The Golden Boat, part 20

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1. What do I do?

What do I do?
I meditate.
On whom?
On God.
For whom?
For God.

And what do I do
In my spare time?
I write love-letters to God.
I compose love-songs for God.

2. I can wait for Him

I know that
My Lord Supreme
Will come at His choice Hour.
I know that everything in me
Will reach Perfection's height.
Devotedly I can wait for Him.
I certainly can.

3. Thinking, planning, doing

Father Supreme,
You know what I am thinking,
You know what I am planning,
You know what I shall be doing.

In case You do not know,
Let me tell You:
I am thinking of loving You more.
I am planning to serve You more.
I shall be doing everything for You
Unconditionally.
Beloved Supreme, I sincerely mean it.

4. I am happy

My sweet Lord,
I am happy
Because
I am always in Your world.
I am happier
Because
You are always in charge of my life.
I am happiest
Because
I need You only.

5. The beauty of Eastern light

Why did he leave his church?
He left his church
Not because it was unaspiring.

Why did he leave his priest?
He left his priest
Not because he was uninspiring.

He left his church,
He left his priest,
Because he needs his life's
Total and immediate transformation.
And for that what he needs
Is the beauty of Eastern light.

6. Oneness-heart

Doubt, I am sorry,
I have already told you
That I shall go with somebody else.
I may, however, do you a last favour.
You want to know who he is?
He is my very old, forgotten friend
And your eternal enemy:
Oneness-heart.

7. Earth and Heaven, what is happening?

Earth, what is happening?
Why are you so sad?
You mean you do not know
That God needs you?
I tell you, He definitely needs you.
For God's sake, do not treasure
False thought-world.

Heaven, what is happening?
Why are you dancing?
You mean God always needs you?
Don't be a fool.
God can perfectly live without you.
I warn you,
He certainly can.

8. Supreme reliance

Yesterday
I was super-confident
Of my success-life.

Today
I am confident
Of my progress-life.

Tomorrow
I shall rely only on God's
Unconditional Compassion-Life.

9. You are more than beautiful

O my surrender-light,
All the divine qualities
Are beautiful,
But you are more than beautiful;
You are fruitful.

Love I need
To see the Face of God.
Devotion I need
To feel within my heart
The Presence of God.
But
You I need
To please God constantly,
To fulfil God unconditionally.

10. In common

Earth, I need you,
Although
We do not have anything
In common.

Heaven, I love you,
Although
We do not have anything
In common.

God, I need you,
I love You
Since
You and I have many things
In common.

Alas, where are You?
And where am I?

11. God is charmed by me

Alas, why did I fall
In love with ignorance-night?
I should have known long before
What it was really like.

Now God is unmistakably
Charmed by me.
Alas, will I be able to give Him
All my attention
And
Pay Him His absolute due?

I hope it is not too late —
Alas, alas!

12. Earth-promise and Heaven-indulgence

When
You are on earth,
Be pure in your heart,
Be sure of your life.

When
You are in Heaven,
Be sincere to your earth-promise,
Be careful of your Heaven-indulgence.

13. My presence and Your Presence

Lord Supreme, the difference
Between
My presence in You
And
Your Presence in me
Is this:
My presence helps You
To relax and rest.
Your Presence makes me
Feel safe and secure.

14. What is worth becoming?

Lord Supreme, what is worth loving?
"Son, oneness-beauty."

Lord Supreme, what is worth doing?
"Son, satisfaction-duty."

Lord Supreme, what is worth becoming?
"Son, perfection-reality."

15. Alas, why do I overestimate?

Alas, why do I overestimate
The power of my ignorance-life?
No matter how long I swim
In the sea of ignorance-night
My Beloved Supreme shall love me
And give me another chance
For His tomorrow's Life
In me to blossom.

16. God denied me

I was inattentive;
Therefore
God denied me His Message.

I was selfish;
Therefore
God denied me His Smile.

I was impure;
Therefore
God denied me His Dream.

17. Do give me another chance

My Lord, there are things
I would like to do infinitely better.
Do give me another chance.

