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Each time she had occasion to see the Master, her soul would come to the fore and she cried most devotedly and soulfully. Sometimes it was sincere; sometimes, unfortunately, it was not sincere. This went on, and one of her friends, who did not appreciate this kind of emotional scene, always used to criticise her. Finally, she saw that such outbursts were not doing any good. Outwardly she said she had to leave the country; therefore, she would not be able to follow the Master’s path. Inwardly she felt that it was impossible for her to get anything significant from the Master even though she cried so bitterly for the Master to recognise her as one of his most ardent disciples.