1. I butchered your ignorance

When I thought I was the doer
Of all my deeds,
I turned to mist.
I died.
I became the emperor of giant failures.
My soul came to the fore,
Consoled my visionless ignorance.
God made His Appearance supreme.
“You fool, be not wedded to impossibility’s lifeless beauty.
I waste not a leaf.
I butchered your ignorance wild for you
To equal My Transcendental Throne.”

2. She was the supreme Authority

She was a woman of exquisite beauty.
Her career she started
As the Queen of the universe.
She was the supreme Authority
On human failure
And
Perfection divine.

3. When I say

When I say,
“God is powerful,”
The world is ready to endorse my view.

When I say,
“God is considerate,”
The world hesitates to endorse my view.

When I say,
“God is impartial,”
The world endeavours to negate my view.

When I say,
“God is merciful,”
The world devours my view.

4. When I insulted

I insulted God.
In return
He infused wisdom-light
Into my eyeless mind.

I insulted the world.
In return
The world landed death-blows on me.

I insulted my inner strength.
In return
It compelled my fall:
A clean-cut forest tree.

5. The result of world-acceptance

He was a stalwart spiritual figure.
Above blemish he always was.
He loved the world deeply and unconditionally.
No response.
He dispatched his frustrated
Failure to the other world.
He fought and fought
Against his own solid realisation
Until he passed
Behind
The curtain of eternity.
The realisation read:
“In your world-acceptance
You fostered in your life-breath
A venom-snake.”

6. In the grand old days

In the grand old days
My thought was my life’s sole pole-star.
My mouth and my heart,
In forms they were two
But
In spirit they were one.
I saw God, my All.
He embraced me.
He needed my love.
I demanded His Love.
His Love nullified all my
Vainglorious power in a twinkling.
My love developed into
A hushed silence.
In that silence grew a seething
Amazement:
My death in God’s Immortality
And
God’s Immortality in my death
Bloomed in excellence supreme.

7. Pretence no more

I live in a zone of silence
To decipher my hostile past.
No, my life is not
A speck of dust
Flawed and doomed to nothingness.
Useless words I pronounced.
Therefore suicide I committed
Time and again.
In my life from now on
Only
The essential is permissible.
No more shall I pretend to be
What I am not:
IGNORANCE.

8. Desire-Sun, Aspiration-Moon

Desire-Sun makes me tremble.
Aspiration-Moon makes me dream.
O Desire-Sun, in you
I have my silent death.
O Aspiration-Moon, with you
I have my endless Life.

9. At last I shall listen

My past is heavy with
The lifeless
Meaning.
A frightened thought
My fast-approaching future
Is.
I have the body and soul
Of hope completely in my
Thoughts.
I shout at the top of my lungs.
My soul embodies the weight of
Despair.
At last I am now learning the art of listening
To God’s
Voice.
“Son, in your soulful silence is
My fruitful message,
My All.”

10. I cry and smile

I grant my seconds
No respite.
Always in tornado-motion,
Always.
My heart’s Cry, my soul’s
Smile
Are my birthless teachings
Endless.
They shall cover the world,
They shall.
I foresaw the thirst and hunger of the
World.
And here I bring the remedy:
Nectar-flood.
I cry with man
And
Smile with God.

11. In the core of Silence

Yes, I was deported
To a distant
Land uncharted
By the eyeless hunger of ignorance-sea.
A wait-and-see attitude
Failed
To breathe within my
Reality’s throes.
Burning with impatience-noon
My dauntless vital horse
Freed me from the sea
Of ignorance unplumbed.
And now, here I remain,
Here
In the snow-capped core of
Silence,
Alone, all alone, unchallenged,
Triumphant,
Eternity’s pride, Lord eternal
Supreme.

12. A symbol of promise

Every life is a rich
Storehouse
Of experience.
I dare declare:
We live not,
NOT
In an epoch of
Chaotic decay.
I plumb the depths
Of light
At each hush-gap.

Every life
Is a symbol of
Promise,
Streaming forth from a realm
Where
No one is a stranger, unwanted
None,
Where Love blossoms for the One
And Truth for the many.