My Lord, there are human beings
I would try to love infinitely more.
Do give me another chance.

My Lord, there are many promises of mine
Remaining unfulfilled.
Do give me another chance.
Although I do not deserve it,
Do give me another chance, my Lord Supreme.

18. How can I be jealous?

Your experiences have enriched me, my heart.
How can I be jealous of you?

His realisation has enriched me, my soul.
How can I be jealous of him?

Earth's sacrifice has enriched me, my aspiration-cry.
How can I be jealous of earth?

Heaven's concern has enriched me, my confidence-life.
How can I be jealous of Heaven?

19. I am grateful

My Lord, I am grateful to Your Perfection-Eye,
For it knew me
Long before I knew myself.

My Lord, I am grateful to Your Compassion-Feet,
For they will continue to know me
Long after I have totally forgotten myself.

20. God likes me

God likes me
Because
I do not find excuses
In my ignorance.

God loves me
Because
I never put
My own concerns first.

God embraces me
Because
I never defy
My conscience-sparks.

21. I am grateful to God

In the physical world
I am grateful to God
Because
He has forgiven me
And
My over-indulgence.

In the vital world
I am grateful to God
Because
He has forgiven me
And
My over-confidence.

In the mental world
I am grateful to God
Because
He has forgiven me
And
My self-absorption.

22. I never want to forget

I never want to forget
How ruthlessly I have ignored God.

I never want to forget
How compassionately God has forgiven me,
My darkness-pride
And
My ignorance-night.

23. Time goes so fast

Time goes so fast!
I simply can't believe my eyes.
Just yesterday I had breakfast with God
In Heaven.
Today I am having luncheon with the prince
of gloom
On earth.
Tomorrow I shall have dinner with death
In death's private chamber.

24. A small favour

Lord, You have not chosen me
To play in Your Dream.
Now can You do me a small favour?
Can You not make of me a good sportsman?
Can You not give me the strength
To face the disappointment-night
Like a hero-warrior?
Lord, I am sure You can
And You will.

25. I like being what I am

Earth, I like being what I am:
Heaven's descending smile.

Heaven, I like being what I am:
Earth's ascending cry.

God, I like being what I am:
Your Eternity's Dream-Boat
And
Your Immortality's Reality-Shore.

26. My sincerity speaks

I have enjoyed every minute
Of my stay on earth,
But I do not want
To come back to earth.
You may wonder why.
My sincerity speaks:
Earth-life is too risky.
It is only for the brave.

I have enjoyed every minute
Of my stay in Heaven,
But I do not want
To come back to Heaven.
You may wonder why.
My sincerity speaks:
Heaven-life is quite colourless.
It is only for the dull.

27. Nobody cares

Earth, you do not care
If I ruin my life
By serving you.

Heaven, you do not care
If I ruin my life
By dreaming of you.

Who cares for me?
Nobody.
And what do I do?
I just don't care.

28. Something special

I am sure
Earth sees something special in me.
What is it?
Perhaps my soul's God-promise.

I am sure
Heaven feels something special in me.
What is it?
Perhaps my heart's surrender-satisfaction.

29. I do not hide from You

Lord, I do not hide my weakness from You
Because
Your Compassion-Sea
Is my only strength.

Lord, I do not hide my thoughts from You
Because
Your Illumination-Sun
Is my only salvation.

30. Your offering to the world

Your mind offers its unreserved respect
To the world-mind;
Therefore
Your mind is unmistakably great.

Your heart offers its unalloyed concern
To the world-heart;
Therefore
Your heart is divinely good.

Your life offers its unconditional love
To the world-life;
Therefore
Your life is supremely perfect.

31. Two serious problems

I have two serious problems —
One on earth
And
One in Heaven.

On earth I love myself
Infinitely more than I love God.

In Heaven
I do not value God
Supremely and constantly.

32. God wants me to be perfect

Earth wants me to grow up.
Heaven wants me to glow
Within, without.
God wants me to be perfect
In the heart of silence
And
In the body of sound.

33. Christian life

Christian life, as he knew it then,
Was pure but not sure.

