set fire
To my desire-life-house?
12
If I really want to makeThe fastest progress
In my spiritual life,
My Lord’s Compassion-Eye
Is bound to help me
To attempt the impossible task
And be victorious.
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Before I pray and meditate,My soul feeds my heart, my mind,
My vital and my body
With a dynamic enthusiasm
And intense eagerness.
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Each self-giving action of mineImmediately becomes
A most beautiful flower
In my Lord’s Victory-Garland.
15
Each time I obey my Lord SupremeHappily and unconditionally,
He comes nearer and nearer,
Proudly and triumphantly,
Towards me.
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First I must becomeA sleepless and breathless God-lover.
Only then can I become
An unmistakable God-winner.
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Each lifeIs the Beauty
Of God’s Love.
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Each heartIs the Fragrance
Of God’s Delight.
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Nothing puzzles my Lord —No, not even my ingratitude-mind.
But it shocks my heart
Most powerfully.
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My Beloved Lord says to me,“Do not come to Me, My child,
For your perfection.
Just come to Me only
For My own Satisfaction.”
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When I claim GodAs my own, very own,
I give myself
Ten out of one hundred.
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When God claims meAs His own, very own,
I give myself
One hundred out of one hundred.
My Compassion-flooded
Lord Beloved Supreme
Does not agree with me.
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Desire kills the seeker.Aspiration revives the seeker.
Aspiration says to the seeker,
“O seeker,
If you really love me,
Then stop loving desire!”
APR 2657. These prayers were given in Sanya, China — 1 December 2004.↩
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I must stopMy life’s desire-train
Immediately.
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I must flyMy aspiration-plane
Every day without fail.
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DoubtIs world-torture.
Faith
Is God-rapture.
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For a true God-seeker,Aspiration-world
Is the only world.
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We are promoted and honouredIn the inner world
Only when we stop expecting
From the outer world.
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My mind caresOnly for power —
God-Power.
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My heart caresOnly for the things
That are about God.
314
My desireIs my God-lost life.
My aspiration
Is my God-found life.
APR 2665. These prayers were given in Sanya, China — 2 December 2004.↩
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Alas,My Lord is still waiting for me,
Even at the eleventh hour.
33
All my God-dreamsAre flooded
With my God-sweetness-fondness-smiles.
34
My heart hears constantlyGod-Whispers:
“Go forward, My child, go forward!”
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The heart’s God-devotionAnd the life’s God-sweetness
Are inseparable.
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The body binds usUnconsciously and unintentionally.
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We bind the bodyConsciously and purposely.
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Many, many, many timesI have come and gone.
Alas, my life is still
A God-forgetfulness-sleep.
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Each soulIs a special God-Dream-Beauty
And God-Reality-Fragrance.
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God wants me to paveMy life-road to my destination
With the tears of my heart
And the smiles of my soul.
APR 2674. These prayers were given in Sanya, China — 3 December 2004.↩
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I have come into the worldTo establish my friendship
And not my lordship.
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In the dedication-world,Our swift feet and our strong arms
Receive very special Blessings
From God.
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A true seekerFeels sad and miserable
When he is away from
His God-silence-heart-home.
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We must cover countless milesOf aspiration-dedication-road
Before we can arrive
At our God-realisation-destination.
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God for God’s sake —This is, indeed,
The only perfect choice
In a seeker’s life.
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An eagerness-God-serverGets more and more work
From God’s proud Heart.
47
My desire-fulfilment-hungerHas finally surrendered
To my God-needs.
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I must focus onlyOn my destination,
And not on my mind-hesitation.
49
God deliberately ignoresOur curiosity-mind-questions.
506
We have no ideaWhen the time will arrive.
Time keeps it a top secret.
APR 2684. These prayers were given in Sanya, China — 4 December 2004.↩
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Every seeker has the capacityTo be tall, very tall,
In inner height.
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God does not want to rememberThe names
Of proud seekers.
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God says to a humble seeker,“My child,
I want you to use
My own Name.”
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The foundation of realisationIs unconditional surrender
To God’s Will.
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Those who sincerely prayWill never want to be
On their own.
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I came into the worldTo pull Heaven down quickly
And push earth up very carefully.
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Every morning I meet and greetGod’s Compassion-Eye
Most soulfully.
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Do not waitFor a new year.
Here and now
Make a fresh start
To realise God.
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The heartOf a true disciple
Is always original.
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I do not care forThe name of a seeker,
But I do care for
The God-loving and God-caring soul.
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It is the hard-earned progressThat endures.
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To be independentOf God’s Will
Is an absurdity.
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At timesGod’s Silence
Is the very best answer.
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May my life be fedBy my heart’s
Sunrise-beauty.
APR 2698. These prayers were given in Sanya, China — 5 December 2004.↩
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The most effective medicineHere on earth
Is love unconditional.
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Those who live in the desire-forestWill not be allowed to live
In God’s Heart-Nest.
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The outer booksCannot cure the world.
The inner book can.
What is the inner book?
Our faith in God and in ourselves.
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God chose meTo be a lamb, His lamb,
In the inner world.
Now God is preparing me
To be a lion, His lion,
In the outer world.
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God wants from meAn action-answer
And not a speech-answer.
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Adversity can beA unique education-helper.
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Do not curse the darkness-night.Try to live always
In the Heart of Light.
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Not when I die,But when I dive deep within,
Will I arrive at God’s Heart-Door.
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My Lord,To my heart
You are the Lord of Compassion.
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My Lord,To my mind
You are the Lord of Indifference.
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My Lord,To my eyes
You are the Lord
Of ever-transcending Beauty.
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My Lord,To my life
You are the Lord
Of ever-self-giving Duty.
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My Lord,I worship the Beauty unparalleled
Of Your Eye.
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My Lord,I worship the Fragrance exquisite
Of Your Heart.
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First dream and dreamAnd then act and act,
Ceaselessly and unconditionally.
Editor's note
Sri Chinmoy offered the following prayers during his visit to Sanya, China in November and December 2004.