13. The Truth-Emperor of Love

Soon
My earth-pilgrimage shall
End.
Today, today I shall
Arouse
With my clarion call
All
The slumbering universal
Eyes.
I saw the light of
Day
With a world-message:
“Each
Man is the Truth-Emperor of
Love.”

14. Children of the Himalayan caves

The Master said in public:
“My hope and my faith
Are centred in my young disciples.”
The old disciples groaned:
“Master, good-bye.
We are leaving you for good.”
The Master then said:
“My real disciples are those
Who have denied themselves.”
The young disciples roared:
“Master, we are leaving you, immediately.
We have done so much for you.
Your shameless ungratefulness
Deserves us not.”
Who remained?
Only children, Children of the Himalayan caves
For the Transcendental Palace.

15. I am happy

I am happy
Because
My mind has forgotten how to
Calculate.
I am happy
Because
My heart has forgotten how to
Hesitate.
I am happy
Because
My life always knows how to
Tolerate.

16. How I deal with God

I steeled my nerves to brave God.
I strengthened my will to capture God.
I stilled my mind to welcome God.
I emptied my heart to treasure God.

17. Hide-and-seek

Every minute inspires me
To attempt.
Every hour perfects me
To ascend.
Every day illumines me
To reach.
In my attempt,
I have come to learn what I can be.
In my ascension,
I have come to learn who I eternally Am.
On my arrival,
God and I shall stop playing our age-long
Game,
Hide-and-Seek.

18. The story of my common sense

When my common sense
Was fast asleep,
I lived in the animal kingdom.
I felt and filled my hungry abyss.
When I surrendered
My common sense to my Inner Pilot,
Peace-sea, sun-world, love-Heaven
At long last
Discovered their permanence
In my God-hunger supreme.

19. Magnificent disaster

All my youthful hopes of blazing noon
Are smashed by calamity’s giant strokes.
No ray of life to sustain my inner faith.
Grim necessity dare not command me
To sustain my outer belief.
I loved the throes of the human world.
Indeed, a fatal love!
My reward is a magnificent disaster
Of a universal tornado-character.

20. In my heart-dawn and soul-sun

I loved my life’s morning walks.
Hope-beauty led my eyes and guided my steps.
I love my life’s midday runs.
Reality’s naked life
Has sent uncertainty into destruction-exile.
I shall love my life’s evening stumblings.
Life divine shall embrace the abyss of science.
Evening does not mark the end.
Evening is the precursor of a purer
Dawn and a brighter sun.
In my Heart-Dawn, my preparation shall begin.
In my Soul-Sun, my perfection shall bloom.

21. Each thought

A vivacious infant,
Each thought
In the vital world.

A helpless orphan,
Each thought
In the physical world.

A doubting youth,
Each thought
In the mental world.

A growing God,
Each thought
In the psychic world.

22. Visions of the emerald Beyond

No more am I the foolish customer
Of a dry, sterile, intellectual breeze.
I shall buy only
The weaving visions of the emerald Beyond.
My heart-tapestry
Shall capture the Himalayan Smiles
Of my Pilot Supreme.
In the burial of my sunken mind
Is the revival of my climbing heart.
In the burial of my deceased mind
Is the festival of my all-embracing life.

23. Where is it?

Heaven cries out: “Where is it?”
Earth cries out: “Where is it?”
God cries out: “Where is it?”
Man smiles and asks: “What is it?”
God, earth and Heaven cry:
“Gratitude, your gratitude.”
Man says: “O earth, your choice deserves it not.
O Heaven, Your voice retains it not.
O God, Your Forgiveness needs it not.
Never.”

24. Frustration-night dethroned

Man’s untiring groans of
Sharp accusation
Pierce the compassion-canopy
Of Heaven’s life.
Heaven says:
“Man, what can I do?
Yours are the talents that jump and run
Below the lowest standard of recommendation
At every place, always.
Break asunder your eternity’s lifeless isolation.
Lose your existence in the many and become One.
Your tenebrous frustration-night
Shall be dethroned by the ocean-deep delight
Of Victory’s Crown.”