Christian life, as he knows it now,
Is sure but not pure.

34. Give them something

Sister-earth is at your door.
Give her something;
Give her at least your love.

Brother-Heaven is at your door.
Give him something;
Give him at least your concern.

Father-God is at your door.
Give Him something;
Give Him at least your gratitude.

35. You are knocking at a wrong door

I don't allow you
To impose your mind's futility
Upon my devoted head;
Therefore,
In your eyes, I am bad.

I don't allow him
To impose his heart's insecurity
Upon my aspiring heart;
Therefore,
In his eyes, I am bad.

I am sorry.
You both are knocking
At a wrong door.

36. I have found one thing

Heaven, do you really want to know
What I have found on earth?
I have found only one thing:
Necessity's cry.

Earth, do you really want to know
What I have found in Heaven?
I have found only one thing:
Promise-light.

37. He is watching me

He is watching me.
If only I could feel
What is inside his heart.
Perhaps his compassion-sea.

He is watching me.
If only I could read
What is inside his eyes.
Perhaps my liberation-sky.

38. Use your weapons

Use your humour-weapon.
Earth will be afraid of you.
You will be able to stay on earth
At least ten more years.

Use your perfection-weapon.
Heaven will adore you.
Heaven will immediately
Welcome you.

39. A little hope

You are deliberately vain.
Who needs you?

He is insanely vain.
Who needs him?

I am unconsciously vain,
Therefore
I have a little hope,
But not much.

40. After all, you are not another God

Don't be so unthinkably impatient.
After all, you are not the wind.

Don't pretend to be supremely calm.
After all, you are not another God.

41. Nobody needs me

True, you are Heaven's representative
On earth.
But alas, I am not sure
Of your compassion-light.

True, he is earth's representative
In Heaven.
But alas, I am not sure
Of his sacrifice-height.

Poor me,
Heaven does not want me, my ignorance.
Earth does not need me, my indolence.

42. What am I today?

I don't have to go very far
To see the mouth of hell.
Yesterday I was nothing but that.

I don't have to go very far
To feel the heart of Heaven.
Tomorrow I shall be nothing but that.

And what am I today?
Frustration-killer
And
Hope-builder.

43. Love is perfection-life

Fear is separation-life.
Doubt is destruction-life.
Faith is satisfaction-life.
Love is perfection-life.

44. Oneness is always good

Toleration by earth-necessity
Is never good.

Surrender by Heaven-pressure
Is never good.

Oneness for God-satisfaction
Is always good,
Supremely good.

45. Let me face world-problems

Let me face
All world-problems.
After all, they are all
Temporary.

Let me not be over-eager
To receive Heaven-Delight.
After all, it will eventually come
And
Once I receive it
I will drink it
Eternally.

46. At long last

My sweet Lord, at long last
Today I am thinking less of myself
And more of You.

My sweet Lord, at long last
Today I am loving myself less
And loving You more.

My sweet Lord, at long last
Today I have realised
That I am not only of Your Realisation-Seed
But also for Your Manifestation-Tree.

47. A real fool

I was a real fool
To come to earth.
Neither earth nor I need each other.

I am a real fool
To go back to Heaven.
Heaven will plead with me
To return to earth.
What for?
To sow the seeds of
Earth-perfection
And
God-satisfaction.

48. A sincere "Yes"

I should not have stayed
Those extra ten years on earth.
Now I have to pay a heavy duty
In Heaven
For my prolonged, unnecessary stay
On earth.

God, do tell me:
Have You ever created
A greater fool
Than this blind creation of Yours?

God, why are You so silent?
Let me then take Your silence
As a supremely sincere
"Yes".

49. God-realisation

In your case
God-realisation is a mere desire.

In his case
God-realisation is a mere dream.

In my case
God-realisation is more than a living reality;
It only is.

50. You alone

Yours is the God
Of perpetual illumination.

Yours is the soul
Of perpetual meditation.

Yours is the heart
Of perpetual aspiration.

Yours is the life
Of perpetual dedication.

Therefore
You alone I love;
You alone I need.