25. In my hermit heart

In my hermit heart
I dread noise and love silence.
I have wrestled with heavy doubts
And now I wear victory’s crown.
The length of my aspiring life
Is increasing fast, very fast.
The length of my desiring life
Is becoming slender, very slender.
Soon it will perish in the abyss
Of lifeless nothingness.
In my hermit heart
God’s Compassion is invoked by me to sing,
God’s Love is invited by me to play.
My heart of gratitude,
My life of surrender
Will watch them sing and play.

26. Vision-skies

The body
Loves to be swayed by the wind of emotion.
The vital
Loves the prickings of desire.
The mind
Loves the confines of the finite.
The heart
Loves to be in the galaxy of saints.
The soul
Loves the life of unhorizoned vision-skies.

27. Destruction-tree

I insulted
Danger, disaster and destruction
Bitterly.
They answered
Me with a shower of arrows
Immediately.
I saw
Into the hollowness of their wild
Schemes.
I shall
Uproot danger-disaster-destruction
Trees
With the easy
Ease of removing seedlings.

28. The Kingdom of self-delusion

It took me a long time
To settle up all my accounts
With hope.
Hope-flames gave birth
To the body of immortal
Frustration-chaos in me.
O hope!
Before you were born,
I ruled the Kingdom of dust and stone.
And now with you,
I rule the Kingdom of self-delusion.
I am the King, the present saviour,
Without
The presence of certainty’s smile.

29. I long to be one

I long to be one
With the Dust of Your Feet.
I long to be one
With the Smile of Your Eyes.
I long to be one
With the Love of Your Heart.
I long to be one
With the Oars of Your Boat.
I long to be one
With the Glow of Your Promise.
I long to be one
With the Flow of Your Life.
I long to be one
With the Victory of Your Banner.

30. My God-becoming

His Compassion is
The cure of my body.
His Vision is
The cure of my soul.
My life owes
To His creative Will within me.
My earthly role owes
To His ceaseless sun-vast Smiles.
My Heavenly goal will owe
To Him for my permanent God-becoming.

31. When the gods came to me

When the infernal gods came to me,
They brought with them their fatal love.
When the oriental gods came to me,
They brought with them their soaring love.
When the occidental gods came to me,
They brought with them their glowing love.
When the supernal gods came to me,
They brought with them my long-lost forgotten self.

32. O failure's broken wings

O resplendent Sun,
Your core, my only haven.
O unceasing sigh,
My breath, your only haven.
O Victory’s golden wings,
Do carry me into the skies of nectar-love.
O failure’s broken wings,
In me you have your perfect solace.

33. Bubbles of human philosophy

My mother’s ageless grace
Waves in my heart’s starry skies.
My father’s ageless face
Smiles inside the bubbles
Of my human philosophy.

34. I love

I love the music of silence.
I love the breath of rottenness.
I love the bliss of angels.
I love the body of chaos.

O silence, you are my all.
O rottenness, you need
My constant attention.
O angels, my soaring
Hope shakes hands with
Your glowing smiles.
O chaos, you prove to the
World at large
The boundless power
Of my endless patience.

35. When I love

When I love the steps of my thoughts,
My life becomes a series of calamities.
When I love the flights of my will,
My life becomes a series of daring visions.
When I love the boat of my life,
My life becomes the divine compeer
Of perfection’s heights.

36. Hope-boat and life-boat

My hope-boat is plying
Between uncertainty and frustration.
My thought-boat is plying
Between disaster and destruction.
My will-boat is plying
Between silence and sound.
My life-boat is plying
Between beauty’s Shore and duty’s Goal.

37. My disappointment and my God-appointment

No more shall I speak
In self-defence.
My disappointment in the world
Is hastening my God-appointment.
Broken are my teeming earthly bonds.
Illumined is my climbing Heavenly heart.

38. Great is he, great is she, great is God

He is great.
He negates his train of passion
By voluntarily enjoying it.

She is great.
She negates her stream of insecurity
By voluntarily cherishing it.

God is great.
His Compassion forgives man and woman.
God is great.
His Love hides them soulfully.
God is great.
His Light liberates them unconditionally.

39. The collector

Man’s mind is an eager searcher of space.
Man’s heart is a torch-bearer of God’s Grace.
Man’s soul is the transformer of human contempt into divine praise.
Man’s God-life is the collector of the broken ones, the forsaken and forlorn.

40. My mind's sunset and my heart's sunrise

O my mind’s sunset,
Behold, my heart’s sunrise.

O my heart’s sunrise,
You are travelling towards Light.
Light shall unveil
Your Beloved, The Beloved.

O my mind’s sunset,
Your vision has totally failed.
Wonder and wander no more,
Homeless
And
Godless
And
Lifeless.

41. I need

The human in me
Needs Crucifixion-night.

The Divine in me
Needs Ascension-day.

The Immortal in me
Needs Perfection-noon.

And whom do I need?

I need God.
I need Ishwara.
I need Adonai.
I need Lord.
I need Ahurmazda.
I need Allah.
I need Amitabha.

Many more, all, all
Inside the boundless Net
of the Absolute Supreme.

42. I do the impossible, how?

I have decided what I want.
I shall listen to the voice within.
I believe
It is all-loving, all-fulfilling.
I know
It is all-loving, all-fulfilling.
And it is exactly so.
My belief is my power.
My knowledge is my power.
I do the impossible because
My life of constant surrender
To the Will of the Supreme
Has taught me how.

43. My relationship with books

I don’t read a book.
I study it!
I don’t study a book.
I love it!
I don’t love a book.
I just become it!
I know there is only one book:
God’s Reality.
I know there is only one reader:
God’s Vision.
I know there is only one enjoyer:
God the eternal Child.

44. Another beggar

There is something.
What is it?
Realisation?
I had it.

There is something.
What is it?
Revelation?
I am achieving it.

There is something.
What is it?
Manifestation?
I don’t have it.
I need it.

Like me,
Another beggar needs it.
Who is He?

He, the Father of the Big Heart.
He, the Son of the Big Eye.

45. Two smiles

O height of understanding,
I want you not.
O height of becoming,
I want you.
O height of oneness,
I am you.
In me you see the smile of
Here.
In you I see the smile of
Now.
Here eventually becomes.
Now eternally is.

46. To see the face of joy

To see the face of joy
He went along with the world.
No joy.

To see the face of joy
He adapted himself to wishes of others.
No joy.

To see the face of joy
He allowed others to out-talk him.
No joy.

To see the face of joy
He fasted for two long weeks.
No joy.

To see the face of joy
He denied himself even an iota of human love.
No joy.

To see the face of joy
He entered into the zone of silence.
No joy.

Finally a little bird whispered:
“Joy on earth no longer is.
Prepare yourself for the world Beyond
Where joy is married to Eternity’s Life.”

47. The miracle maker

His is the life of a miracle-maker.
He started with himself.
Himself he loved.
Himself he caught.
Himself he taught.

He has started teaching.
Nobody passes through him unchanged.
His life is a constant movement upward and inward.
Doctrine he has none.

His Heavenly beauty and God
Live under the same roof.
His earthly duty and God
Live in the same room.

48. In His shadow

I wish to live in His shadow.
Why?
Because His heart of deeds
Gets priority
Over His mind of thoughts.

I wish to live in His shadow.
Why?
Because His one single smile
Is fraught with more meaning
Than
All the sermons of the world collected together.

I wish to live in His shadow.
Why?
Because His Silence is the Source
Of my countless freedom-deeds.

49. She

To think of Her
Is to become a chosen instrument of God.

To meditate on Her
Is to reach the heights of Paradise unchallenged.

To see Her
Is to sit on Infinity’s Transcendental Throne.

To feel Her
Is to become Immortality’s Bliss.

50. The date of his birth is controversial

The date of his birth is controversial.
The soul of the earth says:
“He was born on August 27, 1931.”

The heart of the earth says:
“He was born on August 30, 1931.”

The vital of the earth says:
“He was born on August 27, 1936.”

The mind of the earth says:
“He was born on August 27, 1938.”

The body of the earth says:
“He was born on August 27, 1950.”

God says:
“He was born twice:
Once before the beginning of Life
in the Heart of Silence,
Once after the end of Death
in the Head of Sound.”